35. Realization after loss
35. Realization after loss
Irina was thinking about Woros with her hand on the tree and her head bowed.
After organizing my thoughts, I headed to the old Arisha class building with the thought of killing Woros right away.
The battle must have already taken place, the scene was pretty ruined, but the important thing is to find Woros, so I looked around to find any traces of him.
At that time, I heard a voice from inside the building, so I entered the building without thinking. As I recklessly followed the sound to the 4th floor, I could clearly hear the faint voice.
“Now, don’t play around. Older Woros… Senior!”
I stopped when I heard the voice of Nishia von Orisha, who was calling out to Woros. With the atmosphere as if Woros had gone wrong, my heart started beating.
“What, what happened… “
“… Miss Irina.”
When I entered the principal’s office on the fourth floor, Larisha von Meloyer, who looked like she was going to break at any moment, looked at me and got up from her seat. She suddenly grabs my hand.
“Because Miss Irina is the younger sister of Woros… It can be a shocking story.”
What is shocking?
I glanced at the deactivated portal behind Lelisha’s face.
“Woros… I am isolated beyond the portal.”
What if I become isolated? Shouldn’t we send a search team to find it, or open the portal again? What’s shocking about that?
“In order to stop the strong undead… I guess, it’s hard… I think you have to harden your heart.”
At Larisha’s words, I looked around. Of the people who crashed in front of the old building, all but Layplane Aginis and Remy Micaret were holding their ground.
Denas Yeseul was sitting on the floor crying, and Nishia von Orisha was banging on the portal. In addition, Slop Arogas must have smashed one of his desks with his bare fists, and blood is dripping from his fists, and he is making an angry expression.
How big of a deal is this, the atmosphere like this?
I closed my eyes and organized the situation in my own way. And.
When I came to my senses, I shook off Lerisha’s hand and ran through her hallway. What happened to Woros? Is your brother having a hard time? You mean he’s dead?
After getting out of the building, I sat down and grabbed my chest. The older brother he hated so much was in danger. He might be dead Then shouldn’t he be in a good mood? Isn’t that right?
But why?
Why does my heart hurt so much?
“… Brother”
I will definitely save you. The face of Woros, who smiled and spoke to me warmly even after being stabbed by my sword, came to mind.
Shackles. Yes, the work at that time is a shackle for me. If you hadn’t given me hope that day, I would have been at ease a long time ago. Because my older brother gave me false hope, I have lived a life of suffering.
A person who is not happy even if he is killed. That person might be dead.
“It hurts… “
What is this feeling of loss? Because I can’t kill myself? Of course, it would be nice if I killed him, but I’m cautioning that it doesn’t matter as long as the results are good. It’s a situation that should be refreshing, but it hurts so much. Woros’s face continued to flicker.
Coming to think of it, I’ve lived my whole life watching over my older brother. When he was appointed as the successor and was taken away for field training. When he was appointed as the successor instead of Woros, he was given the mission to kill his brother, and he was trained to the point of death. When I believed in the word that he would save me and waited endlessly for him.
When I entered the academy to find out if he had abandoned me or not saved me. He didn’t save me, but when he declared that he would save his junior. I always, unilaterally wished for Woros.
I felt like I knew it now. I don’t hate Woros. Rather the opposite. Want him Rather than hating it, he might have wanted to go back then. I wanted to go back to when I was a kid, when we would run around the mansion grounds together laughing.
Woros now is fake. The real brother, who played with me when he was young, who declared that he would save me even when stabbed, is the real brother at that time. The current Woros are fake.
That’s why I wanted to kill Woros and set it right. The thing he had been aiming for so far was to kill him in order to understand his brother’s true intentions. The justification that he wanted to prove that he couldn’t save me because he had no power.
Wrong. I don’t want to prove it. It was something I wanted to return. If you don’t like Worros now, just get rid of it, erase it from his head. Then, in my memory, only Woros at that time will remain.
