Became an Academy Spearman chapter 238

238. an irreversible illusion

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“That is true. I meant you to be more careful… vigilant. Not in the literal sense…”

Even as she answered, Glesia’s heart was greatly shaken.

Why did Han Chun-seong hang on to her words… She didn’t understand. In Glessia’s eyes, the image of the castle came into view.

“… … .”

The way Han Chun-seong’s eyes sink,

And it was like a look in her eyes that made her feel a little afraid.

The last conversation was also different from usual.

Han Chun-seong, who had always treated himself gently and calmly, could not erase the feeling that he had suddenly changed.

“Can you kiss me?”

Then, for a moment, she doubted her ears.

“Agar Castle… … ?”

I felt like my heart was floating even when I was absent-mindedly calling the name.

It was just an accidental remark.

It was a word I had unknowingly said, and one I didn’t even have in my heart. Above all, there was no way Han Chun-seong and I would do something like that.

…It was just that Han Chun-seong, feeling defenseless, wanted me to be careful after hearing my words.

“Glesia. I asked if I could.”

“Don’t do that, I told you. I didn’t mean it that way.”

“Well, it doesn’t feel that way to me.”

Took. The two eyes of Han Chun-seong, who answered calmly, stared at me coldly.

Black eyes that seemed to see right through me, and yet, every word I said was very mischievous.

“What do you mean it didn’t feel that way… ?”

I inadvertently asked that question.

“I mean literally.”

Even his lips did not move well at those cold words.

‘Something… strange.’

The sudden change was embarrassing, and I felt like I had answered something wrong.

At the same time, the appearance of Han Chun-seong, which came into view, was heterogeneous. It wasn’t like this just a moment ago, but I can’t believe that attitude can suddenly change like this.

I thought there was a reason for what I said.

That is, to be careful and vigilant of Instructor Carly.

‘I am… .’

I didn’t think I did anything wrong with that.

It was a word I said purely out of concern for Han Chun-seong, and the look in Instructor Kali’s eyes I looked at was the look that lovers usually have when they look at someone.

And it wasn’t supposed to be.

I can’t be sure, but just because I felt that kind of emotion made Instructor Carly think it was dangerous.

Moreover, in the position of instructor and cadet, it is usually difficult for cadets to assert themselves. If it was the Han Chun-seong I knew, I might have accepted Instructor Kali unintentionally.

Even though the whole thing was absurd, I thought it wouldn’t be good if it happened anyway.

“Agar Castle.”

“uh.”

“…Did I say something wrong?”

Even when I opened my mouth, I felt really strange.

I only said it because I was worried, but I feel like Han Chun-seong keeps keeping me away.

“I don’t mean to say you did anything wrong. I just did it because the things you said to me bothered me.”

“Don’t talk like that… strangely.”

“What did I say strangely?”

“I want you to tell me the reason why you are doing this to me right now. Why did my words make you feel bad, or why did they bother you?”

Even as I said it over and over again, I felt frustrated.

It wasn’t this.

I didn’t say this hoping for a situation like this.

“I don’t have much to say, it’s because your words sound strange to me. Actually, it’s because we’re friends, and I wonder if it’s really like that… Actually, I’m not sure either. What do you want me to tell you?”

After Han Chun-seong quietly closed his eyes, my heart seemed to sink.

‘Strange… .’

Agar was too strange.

And my heart when I saw that kind of agar was also different from before.

I’ve had a good time so far, wondering if it’s comfortable, fun, and cozy when I’m with friends.

All those feelings were gone now.

Instead of such good feelings, it seemed impatient and impatient.

Above all, I feel the distance between Han Chun-seong and my heart. It was an indescribable feeling.

It was a very unpleasant feeling.

I had no idea what the hell Han Chun-seong wanted from me.

“… … .”

Then, I felt where Han Chun-seong’s gaze was heading.

His gaze, which had sunk since he no longer looked into my eyes, was directed a little further down. And it felt unintentional.

‘My lips… … ?’

Unknowingly, I slowed down.

Han Chun-seong’s gaze was clearly looking at my lips. Then, it came to mind.

ㅡWould you accept it if I kissed you right now?

A word I accidentally said.

…that Han Chun-seong was always paying attention to those words.

