189 – What is needed to overcome despair
[Find Ding Dong Dang activated!]
[Now, load the data of the character that will escape perfectly without being caught at this moment.]
When all the feelings of reunion are resolved.
Everyone went to sleep in my room as if they had promised.
I think they’re doing this because they’re afraid I’ll get stuck or disappear again.
‘This is really the last time.’
I’m sorry, but I needed to disappear once more.
No matter how strong the main characters become, the only thing they can win is Mine.
Since you have beaten the Named Mine, it means that the next step will not be a fate of despair.
The law of RPG that allows you to catch stronger monsters as your combat power increases.
Completely ignoring that was the fate of despair.
Since he wasn’t in the game in the first place, he couldn’t win in that system.
‘It’s something only I can do.’
I didn’t think going together and sharing our despair would have much meaning.
In the first place, what can you do to a being outside the standard?
Now that we have found all the means to overcome despair, all that remains is to attack it alone.
There was no need to involve other children and share the pain.
[Use a pinch hitter. Summons an alter ego identical to you for a certain period of time and instructs it to perform certain actions.]
[Specific action:: Sleep has been set.]
First, call in a pinch hitter and create an alter ego.
[Use mouse hole hiding. It disappears from that location without leaving a trace.]
Use mouse hole hiding to get out of the spot.
These two combos were one of the combos that never got caught in Final Destiny.
This was a combo I often used when playing as a thief and stealing treasure.
As proof, no one woke up until the moment I came out.
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I wrote the letter in advance, so you may be surprised when it suddenly disappears, but you will calm down quickly.
Now, all that was left was to solve everything on my own.
‘It’ll be gone soon.’
There was no need to even know where it was.
Because there is only one place for him.
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The final boss, the fate of despair, stimulates trauma and disappears.
He disappeared with a hint of wanting to meet again.
At the same time, he left a hint telling people to come find him.
‘After about two months, I realized that there was a separate reason for emphasizing the hands.’
I analyzed and researched each and every word he left and thought about where he would be right now.
Starting with how to attack, what should I do most efficiently, etc.
For four months, I concentrated solely on it.
That’s the conclusion we came to.
‘The fate of despair exists at the introductory point.’
That was the starting point of despair and the place where everything began.
Instead of taking the portal, he moved only with his physical body.
It took quite some time, but my body, strengthened through numerous rewards, very quickly led me to the anthill.
“I knew it would be like this.”
An ant cave that should have collapsed in the first place due to the explosion of a bomb.
The place had been restored to its original state as if it had never exploded.
The rocks blocking the entrance were not visible and all the debris from the explosion had completely disappeared.
It was obvious that he had blatantly restored the anthill, and there was only one person who could do this.
“You’re playing a childish prank.”
Even though the sun is at its highest, there is no light inside the ant cave.
Directing it this way made it feel like a haunted house in an amusement park.
If I were to be honest, the goal here is not to surprise you, but to throw you to the bottom and make you want to die.
‘I’m going to have a discussion with the final boss, is it okay to be this sloppy?’
It felt like the fight was very sudden, perhaps because it was not a boss that could be defeated by force.
If you think of it as an RPG game, it feels like you just press the dungeon entry button to catch the raiding monster.
If that process were a game, it would have been replaced by a loading window, but now I was experiencing it in real time.
How long did it take?
There was no end to walking to the place where the structure had changed from the ant cave I had originally known.
My eyes can’t adjust to the darkness, so I’m starting to wonder if I’m moving straight ahead.
All skills could not be activated, and the Find Ding Dong Dang light did not come on, perhaps because it was a situation that could not be resolved.
‘Can I use the main skill?’
There was a big difference between being impossible and not yet activated.
Even if you could activate it anyway, it wouldn’t be of much help, but it was better than nothing.
When I continued to walk with determination, feeling like I was grasping at straws.
“Oppa, it’s been a while.”
Jihyun Kim appeared in front of me as if I had been waiting for her.
A lot of time has passed since then, but Kim Ji-hyun remained at the age when she died.
