Episode 106. Impure Love
All practice is for this moment.
After emphasizing that, Airi left him and his spear alone in the middle of the dragon vein and blocked his entrance with a rock.
For the important task of experiencing the past, it is necessary to completely isolate external interference.
-Wow.
Afterwards, Airi stood in front of the blocked cave and attempted to combine his power to see the past with the dragon vein.
Initially, it is a power that is limited to understanding the other person’s circumstances.
But this time, it won’t end with just reviewing memories.
What he must pursue is to have the power and ability worthy of a warrior, and the surest way to achieve that is to walk the journey of a real-life warrior named ‘Tachia Philoi.’
‘Putting someone else’s experience into one’s head…’ …. If you are not careful, your personality may disappear.’
In addition, there is no guarantee that this ritual will succeed.
The person I am trying to recall now was a hero whose strength rivaled that of a dragon, and the person who processed the soul of such a hero into a weapon was none other than the being who rose to the top of this world.
As he is clearly a being who can be defined as a ‘transcendant,’ it is not easy for the human mind to handle those memories.
‘There is no guarantee that the future will be successful.’
Nevertheless, it must be done.
If he quits here, the efforts he has made so far and the sacrifices of the people who helped him will be in vain.
“… “Are you done?”
Marylin, who was watching the process next to her, soon approached her Airi as she saw a barrier being formed.
“Okay, now if you wait… ….”
And cooing. A fist was swung before the answer could be finished.
The excitement that I could not control struck the surface of the rock that had set up the barrier.
“… Please don’t break it. “If there is any interference from outside, consciousness is interrupted.”
It was predictable to some extent.
No matter how unpredictable it may be, it is the embodiment of madness, but it is easy to predict something that involves only one person and love for him.
“Since Hyosung has already accepted, you don’t want to cause trouble for Hyosung, right?”
“Unlike usual, you are very calm. “Mr. Hyosung could die.”
Paddeuk. Mary Lynn grits her teeth and stretches out her hand.
She immediately grabbed Airi by the collar and began to cast her fierce gaze at the distance in front of her.
“Tell me. “What kind of future did you predict that caused people to change so much?”
“… “What are you going to do if I don’t tell you?”
“I will rip your heart out alive and leave with Hyoseong.”
It’s been a long time since I gave up any disguise to hide my true colors.
There was no trace of the usual pretense in her sharp voice anymore, but Airi only calmly returned a prepared answer.
“And Tasian will chase you and Mr. Hyoseong and kill them.”
Shocked. Marylin glares at Airi, her body trembling.
The reason why her anger calmed down at that moment was because she realized the difference in class between herself and her from the first time they met.
“… “Why is that monster coming out here?”
Monster.
Even the second-in-command of the Demon King’s army had no choice but to evaluate his opponent that way.
Even in her decline, she can easily overwhelm anyone, and at least once she will be able to demonstrate power equal to that of her former master.
“If Hyoseong does not awaken as her hero, we will all be killed by her.”
“What does that mean all of a sudden? “You said with your own mouth that she will never release her powers until Hyoseong dies.”
“Despite such a contract, a situation will soon come in which Tasian will have no choice but to go on a rampage. You guessed it, right? “I wonder what will happen to this land soon.”
An excavation site where dragon bones are buried.
I had already guessed what would soon happen here during the month I spent here.
I just kept my distance because I thought it had nothing to do with me, and I thought it would be enough to take him and get away from here if such signs came true.
But if the disaster that will occur here in the future is what stimulates the monster…….
“… sh*t.”
At the end, Marylin let go of her collar and couldn’t bear to swing her fist and just gritted her teeth.
I wanted to kill the person in front of me right now, but I knew that she did this because she had no other options.
“Why… ….”
But even if you understand it with your head, it’s with your heart.
The unfairness of this situation did not go away easily.
“Why, it’s Hyosung?”
If she had been with him before.
Because he may no longer have the obligation to personally prevent the hopeless future that is about to hit this land.
“… “Hyosung also accepted this.”
“You don’t want to do this either. “There are a lot of people out there right now who will do whatever you want, so you can choose one of them to carry out your great mission!”
