Episode 105. You shouldn’t do that.
The cooking area in the excavation area is where meals are prepared for workers and soldiers.
Of course, entry of outsiders is prohibited for fear of harming the meal, but today, unusually, the person in charge allowed a bard to enter.
She wandered around the excavation site for the past month, boosting the morale of her members, and the cooks also gained strength from that.
“Thank you for accepting my unreasonable request.”
“No, not much. “I hope this will be a good gift for someone special.”
Around lunch time, Marylin leaves the table after saying hello to the person in charge who helped her.
The bag she was holding in her arms was full of bread she had made herself this morning.
The fact that the taste and texture are good has been directly certified by those who specialize in cooking.
All you have to do now is give this bread to the person you care about.
“hehehe, I have to bring it to you quickly before it gets cold~”
Of course, I would be lying if I said I wasn’t anxious.
For demons who are only faithful to their own desires, appetite is considered to be enough just to fill one’s stomach, unless the desire has been developed with a focus on that desire.
I tried to understand the culture of ‘gourmet food’ in order to live a life of disguise, but it was just something that suited me without feeling awkward and I never truly enjoyed it.
‘Is this really okay?’
She did that and she made her first snack.
I once heard that humans sometimes exchange snacks such as chocolate or candy when expressing their feelings to each other.
So, if you want to express your feelings for him, I thought it wouldn’t be a bad idea to try something like this sometimes.
‘Even now, it’s better to create something more proper… ….’
Due to the anxiety I felt when the decisive moment arrived, I began to feel hesitation in my steps towards him.
Is it okay to decorate the beginning with such a crude item? Wouldn’t it be better to take a little more time and give something better?
‘… No, this will be fine for now.’
But such conflicts only last for a moment.
Marylin soon gave up her worries and began to move again, trying to stay true to her rising emotions.
She was perfect from the beginning, but if she waits for just one reason, her chances of being with him will only decrease further.
As long as he doesn’t kick you out, all you have to do is take advantage of that opportunity and close the distance little by little.
‘Yes, it’s okay if you’re awkward at first.’
What’s more important than the beginning is being together at the end.
With such faith, the devil decided to give up his impatience and felt the beating of his heart as he held the bag full of bread in his arms.
‘If you advance little by little, you will definitely be able to stand by his side in the end.’
Quiet yet clear.
She faced her own emotions just by feeling them, buried her reddened head in her envelope and accelerated her steps.
I hope that this gift will help strengthen your relationship with him.
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…Okay.
It was clear that he came here with that in mind.
-Wow!
When she arrived at the place where he had chosen to practice, what greeted Marylin was a fierce struggle that she had never expected to see.
No, it was as if an accident had occurred even before that, as the walls and floor of the space he was in were cracked and turned over.
-Wow! Wow!!
As if he couldn’t control his emotions even though he was so furious, he repeatedly struck his spear at the corpse on the floor.
The ominous magical power felt from the corpse showed that the corpse was a dead person who refused to die and rose up.
“I’m sorry.”
And a faint voice comes through it.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry…” … “
His body, which repeats the same words as if in a trance, has long been drenched in rotten blood.
Nevertheless, he was lifting the spear stuck in his corpse again without any regard for his body.
“Mr. Hyosung. Why… ….”
I don’t know what the situation is.
But something serious is happening.
“Because I am weak!!”
The moment I reflexively approach him, a shout erupts.
In the end, his knee, having even thrown away his spear, collapsed mercilessly in front of the crushed corpse.
“If only I were stronger… …. You wouldn’t have overexerted yourself. I’m sorry, I’m sorry…….”
– Rustling.
The bag fell to the floor, and its contents spilled out, staining the dirt floor.
I wanted him to be truly happy after overcoming his initial anxiety.
Even though the thing she was holding tightly in her arms, worried that it might get cold, fell, she couldn’t even think of picking it up.
