How to Survive at the Academy chapter 255

[Gaiden] Windflower (4)

There are many stories of people who loved someone who could not be surpassed.

I know that it is only possible in fairy tales for love that transcends status to end with a romantic happy ending.

Yenica Palerover realized long ago. Reality is a series of times that are clearer than you think, there is no reversal, and flow in a dry way.

The highlights that we encounter once in a while are only brief, and the original life is mostly made up of obvious stories and simple moments.

So, your love story will also end with an obvious ending.

Unlike fairy tales that end a tumultuous life story with one irresponsible line, “I lived happily ever after…

Jenica Palerover’s life, as always, will flow through with very few highlights and most obvious moments.

I loved a man named Ed Roth Taylor.

It was a short life, but I can still feel it. No matter how many years you live, you will never again think of someone so passionately.

The experience of loving someone like fire will nourish you for a long life, and will make Yenica a more mature person.

Even if it’s an unfruitful love, it will remain in your heart, so you can remember that you’ve ever thought of someone so passionately.

Actually, isn’t that enough?

That’s how Yenica Palerover decided to break up on her own accord. Although she is not conscious of herself.

I had a gut feeling that the days of living together with the Duchy of Roth Taylor and being with him would one day come to an end.

An absurd act of ending a love story on your own, frightened by a broken heart that hasn’t come yet. The reason for doing that is obvious. Because I know Ed Roth Taylor’s situation very well.

Yenica Palerover knows what Ed must sacrifice to get him.

It would be really nice if Ed made up his mind and made all the sacrifices to get Yenika. But, I can’t even blame him for not doing so.

If you really love him, you can be stubborn.

If you want to keep me by my side, whether it’s for political gain, personal connections, authority as a noble, or a busy professorship… put it down for now.

If a woman named Yenica Palerover wants to have it, she has to make the sacrifice she deserves, to look after herself, take care of her, and force her to hug her from time to time. Ed Roth Taylor probably couldn’t resist.

However, Yenica Palerover was born not to do that.

She doesn’t want to force any kind of sacrifice on Ed Roth-Taylor. Especially since I know what kind of life he has lived and what kind of life he wants to lead in the future.

That’s why the girl wanders. The love she has cherished for a long time is in a state of lost direction as if it had drifted on her uninhabited island.

Sometimes, I feel disillusioned with myself, who is satisfied with just being by my side.

‘…I need to make up my mind…’

After washing her face, Yenika put on a light gown and tied the front part tightly. She then, as she looked in the mirror, wiping her hair dry, she decided again.

‘I’ve been distracted by sleeping in the same room for a while, but don’t get confused… I have a role to play…’

Just because Ed Roth-Taylor gives you special treatment, you shouldn’t be mistaken for a special and noble person.

Even if you thank Ed for letting him go into the room for once, your heart is pounding with anticipation in a situation where you are wearing a hat.

I don’t think I’ll ever touch Yenika in terms of Ed’s tendencies. In fact, as always, there was a high possibility that Yenika was alone, drumming and flirting.

Yenika pursed her lips as she looked at her blush cheeks.

Even though she has just graduated from the Sylvania Academy, hasn’t she already become an adult? How long will she blush like mugwort, shake her eyes, and be frightened by this?

I didn’t really make up my mind to go to bed, I just gave him a bed in the room.

It is very shameful for an adult woman to stutter, blush, and choke because she is ashamed of one thing. It’s also something that can’t be taken care of by Ed forever.

So, I made up my mind and washed my face again.

“Yeah, that was good..”

The heat on my face that seemed to burn has subsided, and I feel like my composure is finally back.

I look in the mirror and try to smile like an adult. If you do this, you will not feel the appearance of mugwort at all. It is the appearance of an adult who treats men with leisure.

Jenica took advantage of that momentum and quickly opened the bathroom door and pushed it back. Now it looks like she’ll be able to treat Ed casually.

“Did you wash everything?”

– Bang!

However, when she sees Ed sitting on Yenika’s bed, undressing and wearing only cotton pants… Yenika has to slam the bathroom door again to close it.

I had to hold the bridge of my nose tightly to handle the nosebleed, and then pour cold water over my face for a while again.

*“I’m sorry… Ed… I didn’t know you were changing clothes.”

Yenika came out to the bedroom and came out with a blush on her face that almost seemed like she had applied red paint.

However, when Yenika returned to the bedroom, Ed was still undressing.

“Oh, I haven’t changed my clothes yet…! Sorry! I’ll be in there for a while, so call me when you’re done!”

“No, you don’t have to go. Come here and sit next to me.”