Love and mission. If you choose a path where the two coexist, both may end up in ruin.
Why is the person in front of me trying to drive the person he gave his heart to death?
“… No, the only person I can help is the person I choose as my companion.”
“What…” ….”
“Marilyn. Knowing the future is a very, very powerful force. At least if it falls within the category of prophecy, people who know the future can protect their own safety and find the optimal way to achieve what they want.”
Airi wanted to explain here why it was inevitable.
Even though it is imperfect, how powerful is the power one possesses, and why is it limited to ‘individuals’ to pour out such power?
“But if there are more than one person who benefits from such a powerful power, the prophecy itself becomes meaningless.”
“… Meaningless?”
“When there is no whim of the transcendent, the only factor that can influence the determined fate is ‘the person who knows the future.’ In other words, the more people know about the future, the higher the risk that the future someone wants to change will have a negative impact.”
The most important thing in moving toward the right future is minimizing variables.
Of course, as the number of people who benefit from prophecy increases, errors occur in the prophecy, so her journey for salvation chose to minimize the number of people who know the future.
No matter how much power is given to you by a great being, in the end, it is only humans who can handle that power.
In order to properly use the power of prophecy possessed by such an imperfect being, I would have to select one person to serve for the rest of my life and dedicate myself to him until the very end.
“In such a situation, we must be careful to prioritize our mission and look to his future…. Do you think that’s possible?”
Yes, as her prophet, all she has to focus on and assist is the one person designated as her savior.
It would be a natural step for such an object to become one’s companion.
“… Even if Hyosung doesn’t want that?”
Even if it means using my pet and making him suffer.
“Hyosung has already accepted.”
“Even if such judgment runs the risk of driving one’s love to death?”
Even if it leads to a future that cannot be predicted.
“…… Otherwise, it’s all over.”
I had already chosen him.
I am always trying to find the best path for him to move forward.
“… Phew.”
After hearing her strong-willed doctor, Marylin let out a sneer and began glaring at her own nemesis.
“Selling the present for a future that we don’t know what will happen… …. “Your love was so insignificant.”
No, this woman is not my romantic enemy.
Would it be absurd for her to regard someone who uses even love as a ‘tool’ for her mission as her lover?
“In fact, anyone was okay as long as they met the conditions. Since everyone was fine, I thought it was enough to just grab one person and help them, and that probably led to Hyosung and this situation.”
Because I’m just unlucky.
The fact is that he was not the first, and the situation ended up like this.
“… Why did you choose that person? “Unlike me, you wouldn’t have mattered to anyone, even if it wasn’t that person.”
A person who didn’t care about anyone else’s mission ended up choosing everything for himself.
Damn it, the person who helped me escape from my damn mission ended up playing into the hands of the one who forced my damn fate.
“… “Not everyone is okay.”
Amidst the grief over her unfair treatment, sobs began to escape from the mouth of the woman who had become the target of that hatred.
As if to teach us that the attitude that had always been maintained was slowly breaking down due to the scream of this moment.
“What are you trying to say again…” ….”
“Like you said, before I met him, I thought everyone was fine. “I thought it was okay to have anyone as long as they were worthy of my mission.”
The mission of the Haven clan is to find a savior who can prevent destruction, and to become his companion and help him for the rest of his life.
He considered his own opinion unimportant to the mission.
He thought he just had to find the one with the most potential and give his all to that one.
“But after I accidentally ended up with him, I realized why I ended up with him in the future.’
As he thought about killing himself every moment, he became strongly aware of his existence for the first time.
If you look at his past, you can understand what kind of person he is.
Furthermore, I gradually took shape in my perplexed mind by looking at the future parts that fit him and imagining futures that would fit in with him.
“I could have changed my relationship with him, but… …. “It was my will that chose to be with him when the time came.”
Mission may have been okay for anyone, but love was not.
The first night I chose to be with him was clearly the result of my own will as well.
“But why…” …. “Am I bound to be like this?”
I felt grateful to him for being so unreasonable with me, but even more than that, I felt a great sense of guilt.
As her thoughts became clearer, she came to view her innate fate as a curse.
