67 – I should be in that much pain too
Ara and Minah ran away from the movie theater and entered a bar with a room near Hankuk University.
Although she was disguised as Minah, wearing a pulled-down hat and sunglasses, it would have been quite difficult if anyone heard what I was going to say with Ara from now on.
The sight of Minah, a very popular idol, shooting a woman with her arms crossed and her head down like a criminal was even more so.
“… So who is that woman?”
“… “Kim So-yi.”
Unlike Minah who asked nervously, Ara’s voice was calm. She only sounded calm.
She had already expected it, but after hearing those words from Hansol’s mouth and seeing the two of them holding hands, Ara felt helpless throughout her body and could only come out with a muffled sound.
“Did I ask her name? So, what is Kim So-yi doing? What is she, Lee Han-sol’s girlfriend? Oh, did you really know? “Why do you just let her go like that?”
“…… “
“Ha… “
She couldn’t fire any more and Minah swallowed her words. When she saw her friend with a face that looked like he was going to die at any moment, it was difficult for her to spit out sharp words anymore.
Minah let out a sigh and took a drink.
It’s been less than an hour since I entered her store, but she’s the only one to get a bottle.
Although she poured some alcohol into Ara’s glass, she didn’t seem to have any intention of putting it to her mouth.
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Hot breath came out of Minah’s mouth, her face a little red.
“Last time, I told you I was happy and all that, like I was showing off… Rather, I was the only one who got excited.”
“…… “
“You know, right? “I’ve liked Sol for a long time.”
“You know… “
When she was young, Ara noticed that Minah’s way of looking at Hansol had changed.
She knew that the look in her eyes was the same as the look in her eyes when she looked at her Hansol.
“But I have never properly confessed to her. Do you know why I did that?”
“… Because of me?”
“hehehehe, it’s true it’s because of you… Actually, if you think about it, it wasn’t for you. “In my mind, I rationalized that I would give in to you, but in reality, I just didn’t have the confidence to beat you.”
Ara has always been an object of admiration for Minah ever since they first met in kindergarten.
She was pretty, smart, and always the center of her friends, making Mina proud.
Minah was not confident that she could take Hansol away from Ara.
In fact, Hansol never once looked back at Mina.
“Sol, she always put you first. From his eyes to his actions, I had to watch the man I liked my whole life only prioritize other women.”
“Min-ah… “
“… I kept watching. How much Sol has cared for you since you were little, and since when did she love you… I know everything. Because I kept seeing you… “
Perhaps because she was a little drunk, Minah told Ara for the first time the story she had kept in her heart.
We both knew this story, but this was the first time she said it out loud.
Ara didn’t know what kind of comforting words she should give to her friend who had dim eyes.
Because it was Hansol and himself who hurt us like that.
Not accepting people’s feelings is not a sin, but Minah was different. She was Hansol and her own dearest friend.
“But… “What on earth is that woman named Kim Soi?”
Minah’s tone of voice changed. She went from a sorrowful voice talking about her painful wounds to an angry voice filled with resentment.
“I’m not talking about a relationship like girlfriend or anything like that. Lee Hansol! Why does that bastard look at her with those eyes? For me… “She’s never shown me that face in her life, so why do you do that to her?”
Hansol’s affectionate gaze when looking at her Soyi was similar to the way she looked at Ara.
Minah received something from Hansol that she had never received before.
She couldn’t admit it. She realized that she lost to a woman other than Ara.
She couldn’t bring herself to think of him as her lover from her past life, so for Minah, no amount of double lust for Hansol would be enough.
“Minah, you… “Don’t you remember the name Kim So-i?”
“What… ? Is she that girl we know?”
“… No, nothing. “I just thought you didn’t know.”
She refrained from saying anything more when Minah responded that Ara was unfamiliar to her when she secretly asked.
She doesn’t need to say things she doesn’t understand.
How helpful would it be to tell her that Hansol once called her that name in her sleep when she was very young?
Although the flow was cut off for a moment, Mina’s anger rose again as she continued to pour down her drink.
“I…” ! I could have blessed you! Ah, if you had ended up with Sol, I could have congratulated you with all my heart! But what is this… ! “Ara, what did you do?”
This was Minah’s true intention.
Although she told her to find a way for the two of them to be happy, deep down in her heart, she wanted to be connected to Hansol if possible. If not, she hoped to at least connect with Ara.
If not for that, there should never have been another woman in the life of a man named Lee Han-sol. That way, all three people will be happy.
But why did Hansol have to be taken away by an unknown woman who appeared out of nowhere?
“Ara, what have you been doing all this time! “She went to the same college as Sol, and she was right next to Sol, so why did she just watch Sol take it away!”
“…… “
If she suddenly heard that Hansol had made her a girlfriend, she would have thought that Ara was just trying to get her attention.
But when she witnessed Hansol’s face as she looked at her Soyi, Minah despaired.
She really felt that she had been taken away from him.
“Tell me now. Why did you do that to Sol? “Why did she hurt him when she cared for you so much?”
“… I am…… “
Minah, who had let out all her anger, asked Ara one last time. What she wanted to ask most. Something she had wondered about for a long time. The cause of all this Satan.
And Ara eventually confessed everything to Minah.
From the far-fetched stories of my grandfather that I heard as a child, to the death and will of her mother, Seung-ah.
Partly because I trusted my childhood friend Minah, and also because I thought everything was over now.
