How to Survive at the Academy chapter 158

Crepin Subjugation (9)

have killed someone

Now, it’s a strange story.

As Ed Roth Taylor, it’s been a while since I started struggling to survive in this bleak world… The time in the whole world is several dozen times longer than the time we have lived in this world yet.

So, I’m still just a stranger in this world.

In fact, the act of killing people in modern warfare is so simple that one wonders if this is okay. Just align the scale with the scale, hold your breath, and pull the trigger and you’re done.

One person’s life is over. It’s simple and clean enough to make you laugh.

At first, I had no realization that I took someone’s life like that. My hands are shaking at what I have done casually, but I just fall into a bewildered feeling because I don’t feel it.

The really scary thing was when I went to bed that night.

That facial expression that was seen through the sight, lively gestures, and traces of life that pick up and disappear as soon as they are hit with a single shot. All that’s left is a chunk of meat.

The moment he realizes that fact, a feeling of guilt that rises like a nightmare corrodes his mind.

It happens to everyone on the battlefield.

On the battlefield that crosses the line, I don’t feel it because I’m saving my life, but when I retire and move into a peaceful world… Those memories resurrect like a ghost and try to eat the mind.

It is a disease like measles that anyone who has lived on the battlefield for several years suffers, and it is to be overcome over time.

I also had a severe measles once, but soon overcame it, regained weight, met friends and joked a little, watched a few movies and played a few games, and my outlook on thinking became clearer.

Now, I don’t do anything vulgar that makes me suffer from those memories, but I do come up with it from time to time.

After killing someone for the first time, the feeling of guilt that floods in is a disaster that strikes everyone equally.

This is especially the case in exhibition situations. It is normal to mentally escape from having to kill the opponent. Because in order to live, I had to kill my opponent.

It can be.

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Mental escape is something everyone does, and so was I.

Even the officers understand that fact, so just by looking at the faces of the soldiers who are rationalizing little by little, you can gauge their intentions.

The problem is, they’ve gone the other way. Perhaps these are the categories I have been most wary of and far from.

──Because I thought that if I was careless, I could become like that too.

It could be that you escaped because you couldn’t help it.

However, those who rationalize that ‘I used to be like this’… They are really dangerous guys.

I actually enjoy killing.

A person who takes pleasure in killing and stealing someone.

So there is no such thing as guilt. I have no intention of being understood.

If you say that and run away from guilt, eventually you will mistake yourself for a huge ‘pure evil’.

Freed from the guilt of being so corrosive, he spends a few years on the battlefield, becoming a monster and retiring.

If things go well, they get a job in the defense industry or security-related industry and lead a social life at the level where they are treated like a gang, but those who go in the wrong direction smuggling guns or wandering around in gangs die with a bullet stuck in their jaws. .

Judging by those words, my experience of going to the brink of such a madman is revived again and again… I have goosebumps on my back again.

So, I fought my guilt to the end.

Living like that, I became a person who did not take responsibility for anyone, nor did I try to save someone from a crisis without any reason.

I just didn’t want to bear the heartache when I failed… That’s such an absurd reason. Still, I think it’s the right way to go.

Those who stray are not just murderous maniacs who enjoy killing and then go crazy. I couldn’t bear a single sense of guilt and ran away… They’re just f**king cowards.

Therefore, there was a question that I always wanted to ask my children who had gone astray.

… Do you still retain the feeling you had when you first killed someone?

* * *

Push!

It sounded like blood leaking. The seal of the evil spirit engraved on Crepin’s left hand began to turn red.

The leaking blood fills the gap in the seal, and an ominous magical energy begins to bloom.

Soon, that magical energy wrapped around Crepin’s entire hand, and the vast energy transformed the entire left forearm into an unpleasant mass of flesh.

Karuk, Push!

And a few tentacles sprouting from his left hand wrap around him. Although it is still a crepin in the form of a human, if you only look at your left hand, it is nothing more than a monster.

In his right hand he was holding a long sword with the seal of the family. Unlike his left hand, which had been transformed into an unpleasant shape, he was still in good shape.

“I can feel the power.”

Crepin spoke in a gentle tone.

“I wanted this kind of power, always. The magic of immortality is not far away.”

Saying that, he clenched his bizarre left hand.