“What the hell”

What?

Ed wasn’t in a position to take care of Yenica, whose brain was overloaded right now, so Ed had no choice but to put an extra hit with the next line.

“It wasn’t that I was changing, I just took it off.”

“….!!!”

Yenika had already stopped breathing here, so it was not unusual for her to suffocate.

I nodded my head a couple of times, which wouldn’t be strange even if the steam came out right away, and then I just walked out and sat down next to Ed.

“…without losing?”

The sound of my heart beating went beyond the level of thumping, and reached a point where it echoed in my ears. Ed’s words were forgotten for a moment.

“Uh, huh?! What?!”

“Isn’t it cold?”

“Yes! The weather is warm too! Rather, it was good because it was cold water, so I was energized!”

I was nervous for nothing, so the tension was higher than necessary.

It’s like he wants to emphasize that I’m not okay. There is no good person for someone who usually behaves like that.

“Then I’m glad. By the way, since this opportunity has come, I have something I want to tell you, Yenica.”

“Yes, yes! Say it! Tell me everything!”

Yenika was already completely yes-man.

Enclosed space. They promised to spend the night together. Ed takes off his shirt and sits on Yenika’s bed. Jenica, sitting next to him, draped only in his underwear and robe, holding her breath with her head blushing.

In this state, it is impossible to think more or use the brain itself. Yenika was such a person.

“…a little serious. From your point of view, it may seem natural or surprising, but… But let me be clear.”

“What?”

Ed pulled out the end of the bedsheet for a while, then just flowed in rhythm and talked.

“I think I like you. In a rational sense.”

Yenica Palerover stopped breathing.

Death. Yenica Palerover, aged 21.

Ed Roth-Taylor’s sudden confession dies of heart attack.

*“…Heo Eok!”

It felt as if I had lost my mind for a while and then came back. Was it 3 seconds or was it 5 seconds?

Yenika’s mind, which had been in a state of panic for a while, quickly returned to her place, giving the illusion that she had returned from death.

“What, what…”

“I told you I like you rationally.”

“Oh, no, I didn’t hear it, but why… uh… uh… why… my saliva…”

Since she couldn’t keep her mouth shut, saliva spilled out, and Yenika gasped and quickly regained her composure.

“You must have been feeling it to some extent. How many years have you been together?”

“No, but… there’s a gap between Ed and me… Ed is the duke, and I’m his vassal and I’ve only been given the title of baron…”

“Yeah… I expected you to talk like that…”

Ed lowered his head for a moment and spoke.

“…Yes, from my point of view, I have nothing to say.”

“What? What are you talking about! Don’t interpret this strangely! It’s not cold! It’s not cold, so don’t jump to conclusions too soon and we need to talk for a while! Do not misunderstand! It’s important, so I’ll make sure to check it out, but it’s not really cold! I didn’t kick it!”

“If it’s not full, then…”

“Heo Eok…!”

Yenika, who was holding her breath whenever she had a chance, covered her face tightly, wondering if she couldn’t handle the heat in her face.

“Eh, Ed… something bad happened…”

“What? Why?”

“Hey, the corners of my mouth are out of control… Give me a minute. I think I’m making a very funny and pointless expression that doesn’t fit the mood right now…”

“…take it slow”

Yenika bowed her head and shoved her head between her white thighs.

What is this feeling that creeps up on your back from before? It’s the first time I’ve felt this subtle refreshing feeling, catharsis, and heat that I don’t know what to call it.

I try to express happiness in such a lumpy way, but it feels like something is missing. I don’t think it would be strange if I ascended to heaven right now with a feeling that my heart is fluttering to the point where even breathing becomes difficult.

“But, there is a problem.”

Ed’s words came over Yenika’s back, who was trying to make a sound somehow from the neck that was tied up with happiness.

Unsuitable for that man, crouching and avoiding his gaze… He continues the conversation with a strange tone and difficulty.

“Only you, it may not be what you like…”

The world has stopped.

Yenika, who was trying to pull down the corner of her ascending lips, turned like a stone.

And he looked at Ed with his stiff head and wide-eyed eyes.

“…huh?”

“Well… listen… Yenica… There’s a thing called heroic sensuality… I’m not a hero, but anyway, I’m a master duke, and I’ve accomplished quite a lot.”

“Ugh, uh…”

How can a large ship settle in only one port? Any man with a magnificent vessel should experience countless experiences and refine his inner side like Ha Hae, who can embrace many people…”

For an Ed Roth-Taylor, there’s a lot of floating noise. I have a feeling that it is strangely different from the way I always talked coldly and directly.

