102 – What the hell are you?
The first rule of happiness is to never give up.
The 2nd principle of happiness Be sure to follow the 1st principle.
Unfortunately, when I was 17, I didn’t realize this absolute truth.
“Look at the room.”
A bag of ramen scattered around because I didn’t even think about cleaning up the trash, and a pot with ramen leftovers sticking to it because I never washed the dishes.
In the bathroom, the smell of lacquer sprayed casually to try to fix the smell vibrates, and there is a musty smell of mold in the corner of the room.
Even when the lights were turned on, dark shadows were always attached to the house due to the nature of Banjihara.
“Wasn’t it Raistember’s way of showing despair in the happiest moments?”
The anxiety of the trauma being forced to unfold makes me spit to myself.
If I didn’t do this, I felt like I would fall into the past and lose my mind.
“My parents died a week ago, but common sense should send them back then.”
Then it could have been a real mental breakdown.
That part, in a way, was very fortunate.
Rather, it was comparatively better to see the situation after all this happened.
-Woo-wook, ueee)
When I turn my head, I see a vision of my past.
As soon as I woke up in the morning sunlight, the first thing I did was vomit.
He vomits his stomach and shakes off memories with his family, forcing him to face the reality.
If I didn’t do this at least, I felt like I would collapse. At that time, I was really desperate.
-…I’m going to hand in the application form for dropping out.
choice and focus.
I calmly organized what I could and could not do at the time.
Do you go to school and study while receiving basic living expenses? I thought this was nonsense.
If that was possible, I would have taken a few first place in the school immediately and brought a few certificates home.
-I will be back.
I was the one who vomited and shed tears every day and lay in vain, but I never forgot those words.
It always felt like there would be a family when I came home, and it seemed like they would greet me warmly.
Hope is like a drug, and a single taste of it has ruined a person’s mind.
“It’s the worst.”
Forcibly calming my trembling hands, I cleaned the house.
There was no way to get out of here unless the race tember appeared, so for now, this was the best.
rustle rustle.
Remove the trash, mop the floor, wash the dishes that have been pushed, and solve the old laundry.
I remember submitting an application for dropout and shrugging my shoulders when the teacher told me what I was going to do and tell me if I needed help at any time.
The person who said that his legs tremble every time he buys chicken from you guys because he is always on the salary of a civil servant, what kind of help.
The moment I felt that compassion, I felt like I was becoming too miserable, so I pushed myself harder.
“It’s implemented exactly the same.”
Nothing to do, I went straight out of the house.
It’s a really creepy landscape.
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Just before the redevelopment, the strangely sweet smell of the local supermarket tickles the tip of the nose.
“But… is this okay?”
Racetember is a character in the game to some extent, and the world now unfolding is the world outside the game.
It was a situation that could be seen as opening the door to a completely different dimension.
Obviously, he would read my memories diligently to dig into my past, but if that happened, there was a high possibility that he would eventually find out that he was a fictional being.
The biggest problem was that I couldn’t predict what the outcome would be when it happened.
‘The other kids probably haven’t invaded the race tember yet, because they have priority…’
It is said that if I solve the problem on my own, everything else will be fine.
It was unknown how Reistember would react to seeing this scene.
I didn’t know whether to feel curious about the sight I’d never seen before and leisurely watch me more, or kill me right away thinking it was weird.
“I’m taking out the memories I’ve forgotten about.”
The way to break Wystember’s tag was that you must never taste despair, and you must destroy the core of your dream in that state.
The ambiguity here was the core of the dream.
This key, which is the trigger of nightmares and will plunge people into the pit of despair, was not even able to be arbitrarily designated by Race Tembre.
In the dream of the target, the most precious and valuable symbol that acts on the target naturally turns into the core of the dream.
“The problem is that I’m after I’ve lost everything by this time.”
What is the most precious thing in the time when I was suffering from the obsession to solve everything alone in Cheon-ae solitude?
It’s not going to be a semi-basement house you’ll move into in a few months, and it’s certainly not going to be friends who dropped out and cut ties without any regrets.
No matter how much I rolled my head, I couldn’t figure out what was the point.
‘It was a time when I moved a lot and made memories and didn’t have anything.’
The first thing I did to save money was to move to a place where the house price was cheap.
I searched all the real estate in search of an unguaranteed monthly rent and was able to get a one-room apartment like that.
I remember that I did everything to make money in earnest from here.
After about a year had passed, I searched the old clothes collection box thinking that I could not make money at this rate.
I remember having a strong thought that it might be okay for me to use it since it’s old clothes anyway and I’m going to throw them away.
From this point on, my memory was really fragmentary.
‘I mend my clothes bit by bit and sell them at a cafe… I use the money to cover my living expenses and then go through the old clothes collection box…’
Then, a business proposal came in and I sold clothes in Dongdaemun.
