Became an Academy Spearman chapter 191

191. Awareness as a protagonist

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Academy Workshop.

Among the people full of heat and busy moving everywhere, I had a very beautiful black window in front of me.

“Hold it for yourself and check the weight first. If it’s about the weight, you can make small adjustments right away.”

“Yes.”

At the workshop craftsman’s words to test it, I felt dizzy as I stretched out my hand. I couldn’t focus well on reality and my disturbed mind… was still there.

good.

However, the moment I held the spear, that confusion disappeared greatly.

Lightly holding the spear, I felt that the heaviness and the feeling of the metal were distinctly different from those of the spear I had held before.

Still a training spear. He was also using the spears borrowed from Kali, but he was holding a spear made of a completely different material. The increased strength and agility stats also felt much larger.

I immediately called the status window of the item.

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ㅡㅡㅡㅡ

steel alloy window

Grade: Rare (additional refinement applied).

Item effect: Increases agility by 1.2 times when equipped. Durability is enhanced.

*Depending on the effect of the item, the Agility stat will change to 48.

additional smelting.

ㅡStrength correction level 1.

*Strength correction value increased by 1.1 times to 30.

ㅡㅡㅡㅡ

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rare grade.

At the same time, the moment I held the spear, I felt that my abilities had definitely improved.

‘Additional smelting was definitely worth the investment.’

I spent well over 1 gold on this single spear, but the satisfaction was more than the amount I invested.

swish Lightly wielding the spear and moving it, the weight wasn’t too bad. Compared to the previous spear, it was heavier, but it was still an acceptable weight.

“This weight seems to be okay.”

“If I don’t adjust the weight a bit now, it will cost extra next time. Is that okay now?”

“Yes. I am very satisfied.”

“Then, just sign here to say you checked the goods, and you’re done.”

When I handed out the confirmation right after, I was able to take a step with my name engraved on it.

“Then use it well.”

“Yes, thank you.”

While leaving the studio like that, I carried a spear on my back for the first time in a long time.

good.

Even though I was used to walking around, the weight I felt on my back seemed to straighten me out.

‘yes. This is a sense of security.’

The pride of having acquired my own spear rather than a borrowed spear, and the fact that it was a weapon with good performance was even more satisfying.

that buck

Even while leaving the studio like that… It’s been a while since I’ve been excited.

“Whoa.”

A faint sigh escaped again.

I was happy to get a new window for a while, but the source of my confusion was not resolved.

clap.

Even after closing the door of the workshop… my eyes narrowed involuntarily.

‘It was so unexpected.’

No matter how much Carly behaves toward me, I can’t help but assume that she has feelings for me. In addition, I even realized that the impulsive words I said to her yesterday had a completely different meaning.

‘A word thrown inadvertently… .’

It brought a really big storm.

“… … .”

While moving forward with the destination as the training ground, he reflected on his time with Kali again.

ㅡThere is. That… I wonder if we’ll be all right.

ㅡ yes. A little… It might be risky, but I, Cadet Han Chun-seong, have been expressing my feelings to me this way… I don’t want to vaguely reject that feeling.

The words she said to me are still vivid in my mind.

And when I realized the true meaning of the words, it was really strange.

“Because Kali also expresses herself in a very ambiguous way… .”

I couldn’t make up my mind either.

—-A little.

Above all, I was at a loss as to how I should accept that expression.

Carly seems to have accepted that I said something similar to a confession yesterday, and she responded that she would accept my heart… not like Carly.

Even her words that it might be ‘close enough’ felt a little different to me.

‘Then I wonder if he wants to have a halfway relationship with me.’

“… … .”

As I continued to walk, I was still in my mind.

It started with a mistake on my part, but the misunderstanding spread like this. I never thought Carly would allow an absurd relationship called romance between the instructor and the cadet.

And it was like she showed me her heart.

‘He said he didn’t hate me.’

…And I, who was thinking about it seriously, felt the same way now.

I don’t like Carly.

To put it bluntly, I had a strong feeling that she was good.

In the story called Groa, I liked Carly from the first moment I met her because I liked the character. Of course, even if it doesn’t feel like she’s my favorite… As the days passed, I couldn’t help but look better at her.

I am greatly helped by her, and I should be.

So that I can proceed properly in this world. As Carly is the one who gives me a lot of strength right now, I had to keep my relationship with her as much as possible.

that buck

…then he stopped walking and inadvertently patted my cheek.

slap.

With the slightest pain, I could feel again that this was real.

“…If you’re happy, then I’m really happy too.”

A faint smile leaked out even as he blurted out his words to himself. It’s been a while now, but I still can’t believe that Carly showed me that kind of feeling.