I couldn’t help it. Because she had experience with women before possessing Ed Ross Taylor, but she’d never done anything sloppy, openly declaring that she’d cheat on her.

Ed turned his head and spoke.

“Everyone might be able to fall in love with another woman rationally again…”

“Hey, what does that mean…!”

“Since I’m from the Duke of Roth Taylor, there must be quite a few women who try to get along with me or try to get along with me… Anyway, I socialize with them, and then they make eye contact… That’s what it is like in aristocratic society. multi-faceted. At that time, Yenika, it’s a bit of a pain to hurt you, isn’t it? In a way, it’s kind of caring for you…”

It is sophistry itself.

However, Ed Roth-Taylor managed to get on with the story even though he knew it was nonsense.

“So… even if something like that happens, can you understand and forgive me… I wanted to ask a question like that…”

Here Ed Roth-Taylor made up his mind, thinking Yenika would kick her slap.

I also thought about how to respond if I cry or swear. Anyway, no matter what Yenica did, Ed was ready to accept it.

“Uh, uh…”

Yenika raised her head like that… and had a surprisingly vague expression on her face.

It’s been almost 4 years since I first met you at the lake in the northern forest of Aken Island when I was a sophomore in Sylvania.

As she went through many trials, lived together, and became a vassal… Yenica had a deeper understanding of who Ed was than anyone else.

Are all these trashy people out there! You might think it’s time to kick your slaps up and shout, but…

Yenica Palerover had only fully understood Ed’s intentions when he said that.

A man named Ed Roth Taylor isn’t greedy, he’s not stretched out because he’s wide, and he’s not interested in catching the main color. I’m not the kind of person who can say such a thing.

Nevertheless, the reason why Ed Roth-Taylor said that is because he has a deep understanding of Yenica Palerover.

Ed Roth-Taylor’s sense of debt and the burden she feels when she takes on Yenica Palerover at the cost of self-sacrifice… Ed knows all too well.

I don’t want Jenika to have the same experience twice.

That’s why Ed himself said he was trash.

Rather than sacrificing Ed to impose the burden on Yenika, he bows his head, accepts the blame, and is forgiven.

Yenica Palerover does not become a debtor who owes much to Ed, but rather a person who understands and forgives Ed’s immorality and debauchery.

Ed understands well how much weight can be removed from Yenika’s mind by itself… Among the nobles, there are many people who play with fire with commoners. Are you saying that you can handle such rumors?

I have no idea that responsible Ed will hold multiple women at once. This is because he is sincere in everything he treats and is sincere with whomever he treats. There is no reason for such a virtuous man to do debauchery.

At least Yenica knows Ed’s temperament well. He always had a style where he focused on what he had to do, rather than on the opposite sex.

Whether the opposite sexes around Ed will stand still… leave that aside…

Not knowing how things will change later… For now…

Even if things in the world don’t always go as expected… if we leave that aside…

First of all, the consideration that Ed gave to Yenika was rather to make her cry. There’s a lot left aside, but anyway.

“Ed. Don’t try to take responsibility for my heart until you bring yourself down.”

Ed was speechless for a moment at Yenika’s piercing words.

I thought that if it was Yenika, she would question Ed’s behavior.

Even so, it was such a shocking declaration that I wondered if I would start off with a look of contempt. However, Yenika had a deeper understanding of Ed than expected.

I am not someone who plays with people’s hearts for no reason.

Since that entrenched trust does not waver, in fact, there is nothing I can do other than stigmatize from Ed’s point of view.

In the end, it’s just useless vain.

-However, no one thought that such useless vain would lead to unexpected development… Yenikado and Eddo.

At the end of the day, their relationship is like a web of mutual respect and consideration, entwining each other.

Ed is worried about Yenica’s heart, and Yenika is worried about Ed’s heart… If one of them is determined, the relationship will change completely.

“Then… OK, Ed.”

In the end, Yenica, having read all of Ed’s intentions, swallowed dry saliva and shouted as if declaring.

“If you are such a trash, do it!”

Is Ed’s strong mind that Yenika was also affected by it? Yenica hardened his heart and grabbed Ed’s arm and dragged him off the bed.

I feel like I’ve used up all my courage just by pulling Ed in while taking a deep breath.

When I woke up, I could feel Ed’s arm supporting me around the nape of my neck.

The loose front end. When I think of the exposed chest and buttocks, the fever has already risen and I feel like I will pass out.

The cool night air coming from the window touches Yenica’s bare skin, sweeping her body once and descending. Even the late summer night air feels as cold as ice because of the body temperature that has risen to the limit.