──At that moment, the protection of the storm disappeared.

I couldn’t even feel the magic. In a moment that is hard to even recognize, it has gathered and compressed the pressure around me.

The hardship that came up after deliberately waiting for the re-activation time of the protection of the storm was in vain. However, it became clear to the point that one should never be vigilant.

You can’t avoid Crepin’s attack by moving in response to magic.

It was the same in ＜ Failed Swordsman of Sylvania >, but there was a pretty big gap between hearing the explanation in-game and actually coping with it.

I had to dodge it by predicting what the opponent would use only by seeing how it really moved. It is similar to the idea of avoiding bullets by looking at the direction of the muzzle.

However, just because it’s unreasonable doesn’t mean you shouldn’t try it. I have already reached the top of this hell.

Catch the creffins, or I die. Having come to one of the two situations, neither act hastily nor act too cautiously.

aah

The high wind spirit Merylda’s roar echoed through the grounds of the Rothtaylor Mansion.

She tried to smash Crepin’s body with her forelegs, but when Crepin bizarrely twisted her left hand, an unknown physical force blocked Merylda’s.

As it is, I tried to express the elemental magic ‘Wind Blade’ and flew it towards the crepin, but it was also neutralized by an unknown force just before approaching the crepin.

Lucy said that he used a kind of magic that was outside the normal magic system. It was said that it was the power of Mevular.

If it’s a type of magic that can’t be deciphered, I know how to use one.

A dark red energy rose up and began to wrap around her body. The power of the Holy Spirit’s magical powers gathered at the tip of his finger headed straight for Crepin.

Crepin’s eyebrows momentarily narrowed. I dilated my pupils for a moment as if it was hard to believe that I could use Aspect Magic, but it wasn’t a situation where I was surprised.

‘Forced Gathering’

The power of Aspect Magic, which transcends all sexual relations, is similar to Mevular’s magic, a power that cannot be dealt with itself.

It was difficult to think that only Crepin could use the power to overturn the opposite sex.

In an instant, Crepin’s body is pulled in front of me. When I woke up, my dagger was right in front of me, but the tentacles grabbed my arm at an unbelievable speed.

– hard

I clenched my teeth and grabbed my hand.

About five or six tentacles protrude from his left arm. Everyone was wriggling in their own way, smashing everything around them.

I tightened my strength and turned around and rolled towards the bayonet on the floor. In the process, he brought the tentacles to the blade of the greatsword, cut them off, and brushed off the remaining debris and sap.

The reflexes of the tentacles are absolutely absurd. Victory in close combat cannot be guaranteed.

It was the Aspect Magic that suddenly attacked without any warning, and it is amazing that it has dealt with it like this.

I straightened myself up again and stared straight at the creffin.

The half-awakened Crepin Roth Taylor’s battle pattern was always like this. In close combat, the tentacles protruding from the left hand are used, and in long-distance battles, magic using the magic of evil spirits is used.

It was a common strategy to go back and forth at a distance that spanned halfway, and to dig into melee combat at the moment of using magic and respond.

If that sense of distance is alive, you can read Crepin’s response. When fighting using tentacles, even if close combat is infinitely powerful, at the moment of demonstrating magical power, that level of reflexes cannot come out. Take advantage of that gap.

“Whew… .”

Crepin let out a long sigh, then relaxed his body. Then, little by little, his body began to float in the air. This marks the beginning of a real battle.

Aerial view of the mansion where Mebuler and Lucy’s battle is in full swing. Against the background of all kinds of laws that appear and disappear, his body gets richer little by little.

His collar, which floats in the air like a ghost, is blown away by the wind blowing on the roof.

“My son Ed Roth-Taylor has always been a coward.”

Crepin knew everything. The fact that Ed Roth-Taylor was able to see through Crepin’s dark secrets, but did not rebel against him in the end.

“I had no ambitions, and I just thought of living together with my family and vassals. As the eldest son of an aristocratic family, I wonder what it would be like, but he was a good temperament for my son anyway. Useless ambitions don’t help.”

At that moment, Crepin’s distance narrowed sharply and he held out his long sword. Even a simple stab, it becomes a menacing surprise by its movements floating here and there with the magical power of Mevular.

wow!

As I evaded while taking a big leap backwards, the longsword, which had nowhere to go, hit the bottom.