My older brother wanted to save me, but he couldn’t and finally disappeared, becoming my own older brother. To make that right, I should have killed Woros with my own hands. Only then will my brother come back.
My older brother who cared for me. He’s the older brother who promised to save me. It will come back as the death of Woros. However, it has now become impossible.
I noticed in my heart. Even though my brother had power, he didn’t save me.
So he had to die by my hand. Even if he had the power, it doesn’t matter if he didn’t save me. That’s right, from the moment he dies by my hand, it means he didn’t save me because he didn’t have enough strength.
I loved and cherished myself. It’s because I have no choice but to return as a good older brother who couldn’t save me.
After finishing work, I go to the grave where my brother is buried. It will go back to the old days. It should have been, but it died. Not my hand due to other external factors.
“Cowardly… sun”
In the end, I played around with my life. He hated Woros so much that he disappeared without cleaning up. Die by my hand I’ll die at his hands It had to end in one of two ways.
I definitely had to put an end to it. I did, but my brother.
Woros Blood.
As always, he left me alone and disappeared.
*
Riding the portal Shaiza made, I arrived at the infirmary, received treatment, and continued until the next afternoon. I briefly explained the situation to Vice Principal Duralph, who noticed that I was in the infirmary and rushed over.
“No big deal. In the portal, I was left alone with the undead, so I thought it was over. But as the portal stopped, so did the undead.”
There was no need to explain the story of Shaiza and Zakat in detail. Shaizawa, who tried to resurrect a dead disciple. It was clear that if they told the story of Zakat, who was resurrected as an undead and tried to destroy the academy, it would take a huge blow to their honor.
“Well, that’s how it happened. Student Woros, you did a great job.”
“Thank you.”
Afterwards, according to Duralp’s consideration, he said that he would take care of all classes while I fully recover. This means that even if you miss classes, class hours are credited. Hearing that, I went through the discharge process, ignoring the health commissioners’ words that I needed to rest a little longer.
I have a bunch of things to sort out right now, so I can’t waste my time here. Most of all, I decided that Shai Ja’s healing magic was effective, and that his body didn’t hurt, so I thought it would be okay to leave the hospital.
Back at the conservatory, I headed straight to my break room to shower and change. When I entered the break room, I opened my mouth in embarrassment.
“Yes… “
Shaiza, who was said to carry the luggage to the greenhouse. Even after moving her luggage, she changed the interior of my room to see if she had any energy left.
There were a lot of portraits of Shayza on the walls, and books related to ancient magic, alchemy, and sorcery and magic engineering, each at 3000 pages, were piled up like a mountain on the wall. Lastly, a twinkling, zakat window is built over the head of the bed.
I looked at the portrait of Shaiza on the wall and smiled once, then took a bath. Then I changed my clothes and came out of the greenhouse with the alchemy materials I packed yesterday. As planned, I plan to lock myself in Nicia’s workshop and make potions.
“… When the money is saved, I will start by buying a school uniform.”
I said that and brushed off the old practice uniform I was wearing instead of my school uniform with my fingers.
*
Nishia von Orisha used the weekend to visit the Shiza Class Library. To find portal-related books.
Woros Blood was isolated in the portal. Princess Lelisha immediately reported to Vice Principal Duralph, so the search party will head to Telkan. Still, my heart raced and I couldn’t stay still.
“Senior… Just wait a little bit.”
Nishia, who found a good-looking book related to ancient portals, immediately borrowed her book and ran to the workshop. Come to think of it, she had also left the turkey spilled on the floor yesterday.
Turkey.
“With a senior… I wanted to eat.”
Nishia gritted her teeth. Her disturbing thoughts continue to haunt her. I should have spent today locking myself in the workshop, making potions with Woros-senpai. However…
“Senior… “
Whenever Woros’ face came to mind, Nishia closed her eyes tightly. Then she fell and fell to her knees, missing the book she was holding. She can’t wait for news from the search party. Somehow she activates that portal, so she has to go pick up Warros herself.
