Became an Academy Spearman chapter 243

243. a hardened heart

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I didn’t know what kind of answer Cadet Han Chun-seong wanted from me.

So I remembered the first words and decided to honestly convey my thoughts.

“Marquis Sejulia’s words. I don’t think it’s wrong to take responsibility. I think it is basically right to live with many people as an aristocrat.”

“…is that so?”

“yes. And although it may be a little different… I think the way he loves is okay too. Because many people have their own love, and that love is the most important thing they feel. I don’t want an outsider to interfere and change their love no matter what.”

“The love of each one… Yes. I understand what you mean.”

“And yes. However, I don’t think Marquis Sejulia’s method is entirely correct. The gender balance in the empire has collapsed a lot right now… Maybe it’s far from the system the empire pursues. So, no matter how noble a woman is, to have a large number of men by herself… It is very ambiguous from the point of view of other women.”

Even though I said it calmly, that was my sincerity.

As a female aristocrat, in the case of the high-ranking Marquis Sejulia, she takes care of herself thoroughly.

She had a wide reputation as an attractive woman who knew how to be loved by the opposite s*x.

Moreover, she has the wealth to have many men, authority, and even charm as a woman.

That’s why I didn’t blame her love for loving multiple beings. It’s not because she’s forcibly taking a man and making it her own.

And if you think about changing your gender, that kind of thing happens easily even now, and no one is to blame.

‘…therefore.’

Looking at Cadet Han Chun-seong, who seemed lost in thought as he nodded at my words, I felt the need to add something.

“But what I want Cadet Han Chun-seong to know more is that most of the other female aristocrats don’t think so well.”

Clearly, it was not institutionally prohibited. Rather, it was taken for granted that male aristocrats had many women, and the empire even encouraged it.

…Anyway, even female aristocrats don’t have that feeling.

With the current state of the empire, trying to have multiple men alone is not a good attitude… … .

“…thank you for letting me know more.”

Seeing her answer calmly, she smiled lightly, but her heart seemed to flutter.

The subject of our conversation, albeit indirectly, was love. And the one right in front of me… was the one I loved.

“no. If you have any further questions, ask. I’ll answer anything.”

“Thank you for your words.”

Looking at him with a light smile, the conversation continued in a friendly atmosphere.

In a way, it seems trivial, but non-trivial conversations.

It was a time to learn more about Cadet Han Chun-seong, which I did not know about, so it was meaningful to all of them, and it seemed like my heart was relaxed.

“I… Instructor Adelia.”

“yes. Cadets of Han Chun-seong.”

“What do you think… about a man having multiple women?”

‘Cadet Han Chun-seong followed today… .’

I wanted to ask a lot of strange questions, but it was strange.

A question you don’t normally ask. He has enough charm, but he is not very familiar with women, so he expresses great interest in heteros*xual relationships.

“I don’t think it’s that bad.”

Compared to the previous question, the current question was easier to answer to me.

“…If you say it’s not bad, could you be more specific?”

“I don’t know what I want to be specific about, but it’s just what I said. Because if a man has the ability to do that, having multiple women can do that too. Rather, it is highly recommended in the Empire. And as Cadet Han Chun-seong knows… Right now, the Empire lacks men.”

It was calm, but there was no feeling.

Cadet Han Chun-seong said he was answering questions, but I also understood the social atmosphere.

There are too many people dying on the front right now.

In the case of officers, the survival rate for many years on the front line is only a certain amount… but the survival rate of people standing in the Empire as soldiers is too low.

“Ah… that’s what you mean.”

“And when you think of the men who apply for the frontlines as soldiers, there is a part of them that is sacrificed.”

Even though he spoke without hesitation, he naturally remembered the past.

The time when I served on the front as an officer and treated countless people. And at that time, the s*x ratio of the frontlines I had seen at the time had no choice but to be different.

In the Empire, gender is clearly not discriminated against or treated differently.

Even if they discriminate in many other areas, they did not discriminate on the front lines. Soldiers were given better treatment than most occupations.

However, the difference in the rate of support for soldiers to serve on the frontlines between men and women was striking.

“And I’m saying this because I’m a Chun-seong cadet. I think there is a part that needs to be sacrificed to some extent. Of course, since you get a decent treatment and a salary, everyone will support you to stand on the frontlines. Even female cadets tend to avoid the front line a lot.”

“I think it can’t be helped.”

“It can’t be helped… Does Cadet Han Chun-seong really think that way?”

He responded promptly, but gave a slightly subtle smile.

—-Why did the imperial society drive female aristocrats like that?

The reason why male aristocrats might have been treated more… I already understood.

