134 – 134. Senia and ■■■ (3)
The spilled past gave Senia not only a sting, but a bitter pain accompanied by ooze and pus. .
There was only one thing I gained from my past actions.
The dead cannot be brought back, but they succeeded in rescuing the living. In other words, only the remaining sirens survived.
Although she lives in an inconvenient place on the shore rather than a lake, the sirens she rescued with her own hands are able to continue their lives despite the poor environment.
But that was the end.
I ran to Sheetju and even regained the memory that determined the survival of the remaining sirens, but my expression didn’t relax at all.
Because that dark shade was her fault that could not be erased.
She might have had a different result if she had consulted from the beginning.
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If she had informed him of the Siren’s existence and sought cooperation with humans as she is now.
If only they could prove that the Siren do not harm humans by delivering Hyplicia, the cure for Lemteert Plague, a little faster.
If I had asked you to save the remaining sirens instead of leaving the battlefield alone.
Sirens must have found a firm position through proof and returned to the principality as a trustworthy race.
In a moment of either choice, there would have been nothing wrong with putting personal feelings first.
He would not have been criticized as an incompetent commander because of someone’s disappearance.
No one else can blame, only one person’s choice.
The worst choice that stepped on the last ray of hope for the principality.
That was the inside story of the bitter pain in the memory of a person named Senia.
“Junon…”
In front of Junon’s bedding, where he did not wake up for several days, Senia came to him with a face that hadn’t slept at all and called his name. It was the same this time too.
However, the man lying on the bed does not say anything with his eyes closed.
Senia, who felt only sorrow for this scene, raised her voice to the opponent who would not answer because she bit her lip.
“You sweet bastard… Why, why are you stepping out there…”
She was the fuse.
In a situation where dissatisfaction soared because he was unable to gain the upper hand in battles with demon beasts every time and only suffered damage, the heat of dissatisfaction rose because he chose Cheondojeon that no one would understand.
The only way to maintain the status quo was that there was still no fuse to properly fire.
However, the fuse was created.
Thanks to his disappearance during the Cheondojeon, he eventually came up on the topic and ignited the fuse.
In that case, of course, this time I would have had to cut the fuse before it was even made…
“If you know everything… Why did you do that when you say you’d rather die and leave it alone isn’t enough…?”
He didn’t.
It would have left a stigma of the miserable end with each cell of the stabbed area, and would have imprinted blame and accusations full of heat on the skin.
Although he remembered everything, he had a stupid nature and put others before himself.
Senia never knew she would feel so disgusted with herself.
The mere fact that she had been helped by Junon, that she had done something similar with the Sirens in the past, had her disgust filled to the brim of her throat.
Then, shouldn’t it be different this time?
In the present, which is different from the past, wouldn’t it be better to prevent him from facing the same ending?
In that way, Senia had put off her disgust and revulsion and held her head.
After recalling this memory, he vowed not to accept any help from Junon.
However, the disgust and disgust that had been sealed up to the end of his neck so that he could not see outside finally came out of his mouth because of this incident.
“You mad b*tch… I was the one who was incompetent and useless…”
Suddenly, I even start thinking about that.
If Junon knew he was such a nice guy, he shouldn’t have made that happen, right?
He tries to help others even to the point of driving himself into a corner, and there was no way an understanding guy wouldn’t step out of this situation, right?
How could he break so easily what he promised not to break?
This was a question he asked himself, whether he was thinking of leaning on him thinking that even if the same situation unfolded, one person would be able to solve it.
Senia could not answer any questions. And soon, other unfounded hypotheses begin to be made one after another.
The person who was more perfect than anyone else is the biggest twist.
“On the contrary, I… Could have been…”
Maybe Junon was hoping for help,
Maybe he was trying to protect the siren by using his good nature,
Even after making such a promise, the truth was that as soon as he saw Shanberesh, he might have been trying to rely on a person named Junon.
I end up thinking of my worst self, who is truly cowardly and selfish.
It’s not disgusting, it’s ugly.
It’s disgusting, it’s terrible.
I want to deny it, but isn’t it possible?
As Aris regrets her past, couldn’t she have been such a weak person herself?
Senia could not stand in front of Junon any longer when she thought that her decision not to produce the same result this time could also be a lie.
Drreuk.
The hospital room is now empty.
It wasn’t long before there was a rustling sound.
“Ugh…”
***
It is dark before my eyes.
The deep wounds and muscles left here and there throb and scream.
But I can’t feel it.
It took a bit more time for normal thinking to return to Junon in the body that had not yet recovered.
Then, as time passed, the corners of his eyes twitched.
However, pain is the first thing the consciousness that awakens over time feels.
‘Crazy, what a pain…’
What happened to your body? If I don’t close my eyes tightly and control my disturbed breathing, it feels as if the wound will open at any moment.
Still, the corners of her mouth go up.
What does it mean for a person to have pain?
It means being alive.
‘Even though it looks like this, did it somehow survive…’
If I just lift a finger right away, the pain will be transmitted to my entire arm, and my brain, the central nervous system, will panic and yell at me to stay still, but I survived.
He survived without a single broken spot from the red-eyed giant rat that glared at its prey.
“So… It seems that Shanberesh was subjugated somehow because people arrived there.”
Before the consciousness was cut off, I confirmed that Shanberesh had been blown away, so I predict that I would have succeeded in buying time. Otherwise, there’s no way he’d be alive.
