120 – One day out of 49
I got caught.
My private details that I didn’t want anyone to see were discovered.
Why is Edgar Fix here now?
At this time when everyone is enjoying the festival.
“Look, don’t look!”
I didn’t know what to do, so I started screaming.
I picked up any dirt I could get my hands on and threw it at Ed, who was looking at me blankly.
Get out of here.
If you don’t want to die, get out of here right now.
I tried to squeeze out the negative energy by making clumsy threats.
But there was no way I could use the power of denial in my state of exhaustion.
“Hey, this…! “My power went out of control…!”
I had no choice but to start making excuses.
The reason why I look like this right now is because sometimes the power of negativity runs wild and I end up like this.
I threatened Ed, saying that if you regain your strength, you will be torn to pieces by my hands.
He fiercely shot at him, telling him that if he didn’t look away immediately, he would gouge out his eyeballs.
“······.”
But he was looking at me without change.
I was looking at my weakest moment as it was.
And the moment I saw the feeling of sympathy in those eyes, a certain emotion rose up inside me.
“···Ugh.”
I felt like I was going to burst into tears.
Maybe I’ve been waiting for this moment for a long time.
I hope that at least one person understands the situation I am in.
“Get out…”
Maybe that’s why my voice didn’t have any strength.
In fact, my vision blurred and my voice became dull.
Then a thought suddenly occurred to me.
I wish Ed would hug me.
I hope you can comfort me who is unfortunate enough to have to push away everyone I love.
Because I am too tired to even hope for such cheap sympathy.
Because these moments that come periodically are so difficult that I die.
-Suooooo…
But fortunately.
The torrent of emotions slowly began to subside.
The art of control has been restored.
I felt strength returning to my exhausted body and returning to my original self.
A large part of the emotions that made up my weak self were cut away, and emotions such as guilt and self-loathing began to disappear as if washed away.
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“How dare you!”
I decided to punish Ed.
My secrets were exposed, so I had to do whatever it took to silence them.
“·····!”
But Ed was approaching me instead.
With those eyes that pity me.
He was slowly moving towards me.
I pushed away the man who was approaching me and fired at him with the power of denial.
“·····What!”
But it was no use.
My negativity cannot even penetrate.
Is it because I have just started to recover my strength?
No, that can’t be true.
Because no living thing can stop my denial.
“Oh, don’t come!”
The situation returned to the beginning again.
Although I have regained control, I am still embarrassed.
Why doesn’t my power work on Ed?
And why does Ed approach me with eyes that seem to understand everything?
In the meantime, he came close to me.
My heart is pounding and my body is shaking.
When denial, my greatest weapon, did not work, my mind went blank.
Foolishly, I couldn’t even think of using another technique.
“It’s okay.”
At that time, Ed said that and hugged me.
For a moment, the flowing background stops, as if time has stopped.
Both eyes opened wide and breathing stopped.
On the other hand, my heart was pounding and my head was pounding.
I feel like an intense chemical action is shaking me.
-Sweet…
My whole body relaxes.
Ed patted me once more, saying it was okay.
At that moment, I remembered something from the distant past.
Those days when Adrian Graham was still warm to me.
Those days when we acted foolishly without any wrinkles.
Maybe I’ve been missing that embrace for a long time.
Those days when we could smile without any worries and under someone’s care.
“Ah…”
Is it because the art of control has just been restored?
It seems like I still have some self-pity inside me.
Seeing how I want to throw everything away and rely on the person who embraces me.
“It’s okay. “It’s okay in front of me.”
My vision became blurred.
When he says it’s okay, the fear inside me fades away.
In the end, I let the tears flow.
I didn’t bother to hide my brokenness and let it be revealed.
Once in a while, I want to rely on someone.
It’s good even if it’s just for a little while.
I also wanted to hug someone and cry freely.
“Wait a moment…It’s only a moment…”
So I leaned my face on his shoulder.
I held him and took a deep breath.
I completely broke down in front of him.
***
10 Minutes later.
Isabella, who was burying her face in Ed’s shoulder, quietly lifted her face.
Now that I have completely regained control over my skills.
She was feeling a little hit.
I can’t believe you’re showing such a shabby appearance.
“What happened?”
I pretended like nothing had happened and changed the topic.
Ed grinned and tilted her head, giving off a slight aura of denial as she answered.
“My power isn’t working. “What happened?”
“Ah.”
Ed immediately took the doll out of her arms and showed it to her.
It was a doll that Isabella had previously given to block negative energy.
“Ah…”
Only then did Isabella put on her convincing face.
She had forgotten she had given this doll to her because she had given it to her at the beginning of the semester.
“·····Hmm?”
However, the doll’s appearance changed.
It was clearly a grotesque doll made on purpose to make people feel bad, but the doll, which was shedding bloody tears and tearing its mouth in a bizarre way, had changed into a cute figure.
Ed explained as Isabella looked at her questioning eyes.
