I Became a Genius by Running Away From the Academy chapter 109

109 – If so, you standing above me (4)

I used to think that way when I was exhausted from studying at school and fell face down on my desk.

I hope that the contents of the book I am holding will enter my head in an instant, just as a book is placed on a bookshelf.

If I could go back to the past and meet the younger me, I would like to tell you.

First of all, I said to buy bitcoin first, and then I said that the experience of knowledge that I did not know digging into my head was not very pleasant.

“Uh-wook…… “

My hair is burning white.

The nausea rises from the depths of the stomach.

I feel like I’m going to vomit the things inside of me at any moment, feeling as if a lump of sticky black tar is burrowing into my head through my blood vessels.

With that, I stopped reflexively absorbing energy and took a deep breath.

‘This…… Aside from the pain, the discomfort is too serious.’

If you tilt a glass containing both oil and water, the two pour out together.

As the energy was absorbed like that, Tamamo’s resentment was mixed in with it.

Challenge!

In my head, two books with different contents unfold at the same time.

I was born in a small and shabby house, but instead, I met good parents who thought of me more than anyone else and grew up happily.

The village of Tamamo was a beautiful place. The smell of grass stained by the sunset was fragrant, and all the elders in the village were friendly like a gentle breeze.

I loved you both with all my heart, just as they love me.

Tamamo’s village was a peaceful place. At least in her young eyes, it was comparable to heaven.

Bad-!!!

‘Haa, this must be really crazy.’

My head was messy and I couldn’t put it all together.

Because I accepted Tamamo’s grudge, the memories containing the grudge crept into my head.

What makes a person’s ego?

There may be many answers, but my answer is that the emotions felt by an individual through memories and experiences define that person.

In that sense, just a moment ago, I felt an unpleasant feeling that something more fundamental inside me was being twisted, which can’t be explained simply by vomiting.

‘I want to stop absorbing energy right now…… I can’t do that.’

When I didn’t absorb it, the future that would happen was clearly drawn, so I couldn’t take my hands off it.

Are you going to wake up in the middle and Tamamo runs away?

If it was just that much of a problem, I wouldn’t have absorbed it.

Ehh-

‘I don’t like it when my hunch hits like this.’

When I met Yuri for the first time in the dungeon, I was worried in case the child betrayed me.

And now, in front of me, the worries I had at that time were about to appear in a subtle form.

As I have already said, this resentment pours deep emotional memories into the target and shakes the ego.

So here’s the problem, what if the target is not me, but a girl who has spent most of her life in a seal and has just come out and has nothing to call her Ego?

‘Even if you are lucky enough to absorb all of your energy, the result will be the loss of your ego. It’s not Yuri that appears after that, it’s probably the second Tamamo.’

Of course, it’s not like I can resist Tamamo’s grudge.

Of course, I somehow stopped absorbing energy a while ago and prevented the flow of grudge.

But that was only possible because it was a light thing floating on top of the accumulated grudges, and it wasn’t long after the absorption started.

If I do it again this time, I’m sure it won’t end so badly.

Unless a miracle happens, my ego will surely be distorted.

And to put it differently, it also meant that, unlike Yuri, I would be okay with accepting this grudge assuming that there was a miracle.

Whoop-

It’s a stupid choice to think about again.

To the point where I couldn’t understand myself thinking this way.

But what can I do?

No matter how the process went, I decided that I would make this charming prickly-eared child my own.

And parents protect their children no matter what.

‘It’s not like I’m thinking of sacrificing it.’

The second best is not enough.

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You must seek the best.

And I had to grow right now to grab the best future with my own hands.

I am not saying that I will consume Tamamo’s energy.

In the first place, her aura is too strong for a youkai, so it doesn’t suit me well.

Even if you eat it, you are likely to get sick, and even if you absorb it, the efficiency is poor.

So the best thing to do is to give up your energy to Yuri like you are now.

In the first place, the growth I am talking about is not physical growth, but mental growth.

‘In order not to distort or become a crippled person, I must find a way to grow mentally or endure grudges by any means during this short period of time.’

After I carved the letters into my heart like that.

Hold out a sigh.

I gritted my teeth.

That’s how we start preparing.

Ugh-!

A lot of things flow from Tamamo.

The energy passes through me and flows to Yuri.

And the grudges clung to me like being filtered through a sieve.

Sorry–!!!!!

Memories of grudge swallow me.

The two books that existed in my head spit up countless pages.

Chjik- Jjik- Jjik-

The torn pieces of paper fly wildly and create a storm that wraps around me.

Fallang-

I was happy. Every day, I slept in the arms of my loving parents, and I gradually grew up day by day. I was happy.

