Civil Servant in a Romance Fantasy chapter 113

Something to overcome someday – 2

That day was the same as today. And the same dark sky that day seemed to be laughing at me even now. Louis must have felt the same way as me.

When hard things happen, when it rains, the misery doubles, and it is deeply engraved in the head. It was raining then, with the same feeling. After all, every time it rains, it reminds me of nothing.

‘Did you sell something in your previous life?’

I think I earned quite a bit of hate from someone for selling something to me or whatever. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have been suddenly possessed by another world, nor would I have been taken to the battlefield after a year of being possessed. I don’t know if it was Enen or something else that hated me.

To be honest, I can understand that. Even if you look at other novels, possession is a way to be suddenly, and crisis or trials come. But if you overcome such an ordeal, it should have a happy ending. Why couldn’t I have a happy ending?

I don’t know what kind of bastard he is, but if there’s a guy who’s tinkering with my fate, I want to grab him by the collar and ask him. It must have been so, did he feel relieved? Where did you throw such an idiotic development into my life?

If you don’t like me, you’ll take me. Why did you take someone else?

‘I should have died.’

There was no such force. Bad news came in an instant. It made me wonder if the world was determined to take Hecate.

The team leaders who were like family in the north died. Still, because I stayed, Hecate was able to endure.

He was seriously injured during the Kagan subjugation. Still, Hecate had people to take care of, so she could hold on.

The people who were supposed to take care of them also died. Hecate could not stand it any longer. One reason to hold on was gone, and Hecate collapsed as it was.

“I’m sorry, Carl.”

Hecate is a long way from her orphanage where she grew up. In an orphanage on the northern edge of the empire, in a place she believed no one was sure to be, among the corpses she believed would all be alive.

Of course, Hecate didn’t leave the northern orphanage unattended as war broke out in the north. He asked the minister, who was then the 4th chief, to please allow the orphanage people to escape to a safe place, and the minister reported to the then inspector general.

The bastard said he would understand. Since then, Hecate has been sending money to the Inspection Department and asking for it to be used for the living expenses of the orphans. He said he knew that too and accepted it. At that time, besides Hecate, I sent other team leaders as well.

And the result was disastrous.

“Hecate. Me too…”

“No. I’ll do it myself. Eh, that’s my job.”

I’ve never seen them, but they were precious to Hecate, so I thought of them as family. These are the people who told Hecate that when you become a countess, you will hire them all as servants, so don’t worry.

I saw with my own eyes Hecate silently buried such people. He saw that the bodies of those who had died from being burned were buried in pagan ways because they could not be cremated.

Still, Hecate didn’t have to dig long. It rained and the ground was soft, and most of the people to be buried were small.

And the next day, Hecate set off on a never-ending journey to meet them.

‘If only I knew it earlier.’

If Hecate had heard the news during the war, he wouldn’t have come to that point. Even if he was shocked, he wouldn’t have collapsed. Because there were many people who supported me by my side.

However, five of the people who supported him left first, and Hecate himself was seriously injured, so his mind was unstable. In such a state, he heard the news on his way back to Jedo, so how will he hold on?

“How did this happen! We knew it was a well-resolved problem!”

After that, I really felt like I was going crazy because my eyes were turned upside down. So, the team leader Naburang attacked the manager and raised his voice.

By the time the manager received the report, it was already too late, and he hid it because he thought it would interfere with his mission if he reported it. It’s bullsh*t. If it’s really late, you should have collected the corpse.

It was too f*cked up. I wanted to kill that bastard. It was to the extent that the minister did not know how much the two of them had gnashed their teeth.

So I killed him. Just in time, the gaze of the Crown Prince, who was trying to take control of the Ministry of Finance and Inspection Department, turned to us, and we were able to cast fragging legally.

‘I didn’t know that I would leave it after that.’

I thought you’d have someone else take over the finance department.

After that, I was stunned for a while when I realized that Hecate’s serious injury was a wound that would cripple me over time, but time has flowed and I’ve come this far.

“Brother, I’m dizzy…”

“Ah, sorry.”

His hands must have been strained thinking about something else. Louise’s head swayed back and forth beyond the level of simply scratching his head. I’m sorry, stop doing it in moderation.