“It’s not that I don’t understand why he ran to Sylvania, but he must have planned to use even the princess to be excommunicated. I didn’t think he would be that sophisticated. So when I heard that he was alive, I was skeptical. He wasn’t the type to survive.”

“Isn’t he the one who sent Kadek and Knox to kill me in the first place?”

“No, I’m not talking about that time.”

Crepin’s vaguely aware that I’m a separate person from Ed Roth-Taylor.

It’s not incomprehensible, but it was strange to conclude that it was like that. Because there is no clear evidence.

The reason, Crepin, clearly explained.

“It’s already been over a year and a half since I sent you a letter telling you that I excommunicated you.”

Krepin Rothtailer’s letter of excommunication.

It was the first document I checked when I came to this world, and it was the only medium through which I was able to grasp the whole situation after being kicked out of the Ophelis Hall.

For me, it was a letter that started the whole story, and it was a notice of the beginning of this damned survival period.

“After that, before the Ophelis was expelled, the reply my son sent me… You don’t know.”

“I beg your pardon?”

Now, this is a completely new story.

If you replied to that letter, it wasn’t me… It was clear that it was Ed Roth Taylor before I possessed it.

The crepin remarks that followed were completely unexpected.

“——He said that he no longer felt a reason to live, and he wrote to me every word of how he felt about ending his life. I didn’t even bother talking to Tanya.”

With those words, I took a deep breath.

Ed Roth-Taylor abandoned all the prestige of his family and ran away, but only after realizing that he had no place in the world anymore.

He was drowning in the infinite emptiness and staring quietly at the bachelor outside the window.

in a quiet room. Now I have to get kicked out soon. A life where you have to endure alone in a world that is cruel and penniless. The only future left for him is darkness.

After sitting quietly alone in a quiet room, the path he finally chose… This is the end of the life’s journey.

There are many ways in a quiet and secluded room. All you need is a long string and a chair that is easy to knock over.

Obviously, from my memory, Ed Roth-Taylor has his face reflected in the ending credits for a brief moment. It wasn’t a very good word, but I remember that I was still alive anyway.

The difference between my memory and this reality.

Ed Roth-Taylor was obviously going to end his life that day.

However, even that failed.

Even his death did not go according to his plan. why?

What can be said to be the cause is–

‘To be honest, I was very surprised.’

Bell Maya.

The day I was kicked out of the Office of Ophelis, I wanted to take care of me strangely, who had a reputation that was nothing more than a fool.

I thought I was just a person without prejudice, fulfilling my duty as the maid of the Ophelis building… .

‘I thought you were still living like this… When he left the Ophelis Hall, he looked like he had lost everything in the world, so I thought he would leave the school as it is.’

‘Anyway, I’m glad you’re doing well.’

The meaning contained in each line of her lines is felt completely new.

Even after that, seeing myself become more healthy and enterprising, and talking as if reassured.

While somehow maintaining an office-like topic, I don’t dare go against my feelings.

When he had free time, he came to the camp to check on me, and if there was anything he could help, he would help out.

I realized it from the way he treated me in such a strange way. Maid Belle Maia, who was in charge of Ed Roth Taylor, witnessed the moment he made an extreme choice and stopped it.

Then, as the unnatural flow of Bell Maia’s actions were all put together like pieces of a puzzle, even the reason why I entered this world seems to come into my mind.

Losing all his will to survive, Ed Rothtailer didn’t want to live a life of darkness any longer.

I… It was the life he had abandoned.

pooh.

Was he aiming for a break in the flow of thoughts?

Crepin’s blade pierced my shoulder. I couldn’t feel the magic, so it was a speed that was hard to even recognize.

As the pain rises, you can see the crepin smiling in front of you.

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My body, which had already reached its limit, screamed, and I felt my consciousness slowly disappearing.

* * *

A great wind blew around the annex of the mansion.

Everyone who had gathered at the mansion site could see the scene with their own eyes.

Beyond that rooftop, a man is fighting an ominous energy.

The night sky of the mansion is bright, where a huge wolf roars and runs wildly, and all kinds of high-ranking magic come and go.

If you close your eyes there, you feel as if you are sitting face to face in a mirror in a pure white space.