I expected it and prepared for it, but in reality, the pressure was no joke.
To put it bluntly, if she just had her way while I was embarrassed like this, she would have already killed me.
“Why are you so stiff, aren’t you happy with me?”
“It’s true that you say that even though it was made…”
It’s strange, I don’t know how to accept you.
While saying that, he slowly narrowed the distance.
Probably the reason for not allowing the use of the skill was to force the method of killing Jihyeon Kim.
Killing with a gun and killing with a knife have different feelings.
Killing from a distance and killing while listening to a person’s breathing.
There was a huge difference here.
‘If you kill it with a skill, it’s over in a few seconds, so I told you to take your time and enjoy it.’
Killing the woman who died before her eyes once again with my own hands.
It seemed like he wanted to make it known that it was I who ended up finishing it.
There might have been less hesitation if other people had appeared at the beginning and Ji-Hyun Kim had appeared at the end.
If you get used to murder and get used to strangulation, you could have done it more calmly.
But now, that is not easy.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about. Today is our date, why did you come so late?”
I got scolded because I was really hungry. Count it all as punishment for being late!
“I did the original calculation. How can the boss get food from his part-time job?”
“It’s not a part-time job, it’s the boss’s lover? Don’t you know, wife?”
“You speak well.”
I couldn’t avoid the gentle wrapping of arms.
I unconsciously respond to her spitting words and look down at her.
Small yet distinct, lively, quirky yet assertive.
She was a woman who contained the characteristics of all seasons.
So I gave up all my love, and in return, I was unable to continue any years here.
It still stayed inside me like a curse.
‘I thought I had it resolved.’
Even though I knew this was all a staged play, my hand was already holding her hand tightly.
A completely different situation from when Kim Ji-hyun was killed in the repeating past.
I was facing her in the present, where I was alive.
If the fate of despair is truly saved, if it is restored so that we can live the same way in this world.
Wouldn’t it be right not to kill? Wouldn’t it be better to overcome despair like this without killing?
That thought suddenly occurred to me.
They say people unconsciously compromise to take the easiest path.
It was funny because that’s exactly what I look like right now.
Even with self-objectification, I could not judge the situation objectively.
“Remember that time? When we first met, I cursed at you.”
“That’s right.”
“But then he asked me to go out for a drink and I was really surprised. Dong-hoon was just blatantly talking nonsense and asking how he could find such a beautiful woman.”
“That’s right, he doesn’t know that it’s a burden.”
“So you said you liked it because I brought you a friend… Then you made an accident and got married, I guess?”
“I really told you to wear a condom…”
“My friend is the one who made a hole in the condom with an awl? That wasn’t a mistake, it was all aimed at him.”
My friend’s ideal type was a man with a nice body and a big body, and Donghoon oppa was satisfied with all of that.
She has a good personality and is gentle, so I just fell in love with her with the intention of getting pregnant.
A story after time has passed.
My heart seemed to melt as I heard Kim Ji-hyun’s words, saying that we had been together for a really long time, not just a single day.
I feel like I am now receiving the reward I never received.
Is it my strength or your strength that puts strength into those clasped hands?
I felt like it wasn’t important anymore.
“Minha is amazing too, no, but didn’t Minha say it was her first relationship?”
“Yeah, so she said she was crazy and wanted to live her life perfectly, and she absolutely wanted to do that with her first man.”
But it’s just like Dong-hoon’s oppa appeared as if by fate or something.
After experiencing it for the first time, he said to me, “Oh, I want to have a child with this man.” This is why I said so many things.
What did you say?
I thought the same thing when I saw my brother, but my friend said it gave me goosebumps and asked how they could be so similar.
What if we were together here, I really… Could we live like that?
The happy conversation continued, but I stopped when Jihyun spoke about the future.
I came to my senses.
“There is no such future for us.”
We were both busy destroying each other.
He released her hands and slowly raised both hands towards her neck.
It was time to end everything.
“Lee Seok-hyun!”
And then I heard someone’s voice from behind.