“Then Senia and Cain will be fine, right?”
Actually, I want to move my body somehow and see Senia and Cain with my own eyes, but I can’t.
For now, all I could do was hold back the pain and move my body around the room.
Of course, that’s only for a moment, and with time, you’ll be able to move.
Anyway, this was the second time I realized that my body was lying on a soft bed.
Thanks to the experience, I ordered my head to turn faster than that time and read the situation.
“…I’m not the only one hurt, but there’s no one in the hospital room.”
How long have you been asleep?
There may have been fewer serious injuries, and everyone here may have finished recovering… But it would be more correct to say that a little more time has passed than that.
I’d like to check on what’s going on.
“Oh, brother, you’re awake! Are you okay?”
“Yeah well, it’s okay… It’s kind of hard to say.”
“Does it hurt a lot? They say that it will get better if you call it, would you?”
“…I’ll decline that.”
How can people arrive at just the right time?
It seems that she came instead of her sick mother this time, but it’s not that she doesn’t like it.
“More than that, kid. Can I ask you something?”
“Yes, what is it?”
***
When I asked about this and that, Nella told me what she had seen, clearly and without any filtering.
Of course, since she is a pure child, there were parts that were exaggerated, so she had to filter things out herself, but since she listened to them often, she could understand the general situation.
It is said that the Devourers have all been exterminated here, and that their mother, Shan Beresh, took care of them before passing on, so he will not attack them any more.
It can be said that she handled it well.
Even though the sirens suffered great damage, it would mean that they followed Cain and Senia’s instructions to subdue Shanberesh.
However, that does not mean that everything went well.
Since there was no sound that humans continued to cooperate with the Sirens, it means that the interests of the two forces did not coincide yet.
I don’t know how the sirens managed to deal with Shanberesh, but this is definitely a red flag.
It should not be possible for humans to be imprisoned without being released.
The good news is that the humans still imprisoned can be released before the main force arrives.
Therefore, it was necessary to consult with Senia in order to deal with this matter as soon as possible.
-‘Senia went to the lake earlier. She wants to play, she wants to be alone?’
A lake.
According to Nella, Senia often stops by the lake when she has complicated thoughts, she says. Are you certain that it hasn’t changed since then and now?
Anyway, he knew the location, and although he was slow, he could move his body, so Junon headed straight for the lake.
-‘He’s probably leaning against a tree and throwing stones the size of a lake at the shore. ‘Cause she heard that her sister solves her troubles that way!’
Senia was doing this without any expression, so Nella even complained that she felt like she would get angry if she was disturbed at this time.
Junon agrees a hundred times with Nella’s words.
Looking at the expressionless Senia, there was a time when she had an air flow that seemed like she shouldn’t be touched.
-‘But it’s okay! She says that when her sister really hates being disturbed, she shuts herself up in her room and tells her not to be disturbed.’
Nella shrugged her shoulders as if she were letting her know Senia’s secret.
But, today is quite different.
Her rough and haughty face shows off a point of brilliance reflected in the lake.
In time, the brilliance gradually left its original place.
“…”
Tears.
Senia’s tears had never been seen in her past. Above all, the word that doesn’t suit her the most, either on the outside or inside her, is the word her tears.
Nella wouldn’t have assumed this either…
Then, isn’t it really okay not to touch it today?
A pebble pongs back into the lake shore.
That’s one, two. Three.
Somehow, it must be because of my mood that the size of the stones keeps getting bigger, right?
Senia ran out of stones nearby, and soon she naturally turned her head to pick them up elsewhere.
Then, wouldn’t she have no choice but to face her?
“…Jyu, Junon?”
Senia turned her face right away and started wiping away her tears. There was nothing like calm in that series of processes.
She means that for her this time, emotion has taken precedence over reason.
“Mistress, shame on you.”
“…I didn’t come here to see you cry.”
“Then what? Why did you come?”
She tries to pretend she’s okay, but her voice is already full of water.
Currently, the main subject cannot be taken out. She doesn’t even have that kind of heart in the first place.
Junon thought it was time for her to listen to Senia’s story.
“Why did you cry? Not like you.”
“What is it that is imprinted in your head that is me? I can cry too.”
“…Yeah. That’s why it’s even weirder.”
“What?”
“If I had to give an example as an inexperienced person, I would have said that you sometimes cry like this. You make me unable to dig out any information when your judgment is not so impaired.”
And is that the end? It can’t be.
“After that, on the contrary, I’m going to predict from how I came to this place. Of the people I usually meet at the lake, I’m sure you mentioned Nella.”
This is not a piece of sh*t.
If Junon is the reason why she chose Senia as the number one target she wants to avoid in her life, she definitely cites her unique insight that digs into her opponent in reverse as well as every word full of smoke.
So Senia was a person who had almost become a habit of not giving out any information to others.
Junon thought she had nothing to do with the turn, so she threw a stone fastball.
“I must have brought something to you, Senia. But, I can’t bring it out in my current state.”
If you are not your usual self, this problem cannot be solved. So, I want to hear your story first. It meant this.
If it wasn’t for Junon, he would have fallen into the lake by now, about five or six stones.
Before I knew it, Senia turned her head away with water in her eyes again.
Although her tears are on the verge of bursting and she looks afraid of something…
Even so, her eyes were prepared for everything.
“May I ask if the me in your memory… Ever tried to take advantage of you?”
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Of course, it is full of earnestness that is not normally shown.