Became an Academy Spearman chapter 237

237. can’t be friends

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“Would you accept if I kissed you right now?”

It was like a bombshell statement.

Even so, her voice was extremely calm.

When Glesia’s eyes looked so serious that she couldn’t even go beyond joking, her nature seemed to have hardened her body.

As if the accident suddenly stopped, I couldn’t properly accept the situation itself.

‘how… … .’

How can the conversation lead to this flow? And I never thought that Glesia would say something like this to me.

I didn’t know where to begin to understand.

But… what is certain is that Glesia’s feeling was very different.

I felt as if the previous conversation and the relationship I had with Glesia were completely different from before.

“…Glesia?”

Even though the accident didn’t work properly, I called her first.

“uh.”

Her behavior of forcing him to look at him, and even her eyes looking straight into his own eyes, felt strange.

If it’s the Glesia I used to know… .

If it’s the girl I’ve felt all this time… .

She shouldn’t have acted like this to me now.

Because her words and actions came to me completely differently. It was not something I could simply say yes to and move on with her words, as if I had accepted them as pure and natural before.

“Weren’t we… friends?”

Asked about our relationship before anything else.

She treats me with respect, and I know that I didn’t treat her simply at some point.

That much was clear.

It’s not like they were meeting each other in exchange for a price like the first time they had a relationship of interest.

“Of course I think of you as friends.”

“…a friend.”

When I burst into laughter at the expected answer, I saw Glesia hesitate for a moment.

“… … Why?”

Glessia, who answered awkwardly, seemed to feel a sense of difference in my current appearance. And even knowing that, I couldn’t stop laughing.

She now grabs my head and makes me look at herself, clearly ‘interfering’ with me.

It didn’t feel like a worry between friends. In a rational sense, he’s telling me to be careful. Obviously I was feeling

What it means to be wary of Kali.

At first, I was worried, but I didn’t understand what Glesia said. But now I know what he meant.

Glessia was now… in a different sense, telling me to be vigilant.

‘But he’s still my friend… .’

When I looked at Glesia without saying a word, Glesia cleared her throat and looked at me cautiously, blinking her eyes.

“…I think it’s a deeper relationship than a normal friendship.”

Then, as I added a little more explanation, a sigh leaked out.

I think the day I burst into laughter took on a different meaning. Even that was funny.

“ha.”

Taking a deep breath, he slowly raised his hand and let go of Glesia’s hand holding her head.

flinch.

…from Glesia, who flinched a little at the mere touch of my hand. I had to feel a very strange feeling.

‘I just felt really innocent.’

Even now, the idea of pureness toward Glessia hadn’t changed that much.

Glessia was, to put it mildly, a truly ‘pure’ person.

However, if I put it differently, I felt that I was clumsy in interpersonal relationships and that I didn’t know well in many ways. That’s why I thought that he had been acting like this without hesitation.

And on the background… .

—-Because I was the first for her.

There was something Glesia had told me directly with her own mouth. It was the first time I had ever been so close with someone.

So I took it lightly when she said she wanted to try many things as a friend.

When I said that I was the first, I felt that I had to be a little better for her.

I cleared my thoughts quickly and looked straight at Glesia, who came into my field of vision.

“… … .”

Even though my hand fell from my head, I didn’t look elsewhere. I was looking at Glesia as it was, and Glesia was looking at me like that.

From nob le mt l. co m

Now that we are facing each other, we had to check properly.

“Glesia.”

“…”

“I’ll point out one over the others.”

Even though I gently let go of my luck, I felt very complicated.

“… … huh.”

As if nervous about my words, Glesia swallowed her saliva, and put her thoughts into her mouth.

“A friendship with me that you want… how far do you want that?”

“Agar Castle. What are you talking about.”

“I’m not talking about it, I’m asking the exact words I spit out. It’s because I’m curious about how far you want from me.”

I had to check it out while speaking calmly.

Glesia had clearly determined our relationship to be friends with me from the beginning. I recognized it and accepted it as it is.

but. Glessia’s attitude toward me now was not like that.

She’s clearly more than just a relationship with me now. I was looking beyond it.

