201. A heart with no regrets
***
Three days had passed since the accident occurred on Thursday.
Sunday, the end of the weekend.
I was still staying in the infirmary.
Even though my body recovered to a level that did not interfere with my daily life, I couldn’t bear to leave the infirmary.
…
“For the time being, the school closure order has been issued to maintain the academy’s facilities and security posture. School closures are scheduled at least until next Wednesday, but I think this time will feel completely different. This is the time to be vigilant so that accidents do not happen again.”
good.
I calmly agreed as I looked at Adelia as she gently put down the teacup and explained.
“okay.”
Seruk. While stroking the teacup that felt the gentle warmth, he inadvertently looked at Adelia.
Her well-groomed figure catches the eye through her emerald-colored hair. There is no trace of the same playfulness as before. So I didn’t even think of anything else.
After the exchange of strange emotions last week. As for the fact that he had feelings for me, I pushed it to the side of my mind.
‘I can’t have those feelings at a time like this.’
To the extent that the time I spent worrying about how to accept her now felt futile, we couldn’t afford it at all.
“I don’t know how to express my gratitude… to Instructor Adelia.”
“I was just doing what I had to do. It’s my job to treat injured cadets. So, the cadet of Hancheonseong. Just like now, I only think about holding my heart together and going straight ahead. I don’t want anything else.”
Her soft voice warmed my heart a little.
“… .”
As I took a sip of the tea, the bitterness that flowed through my mouth made me feel more awake.
‘Now I have a week and a little bit of time left.’
A few days ago, facing the apostle, I had no time again.
Apart from overcoming the predicted crisis, I had to assume that the accident that would happen to Leonhard would happen exactly as it was.
And I have to prevent the crisis on behalf of Leonhardt.
He glanced at the bed next to him.
It was bittersweet to see Leonhard, who had fallen asleep a lot after the accident.
“Instructor Adelia… What will happen to Leonhard?”
Leonhardt’s characteristic has disappeared due to the apostle’s power. In the process, his achievements would not have completely disappeared.
I was just curious about how he was treated afterwards.
“…Perhaps, for the time being, Cadet Leonhardt will be focusing on healing. More precisely, it is safe to say that it treats the ‘mind’. Excluding me, outstanding beings are scheduled to visit the academy. All to check the condition of Cadet Leonhardt. In addition, the academy has officially stated that it will take full responsibility for this accident. I think they will give lenient treatment to Cadet Leonhardt.”
“If you say lenient treatment… ?”
“Even if you assume the worst, you will be expelled right away, or the academy won’t throw out Leonhardt’s cadets. No matter how much you value your ability, since you had such a terrible accident within the academy, you will take responsibility and show your will to somehow treat Cadet Leonhardt.”
I was speechless as I entered quietly.
‘Expulsion… .’
I simply wanted to know what would happen afterwards, but I belatedly realized that there could be a case of expulsion.
In this world, there is no human being who does not have original characteristics. And among them, if it was an academy that discriminated against talent and valued growth… Leonhardt was like a completely separate existence now.
However, I was a little relieved to say that there was no such thing.
“I’m so glad. I never thought that such a possibility even existed.”
“To be honest, I am very embarrassed. There has never been an accident where a cadet loses their attributes. I don’t even know what purpose the apostle erased the characteristics, but… Whoa. Still, I have to try to help Cadet Leonhard recover his energy somehow.”
At her words suggesting various things, I just let out a thin breath.
– The purpose of the apostle whose characteristics were erased.
-Leonhard suffered an unprecedented accident.
– What will happen next.
It wasn’t good in many ways. However, I couldn’t help but face reality.
After thinking for a while, I spoke up.
“… … Still, I think Leonhardt will definitely pick up his energy.”
I was sure I put those words into my mouth.
“Cadet Han Chun-seong seems to have a lot of trust in Cadet Leonhard?”
He nodded without hesitation at the appearance of Adelia who asked in a bright voice.
“Leonhardt from my point of view… is a genius better than anyone else. The talent he has is also a talent. I don’t think anyone I’ve ever looked at has a stronger heart than him.”
It was sincere when he said that he trusted him.
Leonhardt was a being who would support the world like the hope of this world in the distant future. Never, it could collapse here and now.
‘I’ll have to deal better with that.’
Even if I couldn’t directly help him, I thought I’d do my best.
“It’s rather surprising that Cadet Han Chun-seong said that.”
Even at Adelia’s words, I just smiled lightly.
A being that will become stronger than anyone else in this world.
The existence that will grow like that is Leonhard Lorient.
It was his ‘heart’.
Have hope in any crisis.
In this world where a strong heart expresses greater power than anything else, he could become stronger than any other being.
So. I didn’t conclude that it was impossible for him to recover his strength.
***
afternoon when the sun goes down.
Due to the accident, there was a thick silence in the infirmary, where visitation was strictly restricted.
and in between Awake, Leonhardt was staring at the sky outside the window, leaning against the window in a daze.
“… … .”
The sky, which had been blue, turned red as it was dyed by the sunset.
While looking at the beautiful sky… .
Seruk. Leonhard blankly grabbed my hand.
I still don’t feel even the slightest force.
I felt again that I really didn’t feel… at all.
That the energy of the Changchun Il Sword no longer dwells in his body… .
“Leonhard.”
At the voice he heard from beside him, Leonhard turned his head blankly.
Sarak.
Then, her radiant blonde hair caught the sunset and was dyed red. Unlike usual, Leonhard opened his calm eyes and focused on the existence in front of him.