One day, humans came in and they attacked Tamamo’s village and hunted the foxes in the village. Looking at him, Tamamo vowed to avenge her with bloody tears.

I grew up quickly and reached the age to go to kindergarten. It was there that I first started drawing and discovered that I had a talent for drawing.

With the help of the village foxes, Tamamo was able to hide in a shelter. As she opened and read her many magic books there, she realized her talents that she had not been aware of.

Fallang- Flutter-

I discovered that I have a talent.

My parents smiled brightly when they saw my picture. A little more time passed like that, and I wondered where the rumors spread. At people’s recommendation, I went on air with the name of a painting prodigy.

After learning all the techniques in the hideout, he came out. What came into my eyes was a village that had become an empty plain. I cursed the situation where I couldn’t make a graveyard because there were no corpses, and I vowed to soothe the spirits of the villagers by building graves with human corpses.

I liked seeing my parents smile at me and at my pictures. I worked hard and worked hard, drawing more and more and more and more.

To alleviate the sorrow of those who had their skins stolen and their meat eaten, I went on a journey of revenge. I investigated past events and killed all the humans involved.

Flutter- flutter- flutter-

I made a name for myself in the world.

The fact that I have wings that I didn’t even know existed in my hand is amazing, and I devised a way to increase the power of the technique by making an amulet by working hard with a brush.

When the guys who raided our village in the past were stripped of their skin, their bodies were torn, their heads cut off, and they were thrown as food for the beasts, the world defined me as evil and saw my house gradually getting richer. I was delighted that it was helpful.

As more broadcasts went on, more people came to the house, and my parents thought about moving and killed thousands of people related to the village’s destruction, but even so, it was difficult to unravel the resentment in my heart.

I needed more blood, but the guys who came to visit me gradually got stronger, and in the end, I, who needed strength, put a human heart in my mouth and delayed leaving the house full of memories.

Flutter- flutter- flutter- flutter-

I regret the choice I made back then.

Not long after, robbers broke in at night, aiming for the money made through the painting.

I couldn’t even scream because I was so hardened from cleaning this filthy world pouring out my hatred, when my parents came out and charged at the robber without hesitation.

Third class.

The guys who came to see me are all third-rate.

To the point where he couldn’t handle even a single trick properly, he was at such a low level that he wielded a blind sword in panic when he saw someone rushing at him.

Blood splashes.

Her beloved mother’s stomach is cut long and her father’s heart is pierced. The blood of the insolent humans who attack me bursts out.

Instinct precedes the body.

It’s dirty. The art dealer next door. Formulate a formula, peouk! Red. Avoid. Step on call the hospital. Suddenly, why do I have to be like this? Even if you catch a wound, it continues to flow. Even if you try to finish it, follow me in the end.

Even if you try to catch it, it keeps passing between your palms and you can’t stop it.

It was disgusting. Every day is filled with killing these guys.

It was disgusting. The self who fooled around in the past.

Percussion-

This body, which had been steeped in such skeptical sentiments, realized.

In fact, this world was hell.

I thought as I smelled the bloody smell that brushed my nose.

I want to go back to the village of my childhood.

However, the village has long since disappeared, but there is one place that I know of that is similar to that village.

This body raised its head and looked at the sky.

The Pure Land of Paradise, the land of immortals who are said to exist above the sky.

If it was a place I heard about when I was young, it would be different from this place.

Because of this, this body made a pledge.

I will go up there.

For that reason, I had to use everything that exists in this world as a stepping stone, but it didn’t matter.

This world is hell anyway…… Is it?

In an instant, doubt soared.

Is that so? Is this world really a hell without all hope?

Somehow…… It seems it wasn’t.

It’s definitely a tough and cold place, but something shining and warm seems to have existed……

Jjik-!

At that time, I felt something touch my cheek.

The familiar smell of blood. But it doesn’t feel bad.

The warmth left in the blood isn’t irritating, but on the contrary, I think it’s warm.

At that moment, I heard someone’s voice.

It’s a relief that you’re all right, a short but heartfelt happy voice.

Jjijik-!

Ah, I remembered.

Even after that, my parents did not die.

Although their health was extremely weak, they both rose again.

And on the day I became an adult, he left me with numerous letters and words asking me to live as happily as possible and for a long, long time, including their share.

Ah, I remembered.

Jjijijik-!!!

I think of the world as a desolate place, but at the same time I know that flowers are blooming in the cracks everywhere.

I hate this world, but I value my life that you two have saved more than anything else, and I vowed to paint this life as happy as possible, just as they said.

Also, I hate myself for letting them die, but I believe that there is something light in the world because I love you two.

I am.

I am.

I am……

Kiiiiing–!!!!!

“I, Tamamo, unlike you, who called this world hell and tried to escape to another place, I haven’t given up on this world yet.”