I bring a wooden chair and sit in front of a large mirror that reflects my whole body at once.

Then, a blonde man sitting in the mirror with his hands together with a serious expression will look directly at me.

A mirror reflects everything in the world fairly, but sometimes it feels like something inside is peeking out.

The blonde man in the mirror will look straight at me with an unfamiliar gaze.

Ed Roth Taylor stares at me.

It is a look back on a life in which all he had to do was run away without ever actually fighting against the huge injustice that came upon him.

He had too much work to do right now.

If I was kicked out of the Ophelis building, I had to find a place to live right away, I had a college degree left, but there was no place to receive tuition assistance, I had only a few clothes to wear as well as food to eat, and my academic reputation is bad, so where can I get help? no need to ask

There was no place for him to rest comfortably even at the place he reached after running away… He may have preferred to give up his life.

I clenched my teeth and struggled to escape from the darkness of the family, but what came at the end was such a futile thing to do. Life is futile.

I inherited the baton from there, and what kind of life did I lead?

He slept less than four hours a day and was struggling to survive somehow.

I made my home by breaking the bark and boiling it, putting on old clothes, and somehow incorporating the magic theory into my body with my lazy talent.

It was only by clenching his teeth and holding on to it, and then he was able to create a simple but plausible base.

A large hut, a couple of timber sheds, a campfire good for a fire, and a wooden shelter where Lucy sometimes rests. Along with the hut where Yenika is staying, eventually, she starts to build her own villa to Lortel, and even helps Belle to come and go.

Now, it has become a hideout that I do not want to give to anyone else, and I could say that it has truly become my own home.

The position within the university has also changed a lot.

His grades improved, he became a bachelor’s scholarship student, and recently he became a senior in the grade, and there are many juniors who follow him quite a bit.

As I walked around the university, there were quite a few people who greeted me and looked at me. I get to know quite a few big players, so I don’t hear people say that they have narrow connections.

I envy you

The source of the suddenly raised voice is myself through the mirror.

After talking like that, the man who bowed his head didn’t say anything more.

I sat down in front of him and just stared at him with my head bowed.

A boy who only had his face bowed for a while.

He has already lost the will to live. All they want is a comfortable rest.

So, I only had one thing to say.

All right, now you too, get some rest.

If you stop, you’ve done enough… You can finish it the next day or so.

Perhaps my thoughts had reached him, and the boy just kept his head down for a while.

wow!

He grabbed Crepin’s right hand, which was stabbing his shoulder. It was the first thing he did before his sight returned.

As Merylda’s rising wind enveloped the surroundings, and removed some of the magical power floating around… I grabbed Crepin’s right arm and threw it back.

Quang! Quadrant!

“Big, huh… .”

Crepin, who didn’t expect a counterattack at all, thinking it was a neatly piercing blow, let out a moan. It looked like he had a big shock on his back as he fell to the floor.

I also had the sword pierced deeper into my shoulder due to the impact, but I pulled it out with a sharp bite and threw it away. Blood was oozing out of the wound, and pain welled up… After clenching his teeth and holding on, he trampled on the fallen crepin.

blood drips down

The blood that was covered with it was immediately scorched, but my blood is overlaid on it anew.

“Big, huh… .”

gasp went in. breathing doesn’t work Nevertheless, I bit my teeth like they were about to break and pulled out a dagger.

Even the ceremonial dagger was already soaked in blood.

Life crises have been experienced many times. Before and after coming to this world, it is all the same.

I actually experienced death, and there were many times when I was seriously injured, and there were times when I collapsed from overwork.

There were not one or two trials that came as if hating me, and they all ran for my life, but all of them were overthrown.

When I was playing on the battlefield, I remembered what my comrades had said to me.

It wasn’t a very popular nickname because it didn’t sound like it.

“I am a cockroach.”

Without even thinking about the dripping blood, I looked down at him and talked while holding down the crepins.

He sharpened his teeth and lowered his dagger.

grasp!

He managed to block it with his left arm, but he put his weight on his trembling arm and somehow pierced the grotesque arm and descended.

Crepin clenched her teeth again as she endured it with her strength.

“I will never die. never.”

Along with the cool voice, even the fishy eyes seem to be frosted.

In the poison, he somehow clenched his teeth and continued to struggle.