It feels like I’m dreaming for no reason, and even if I don’t have a sense of reality, I don’t have too much. But this was really real.

Carly was easy-going and arrogant in her work.

She hadn’t even opened her heart to Leonhard. But the fact that she has feelings for me… How can I be happy?

Suddenly, the situation before leaving Carly’s office came to mind.

—-Now, wait a minute. Cadet of Hancheonseong.

The moment she suddenly expressed her affection for me as she held me in her arms.

“…”

As I absentmindedly stroked my cheeks, it felt as if my face would loosen up.

Even though I hesitated, honestly, honestly, it was so good. Looking back now, all I can think of is that the moment was good.

Carly’s unique subtle body scent, or the feeling of her body touching mine… even the dizzying sensation.

—-That… I also said that it was fine for a little bit.

And what she said in an embarrassing manner at the end came to me like a reversal charm because I felt a gap with her usual appearance.

When dealing with other cadets, he treats them with infinite strictness, but today he expresses his affection in a particularly loving way… … .

that buck

As I moved on, my heart was beating again. And with that pounding heart, a sense of confusion also came.

‘So what should I do?’

It wasn’t that I didn’t mind if I could still be a lover with Carly. Carly is a very attractive and beautiful woman to me.

And since I was strong enough to protect me, I didn’t know that things would be much better than now if we became lovers.

But ‘a little’ Carly showed a very strange attitude.

I wouldn’t reject my heart, but I couldn’t completely accept it more than that… It seemed that I wouldn’t allow ‘more’ to me.

That was keeping me on the right track.

Along with that… I had to be aware of my reality now.

‘Am I going to be in a relationship with someone?’

Is it really possible to accept a relationship?

Two days from now two apostles will come to me. A crisis so great that it was given the ominous name of ’emerging from death’ was planned.

And the crisis of the moment will not be a temporary situation. I had an intuition that such a crisis would probably continue to come to me in the future.

ㅡThe reason I fell into this world.

I had a strong feeling that even my status window was different for a reason.

awareness of me.

…the very reason for my existence.

Maybe I’m not an extra or a supporting character in this world.

I’ve been hearing that thought over and over again lately.

Originally, numerous beings who should have been involved with Leonhard, the main character of this world.

I became involved with them unintentionally, and just a few weeks ago, I was directly involved in the first episode and twisted the established world line.

“… … .”

I gently looked at my hand. As a result of holding the spear countless times and striving for training, he could see his hands full of calluses.

Because I saved Karite with my own hands, I saved her who should have died.

“Whoa.”

Even as I exhaled lightly, my heart felt a little heavy.

‘If you think about the possibilities… .’

I may have the same weight as the main character of this world.

I even thought that maybe I was taking on such an absurd role.

I couldn’t help but feel more about myself because of the appearance of Carly I faced today. The fact that such a great girl had feelings for me cannot be dismissed as trivial.

What I thought was an absurd assumption. It was slowly becoming a reality.

—-I was given that much importance.

From the beginning, this world was very different from what I knew, and moreover, Leonhardt was already entangled with countless characters who had an important weight to be the main character.

Based on that, they approached me, and because I wanted it, it was also a relationship that got entangled with them.

‘Because even Anastasia will meet in two days.’

I was never meant to live as a simple extra.

“… … .”

As soon as I saw the training ground in my field of vision, a deep sleep calmed my eyes.

‘How nice it would have been if this world had been peaceful.’

Then I wouldn’t have worried so much. I would have just acted according to my heart… and only thought of my own comfort.

The elements that I had vaguely felt until now came to me very clearly.

In the first place… Looking back, everything was strange.

I, who was only given a common rank, achieved such ridiculous growth.

Looking at it right away, it showed a growth rate that exceeded even Leonhardt, and possesses power that surpasses even that.

It was clear that the clues to the skills would be completed sooner or later, even if it took some time.

…Then the gap with Leonhardt, who was considered the main character of the world, had grown too large to bridge.

To the point where I get a strange illusion that the world revolves around me.

No, it already felt like the truth.

clap.

Even as I opened the training room, my mind seemed to be getting organized.

reality given to me.

It’s only now that several months have passed… the sense of seeing properly. After breaking the egg, it seemed that I had realized the weight of my existence only now.

“… … .”

Several cadets in sight and the C-class training instructor. While recognizing such an existence, he walked absentmindedly.

‘Maybe this world… .’

Maybe it has become a world where I have to do something.

When a crisis comes in the future, I have to face it all.

Even the innumerable crises… There was little feeling that they would be headed for Leonhardt.

good.

A small smile leaked out as he naturally took out the window.

“That’s why… I acted.”

From the moment I made up my mind to save Karite, I was already prepared.

I will not live for myself… … .