264. her and his special practice
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“The foundation of the foundations of openness. Calm down your mind first and then calmly express your mana. This can be said to be the foundation of the foundations of openness.”
Carly’s voice, which had been heard calmly, continued.
“You can imagine covering your entire body with the manifested mana. And to maintain that state under any circumstance. This is one of the ‘minimum’ conditions to awaken openness.”
As if following her words, I accepted everything.
With a calm mind and a sedentary posture, I manifested mana.
smoothly… … .
I could clearly feel the blue mana that gently passed over me from the starting point, covering my whole body.
Originally, as a habit, even including the nature of the spiral in mana was completely excluded.
‘Opening.’
From nob le mt l. co m
Now that Carly is informing about the opening. My mind had lost all previous thoughts.
Right now, I just keep my eyes on Kali, who is expressing mana in the same form as me from the front.
“Yeah, keep it that way. You can look at me and follow me, or you can empty your mind and only think of mana. It doesn’t matter what the process is, because maintaining it is important.”
A faint blue light wrapped around Kali’s entire body.
…it didn’t look as huge as before. It wasn’t the amount of blue mana that would overwhelm the space I’d seen for the first time.
Watching her adjust her mana to suit me, I was able to follow suit.
‘slowly.’
And while concentrating, he recognized the mana covering his whole body.
An hour passed just like that.
So far, there has been no change in words or actions.
Each other expresses mana while seated in the inner chamber of the training ground. And time to just keep it.
From nob le mt l. co m
Nevertheless, changes soon appeared.
“…”
My breathing slowed down little by little.
It started to become difficult little by little to continuously express mana at a certain level, that is, to express and maintain enough to cover my entire body.
‘Is that why you told me that… ?’
When Carly talked about opening up, she said that she couldn’t guarantee whether I would be enlightened or not. Because I said it has to be an innate quality and not something anyone can be sure of.
So she only teaches as much as she can.
“… … .”
Seeing Kali still expressing mana in a state of immobility, he was extremely calm.
On the other hand, my mana seemed to be gradually cracking. The feeling that the mana that enveloped my whole body fluctuated and gradually escaped my control.
Just wrapping the manifested mana all over the body seemed to strain the mind from a certain point on.
A strange feeling as if mana was trying to get away from my will… … .
It felt as if it wanted to disperse into the atmosphere rather than try to wrap itself around me.
“You will feel it slowly now.”
And then. Carly has spoken.
“The sense that the manifested mana escapes the body and is about to disperse into the atmosphere. Originally, we should have consumed the manifested mana as if it were burning, but we are not consuming it now and are maintaining it. I don’t normally feel this sensation. Because I usually don’t think about not using mana like this.”
I could relate to everything she said between the softly flowing voices.
“… … .”
Still, I didn’t open my mouth.
There was a condition Carly demanded of me. Don’t just think about listening to yourself and understanding, and don’t answer.
…Although conscious of that, I ruminate on what she said as if it were being shoved into my head.
“And from now on, it will be a hard time in earnest… Cadet Chunseong Han. You have to eat hard.”
My mouth seemed to dry up inadvertently at the sound of a slightly more serious voice.
‘From now on… ?’
I feel like I’m already squeamish like this. Carly was telling me it was just getting started.
***
ㅡ open.
Carly decided to start practicing openness today.
By now, the strength of the attributes and the strength of the skills had reached a stable period, so it was worth starting.
And now putting that thought into practice.
In her field of vision, she could see a very struggling nature.
“Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha…”
The sound of rough breathing is heard more clearly.
And it was visible that he was having a much harder time compared to the previous training or sparring.
It was obviously not physically exhausting.
‘…because my heart is tired.’
I also understood why.
When the mental burden indirectly affects the body, such a bizarre state follows.
The body is obviously not tired, but the mind complains of extreme fatigue and the body tries to get out of this state.
…That’s why it was difficult to maintain that appearance.
‘Because it’s the first time I’ve been a cadet in Han Chun-seong.’
I was like that at first too.
It was because I knew at that time that it would be much more difficult to just wear it all over the body without consuming the manifested mana than to manifest it.
Even so, Cadet Han Chun-seong was enduring enough to feel proud.
Before we knew it, we were fulfilling close to 2 hours.
“…”
I’m used to it now, so I can say I’m in a state of absolute comfort. And just as the mana that surrounds my body supports me, I don’t feel the slightest burden in this upright posture.
however.
“…”
Cadet Han Chun-seong, biting his lips after exhaling a rough breath, would be completely different from what I felt.
