70 – I hate myself more for being stupid
“Lee Han-sol, are you asking me to come out? You have something to say to me. “If you have a conscience, you should do that.”
An aggressive voice and tone of voice that I have never heard from Minah. Even the names he calls me have become stiff.
She stood in front of the store door, showing with her whole body that she was holding back her boiling stomach, and urged me.
“… “It’s Min.”
I couldn’t bear to take a step towards Mina.
I feel sorry for her a lot, but now I can’t just meet another woman alone.
I turned my head towards Soi.
When I first saw Minah, she was a little embarrassed, but she seemed to have regained her composure and had a calm face.
“Sol, come back. “Because this person is okay.”
“It’s okay…” ?”
Soyi smiled and said that. A relaxed face.
On the other hand, Minah narrowed her eyebrows after hearing Soyi’s words. Minah, who was already showing an unpleasant mood, gave off an even more sinister mood.
“… Am i okay? “What does that mean?”
“Is that literally? You and Minah can go out and talk together. “She can do whatever she wants, Min-ah. She gave permission. Is there a problem?”
“So, I’m okay with it… !”
Does Mina mean that she is not even a threat to herself? Minah growled at Soyi’s attitude, which seemed to be belittling her.
Minah poses as if she will attack at any moment. Soyi also has a relaxed look on her face, but with the aura she gives off, she doesn’t seem to shy away from a physical fight.
This is a bad airflow. For now, I stood in front of Soi as if guarding her.
“… Soiya, are you really okay? “Can I come talk to my friend?”
“Yes, that person is okay. And because I trust you, Sol.”
When I asked if I could meet another woman, my girlfriend nodded her head willingly.
Even though Soyi must have been vaguely anticipating the relationship between me and Mina, she let me go so obediently…
What is it? In fact, is she thinking in her heart not to go?
Or does she really trust me and believe that nothing is wrong with Min-ah?
… I don’t know.
Honestly, I want to talk to Minah inside this store so that Soyi won’t be anxious… I don’t think it would be good for Soyi to know what to talk about with Minah.
I smiled shallowly and nodded to Soyi to show my gratitude.
“… Then Min, let’s go out first.”
“That’s really… “
I opened the store door first and signaled my intention to leave, but Mina still stood there glaring in her direction.
Her pride must have been so damaged that it wasn’t until I called Minah one more time that she followed me out of the store.
“Where are we going? “Your house?”
Minah joked, perhaps feeling a little better after leaving the store and not seeing Soyi…. Probably a joke.
“What is our house… “Let’s go to a cafe.”
“Why? Can only my girlfriend go to your house? … “Has that person ever entered your house?”
“…… “
“Lee Hansol, you can’t believe it already… “
“Ha… “There is, but it’s not what you think, Min.”
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I explained that Soyi came to my house to visit me when I was sick. I didn’t necessarily say that I had been to Soi’s house.
Minah’s face brightened a little, perhaps because she heard that we weren’t in a deep relationship yet.
“Hey, but what kind of cafe is this? In front of everyone… Follow me.”
“Where are you going? “Min, do you know of a store near our school?”
Minah told me to follow her for now and she took the lead.
The place she brought me was a room-style izakaya. I’ve never been to this place before, so how did he know about this place?
When I brought him to the bar, I started to worry.
“Hey, no matter what, I drink… “
“Who wants to drink? It’s vague other than places that people can’t see. “If you don’t like it, should you really go to your house?”
“Ha… “
“I’m a celebrity. “If everyone hears about it, will you take responsibility?”
“Okay… “Let’s go in.”
There was nothing I could do, so I opened the store door and went in.
I was worried that the staff would recognize me, so I hid Minah behind her and went into the room where I was shown, and Minah ordered her own drink along with snacks on her own.
… I don’t know, I told you in advance that I don’t drink it, so I’ll drink it alone.
As soon as the employee who took the order left, Minah, with her arms crossed, started speaking sharply.
“… “Did you change your profile picture?”
The business that came today seems to be related to Soi.
I guess so. The last time we met at the movie theater, we were in a daze so we couldn’t talk much.
I just nodded in the affirmative without saying much.
“Ha! I’m really dumbfounded… “
“…… “
“Lee Han-sol, do you really like that girl? … “Aren’t you just mindlessly dating another woman because you hate Ara?”
“… Park Min-ah, watch your mouth.”
This time, a fierce voice came from my side.
I think I did well not to talk to Minah in front of Soi. That kid who already lacks confidence must have taken those words to heart.
“…… “
“…… “
We sat facing each other and exchanged unpleasant glances without saying a word.
I understand that Minah is in a bad mood and I feel sorry for her, but I couldn’t let her say things like that.
After a period of silence passed and the clerk brought Minah the drinks and snacks she had ordered, Minah opened her mouth first.
After finishing her drink, she told a story quite different from what I expected.
“… “Lee Han-sol, please talk to Ara.”
“What… ? “What are you talking about all of a sudden?”