As such awareness seemed to be at odds with her past self, eventually even a smile began to appear on her lips.
“I love him as much as you do, but why…?”
“Why can’t I love him purely like you do?”
She realized it just by facing it.
Unlike himself, who gave up everything and only thought about being with him, Iza was still wrapped up in his mission and possessed the poison to achieve everything.
How enormous is the determination to achieve both mission and love.
The act of killing one’s heart by not being able to give up both causes how much suffering it brings.
– Shake it off.
Isn’t there something you can’t understand?
He was unable to abandon his mission, and had the experience of wandering alone for eternity for the sake of just one person.
-Tiriring, ding~♬
As if faithful to that realization, Marylin sits down in her seat, takes out her instrument, and continues playing.
Due to the strange power within him, Airi began to feel her own spirit gradually being lifted.
“… “Marilyn.”
“This much.”
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Yes, the past is something that cannot be helped.
If you still love him…….
Moreover, if he is going to share his fate with this damn woman, he needs to share his fate with them too.
“It’s okay to organize this, right?”
I don’t know how much influence my power will have since I’m in a situation where I’m being swept away by waves of memories within the barrier, but there’s only so much I can do.
Airi, who watched her silently continue playing with such feelings, wiped the moisture from her eyes and bowed her head in front of her.
To show her at least some gratitude towards her for going along with her own brute force.
“… “I’d like to ask for Hyoseong.”
The reason she couldn’t continue it for a long time was because she also had work to do outside of this place.
Disaster will soon strike this place, and we need someone to protect this place until that time comes.
‘It’s almost now.’
When Airi finally got out of the cave, what she saw was a sky filled with dark clouds.
‘Soon, Tasian will go on a rampage.’
It was the same sky that I saw in the prophecy that day.
******
-Shoot.
Under the dark cloudy sky.
On top of the battlefield under the cold rain, I swung the sword in my hand and eliminated those in front of me one by one.
But no matter how much I erase it, it keeps appearing. Even if we cut down dozens or hundreds of people…….
-Kwaeok, kwadeuk!
Yes, these are the times.
A time when it is considered natural for humans to kill other humans. The reason I came to that place was to live.
In a world where death is rampant no matter where you go, the surest way to protect yourself is to increase your strength and kill everyone in front of you.
“Why on earth…?” ….”
But it wasn’t like this from the beginning.
In the past… …. No, happiness definitely existed in my life until not long ago.
“Why did I do this…….”
The more I think of that happy past, the more painful this moment feels.
My mother.
My mother, who raised me when I was floating down the river, disappeared without a sound in front of me one day.
“Ah, ah…. Mom, mom……. “Where is mom!!”
Would it have been less painful if I had not known such happiness?
If I hadn’t met her in the first place and knew that her world was this cruel and disgusting from the beginning…….
There would have been nothing to contaminate this body to the extent that it would not be washed away even by this strong rain.
“If you knew this would happen, you shouldn’t have picked me up. “You shouldn’t have taught me things like love.”
Tasian. I hate you.
I resent you for still remaining in my heart even though you left me.
You who gave me a name…..
I want to make you, who gave me the name ‘Tachia Philoi’, like the countless corpses behind me.
-Tiriring, tiring~♬
Just as my mind was being eroded by such hatred, I suddenly heard the faint sound of music.
As I listened to that sound, I plunged the sword in my hand into the pile of corpses in front of me and let out a deep breath.
“…… No. I am.”
The coldness that gradually comes to you as the chill seeps deep into your lungs.
Nevertheless, I felt an uncontrollable hatred growing inside me, but I gritted my teeth and pushed that feeling away.
“I am not Tacia Philoi.”
Yes, this is just someone else’s memory.
Experiencing those memories is nothing more than feeling buried in what happened in the past.
“I am Woo Hyo-seong.”
The force was so strong that I felt like I was about to lose myself, but I stubbornly held on and prepared to move on from this miserable memory.
I gained some strength from the faint sound of music.
“It’s not Tacia Philoi, it’s Woo Hyosung… that’s my name…”
Even in this terrible nightmare, I can never forget.
Endlessly ruminating on my existence.