‘You are better than me.’

As I removed his hand, I looked at Louise, who was carefully tidying his hair. At least I let go of Hecate when I was an adult. Hecate also said sorry to me until the end.

Louisé, on the other hand, went through that at the age of only eight. Not even an apology or goodbye, but the last to hear his sister’s resentment. It’s more pain than me.

Maybe it’s because he’s the main character in the original story, ordeals are like the main character. If that’s the case, I’d rather not be the main character.

“Thank you for telling me.”

This time, he patted Louise’s shoulder several times and said. Yeah, thanks for telling me. If it’s possible, the members—For example, Erich or Erich, I would have liked to have told Erich, but I’m glad he seems to be a trusted adviser.

Then Louise’s eyes widened. He was prepared to be scolded for suddenly telling a bad story, but he was rather taken aback when he said thank you.

“You have to tell someone to be comforted.”

“Sure, are you going?”

Seeing Louise hesitantly lowering her eyes made me feel sorry for her.

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Nothing can be solved if you keep it inside yourself. You can solve it by facing what you are embracing or sharing it with others.

“As I said earlier, it’s not your fault.”

It’s not Louise’s fault. I can’t really say it’s anyone’s fault. If I had to place the blame, it would be on Louise’s parents who didn’t pay attention to her older sister, but it can’t be helped that her eyes are more focused on her youngest child who is sick.

It’s just a disaster caused by immaturity. To hold her parents responsible for the death of their daughter is too harsh.

“Of course I didn’t want to die.”

Louise didn’t want her sister to die. She rather said she wanted to be a good sister between them.

Me too. She wanted to be an unenviable couple with Hecate.

“That’s not to say I didn’t turn a blind eye.”

Louise thought she was responsible for her sister’s death. It was just a coincidence, so I embraced it myself without turning away.

Me too. I did not abandon my responsibility for not being more reliant on Hecate, but embraced it.

“You haven’t forgotten.”

Louise still didn’t forget her sister’s work. So she likes everyone and loves no one.

Me too. She can’t forget Hecate, and she doesn’t have the confidence to be with anyone else.

“No one’s going to say it’s your fault.”

I didn’t wish for it, didn’t turn away from it, and didn’t forget it. Is there anyone who can shout that such a person is at fault?

Well, maybe not. There won’t be There shouldn’t be someone like that.

“So don’t apologize for this.”

I grabbed Louise’s shoulder who was staring blankly at me and turned around.

“It’s getting cold now. Go in first.”

“Oh, brother?”

“Come on.”

I hesitated, so I pushed my back and slowly went inside. I looked behind me several times as I entered, but I silently gestured and only then did I enter.

Suffice it to say for now. I think Louise also said it accidentally, but even if I held on too long and tried mental counseling, it would be awkward and awkward for each other.

I just chose what I wanted to hear and what I thought would be nice to hear. It was that easy.

‘That’s what I want to hear.’

Louis, who went through something similar, must have wanted to hear something like that. It doesn’t matter who does it, to anyone.

I hope Louise will just clear up the core with words. There is a pure desire that Louise overcome the trauma, but if Louise overcomes it, I think I can overcome it too.

Since I’ve overcome even worse children than myself, there’s nothing I can’t do, because I want that kind of comfort.

‘It’s ugly.’

It looks ugly even to me. Isn’t it like an adult getting help from a child younger than himself because he can’t stand up on his own? It’s really perfectly ugly. It’s impossible to say where to go

But since he comforted Louise, wouldn’t it be 100% pure ugliness? If it’s a contribution, it’s a contribution.

“It stopped.”

I looked up at the sky and inadvertently a voice leaked out. The rain stopped and there were fewer dark clouds than before.

It may come back like this, or it may completely clear up. I don’t know what it will be like these days because the weather is so up and down.

‘Someday it will be a dog.’

Even if it rains for a few days, it won’t be gloomy for the rest of my life. It will clear someday

“Brother!”

“Why did you come back?”

I was still looking at the sky when I heard Louise’s voice from behind. I let them go in, and then they come out again. My control is fleeting.

Looking back, Louise was holding out a towel.

“Your brother is also wet.”

Seeing her lightly smiling, I also smiled at her face.