“I did a little tweaking. “In a more suitable way.”
“······.”
···A more fitting look.
Isabella turned her attention to her doll again.
A girl smiling brightly.
Ed also looked at the doll and added an explanation.
“For some reason, I feel like the doll is saying it’s too hard. So I did some tweaking.”
“······.”
Isabella suddenly remembered the moment she gave this doll to someone else.
She said to some boys who showed interest in her.
At that time, their reactions were all the same.
She was looking at herself with a face that seemed to ask why she was giving me something like this.
In the end, their goodwill did not last long.
An attempt was made to throw away, burn, or tear up the doll.
‘Why are you…’
But Ed was different.
In fact, he gladly accepted the doll as a thank you for giving it as a gift.
Moreover, he kept it for a long time and carried it in his arms.
You can even fix it with a pretty doll like this.
“Are you flirting with me?”
Isabella asked that question without thinking.
However, if that is the intention, it is no different from having already succeeded.
She felt a strong attraction to Ed from the beginning.
It was probably from the moment we first exchanged looks.
That calm face that is not afraid of itself.
It was interesting.
Why isn’t that guy afraid of me?
Do you think they don’t know about my rumors because they are commoners who don’t know aristocratic society?
But as time passed, it wasn’t like that.
Even though you know yourself well, you can still see yourself in those eyes.
The first moment I was certain was probably when we took a sleep class together.
He helped induce sleep by holding her from behind.
His arms were so warm that I drooled profusely and fell asleep.
At that time, I felt like I was being cared for for the first time in a long time.
For the first time, I felt an unfamiliar, pounding emotion from the opposite s*x.
“······.”
However, Ed had no answer.
He was just smiling a faint smile on his complex and subtle face.
Isabella chuckled and asked another question.
“····Why did you hug me?”
“······.”
Ed was silent for a moment.
I stared at Isabella, who had regained her composure.
However, Isabella was no longer the person she used to be.
Because it had penetrated her heart at her weakest moment, she could no longer look at Ed with the same face as before.
As she blushed and avoided her gaze, Ed opened her mouth.
“I think it should be so. “You looked so tired.”
“······.”
Isabella nodded her head slightly.
Then, after glancing at her Ed, she spoke to him as if looking at him.
“Did you notice?”
“·····.”
“What kind of person am I?”
For some reason, it seemed that way.
He always had eyes that could see through him.
It seems as if she has known her own pain for a long time.
Her eyes were as if looking at a child thrown into the water.
“···Uh. She learned about it while studying the holy sword ‘Emotional Guide’. “If you use such negative emotions, there will always be a price.”
Ed added that she knew Isabella’s secret, adding with good reason.
Isabella smiled and slowly nodded her head.
“As expected. “I got caught.”
“······.”
Awkward silence that flows for a moment.
Finally, Isabella glared at her Ed and spoke jokingly.
“But why are you suddenly speaking informally?”
“···Hmm?”
“Originally, you used it in an honorific manner. “Suddenly you’re speaking informally.”
Isabella glares at Ed, radiating a subtle aura of negativity.
But now that everything has been exposed.
In Ed’s eyes, it was no different from the sight of a kitten raising its fur.
Eventually, Isabella, who read the emotions in Ed’s eyes, sighed and muttered.
“Sheesh. The bottom line has been completely revealed. “You don’t even have to be scared.”
She pouted her lips slightly as if she was complaining.
Soon Ed spoke.
“Do you want to walk around together? “It’s a festival.”
As Ed said that, he looked at the entire academy full of twinkling lights.
Isabella answered with a sad smile.
“You know. It’s a problem if you’re with me. “I’m hated by everyone.”
Isabella wiggled her hands and dropped her gaze.
Edgar, who was quietly watching the scene, took something out of his inventory.
It was snacks and alcohol bought at Pocha.
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“Then why don’t we eat here? “You’ve collected all the negatives you need to fill today, right?”
“······Huh? Uh.”
Ed smiles as he sees Isabella answering with a puzzled face.
Finally, he poured some wine into her glass and handed it to Isabella.
Isabella, holding a drink, muttered with a smile on her face as she looked at the view of her academy.
“If you’re this happy, it’s hard to gather negativity…”
Isabella froze in shock after spitting out her words like that.
This is because she belatedly found out what her words meant.
“Let’s do it.”
Anyway, Ed held out his glass.
Isabella cleared her throat for no reason, and Ed poured his own glass into the one she held out.
I took a single shot of the clear liquid.
I felt like something that was stuck inside me was being opened.
It was my first time drinking alcohol with such a relaxed mind.
“······.”
Isabella, whose secret was discovered, was a very different person.
There was no need to be sharp anymore, so there was no need to hide your emotions.
A natural smile spread across his face.
-Sigh.
The two drank in silence for a while, staring at the view of the academy.
However, even without any particular conversation, Isabella’s heart was filled.