Because he was already abandoned by Hansol. Now it’s not just acting, it’s really no longer possible to connect with him.
Minah, who heard Ara’s story, made a complicated face as she sobered up at her unbelievable story.
“… What is that. Do you believe that story? If it were your uncle… To be honest, he is a very poor quality person. No matter how much your grandfather views your father with disapproval, he can’t… “
“… That person actually spied on me and Sol. Even now… Even though it has decreased, there are probably listening ears near us.”
The heart of an old man was a truly complex law.
Even Ara, who met him most often, could not guess what King Yucheol, who watched his two children with such interest for several years, even spending all that money and time, was thinking about now.
She has been trying to find traces of her mother, Seung-ah, for the past few years, but in the end, she throws away a clue that causes her and Hansol to be completely separated.
All feelings of sympathy for my grandfather, who had become sick and weak, disappeared.
“Still… You could have at least said something to Sol. Then, if you had just told Sol-i about your situation, she wouldn’t have been so hurt… “
“… I was scared. I was afraid that if I told Sol, Sol might not go to her grandfather and tell him. Because we were young back then. “Even if I asked you not to say anything, I was afraid of what kind of emotional reaction Sol might have.”
No matter how mentally mature Hansol was compared to his peers, even Ara could not know what he would do unless he was himself.
Even if he didn’t tell King Yucheol or anyone else, there was a concern that his actions or mistakes in his words would ruin things.
The situation where King Yucheol was watching and Ara’s perfectionistic tendencies created such an obsession.
“In the end, Ara, you didn’t trust Sol. Plus, Sol put her aside and prioritized other things.”
“… That’s right. I guess that’s why I got punished in the end. So I guess I lost it. “I think I lost that kid forever.”
Ara’s cold words that came out without her knowledge brought tears to her eyes.
Although Minah’s words came out of her frustrated heart, she felt a little guilty about Ara’s pitiful reaction.
“Then…” Go and tell me now. Before it’s too late. Ara, tell Sol that you were in that situation and that you are sorry for hurting you. If you don’t tell me before it’s too late, he’ll really be with that girl… “
“… You said it was already too late? Sol-i said that no matter what I say, it’s hard for everyone to see me? How can I hang on to a guy like that? How can I make it difficult for Sol again… “
Ara said that almost in a sobbing sound and fell down.
The trembling appearance made Mina’s pupils shake as well.
Of all the appearances of Ara that Minah has seen throughout her life, this is the weakest.
Although Ara was clearly at fault, Mina was really scathing at Hansol at this moment.
Perhaps it was because she had just seen Hansol in love with another woman.
“So, what are you going to do now? Sol said he didn’t want to see you, so are you going to listen to that and live the rest of your life without seeing him? “Can you really live like that?”
“… So what should I do? That’s what my loved one wants. That child must have been very sick… “It hurts just as much.”
“What is that…?” “
Minah was frustrated.
She couldn’t accept that her two friends, whom she loved so much, would end like this.
‘… ‘I can’t admit that.’
———-
“What~? Are you dating? Since when!?”
“It’s been about two weeks.”
I informed Gu Min-seop, who came to my room, that I was dating So-yi.
I opened my eyes wide, was surprised for a moment, and then the guy lunged at me.
“Hey! Why are you saying that now, you idiot! “If you’re dating, don’t you have to say right away that day that you’re dating?”
“Ah, ah! Oh, let go of this, you crazy idiot!”
I slapped the arm of the guy who was strangling me from behind.
This crazy guy doesn’t know how to control his strength. I’m suffocating to death.
“No! If you think about it, Gu Min-seop said you had a new girlfriend recently and told you not to contact boys!”
“… Oh, was that so?”
Gu Min-seop released his arms and scratched his head with a shy look on his face.
I was so dumbfounded that I threw an empty plastic bottle that was lying nearby at his face, and he caught it with ease. You ugly gymnast.
“So?”
“So?”
“No, how far have you gone? Have you even kissed in two weeks? Or, surprisingly, already… “
“… “Hold hands.”
It’s me, Soyya. It’s her second relationship, so you can get off track from the beginning, but for Soyi, this is her first relationship.
It would be better to enjoy the process little by little.
As I was happily thinking those thoughts, Gu Min-seop looked at me pitifully.
“Ugh… “Well, you’re such a bastard.”
“There are also slow couples. “He and I are very emotional people.”
“Oh, I don’t know, I’m done with the boring stuff. If anything interesting happens, please tell me.”
“Why me?”
“No~! I told you everything during our first relationship! Where did we hold hands, where did we kiss and where… “
“Oh, it’s noisy. You say everything you want… That’s it! “I’m leaving now.”
“Where?”
“Date.”
Now time is running out.
Today, Soyi came in front of my house again and made a fuss, saying that she would escort me, so she had to come out in front of her house to wait for her.
Gu Min-seop quietly asked me as I was getting dressed.
“Hey, then should I at least say hello to our Jesu?”
“What nonsense?”
“No, please understand if we are frustrated with our pathetic behavior… evil!”
“Don’t talk nonsense, just close the door and leave. I’m going.”
I left Gu Min-seop at home talking nonsense and went out to the front door.
Today is Sunday. It’s the only day we can date.
“Ah, Sol!”
When Soyi spots me coming out to meet her, she comes running to me.
She smiles.
That’s why I smile too.