4. Chersha Kalua – (4)
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Chersha just quietly listened to Ed’s words after that.
I didn’t question the truth of Ed’s words or question the truth.
Just as it is.
As she heard, she accepted Ed’s words.
He talks about his past with a calm expression. What happened to Ed himself until now?
‘…’
His voice, which seems to tell you everything one by one, is so calm. In a way, it seemed like he was saying something trivial, something not so important.
In reality, each and every one of those words was unusual.
The story so far that eight years have passed and he has risen to a high-ranking article, at first glance, has nothing special about it.
Unlike the painful stories I heard at first, I wondered if it was a story that continued without pain.
All the stories I heard at the end were not light.
ㅡThe whole story about the deaths of the Glead family, their eldest son and his second son.
ㅡExclusive mercenary, a woman named Rachel Cardia raids the Glaad family.
ㅡA story related to the succession of the Glaad family.
And above all. A woman’s name that I hear over and over in the process.
‘Asera Glade.’
The eldest and third daughter of the Glaad family.
The blue flower of the north, a woman who is even called a jewel.
She
She had been collecting information about Glead for years, so she knew her woman’s name well.
She No, even if she didn’t investigate herself, Ashera was a famous woman who was so famous that news of her talent was heard all over the East.
Ed, the woman who helped him when he was having a hard time.
Even her cause of being given her surname of Glead was related to her.
She is a woman who has given up the position of her own successor and wants Ed to succeed it instead.
Being the heir of a family was so heavy that it was not something that could be talked about easily.
And having a family heir pass on to someone outside or not of direct lineage is one of the hardest things to do.
The backlash from the family’s powerful vassals was also a backlash, and above all, the family’s most powerful person would not want to tolerate it.
And the more the family with a long history, the more severe the tendency was, but never the weaker it was.
Glead of the North.
A family of knights that could be called a prestigious family that even the person who lived in the East had heard of its name many times.
As we entered the northern part, the name gained weight, and quite a few aristocratic families were knight families whose names were so large that they could be seen below.
However, the most powerful person in such a family, Aizen Glad, is he convinced that he will succeed Edgar’s successor?
No matter how much he was given a surname, he nominally had the same qualifications as the direct line of the family.
In fact, trying to hand down an heir to an outsider was the kind of thing that was hard to understand.
To decide the next successor to carry on the family line.
Is it possible for the huge family of Glaad to accept Ed as his successor?
Ashera Glade, can it be done smoothly if she gives up her seat as successor?
Because he knows that he will later succeed the Kalua family. Even now, he knew the weight of each of his actions.
And he knows for sure. Ashera Glaade was a woman who was upright and knew how to serve others, from her personal strength to her actions.
No matter how broad-minded and altruistic she is, considering Ed’s environment and the pain he went through.
Obviously, the position of heir was a completely different story.
It was not a position that anyone could easily occupy just because they were greedy, much less a position that they could easily refuse just because they could refuse.
Since you were born into a family with a high status, it’s like a fate you have to shoulder.
Now even all the other siblings are gone. Asherah says she refuses to be a woman.
He said he wouldn’t want to succeed.
Is that something that can be done so easily?
‘It’s hard to understand.’
The more I thought about it, the more I felt something strange.
The more I listen to his story with many twists and turns.
For some reason, he found it even more difficult to understand.
It was to the point that I felt grateful and fortunate in itself that Ed had lived a more difficult life than I thought, and that he grew up so straight at the end.
“Only recently have I been able to reach superlatives. Talent is blooming late, people around me have told me that, but to be honest, I still don’t know.”
“Like a twist of fate, I was able to reach the highest level just in time for you to come, but now I can’t keep that word.”
“Chersha. My long talk is now over.”
While he was thinking that, Ed’s story was all over.
A long story about him. In the dark of the night, spiders had landed on the scenery outside the parlor.
I was so focused on his story that I couldn’t even feel the passage of time, and each and every one of his words resonated with me.
That’s why I could understand his feelings even now, to some extent, as he conveyed his intention of rejection to himself.
‘But…’
I still couldn’t understand myself.
Although it was difficult for him to understand all the pain and feelings he had been through.
But even now, after hearing what he had to say, my feelings for him hadn’t faded in the slightest, really not in the slightest.
At first, Ed slowly, very slowly…
I tried to rationalize myself and give up my mind. It’s all been a long time since I didn’t even start.
Ed calmly spoke his words for a long time, showing me his sincerity.
The reason why he couldn’t keep the word he told me about becoming a knight.
Situations you’ve been through and how you feel about them.
And even in the midst of that, he remembered himself and continued to work hard.
Even now, after 8 years had passed, he remembered about himself, and he continued to agonize over it without forgetting every single thing he said at the end.
And it was only recently that I made up my mind about it, and I have reached the current situation.
It felt like a trick of fate.
His idea of continuing Glaade’s succession has only been around for a few months.
It was easy to understand by analogy with his words.
So he couldn’t quite understand himself.
I couldn’t easily let go of the feelings I had now.
Ever since I met him, my heart has been growing bigger and bigger as if it had exploded over and over again, and the more I understood his situation, the bigger it got.
“If only I could find you just a little bit longer… a little bit faster… then you wouldn’t know.”
A moment between unconsciousness. Words like my true heart leaked out.
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“If only, if only… if I had come to see you just a few months earlier… if I had… it would have been so much different.”
Bite his lips hard, he crumpled his robe as hard as he could and said that in a daze.
And at the end of those words, an empty laugh was built.
“…Chersha.”
Just by hearing that deep voice he calls to himself. My heart still hurts right now…
Ed, it wasn’t like his feelings for him who didn’t give a satisfactory answer to the expectations he had for trusting him.
From the fact that he had a painful past.
That he couldn’t be by his side when he continued to struggle.
The self who couldn’t do anything to him that he kept thinking of himself in the midst of the pain.
He didn’t even know that he was thinking that way.
I just waited for him to come to me.
Considering the environment he was in, he couldn’t have come looking for him even if he wanted to.
However, he was imprisoned in the mage tower, blankly waiting for him to come find him.
And now. He was deeply regretting himself for finding him so late.
A little bit of yourself.
If only it was a little bit faster.
If so, before he made that decision.
I should have reached him.
Obviously this feeling too.
The heart he has.
They must have reached each other.
But even if you already regret it, it’s all too late.
Now that he was Ed, he couldn’t separate him from the Glead family.
As if he had already made up his mind, what words to convince the blue-eyed man with a firm purpose.
Nothing came to mind.
It was difficult even to control myself with the emotions that kept rising.
“How. How should I… I.”
Involuntarily, I licked my lips as I caught his image through my blurry eyes.
It was as if someone had burst into his enormous feelings that had been entrenched in his heart.
It continued to flow endlessly.
“Could I… give up… you.”
Chersha’s face was gradually smeared with flowing tears as she licked her lips slowly with her dripping voice.
Chersha felt that she was crying. She slowly wiped away the tears and looked at Ed.
She continued with her blurry gaze as she tried to keep him in her eyes.
As if she couldn’t come up with an answer no matter how she thought, she looked at Ed and opened her mouth angrily.
“Ed I. I don’t know… How I… Will… Give up on you.”
“So… Tell me the answer with your own mouth. How can I… give up on you?”