110 – 110. Charlotte Ashrelt (4)
Inside Thembris Stale Room.
Junon, who tasted the pain of tearing her hair for the first time in his life, explains everything while tying his messy hair.
The two facts that were revealed were that those who sensed defeat rolled their tails and fled, and that the prejudice and prejudice that it was certain to cause a runaway were shattered cleanly.
“Then… I really…”
“I told you. I took action before the rampage.”
Nothing happened while I closed my eyes.
She said that the reality that came to Charlotte, who wanted to settle for her dreams, was not as sweet as the dream, but she did not come close to her bitterly.
My voice naturally became wet at this, but unfortunately I couldn’t make a sound out of my throat full of water.
No matter what anyone says, it is not denied that Junon is responsible for the change in the results.
It is true that he took this difficult first step and peeled off a layer of fear.
But no voice came out. To the point where I can’t even say thank you.
Even so, she doesn’t say a word about such a Charlotte, and the boy two years older just looks at her in silence.
“Really, really… Ugh…”
What more can I say here?
I don’t know what kind of sentiment the girl was trying to forcefully open her mouth to say.
There is no fool who throws a joke without thinking when he sees tears forming in a person’s eyes. But,
“…You have to cry when you want to cry. It’s even harder if you hold it in like that.”
I try to stop the act of blocking my emotions from bursting out.
It is intended to make a little girl who is still too early to become an adult to vomit her sorrow and suffering.
It may seem a bit intrusive, but this was only good advice from someone who had a similar experience.
“You can spit it out coolly now. It was very difficult, right?”
“Huh… Black…!”
First consolation.
It was the first comfort I received in an isolated society where no one could understand and sympathize.
Finally, the resentment is drawn from the deepest part by the strong waves that pierce like water.
I don’t know why, but that little body was digging little by little towards the only man who comforted me.
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Cries spread from the room.
A small hand clenched into a fist grabs her collar as if screaming, and a rough and rough hand touches the girl’s back as a kinder hand than ever before.
I can assure you, there were no monsters in this place.
There was only a child who was hurt and a senior who could understand such a child.
***
Around the time Charlotte’s eyes were red and swollen as she poured out her emotions to Junon without saying anything.
The other members were waiting outside, following Junon’s request to wait.
“Guys!”
Even Goden, who was the last to hear the news and ran to it, arrived at the Tembris team room, and the entire team gathered.
Senia raised her index finger to her lips at the sound of his voice as powerful as his size.
“Shh. Lower your voice Goden.”
“Uhh… That, yes.”
“I’m doing this to hear at least a little bit of what the two of them have to say… Please understand even if I’m embarrassed.”
After Michelle added this additional explanation, Goden nodded his head with an Oh, as if he finally understood.
There must be a reason why Junon asked me to wait outside, but waiting is quite impatient.
How the hell did he break down that solid wall and bring Charlotte on his back?
She saw Charlotte, who was building an iron wall like that, but she was carried in by Junon, so everyone can’t help but wonder about her.
“…”
“How is Senia? Can you hear something?”
“Our team’s poor, soundproofing seems to be well built.”
It was a voice that I couldn’t hear no matter how hard I put my ears to it.
“There’s no problem with poor soundproofing. That’s a good thing.”
“What’s good, Michelle! I’m dying to know!”
“Eavesdropping is bad though, Aris.”
Although Michelle pointed it out, people’s curiosity did not disappear so easily.
Especially for Aris, who was most excited when he heard that a cute junior girl would join the team.
Aris, who kept grunting and walking around her at a fast pace, eventually couldn’t overcome her personality and headed for the clubhouse.
“I can’t take it anymore!!”
“Uh, uh uh? Wait a minute Aris, Coke!”
“That idiot is real!”
She even uses smoke screen magic to blur her vision, and then arrives at the club room.
Junon, who was going to talk anyway, didn’t bother to lock the door, and behind the door that suddenly opened, a somewhat misleading scene unfolded.
“Aris? Ha… I told you not to come in until I come out.”
“Huh…”
Instead of putting Junon’s words into her ears, Aris lets out her sigh as if she is full of energy.
The swollen and red eyes that contrasted with the blue eyes looked like Junon had made Charlotte cry.
And soon…
“You bastard!!!”
“What is this all of a sudden?! aaah! Hey! Don’t hit me, talk to me dude!!”