Why is it that male aristocrats take it for granted even if they have multiple women? Gender imbalance is one reason, but not all.

“Does Instructor Adelia think otherwise?”

“I think differently. I don’t think it’s right to see someone avoiding the wire. The Empire is now in great danger from the obvious monsters and apostles, and we are relying on a peace that can only be maintained when someone must stand on the front line. If we take it for granted to avoid it… Conversely, wouldn’t it be too unreasonable for the beings who should stand on the front line?”

“…That’s right.”

“So, I don’t think it should be taken for granted. We need to see and treat them better.”

It was a fundamental reason.

One side is making a great sacrifice.

It wasn’t because he was a commoner, but even as an aristocrat, males had an overwhelmingly higher rate of frontline support than female aristocrats.

So there was something to be taken for granted.

…In a broad sense, they are sacrificing for themselves.

Of course, anyone can be treated well, regardless of whether they are male or female. Even now, depending on the person with great aspirations, there is a structure in place for female aristocrats to stand above countless men.

A typical example was the Marquis of Sejulia.

After graduating from the academy, she went straight to the front line, and for 8 years, she was able to rise to the incredibly high title of Marquis by supporting the front line with a high reputation. That’s why even if she has many men, no one mentions it in front of her, even though many words may come and go.

From nob le mt l. co m

No one could deny that he sacrificed his youth while devoting himself to the empire.

There was a basic courtesy for those who had sacrificed themselves for the empire while defending the frontlines for the last few centuries. If you are a being living in the empire, you have no choice but to have it.

At least I felt that way.

“In fact, I can understand if it is an ancient society until the characteristics appear. There are inevitable differences, either physically or in having to take care of one’s own children, but I think that the world that has been endowed with traits has virtually eliminated those differences.”

Even though I was talking in principle, I felt a little funny.

“And because I think that if anyone wants to be treated well, they have to do something worthy of it. As an aristocrat, of course, you don’t enjoy your position… You have to take on the responsibilities that go along with it. I consider it a ‘duty’ now.”

So, as soon as I graduated from the academy, I went to the front, and after serving for many years, I was now treating cadets like this at the academy.

Rather than trying to enjoy a comfortable life with a family halo on his back. To be treated with dignity myself. I made that choice because I wanted to be in that position.

And there was not the slightest regret in standing on the frontlines to know the reality of the Empire.

“…I think all of them are right.”

A small smile leaked out as he looked at Cadet Han Chun-seong, who nodded with serious eyes. How did we come to talk about such a heavy subject? No, I felt like I had become too serious about something.

“I’m sure I mentioned love at first… I’m sorry. It made the atmosphere heavy without my knowledge.”

“no. I rather enjoyed hearing what you said. I also have a great interest in wires.”

“uh. What I’m interested in… … ?”

“When I graduate, I also intend to go to the front.”

Seeing the cadet Han Chun-seong speak without hesitation, I hesitated for a moment.

“Uh, the agar star cadet over there? I didn’t mean to force you to stand on the front line. It really wasn’t my intention at all… .”

“Instructor Adelia. I didn’t take it that way either. But… it’s because I completely understand and accept what the instructor said. Because I was thinking of going to the front after graduation from the beginning.”

As he finished his speech, he looked at me with a light smile and a confident look, and while Cadet Han Chun-seong was so admirable, my heart seemed to sink.

‘I know Cadet Han Chun-seong is showing tremendous growth, but… .’

Still, the fact that the man I liked was heading to the front line was very different, even if the feeling was different.

There was a crazy difference between me going to the front and being proud of myself… and having a loved one go to the front.

“And it seems that my heart is more firmly set because of Instructor Adelia’s words. I am so grateful now.”

“no. I didn’t say anything big, so I’ll say it again, Chun-seong Han? I didn’t say that I had to stand on the front line, so I hope you don’t think too much about it from now on.”

…As I spoke, my heart felt like a strong push on my back.

my values. I do not hesitate to convey my beliefs as they are. Still, this isn’t it now.

Having experienced it firsthand, I knew how dangerous the frontlines were, and I wasn’t at all happy that someone I loved was going there.

“it’s okay. Instructor Adelia. I made my decision on my own.”

…But I blinked my eyes in a daze at the sight of him continuously giving definite answers.

‘I… .’

What the hell did I say?

From nob le mt l. co m

Not long after I entered school, I told the cadets about the front line, and I strongly pushed my values, saying that we should take it for granted.

And I saw him with a determined look in his eyes that he would head to the front now.

“…”

It was a look with firm determination, so on the contrary, my heart seemed to freeze even more.