29. Shaiza’s Spear
29. Shaiza’s Spear
ㅡ”Master, do you know what I am called in the world?”
He said he was creating a new drug, and he had asked Shaiza, who was engrossed in experiments, to ask. How many times the drug exploded before I came, the smell of burnt air in her workshop, and Shayza’s hair was scorched and frizzy.
Seeing Shaiza’s condition like that, she realized that she had made a mistake. Since her experiment was ruined, her mood in Shaiza must have been down. But contrary to my expectations, Shaiza smiles as if she is happy in the world. She had a benevolent smile as always.
ㅡ “Zakat. My child.”
At Shai Ja’s call, I knelt down with her and bowed her head. I was looking down at the ground, but I could tell from the sound of her footsteps that she was standing in front of me.
ㅡ”Raise your head. How could one of the great warriors who commanded the world bow before me?”
ㅡ”Those who became disciples. How can you raise your head in front of Master?”
ㅡ”It’s done. Zakat. I asked if you know what you are called in the world. How can you not know the work of the disciple whom I love? Don’t make me too cold.”
ㅡ”I’m sorry.”
Shaiza bends over and lifts me up. Shaiza, whose face is smeared with black dust, smiles mischievously.
ㅡ”There are more things to be concerned about than the world’s reputation. It is our job.”
ㅡ”You are right.”
ㅡ “mmm, yes. Zakat my child You will have to recognize that we are in grave danger.”
At the word serious danger, cold sweat began to flow. What kind of danger would upset my master? I gripped the spear at the thought of not being able to forgive.
ㅡ”The food has run out.”
ㅡ”… Yes?”
ㅡ “I am hungry. Zakat. I don’t know if you know that the breakfast you ate was actually my share.”
She felt that her five internal organs were twisted at Shai Ja’s words. Come to think of it, my teacher skipped meals today. Because I failed the hunt. Tears well up in my eyes from shame. He had no face. If there is even a mouse hole, I feel like I want to go in.
I gripped the spear at that thought. Punch a hole in the wall, bang your head and reflect. Because that’s what I thought. Shaiza smiles brightly at me.
ㅡ “Zakat. You always have a good reaction, so you have a taste for teasing.”
ㅡ”It is an honor.”
ㅡ”Would you like to go hunting with me after a long time?”
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ㅡ “This is the honor of the family.”
Me and Shaiza took our bows and stirred up the land of monsters. To find something to eat Shaiza was excellent in every way. Magic is magic, spear is spear, sword is sword. The skill with the bow was also excellent.
I don’t know exactly how old Shaiza is, but I’ve heard that she’s lived for 200 years. Perhaps the reason why Shaiza is outstanding in all aspects is because of the experience that comes from her age.
Shiza herself says she is 27 this year, but I know the truth. He’s 27 doesn’t make sense, he’s known me for over 20 years in the first place.
The problem is, even though I hunted with such a talented person, I didn’t get much of a harvest for a long time.
There were as many monsters as rolling stones, but the creatures we could eat were extremely rare. The reason I came to the land of demons is because of me. Shaiza came to the land of monsters for research in order to release the curse hanging over our clan.
It has already been 3 years since I made my home on this land. Every day was a struggle for survival. The air is so deficient that even a short run makes it difficult to breathe. Every two days, it rains mixed with demons, and if you are bored, it is a very poor land where grilling attacks.
Even in a land like this, there was no lack of happiness. My happiness is the existence of Shaiza. If only I could be with Shaiza. If only she could protect her, she wouldn’t mind going through her hell more than this. Shaiza’s happiness is my happiness, isn’t Shaiza my light?
Wherever Shaiza goes, he will follow. That’s right, I’m the . Even if her world collapses, she will only look at Shai Ja, and she has sworn to protect only her.
She is immersed in her research to save my clan, but even if she fails, she will not resent me. What can’t be, what can’t be. With that level of work, I didn’t want Shaiza, who was confined to her studio, to ruin her self.
ㅡ”What are you talking about? I am Shayza Don’t you still see that there’s nothing I can’t do?”
ㅡ “I’m sorry.”