I just wanted to look at the person in front of me and feel the turmoil in my heart.
‘Why on earth…? ….’
Ironically, we do not know what happened here.
The only reason I followed him here was because I wanted to be with him just a little longer.
I didn’t get too involved in his situation, thinking that if we could have a meal together even if we were a little far away, that would be enough.
‘What on earth is this…? ….’
But as she faced the reality at the end, Marylin felt an unfamiliar emotion that she had never felt before pierce her heart.
‘Why am I feeling this way?’
Isn’t it strange?
When the other person is suffering, it is a good opportunity to take advantage of that gap and narrow the distance.
If you are a selfish devil from birth, you will try to think of ways to deceive the other person, no matter what his or her circumstances are.
But why is she afraid to approach him at this moment?
‘I don’t know what to do.’
I had steadily built up my understanding of humans since coming to this world, and I intellectually understood that approaching situations like this and offering comfort was the way to go.
But my heart is not like that.
If you, who have never truly helped someone, tried to comfort someone here, that would definitely be called pretense.
If your sincerity towards him is mixed with pretense, it may no longer be called love.
‘Hyosung is suffering, and I don’t know what to do.’
Even though I was caught up in such a conflict, I couldn’t leave him alone, so I just stood there and watched for a while.
“… Mr. Hyosung.”
Soon, someone came from behind, passed me and started to approach him.
Iri Haven. The woman who became his lover and his first child.
“Hyosung, please look this way.”
Yes, she would have expected him to be broken like this.
So, I guess I can at least encourage him on his behalf.
On behalf of myself, who has lived a life without knowing how to comfort others, I will sympathize with his pain and give him the strength to stand up again.
“… Airi, Mr.”
“Please calm down. From now on, I will lead the practice on behalf of the elders.”
But in reality, all that came out of her mouth was the callous urging of a mission.
Marylin, realizing that she did not feel the consideration she had expected, began to glare at her with her hardened eyes.
“I will start practicing soon, so please stand up.”
I have noticed this since I entered this garrison area.
Unlike herself, who actively spent her time with him whenever she had the chance, she would hide her tracks because she had something to do.
Of course, as long as she didn’t interfere with him, she thought it was okay and didn’t care, but if that attitude extended to her own love, her story would be different.
“Ah, yes. It’s not over yet. Mr. Airi……. Because you must have had a conversation with the elder. Yes.”
Yes, he did not reject what he said.
Even though I had committed an act of contempt for my teacher’s death, I was preparing to accept what would await afterward.
“What should I do?”
But his face is still dark, and his raised hands are shaking as if his body has run out of stamina.
I’m so trembling that I can’t even take that few steps, so if I continue like this, I might be damaged to the point where I can’t recover.
“That’s… ….”
“Wait a minute.”
Marylin, who could no longer see her face, opened her stiffened lips and came between the two.
My foot stepped on the bread, but I didn’t care.
Because there was something more important than that right now.
“What on earth are you talking about? Two people.”
“… “Marilyn.”
“Iri, Hyosung is suffering right now.”
These were words I never thought would come out of my mouth.
Other people’s suffering. This is definitely not something a selfish demon would say, right?
“But when it comes to practice, there are things you have to do first.”
But even though this was a foreign feeling, Marylin did not try to suppress her feelings.
To begin with, love is an alien emotion to demons.
Such heterogeneous emotions may have developed what humans call ’empathy’.
Even if it is the wrong feeling for the demon, he should also accept it proudly if it proves his love no matter what.
“Hyosung is suffering…….”
It’s just my first time feeling this way, so I just don’t know how to approach this situation.
However, she thought that if he was a person who had a relationship with him before her, she would most likely be able to understand his pain and offer him sincere consolation.
“… So?”
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What actually returned those expectations was a dagger-like answer given in an extremely cold voice.
“So, Rani… ….”
“It was planned that this would happen from the beginning.”
Yes, she had already predicted this future.