Even being in a sitting position is extremely difficult, and you will feel a kind of helplessness beyond cramping because you can’t do anything else in that state.
That’s why I emphasized it several times in the last two hours.
You must maintain an upright posture. You can’t move or try to escape.
‘Because this is basic.’
Openness was a force that was qualitatively different from its characteristics.
It deals with mana and puts the space under its will at the end. In a way, it could be said that it was a power that could be compared to the area unique to an apostle.
Because it is such a special and heterogeneous power, it takes a lot of pain to awaken it.
So much so that most people can’t even wake up. Even outstanding qualities were required.
‘It’s not enough just to be talented.’
So open is not sure who. Being a Cadet of Han Chun-seong can definitely enlighten you… .
One thing is for sure though. Putting space under oneself would inevitably involve a larger group than mana.
If he couldn’t even endure his own mana with willpower, he couldn’t even dream of opening up.
… … .
Another hour passed like that.
In the meantime, I didn’t say anything to Cadet Han Chun-seong.
To the Han Chunseong cadet in the front, I was just showing myself, manifesting the ideal form of mana, as if to guide me.
“… … .”
And I can’t do it hard. At some point, looking at the cadet Han Chun-seong, who had completely lost focus… a faint breath leaked out.
‘Is today going to end here?’
In fact, even at this level, Cadet Han Chun-seong did really well.
ㅡExceeding expectations.
As always, Cadet Han Chun-seong showed something beyond my expectations, and it was the same today.
The focus of both eyes is gone. It is proof that he has entered a state of trance.
The first day of training was truly commendable for reaching that level. However, the whole body was full of cold sweat, and I couldn’t force it anymore with the extremely tired look.
“Cadets of Hancheon Castle.”
Carefully calling him, the mana wrapped around my whole body was immediately released.
“…”
When I blankly met my eyes, I immediately raised my body.
“Today ends here. Release the mana wrapped around your body. And now you can talk.”
“……ah.”
He had only expressed mana in silence for several hours at my words, and when he opened his mouth, I immediately took a step forward.
again… … !
As I moved, I saw it in my eyes.
Squeak.
The fact that the cadet’s body leans forward at the same time as he releases mana. I naturally took him into my arms.
Warak.
Still, I felt a little sorry.
“Are you having a hard time right now?”
“Yes… It’s a bit difficult…”
A voice that nodded with no strength, and the body of Cadet Han Chun-seong leaning on me… was really light as a feather.
Even though he’s in my arms, he’s so tired that he can’t even lift a hand… .
“Cadets of Han Chun-seong. Because my body will hug you For now, just make up your mind. The action a while ago puts a pretty heavy burden on the mind. Your head will go blank.”
He gently stroked his back as he spoke softly.
And I felt a strange smell.
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Now that I was holding him, I could feel every trace of exhaustion in my body.
Still, I didn’t care at all.
Rather, the appearance of the cadet Han Chun-seong was taken for granted.
It’s not that it’s strange to be dirty or disheveled from sweating… .
‘Because it has no choice but to be like this.’
“…then I’ll ask for a little more.”
At that belated reply, I gently patted him on the back and hugged him a little deeper.
“Even if it’s not a little, it’s okay.”
Even as I said that, something… I felt like my mind was at peace.
‘Something is strange… .’
It was to hug him so that he could lean on comfortably.
However, I felt like my heart was sinking more comfortably.
Moreover, the person I love is in such a difficult state, but I rather like it.
This situation, which made him lean on my arms when he was exhausted… I felt an undeniably strange sense of fulfillment.
The feeling of having the cadet of Han Chun-seong as my own.
The satisfaction that comes from relying on me for everything without being able to resist at all… .
“Because openness is not something that can be learned in a short time. You don’t have to try harder. just like i tell you Cadet Han Chun-seong just needs to rely on me like now.”
Even while filling up his selfishness, he did not forget what he had to say.
softly.
After that, how long did he hug Cadet Han?
…At the sound of his light breathing, I carefully removed him from his arms.
Then, I saw the face that was extremely tired and asleep.
As if I was comfortable in my arms, I laughed at the sight of him sleeping defenselessly.
“… … .”
Then, without realizing it, my lips became hesitant.
When I turned my gaze to the side, quite a lot of time had passed.
ㅡ9:13 p.m.
“A little more… .”
…I became a little greedy even as I gently held Cadet Han Chun-seong in my arms.
this time.
I don’t know how long I can be alone with him in the future, but the time like now is so precious.