Became an Academy Spearman chapter 244

244. indirect confession

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Seruk.

From nob le mt l. co m

Now leaving behind the closed restaurant door. Chun-seong’s mind was at its most calm in recent days.

‘I’m glad I met Adelia.’

I thought the same thing when I glanced at her beside her.

Decisions I made reluctantly, things like my thoughts, I felt like I had found a complete answer now.

“Instructor Adelia. Lunch was so delicious. I will definitely buy it next time.”

“Fugh… I really don’t mean that as a joke.”

Looking at Adelia smiling through the sunlight coming through the high-rise windows, I felt that I had a proper goal in my life.

And the important thing.

—-Not forced to accept it, he chose that path himself.

It was no longer a grudging acceptance.

Maybe that’s why, rather than being confused like before, I’m even excited now. It’s not that I’m vaguely afraid or worried. You can move forward with confidence in yourself.

All in all, I thought I was going to ‘take it’.

Even going downstairs, he spoke first.

“I. Instructor Adelia.”

“yes. Cadets of Han Chun-seong.”

“I have a goal in my life.”

“What is your goal in life?

There were few people around, even as we met eyes at the curious voice.

The place where we are now is the high-rise lounge among the academy rest facilities. It was a place where expensive restaurants were lined up, so there were very few people.

Only a handful of instructors and senior academy staff are visible. So there was no hesitation in speaking.

I wanted to reveal my goal for the first time to the woman who held me so that I could make up my mind.

“The goal is to become a noble.”

“If you are a noble… … .”

“That will also be a really high nobility. It is often referred to as the axis of the empire. I am aiming for that kind of existence and moving forward.”

A faint smile leaked out as he revealed his great aspirations to her.

“Cadets of Han Chun-seong. That’s why you said you would stand on the front line.”

“yes. Because you have to have your value recognized by the empire. But that doesn’t mean I’m going to stand on the front line with a light heart. Since I have a goal like this, I will only do my best in the future for that goal.”

There was no hesitation.

On the contrary, the more I spoke, the more my mind seemed to perceive the way forward refreshingly.

The self that I won’t be afraid to love someone.

And the arrogant mindset that I will embrace the existence that likes me as it is.

By deciding that, all delusion in my mind was gone.

I was confident to put it into practice.

As I looked at her like that, Adelia looked at me with a very strange look.

“… … Cadet of Hancheonseong. To be honest, I kind of regretted it.”

“Regret?”

“By bringing up the word about the front line, I felt I forced something too much on Cadet Han Chun-seong. I regretted it because I thought he made that decision because of me.”

Seeing her answer carefully, a natural smile leaked out.

‘As expected, he’s a kind person.’

And when I’m with her, I feel warm and at ease.

So, it seemed to me that I had a heart for her.

“The instructor’s words certainly didn’t have an impact on me, but I hope you don’t think negatively about it. It is because I intend to fulfill my responsibility and duty by correcting my mind that I was going to apply for the front line. And with that as a stepping stone, I even came up with a goal in my life, so I’m just grateful to the instructor.”

Sincerity.

He only spoke words full of sincerity.

“Because you said that… Thank you, but my heart is complicated. Although he is now an instructor who takes care of the cadets, he once served on the front as an officer, so I will not stop Cadet Han Chun-seong from thinking of going to the front… I don’t regret it now. If you are a Cadet of Han Chun-seong, you can trust it.”

Carefully listening to her words, she made serious eye contact.

And in meeting her eyes, I felt proud of myself now.

‘perhaps.’

I didn’t know that this might be something close to self-confidence.

It might be a hasty judgment that I even decided on my life goals just because she answered me.

‘Wouldn’t it be okay… .’

I wondered if my goal in life needed a greater opportunity than now. I was able to have confidence in my heart even in the slightest chance.

And now that I think there is nothing more important than my heart when it comes to living life.

“Just saying that you believe in me seems to give me great strength.”

Above all, because of her words, I am no longer troubled.

Do not worry and do not worry.

That’s why I was truly grateful to Adelia.