“Do you make a girl cry? And that cute little kid… You need to hit… You need to hit harder!!!”
“So what kind of bullsh*t is that! Whoops!”
Aris swung her spicy hand at Junon without any doubt.
Until the other members arrived due to the insolvency and stopped Aris.
What happened after that?
Aris, who made a lot of red palm prints on someone’s back while going wild, came up to her and said it was okay and comforted her not to cry.
A girl who wanted to become mature avoids her Aris and hides behind the back of the boy who comforted her, as if her adult had turned into a strange child.
That was the starting point of dependence.
***
The distant reminiscence is cut off when the red-burning sunset loses its embers and greets the stars like seeds and arrives in the present.
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The girl’s eyes are as moist as they were back then.
Just before the flashback cut off, the voice in her mind was the same person this time.
-‘Well… I put it to sleep with that kind of medicine to solve it, but even if you run out of control, the guys on this team will be able to stop it enough.’
She followed him for a while, which she then carried on her back. Why did the members who treat me well now were so unfamiliar and afraid at the time?
Since that happened, I have been training hard to stop the runaway of magic.
And she depended. She’s confident that they’ll be able to stop them even if they go wild someday.
Looking at it now, that is a very stupid and complacent belief.
Because this dependence grew so great that he didn’t even think of trying to solve it alone, so he had to pour out such cruel words for fear of harming someone weaker than himself who was pushed to the edge of the precipice.
She doesn’t quite know why she realized this until now, but she doesn’t condone that or that she was herself.
These tears were not from fear, but from guilt.
The sound of footsteps approaches Charlotte again.
There is no intention to hide from her footsteps. She trudges and her steps get closer, and she arrives in front of the girl who bowed her head and wiped away her tears.
“You’re crying here again, Charlotte.”
“…Senior?”
The blue eyes tremble in embarrassment.
How did you get here? No. Now is not the time to think about that.
Charlotte rubbed the corners of her eyes, wiping away the tears she had been stealing to herself. OK,
“I told you I should cry when you cry.”
Junon said, “What did Charlotte say to her?” As if answering her last words, which she had been evasive about.
“What if you remember everything and nothing changes. Really…”
…Remember.
Obviously, it was a memory. That’s also ‘while you remember everything’…?
That means…
“No way, I know everything…”
“Yeah. I know everything. Otherwise, there’s no way I’ll find this place, right?”
“I can’t…”
Ironically, the place where Charlotte secretly cried alone was the promenade of the academy.
It is an ordinary promenade that is widely used in the academy.
But it was a path that had different meanings for the two of them.
The place where he and her first met in her memories before her return, and where she first sought change,
It was a place where memories were cherished by some and memories that had to be forgotten by others.
It’s a walking trail with nothing special that you can’t notice unless you recall the situation at the time, but it’s a special road for the two of you.
With this, Charlotte’s eyes once again begin to be drenched with tears gushing from the inside.
“Senior… I, I…”
“It’s okay, so cry for now. Cry loudly like that time, and let’s talk slowly later. Okay?”
Why is there nothing different from back then?
Honestly, even if I have something I want to say, it feels like the inside of my neck is tightly packed with waves.
She remembers the words she poured out to blame others because she was afraid of herself, so she just wanted to say sorry.
Again.
This time too.
Crying came first rather than expressing gratitude.
“Senbae…Senbae…!!”
It’s okay to say what kind of a grown-up kid is crying so recklessly.
It’s okay to say things like that and criticize them for not being qualified.
It was obvious that I would repeat the same crime now.
Right now, I want to be embraced by that trustworthy and warm embrace.
I wish that crude hand would pat my back.
I hoped that this crying face could be covered and hidden.
And this time…
“I’m not going anywhere. Until you all cry. So take it all out slowly.”
– No regrets.
I don’t want to regret it.
***
How incessantly Charlotte cried.
It’s a shame because this promenade isn’t very popular at the academy. Anyone who saw it would think it was me.
‘Still, have you calmed down?’
It’s not much different from before the regression, her eyes are red and her eyes are swollen. There was a constant sniffling sound, but it seemed like it poured out without a hitch.
After the whimper stopped for a moment, he sniffed and blew his nose to clear up the messed up voice a few times, before long he opened his mouth.
“I’m sorry. Senpai. I’m really sorry.”
That was Charlotte’s first words after she stopped crying.