Jean Cleo knew that she would die today, so she calmly headed to the training ground. She even chose to use her corpse as a tool in order to fulfill the ‘final condition’ to become a warrior even with her old body.
“And in the future, we will have to go through even more hardships than this. “What Hyosung wants to do is something that cannot be achieved unless one endures it.”
Nevertheless, she respected him and made up her mind.
In order to inherit that will, Airi was trying to straighten up her companion who was about to collapse.
“Hyosung must become a warrior. “He did it for himself, and even more so for everyone who gave to Mr. Hyosung.”
If you have to kill your heart for that, you will have to kill it.
Even if it hurts my companion, if I don’t overcome that hurt, I won’t be able to survive the future that comes.
“… “Don’t say nonsense.”
Despite understanding it in her head, Marylin was unable to show her respect for the person in front of her.
“Marilyn.”
“Is being a hero that important? “Is the world that an individual might be able to save more important than the pain that your loved one is feeling right now?”
Didn’t you give up on being the first one for him because you were worried that you might go crazy and ruin him?
But now his lover, whom he believed would take his place, now wants to hurt him.
“Even though it’s so important, I can at least offer some consolation. “You know that better than me.”
That feeling of betrayal, combined with my sympathy for him, began to tear through his feelings like a dagger stabbing into his chest one after another.
I felt my eyes turning red from such pain.
Unable to suppress her emotions, she tried to vent her resentment towards her.
“Others may not know, but you…”
“You shouldn’t do that! Am I wrong!?”
A scream full of rage that I let out for the first time in my life.
When Airi faced that, her face became confused, and then she looked away and started shaking her fists.
That in itself taught her that it was something she too was forced to do against her will.
“Marilyn.”
Nevertheless, as if he understood that there was a reason why it had to happen like this, he did not let out his resentment towards her and instead went all out to talk to the person who cared about him.
“It’s okay. “Because I’m fine.”
“Mr. Hyosung. But……”
“I was just a little confused. “If the senior has already made up his mind, I should respect that choice.”
The voice hoarse from crying and the swollen flesh of the family.
Nevertheless, he had a forced smile on his face, as if he didn’t want to worry him.
‘Hyosung, no.’
A fake smile to hide my true feelings.
Marilyn had the experience of smiling like that countless times.
‘Painful things are something you get used to, but you can’t get better. ‘If I endure it, it will only break me down further.’
She may have felt sympathy because she understood such suffering, but even so, Mary Lynn could no longer say anything to him.
Even though it’s painful, I love him.
Because you love him, you shouldn’t get in the way of the path he wants to take.
“… Mr. Airi. Please tell me what I should do.”
Airi took her gaze away from Mary Lynn who was just staring at her aimlessly, loosened her bitten lip and spoke towards her with her spear that had fallen on the floor.
“Please lift the window.”
The beginning of this conflict, the cause of all the training we have gone through so far, and the weapon that will give us the strength to respond in the future.
Airi, who was silently holding it in his hand, immediately began to gather strength in the crystal ball in his hand.
“From now on, I will use the power I have to project the soul memories contained in this window onto Hyoseong.”
“Projection, huh?”
“Tachia Philoi…. “She experiences the life of a woman who was once called a dragon, and makes her power completely belong to Hyoseong.”
Yes, all the practice so far has been nothing more than ‘preparation’ for that.
She wanted to slightly increase the chances of success in projecting her memories by establishing a foundation similar to hers.
“… So, Mr. Hyosung, please make sure to strengthen his mind from now on.”
And what will happen next, even the prophet himself cannot guarantee the outcome.
Nevertheless, we have to do it. This is Airi, who spoke in a heavy voice, as if re-emphasizing her warning to him.
“Experiencing someone else’s life is something that could easily lead to the disappearance of one’s personality.”
An individual named Woo Hyo-seong will be erased from this world forever.
Emphasizing that danger, which in fact means death, will soon overtake him.