I thought I wouldn’t be able to make money selling clothes, so I set foot in the Yongsan Electronics Market for a while, but it didn’t last long.
At least for about 3 years.
It reminds me of the regret I left behind because I couldn’t put off enlisting any longer.
A lot happened in that time, but I forgot all of them.
When I recalled it, it felt like I was stabbing myself in the wound, so I immersed myself in the game without even thinking about it.
That was Final Destiny.
“What is it that the surroundings change according to my thoughts?”
When I came to my senses after organizing my thoughts, the surroundings had suddenly turned into my room.
My character who died with only one final step remaining, and a computer with a motor sound that seemed to explode at any moment.
Even the sound of a humidifier quietly laying in a dark room.
In that short amount of time, 10 years of my life flew by.
‘It’s ridiculous.’
Originally, the existing hide-and-seek did not unfold like this?
Around the time when I was feeling strange in a situation that was so different from the pattern of the existing race tember.
Cheek!
The space was shattered, and Racetember appeared in it.
“…what the hell are you?”
He looked at me with a very unsteady look.
His trembling eyes, his pale face, and how much he pulled his hair, his hair was clenched in both hands.
“Where the hell am I? Where am I supposed to be? Why can’t I get out of here?”
Duk-du-du-du-du-du-duk.
Racetember continued his speech and swelled up in his size.
2m, 3m tall, inflated as if it would fill the room, Reistember pointed at me with his sharp claws.
“Why… I don’t know where or what happened… Who are you? Why… Ha… How can you get involved with my main skill?”
“…?”
Could it be that I can’t properly handle a higher level?
I don’t have enough common sense in this area, but I seem to have a memory of hearing it at first glance.
Did you know that 3D and 4D beings cannot see each other and cannot intervene?
However, the moment Racetember forcibly intervened in that part, it seemed that a tremendous deterrent acted on him.
‘I can’t get caught.’
Originally, the moment I was caught, the game was over, but now it felt completely different.
Racetember was looking at me now not as a toy worth playing with, but as an enemy that must be killed.
Kiyiying.
Activating the infinite orbit, I immediately got out of my place.
I knew that race tember was focused on me, and now, when I was not in good shape, was the time to find the core of my dream.
‘The other kids… please be fine.’
Hopefully I won’t be eaten by my dreams, I changed the scenery around me, thinking back to when I was 17.
What was the most important thing for the 17-year-old me, the only flower that blooms from the terrible memories.
I absolutely had to find it.
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Even though he confirmed Lee Seok-hyun’s departure with his own two eyes, Racetember couldn’t immediately pursue Lee Seok-hyun.
Tring! Tring! Tring! Tring! Tring! Tring!
The bell rings.
“Please! Please stop! Please stop!”
A bell had been ringing in my head frantically from earlier, and I was trying to break Raystember’s spirit.
“Stop! Gmmaaan!!!”
Racetember thumped his head on the floor while making the most desperate and sorrowful request.
It didn’t go wrong from the start.
When Lee Seok-hyun went back to his childhood.
Clearly, such pain did not exist then.
‘I just saw a new world!’
A new world that has never been experienced before.
A place where curiosity radiates infinitely, such as completely different clothes and architectural styles that you have never seen before.
But when the surrounding scenery suddenly changes and a black room suddenly comes into view.
Racetember witnessed something he should never have seen.
———
Defeated the final boss [Fate of Despair].
Would you like to restart the game?
YES/NO
———
One simple unmatched message.
And the final boss [Fate of Despair] that looks finely reflected behind it.
A piece of the boss that should never appear in the Final Destiny storyline.
Reistember, who witnessed this, suddenly began to tremble all over.
“What the hell… what the hell is that…”
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Just being in the same space limits your power, and the moment you put it in your pupil, the thought of wanting to die is forced.
If Racetember wasn’t a top-notch horse, it wouldn’t be strange if he immediately strangled himself.
[You are not Lee Seok-hyun.]
And the voice heard from the low monitor.
With the power that would make his heart tighten and his brain burst just by hearing it, Racetember bit into a bubble.
[Forget it.]
As soon as the words were finished, Racetember stopped all actions and nodded as if he had calmed down.
[Kill Lee Seok-hyun in your dreams, that is your destiny.]
Nod.
Every time the voice is heard, the life in Raystember’s eyes disappears.
The power that can destroy a city in an instant turns into a puppet in a few words.
“Kill Lee Seok-hyun, that is my destiny.”
Racetember put his enlarged body back to normal.
“Kill Lee Seok-hyun.”
To do our best in the assigned task, to carry out the task no matter what.
“That is my destiny.”
Racetember moved on, repeating the same words over and over again.
If you go against the fate of despair, there is only death.
It was the moment when a new game began.