ㅡ”It’s done. Ignored even by my beloved disciple. I don’t know what to live for now.”
Her family’s business is fine, so if you beg Shayza to live her own life now, she says so, puffing her cheeks and bobbing her head. If Shaiza gets angry, it lasts for a long time. There are times when he gets revenge if he is seriously upset.
I turn the gloves I wear inside out. I intentionally put a lot of mushrooms in my stew. If you are taking a bath, you are standing at the window and staring at it. Even so, when the mood was relieved, he often made a delicacy and apologized, saying that he had been too harsh so far.
I am a body that should have died a long time ago. It was none other than Shayza who gave me the strength to live and the direction of my life. I don’t want her to abuse her own body because of me. Even now, even if she says that she wants to get out of this land of monsters and settle down in her countryside where the air is moderate, and live comfortably, I don’t resent her.
I’m just. As long as Shaiza was alive, that was enough for her. Isn’t that my happiness and the reason to live? Yes, it certainly was.
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He was seriously injured. I will die soon Since several years ago, Shaiza was suffering from her experimentation and was ruining her body, so I tried everything to make her stop her experimentation.
Even though she used all her methods to dissuade her, her Shaiza did not stop. Losing sight in one eye as a side effect of her experiments did not stop her. Even that day, she was at a time when she was contemplating how she could convince Shaiza.
ㅡ『Zakat. Shaiza’s spear. Wait a minute, you don’t have to be so vigilant. I just came here to help you.”
She was possessed by a demon who was hostile to Shaiza. Slowly. But sure. At the devil’s whisper, she had her body stolen by the devil after a year. My spear to protect Shaiza was directed at her neck.
I almost killed Shaiza with my own hands. He did something that would not be cool even if he died right away. I did, but Shaiza puts her hand on my chest, uses her healing magic, and keeps her sobbing. She nodded her head to express her gratitude to Arisha and Melgard, who were looking at me and Shaiza with her sad eyes.
If they hadn’t stopped me, I would have put out my light with my own hands. I’m hopeless. The sin of pointing a spear at my light will not be able to repay even in death. That’s why, in order not to increase the sin even more. I had one last thing to say before I die.
Shaiza forgot about me, about my clan. She wanted her to stop experimenting and get on with her life. I didn’t want to sacrifice myself for me anymore and not abuse my body.
I squeezed out the last bit of strength and opened my mouth.
ㅡ “Sha, Shaiza… Master.”
ㅡ “Zakat! Do not say! Don’t tell me! I. I will do something for you.”
He smiled a little at Shaiza, who was crying. Now is the time to lift Shaiza’s curse. The curse of the name Zakat. Her so she can live her own life. To be happy. He must release her from her bondage.
ㅡ『Hee hee hee』
At that time, the demon’s laughter, which should have disappeared with Melgard’s sword, was heard. Then, again, her bodily freedom is taken away. Then, after a while, your mouth will open naturally. No way? Wouldn’t it?
ㅡ”Sha, Master Shayza. Please.”
No. Stop. Please don’t do it because I’m begging you!
ㅡ”Please… my clan… Please save me.”
With these words, Shaiza’s fate was decided. Even as Shaiza shed her tears, she smiled to reassure me. And then she nods her head. I struggled. I had to correct it by now. But.
ㅡ『hahahaha!』
After the eerie devil’s laughter, the world went dark. I can’t hear or feel anything. In that state, I was just floating in the air. However, at some point, little by little, something starts to feel.
This feeling was despair. And it didn’t take long to figure out who the despair was coming from. It was the despair that came from Shaiza, my teacher and light.
I wanted to run away from this awkward despair, but I couldn’t.
I lived by eating that despair. At first it was frantic. Because I know that Shaiza is expressing her despair in order to keep my will. But I couldn’t struggle.
Shaiza’s despair. Accumulates in my body My incompetence that resulted from it. And my regrets mix with despair. How many years have passed Shaiza’s despair was no longer felt. Just nothing It was empty. I knew Shaiza was dead, subconsciously.
She died while venting her despair right before her death. She didn’t live happily until the last moment. But now it didn’t matter anyway. The happy daily life with Shaizawa has long been forgotten. Her despair built up inside me made me forget all her happiness.