From nob le mt l. co m

Now I was confident in my actions and just did it.

It wasn’t ‘me’ who decided how the other person would accept my actions.

“… … .”

Like Adelia, who meets my eyes without saying a word even now. Because they will listen to me and give their own answers to my actions.

The point is, I wasn’t forcing them to do anything.

I was only able to establish my own attitude.

Thinking about how they’ll accept me will only distract me.

“Instructor Adelia. Would you like a little more time?”

“…it’s possible.”

So I was able to approach her first.

Because there is no more hesitation.

… … .

There are quite a few parks in the academy.

As there is a site wide enough to accommodate various facilities, the park inside is also diverse.

that buck

From nob le mt l. co m

Now that I found a park with a small lake with Adelia, my heart felt tickled.

I changed my mind, and as if Adelia felt it, from a certain moment on, she was treating me cautiously. And he looks at me with a soft attitude, as if he’s willing to listen to what I have to say.

That’s why I thought I should show Adelia a little bit of my heart.

“It’s a bit sudden, but Instructor Adelia.”

“yes.”

“Until recently, I thought that love was only about seeing one person.”

“Did I…?”

“yes. I thought that was consideration for the other person and straight love. And even now, that thought is not very different.”

I slowly put Adelia in my eyes.

Her emerald hair glistened brilliantly in the sunlight. And even more so, she looked even more beautiful.

And even though I have such thoughts, I put the direction I will pursue as it is.

“But I guess I naturally come to like someone who likes me.”

“…!”

Looking at her with her eyes wide open, she paused for a moment.

Seruk.

I turned my head away from the startled woman and looked at the still rippling surface of the lake.

‘Wouldn’t this be enough for now?’

It was an indirect answer to her feelings.

Since I’m not ready to accept her right now, I thought it would take time.

And it wasn’t just Adelia.

Even if other women accepted me, I wanted to work harder because I had to be more proud of them.

“Someone likes Cadet Han Chun-seong… so you came to like it?”

Hearing that unexpectedly calm voice, he continued talking while keeping his eyes on the surface of the water.

“yes. So, at first, I thought that my feelings were not right. In fact, no matter who I am, I felt it was too much. I thought I shouldn’t even approach her, but the more I thought about it, the more I changed my mind.”

I was vaguely aware of it even as I spoke.

‘Because I think I’m quite greedy.’

I thought the situation was not good enough to have someone in my heart, but now I realize that someone has a heart for me.

I didn’t want to make them give up.

As soon as the desire to reject them disappears, the absurd desire to possess them only fills up.

And when the various delusions disappeared, I clearly realized my heart and couldn’t deny it.

“I think that’s why my values have changed so drastically. I’m a little confused, and I’m also in agony… but if I reach a high position, I can confidently like the person who likes me.”

As I continued talking with my gaze on the lake… I thought it was a very strange answer.

I know Adelia’s heart, but I can only say this to her.

Even though I was funny, I thought there was nothing I could do about it right now.

That’s how my heart is now.

I can’t fool my heart like this, and I have no intention of fooling her.

So, for the first time, I was revealing this truth to her.

I will have someone who likes me, and I will work harder for that.

And the fact that this applies to other women… … .

Seruk.

He slowly turned his gaze away and ran into Adelia again.

“No matter what you think of me, I will accept whatever Instructor Adelia decides.”

So I won’t ask her to accept me.

I just honestly tell her that my attitude is like this. Because she knows the answer lies in her.

“… … I don’t think that attitude is bad.”

The look in Adelia’s eyes as she listened to me and responded was now definitely lovely.

I felt that she fully understood what I was saying.

The many words I said to her, that she fully knew the meaning of those words. And since it’s ‘Adelia’, I was talking to her.

A woman with whom I spend a lot of time. And because I expressed that heart to me in the middle of the day.

…I already knew the answer.

All of her inclinations, values, thoughts, and even her heart.

Because I know she’ll give me this answer… … .

“I wanted to give Instructor Adelia an answer to my heart.”

So I was telling her

from now on, I will…

that you will like her