“I am Han Chun-seong. I’m not quite sure what you mean by your question. Did it sound so strange that I just told you to be careful and vigilant of Instructor Carly?”

Then, as if asking what was wrong with her, Glesia narrowed her eyes.

Her transparent eyes seemed to be saying, “Isn’t it possible to say that much?” Without realizing it, I let out a sigh again.

“hahahaha… yeah that sounded really weird.”

“My words sounded strange… .”

“okay. Because your words are strange.”

Glessia was clearly crossing the line now.

And the meaning of those words might be what Glesia herself felt, but the meaning was too clear for me to feel.

‘It sounds like you’re trying to interfere with me.’

It wasn’t like interference as a friend. He was trying to interfere with my relationship with the opposite s*x.

And soon… … .

It meant that our relationship, which we considered friends, would never become close friends.

“First, Glesia, you said you were friends with me. It’s also a very close relationship. It’s a deep relationship rather than an ordinary friendship.”

“…okay. It was.”

“Then why did you feel that I had to be careful and vigilant against Instructor Carly?”

“That’s because you felt… defenseless.”

“Why did I look defenseless?”

“You just accept everything. When someone approaches you, rather than rejecting it, you first think that the action has meaning and allow it.”

Glesia, who answered my repeated questions immediately, was really outspoken.

As if he really thought that way, and as if there was no lie at all, he looked me in the eyes and answered straight up.

It wasn’t that she didn’t like her attitude. Because there were no lies.

Even so, the ‘essential answer’ I really wanted was not mentioned in her mouth at all.

“You don’t like me letting anyone in then? Like you said, Instructor Kali…or accepting someone else like Karite or Milia?”

So I asked more bluntly.

“… … .”

Wow, Glesia frowned.

Her eyes stared at me, but her lips didn’t open as easily as before.

So I talked more.

“Glesia, you said we were friends.”

“okay. Because we are friends. Aren’t I supposed to worry about you?”

“Because we’re friends… are you worried about me allowing others distance?”

“Yes, you can worry because we are friends. And because I thought that if someone approached you with a dark mind, you would be beaten… That’s why I said that. Because you seemed so careless.”

As the conversation reached point-blank range, the laughter leaked out again.

It’s not something I can do because I’m a friend, so I deliberately asked her over and over so she could feel it.

Even so, Glesia could hardly accept my words.

‘…I really think I’m going to get weird.’

The more we talked, the more I seemed to become an idiot.

I thought that Glesia would understand what I wanted to say, and that the point of the words was understandable. And I thought that being innocent was not synonymous with being stupid.

And the Glesia I knew was smart enough.

She was the woman who knew how to make ends meet, and who knew how to express what she wanted and disliked better than anyone else.

“… … .”

But now, with her lips tightly shut, she was staring at me with a hint of displeasure.

He stares at me with a challenging look, telling me to try again if he has more to say, but he really has done nothing wrong. So I even felt proud.

His eyes seemed to really care about me as a friend. And those eyes are full of sadness… .

From nob le mt l. co m

Now, when I met her eyes, I was amazed.

‘Are you doing this on purpose?’

He seems naive, as if he doesn’t know what’s wrong with his behavior or why I’m asking him again and again, but from my point of view, this is no longer a matter of clumsiness.

just… … .

Of course I had to know.

why did you do this to me Did everyone say that… .

It was strange not knowing that.

“Glesia.”

I calmed down and called her again.

“why.”

The blunt answer made me stop coming.

I guess I’ll have to see if she’s really ignorant now, or if she’s naturally capable of this attitude.

“You told me. If I kiss you, will I accept it as it is?”

Startle.

As she recited the words to me, I saw her eyes widen.

“… … .”

She was very agitated, and she seemed to know that the words were accidental.

And I don’t even say those words as a joke. It was felt from Glesia herself.

“What the hell did you expect me to answer?”

“That is true. I meant you to be more careful… vigilant. Not in the literal sense… .”

Glessia, who opened her mouth with difficulty, could not answer as confidently as before.

A shy and cautious look.

…her answer was still not satisfactory to me. So, the stigma grew even bigger.

“So can you kiss me?”

I will treat you the same as Glesia.