“ha.”

Then he let out a deep sigh, and for a moment no words came out.

“No, it’s okay. I just want you to forget what I said before. It’s so real that I’m behaving like this… It just feels fleeting. Glesia. Shall we take a little walk?”

When Han Chun-seong suddenly shook his head with a meaningless smile… My heart was strangely shaken.

“… … .”

And I realized it belatedly.

Unlike usual, Han Chun-seong continued to bite my words. When I think about it, I had a strong feeling that I wanted to hear something from me.

And in the middle of it, he repeatedly asked me if my friendship was right, and I said that my words were strange.

…and that.

“Glesia? If I looked a little odd… I just want you to forget about it.”

Seeing Han Chun-seong smiling awkwardly, I inadvertently grabbed his hand.

Seruk.

My heart fluttered even louder as I caught my eyes on the white cadet uniform that had been disturbed by my touch.

‘Now I… .’

It felt like Han Chun-seong had figured out what he wanted from me.

So the fact that Han Chun-seong acted like this to me was also.

‘Han Chun-seong has always been me… … .’

I was breathing hard even thinking about it.

Because the words I had uttered struck Han Chun-seong’s heart.

And the crux of our conversation wasn’t about Instructor Carly. That was purely my delusion.

The reason the conversation went awry… .

He asked if he would accept it if I kissed him.

“…Glesia? Is it because I am so strange?”

Even with that voice calling me over and over again, I couldn’t get out of my thoughts.

Han Chun-seong’s voice continued to be heard, but my mind kept shaking so loudly that I couldn’t organize my thoughts.

‘I’ve treated Han Chun-seong as a close friend.’

Han Chun-seong, who accepted me, was not like that.

The actions that I thought of as approaching a friend could be taken in a completely different meaning to Han Chun-seong.

“sorry. The reason I did that to you a moment ago was because my heart was so frustrated.”

So, Han Chun-seong also showed a strange appearance.

It felt like all the puzzles were fitting together.

“…Agar-star.”

When I opened my mouth in a daze, I saw Han Chun-seong’s slightly brighter expression.

“I’ll be honest with you now. i have You and I are friends… … .”

Looking at Han Chun-seong, who returned as usual, he stretched out his hands.

Han Chun-seong… the answer you want from me.

He was already expressing it to me through words and actions.

It’s just that I’m too late to realize that.

snap.

He held his face with both hands and tilted his upper body at the same time.

“… … !!”

There was no more hesitation as he held the two eyes of Han Chun-seong wide open.

Because I know the answer

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“…Glesia? Is it because I am so strange?”

As he spoke, the heavens came to a realization.

– Real people can naturally not know their own feelings.

-It is possible that you are not aware of why you act and say the way you do.

Surprisingly, I could feel it while looking at Glesia.

Greatly embarrassed, Glesia tried to accommodate me by even asking what she had done wrong.

And she asked me sincerely to tell me why it was on my mind…

So I decided to stop acting while thinking about Glessia.

‘I really can’t believe it.’

I know you didn’t do that intentionally. Just looking at Glesia now made me feel empty.

“…Agar-star.”

My heart was complicated by the sound of her voice calling me.

Just because he knew that Glesia’s mind was in an ambiguous state. When I asked what I was going to do, there was no answer.

‘How do I… .’

because you can’t

I was in a state where I couldn’t reject or accept her.

“I’ll be honest with you now. i have You and I are friends… … .”

Glesia became even more important to me because she got clues about her skills. I can’t reject her and turn away… … .

The thought that went on like that.

Seruk.

Unknowingly, my face was completely cut off by being caught.

And I didn’t even know how to react.

“… … !!”

The moment when Glesia’s suddenly approaching face seemed too close.

side.

My body froze at the soft feeling of touching my lips.

It was so sudden, it felt like my hair was dyed white.

“… .”

Even so, Glesia’s transparent eyes come into my field of vision. Her watery eyes were completely focused on me.

The time when her lips were stolen without taking any action.

The moment that felt like an eternity passed by before I knew it.

Suk… .

Glessia’s face moved away as her lips slowly separated from mine.

“Hey, just this far… … .”

Even as I watched her get up and walk away…

I blankly put my hand to my lips.

“…”