“I know you’re dating that woman, but first go to Ara and at least listen to Ara’s situation. You know roughly, right? “There must be a reason why Ara treated you so badly.”
“…… “
“No matter what, it can’t end so badly for you. Yes? You and Ara can’t be like this, Sol… “
Minah said as if she felt very sorry.
Did she hear anything from Ara on the day we met?
Minah seemed to know something.
But she doesn’t say it with her own mouth. And I have no intention of asking that either.
“… “No, that’s not true.”
“Hey, Lee Hansol!”
When I refused, Minah jumped up from her seat. While she made her face ask how she couldn’t even do that.
She may be scolded for her position, but I can’t help it.
Ara and I have already come too far.
Furthermore, if I become weak after hearing Ara’s story, if I stay by Ara’s side again… What will Soi do?
I have already decided to live for Soyi, the only woman who loved me in my past life.
I can’t do anything that will confuse my mind again.
“What are you going to do then? Are you going to live your whole life without meeting Ara like that?! Can you do that? “How could a person named Lee Han-sol forget Yoo-ra?”
“That means it can’t be done. Because I have to give my heart to her girlfriend now…. “I don’t want to have feelings for Ara anymore.”
“You really… !”
Minah looked like she was about to cry. She feels sorry for it as if it were her own.
Because she always cared for the two of us and wanted us to be happy.
I end up feeling sorry for Minah again. She also hurt this child’s heart because of the two of us.
“Ha… “
Minah lowered her head and pressed her head with both hands.
She was silent for a while, and then she barely made a sound like crying.
“… What on earth is that woman? “Can she be that girl instead of Ara to you?”
“She never thought of him as a substitute for Ara.”
“Well, then…” Why does she like that girl? Why can she be that girl when I have never looked at her for all these years? I am such a small person to you… ? Sol, can’t I be other than that woman? If Ara can’t do it, then it has to be me now, Sol… I heard it’s my first time too… !”
“Min-ah… “
Minah, she has never been a small person to me.
However, even though I knew that it was so unfair and sad for her, I could not give her any excuses or explanations.
If I try to tell her that I was a lover in her past life with Soi, it will only sound like she is lying.
When I couldn’t speak any more, Mina finally let out a quiet sigh.
“… You are such a bad bastard. “I so regret my life of liking a bastard like you.”
“…… “
“But more than you… I still like idiots like you, but I hate myself even more… “
After saying that, Minah stood up.
Her cold eyes stayed on me for a moment, as if she wasn’t crying anymore, and then she turned away.
I didn’t even think to catch her leaving her. The steps he took away from me were fast, as if he was running away.
“… Sorry.”
I dared not say these words in front of Minah, but I said them all alone.
There was only one beef tataki left, which I didn’t eat, and only one drink, but I left the store without touching anything.
And then I returned to Soi, who was waiting for me.
She smiled as if nothing had happened so as not to worry her.
But with heavy steps.
———-
The final exam is over.
Some people shouted excitedly as if they were relieved, while others were in despair and tapped the grade calculator to calculate how much scholarship they could receive even though the results had not yet been released.
Park Dong-myeong, who belongs to the former group, was delighted and wrapped his arm around my shoulder.
“Hey Lee Hansol! Are you free today? Since the exam is over, there is no part-time work today. Let’s get the kids together for a drink. “Let’s have a strong drink with the guys today.”
As expected, as the leader of the male students in our class, he seems to be taking the initiative to create a drinking party.
Anyway, the end-of-semester party with fellow classmates will be held later, so I guess I’m thinking of having a party with the guys today.
“I can do it today, but I have to be there at 10 o’clock.”
“Wow, because of your girlfriend? “You are truly sincere.”
“The way home is a bit dark.”
Soy canceled my part-time work schedule because it was the last day of the exam, but that doesn’t mean I can skip picking her up.
Park Dong-myeong admired me for that, but he also grabbed each of my male classmates and asked if they had time today.
You can do it in a group chat… You may be thinking, but let’s do something with our classmates! It takes a year just to answer, so this is faster.
When one of the male students saw me, he said as if he remembered something.
“Hey, come to think of it, I heard that Hansol passed your registration for the World of Fairy Tales class? They filled up so quickly. Are you lucky? Which PC room is it held in? “I’ll do it there next time, too.”
“A PC room. But the person next to me immediately started having computer lag. “I guess I just picked a good computer.”
“Kabi. Anyway, among our classmates, you are the only two who have penetrated the world of fairy tales.”
“Really? “Who is the other one?”
“Yoo Ara.”
“… What?”
I naturally looked towards Ara.
Ara was also looking in my direction as if she had heard the same thing from a female classmate.
When her eyes met mine, Ara lowered her eyes as if she were a criminal.
‘Should I just drop it…’ ‘
I thought about that for a while, but it doesn’t seem to be the case.
In the first place, you don’t have to run into Ara because it’s a lecture that is said to be a good culture because you just have to listen to the lecture and solve the test without assignments.
I thought so…