At some point, the definition of Shaiza being light and happiness changed from within me to despair and darkness.
One day the devil spoke to me. They see me as a better devil than themselves. I’ve been saying that I didn’t deny Because I was an infallible demon who cursed the person most precious to me.
Because he was an infallible demon who forgot all his memories with that precious being and harbored only hatred.
Time passes. Most of what makes me will be despair. Could be so determined. It was painful. I wanted to erase her existence as Shaiza, who tormented me, from within me. The despair that has lost its place is turning into hatred within me. I could see why the demons hated everything so much.
Hate was the devil.
One day the devil speaks to me. Think about why you can’t reach Buddhahood and suffer as a soul. At first, it reminded me of my incompetence. However, on the day I died, I don’t remember in detail what I thought or what I did. I can only feel Shaiza’s despair shaking inside me for a long time.
Her last conscience prevented her from saying that Shaiza made me do this. I don’t remember the details of her affair with her, but it seemed like she shouldn’t have said that. It felt like something important would break if I let it come out of her mouth. That’s why I couldn’t answer the devil’s words.
ㅡ『Don’t deny it. What made you like that Isn’t it none other than Shaiza? How many times would it have been if Shaiza had listened to you when you asked to stop the experiment?”
Did I ask Shaiza to stop the experiment? Looking back, it seems that it was. Come to think of it, Shaiza refused my request. In order to convince such Shaiza… Yes, because of Shaiza. Because of Shaiza…
—-『If you want to become a Buddha, you have to get rid of the traces of Shaiza inside you. Because you are Shaiza’s despair. I’ll give you a chance.”
Shaiza’s despair. Yes I am Shaiza’s Despair. To end this bondage, I must get rid of the traces of Shayza within me.
ㅡ『In addition. It seems that Shaiza didn’t even keep her promise to you. You are suffering like this, but Shaiza broke the promise casually.”
A promise with me. What did you promise with Shaiza? Yes, she was supposed to save my clan.
ㅡ『Let’s just get comfortable with each other. You and I have too many traces of Shaiza. The result is what caused this pain.”
A trace of Shaiza. What is it? Not sure what that is. What am I supposed to do? Let’s think about the traces of Shaiza. A new kind of despair has been infused into my body. It was dark enough despair, but I felt that it was low-quality despair with someone’s delusion.
It was despair tinged with sadness. Still, I have no idea. When I felt that despair all over my body, I was able to open my eyes once again. And a girl said to me
There is an heir to Shaiza.
“Kahuck, Shah, Shayza… Shaiza’s successor… “
Heir to Shaiza.
Woros Blood.
We need to erase the traces of Shaiza. Is it a coincidence that a person who claims to be Shayza’s successor appeared in front of me in this situation? No, this is an undeniable fate.
In the name of Shaiza. I feel great hatred for the name of her successor, Woros Blood.
“Ouch, aaagh!”
In front of my eyes, I saw the vision of Shaiza. She was smiling brightly at me. I’m in such pain, but she was laughing.
Maybe she can laugh like that by pouring out all of her own despair on me. Selfish.
“Shaizaaa!”
After I summoned him, I grabbed the spear. Then, without hesitation, he pierced the heart of the Shayza illusion. The illusion was smiling brightly even as it was pierced by her spear. Then it turns into a mass of light and disappears. I took a deep breath, used the spear as a walking stick, and stood up.
“Shaiza… I am… “
I am Shaiza’s spear.
“I will erase your despair, which makes up most of me. Then I too will return to nothingness.”
I don’t remember what Shaiza’s spear was for. One thing can be said for sure. My spear is always that her Shai Ja has erased her despair, and she has given her her laughter.
“Whoa… “
Shaiza’s laughter.
Yes, I erased Shaiza’s despair with this spear. As always, I will swing my spear and erase her despair. To do so, we must erase her traces.
“Woros Blood… “
The place where my spear should be directed has already been decided. The first trace of Shaiza to be erased. My spear will pierce the heart of the heir left behind by Shaiza.
Because I am Shaiza’s spear.
As always, I will erase her despair.