Ever since I met Woros, every day has been fun. He was a great alchemist, inventor, and a good senior. There were times when he laughed to himself at the thought of what kind of knowledge he might use to surprise me today.
Now that he’s gone, I feel like a huge hole has been opened in my heart.
While thinking about that, Nishia opened the door to the workshop while trying not to think sadly.
“Uh, Nishia, are you here now? She’s on her day off, so I thought she’d be locked up in the morning.”
“…… “
Woros, who was sitting in front of the workbench and peeling the roots of plants, said so. Nishia, after putting her book down, rubbed her eyes with her hand.
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“What are you doing?”
“Seo, senior?”
I was worried about Worros-senpai, and it’s true that I wanted to see him. However, seeing such a vision was too much, thought Nishia.
“Hey, Nishia, what are you doing standing there?”
“Woros… Are you a senior?”
“Then me, ah… I didn’t hear that I was back from Telcan-“
Nishia let out a sigh of relief and ran to Woros and tried to embrace him. But Woros, stretching out his arms, defended Nisia by pushing Nisia’s forehead with the palm of his hand.
“I met Deputy Principal Duralph, and I thought, of course, that he would have informed me of my safe return.”
“I, I have a senior… I thought you were in trouble because you were isolated.”
“Well, I took a deep breath, and as soon as I woke up, I took a shower and came out right away. Anyway, sorry for making you worry.”
Nishia shook her head violently from side to side.
“Nishia, don’t you think the others don’t know that I’m back?”
“At least I haven’t heard… “
“Umm, is that so? If so, I think I should meet Denas-senpai.”
Woros walks up to Nishia, picks up her book, which she had roughly set down on her floor, and places it on her table.
“Are you going with me?”
At his words, Nishia nodded her head vigorously.
“There was a turkey lying on the floor. Did you catch the turkey this time?”
“Seo, it’s because of the senior. My senior said he doesn’t like chicken.”
“It’s not that I don’t like chickens, it’s that I don’t like catching live fish in front of me. Did you even kill the turkey yourself?”
“…… “
Nishia did not answer. The fact that Woros, whom he thought was in danger, returned safely, and the fact that he was struggling alone without knowing that he had returned was so funny. She was just laughing.
*
“Whoa, whoa!”
As soon as Denas Yeseul sees me, he hugs me. Then he hugged me on my chest and cried.
“Seo, it’s difficult if you do this, senior.”
“Ahh! I, I am Woros… That you are wrong… I couldn’t even apologize properly.”
“I’m fine, so would you like to come down a bit?”
Denas shook her head from side to side with her face buried in my chest. I moved my gaze towards Nishia to ask for her help. However.
“…… “
Nishia is staring at Denas with her eyes narrowed. I had no choice but to forcefully drop Denas. Then, by chance, I was able to see her hands.
Multiple wounds on the wrist. After her sister passed away, she seems to have even harmed herself due to severe depression.
I can’t leave her like this.
“Senior, you promised, right? Let’s find Kaishi’s present together.”
“Yes, yes… It was. It was.”
“Senior, calm down first. Can’t we go together then?”
“…… “
At my words, Denas wipes away her tears, bites her lips tightly, and holds her back from crying. And then she hiccups.
When she was looking at her like that, her legs suddenly staggered and she fell behind her. At the same time, her cough comes out.
“Seo, senior? Blood… Coughing up blood.”
“Woros, infirmary… To the infirmary!”
Ignoring Nishia who gave her worried eyes and her fuss, she wiped her mouth while ignoring Nas. Shaiza would cough up blood as a side effect of the potion. She said She didn’t feel sick in particular, so she decided to work as it is.
“No big deal. It’s just that the side effects of the potion I drank in Telcan appear. Just bleed a few times and it’s over.”
“Ha, but… “
“Let’s go, senior Denas, please follow us.”
Although the time of occurrence and the contents of the story are a bit different, I plan to put the last button on the 7th act of Part 1, Denas Yeseul.