Between the black hair dyed red in the sunset, the eyes full of concern were clearly visible.
That’s why he thought he had to laugh now.
Leonhardt himself felt strongly that since he couldn’t cause other people to worry, he should rather consider himself lucky just to be alive like this.
So he could even open his inseparable mouth.
“As expected… I’m not used to my condition.”
“Soon you will find a way. Eat your heart too hard.”
“yes. I thought so too. For saying that… Thank you, Han Chun-seong.”
After briefly exchanging words, Leonhard soon took his gaze away from nature.
Compassion, sympathy, and the gaze mixed with many other emotions… It seemed that my heart was throbbing just by facing it.
It was as if he was realizing that he had really lost the power of his traits.
“… … .”
Once again, I set my eyes on the sky colored by the sunset outside the window.
Leonhardt raised his head blankly and stared endlessly at the sky stained with red sunset.
Chuncheon, who stood beside him, couldn’t bear to speak.
… … .
Infirmary stained with static. In the meantime, as the days passed, Leonhard began to look at the sky strangely often.
I couldn’t even figure out why that was.
The clear blue sky, the sky dyed red by the sunset, the pitch-black sky enveloped in darkness, and the pure white sky slowly embracing the light as dawn greets… … .
In a few days, I had all the sky in my eyes.
The expansive sky that he had tried to contain in his sword just a few days ago—-.
‘Maybe even this is destiny.’
…I inadvertently came up with such a thought while looking at the sky colored by the sunset.
A foolish thought that it was fate that I had an accident like this.
It was all the more so because the moment a few days ago when I was victimized by the apostle was not a moment I could ever go against, no matter how much I look back.
At that moment, even if they were able to manifest a stronger power, they all felt that they would have fallen short of an apostle.
As for whether I regret my choice to face the apostle… Right now, I only have an extremely profound mind.
“… … .”
Through the reddish sky, the sense of déjà vu and crisis I felt that day rippled through my heart again.
Sensing the presence of the apostle, the moment I sent Yumia back first, I instinctively felt that the apostle’s target was me.
‘You don’t regret that much,’
Conclusions like contradictions fill my mind dizzy.
Even though I heard that I had lost the power of the Changchun Il Sword, I did not regret the decision I made at that moment.
If I tried to get out of the park then.
He said that if he had communicated his intentions to the instructor, he would not have had to go through this catastrophe… … .
“…”
Then, a small smile leaked from his lips.
It was all home anyway.
There was no point in looking back and regretting the past.
I figured that if I hadn’t acted that way, the other cadets in the park would have been hurt or even more harmed.
Above all, the fact that Yumia was not involved in an accident at that time.
…In the midst of the terrifying and terrible sense of loss of losing the Changchun Il Sword, that fact supported my heart greatly.
‘Because it’s not the worst situation for me.’
It was fortunate that I was the only one caught up in the accident and that there were no other victims.
“Come to think of it…”
He sighed blankly and involuntarily turned his gaze to the side.
There, you can see the agaric castle that still holds its place. His eyes went to the bandages on his left shoulder and right waist.
“Agar Castle. I think you’re out of luck too.”
“I am out of luck. I think I was pretty lucky.”
Looking at Han Chun-seong, who said that my words were absurd, he shook his head.
Following the previous apostle’s attack, Han Chun-seong was seriously injured again by being caught up in this apostle’s attack.
However, it seemed to feel even bigger now.
—-Han Chun-seong’s huge presence.
It didn’t feel that way because I lost the power of the Changchun Ilgeom.
“Looking at you, I feel that I am very inadequate.”
While muttering blankly, I sensed the difference between Han Chun-seong and me.
Compared to the terrible accident where I lost the Changchun Il Sword, Han Chunseong, who was in a similar crisis, could have ended up with that much of a wound.
“What do you mean? Why are you lacking?”
“Yeah… You’ve perfected your powers.”
As he spoke, pure admiration filled his heart.
Less than a week has passed since I saw him reach level 5 last week. However, Han Chun-seong achieved an even more unbelievable growth there.
Even laughter leaked out at the sense that the status of existence itself had changed.
“Leonhard. Are you saying you can even feel it?”
When asked with a surprised expression, he nodded slowly.
“I know you have perfected your skill. That’s why I’m just feeling that I’m falling far short.”
Han Chun-seong reached level 5 of his attributes and even completed his skills.
That’s why Han Chun-seong was able to overcome the accident.
Unlike when my heart was broken in the midst of excruciating pain… ….
Because he had the strength to overcome it.
“…Leonhard.”
He slowly shook his head at the extremely cautious voice.
“Because I haven’t given up yet. You don’t have to care that much.”
While talking… I looked at the sky again. It was certain that the characteristics of the Changchun Ilgeom had disappeared from me.
I can’t feel anything that used to guide me, the way to go, and the imagery.
Still, I was determined.
‘Because the sky didn’t disappear.’
…Even in the midst of a terrible sense of futility, I tried to comfort myself.
It was. I could still see the sky. If so, even the reason in the sky didn’t disappear.
“Leonhard. I’m sure you can do it. I can be sure of this. Your talent is better than anyone in the world. Never give up. Be more determined. There must be a way to recover your character. .”
A faint laugh leaked out from the strong voice.
Squeak. I couldn’t understand even though I kept my eyes on him.
‘Why more than me… .’
Does Han Chun-seong feel more certain about me?
It was sincere to see that it was simply a word of encouragement, and the more I listened to it, the more I was amazed.
Gay route?