Having just one person who understands her will bring great comfort to her heart.
‘I want to hold your hand.’
Isabella felt her heart sink.
When I gave myself into his arms in a moment of infinite weakness.
Isabella felt that her condensed heart had grown uncontrollably.
Perhaps it was natural for her to fall in love with the man who recognized her at first sight.
‘Me too…Normally…’
Isabella emptied her glass and imagined it.
The sight of her freely dating Ed like a normal girl.
She was born as a child of a normal family, whether Elmar, Cruel, or Bernhard, and imagined herself smiling naturally around her loved ones.
Of course, with Ed by his side.
“I want to be reborn.”
Isabella blurted out what was in her mind.
Ed’s gaze rested on her.
Isabella smiled bitterly and continued.
“I think I was born wrong. “I want to be born again.”
“······.”
Ed just looked at Isabella in silence.
Isabella Root was met with tragedy no matter what method was used.
In the end, Isabella was unable to escape Graham’s fate.
She lived a life hated by everyone, and the end of her life was to sacrifice herself.
“Do you really want to go around?”
So Ed wanted to make good memories for Isabella.
She said, taking out the two masks she had in her inventory and handing one of her masks to Isabella.
“There are a lot of people walking around wearing things like this. “No one will recognize you.”
Isabella looked at the mask placed on her hand.
She eventually placed her mask on her face, and her hair changed color and her voice modulated.
It was a mask that could perfectly hide her identity.
“···Yes.”
***
Ed and Isabella walked around the streets of the festival.
Wearing masks so no one can recognize them.
I burst into laughter and enjoyed the festival like any other ordinary cadet.
“I want to see that.”
“····Must see it?”
“Why, you were cool back then.”
And the two also watched a play.
‘Descendants of the Sea God’ where Ed appears as the main character.
[I am Edgar Fix, the strongest cadet in the empire.]
However, this play was one in which the main character was significantly highlighted.
Ed covered her mouth and screamed every time the actor playing him said something cringy.
Isabella burst into laughter as she saw that reaction.
“Shall we try that?”
Isabella, who decided to let herself go today, was literally a fish out of water.
She has done many things she has wanted to do for a while.
Among them was palm reading.
Ed and Isabella had their palm readings done, and soon the fortuneteller who read their palms told them that they were lovers in a past life and that they were a match made in heaven.
Isabella, hiding her face under her mask, smiled happily.
“It’s fun.”
The two of them enjoyed everything they could at the event except eating.
It is already 2 am.
Now, the festival booths were slowly closing down.
Isabella hesitated, looking at Ed with regret, she said.
“Would you like to come to my dorm? I haven’t been able to sleep well these days. “Your sleep therapy was effective.”
Maybe it was the day when the control spell was released.
Or maybe it’s because I’m wearing a mask.
Isabella was active.
And Ed readily accepted her offer.
Soon, the two sneaked into the women’s dormitory without anyone noticing.
The two of them burst into laughter as soon as they entered Isabella’s room.
It was quite a thrill to sneak into the dormitory to avoid others’ gaze.
“You look so cool now. “Have another drink.”
Eventually, Isabella took off her mask and urged her to drink.
She said she knew Ed would do that and took out the alcohol and snacks she had put in her inventory.
The two drank and talked about various things.
A story from when I was young.
The story of my life so far.
In the process, we also exchanged silly jokes.
“I really need to sleep now.”
So the time was 4 am.
Isabella held Ed’s hand and lifted her body up.
She decided to let herself go just for today, but she didn’t bother to hide her feelings.
With a face full of blushes, she took Ed’s hand and brought him to her bed, saying,
“Let me sleep.”
Isabella said that and turned around and lay down.
Her heart pounded as she became aware of Ed behind her.
Her exposed rear thighs gave me goosebumps.
-Sigh.
Soon.
As Ed lay down on her bed, he felt her presence.
Her face heated up and she felt a tingling sensation in her toes.
The only person who knows my secret.
A person I want to rely on.
The person I like.
The person was approaching him.
One hand wrapped around her waist, bringing her body naturally close.
The sound of his breathing tickled the back of his neck.
-Sigh.
At that time.
Isabella turned around again.
She looked directly at Ed, who hugged her from behind.
Ed looked unusually embarrassed.
It was so cute that he felt a tingling sensation in his chest.
Eventually, Isabella was held in Ed’s arms and she said.
“I… there’s only once in 49 days that I have no solution like this.”
“······.”
“Can you accept me just once every 49 days? Then… I think I’ll be able to breathe a little easier.”
Isabella said that and waited for Ed to speak.
She felt as if she had confessed her feelings to her long-time crush and was waiting for an answer.
What is this that makes my heart so anxious?
“Okay. OK.”
Ed said that and hugged Isabella.
Isabella buried her face in his arms and smiled slightly.
Just one day of freedom allowed to herself.
Isabella enjoyed that brief moment to her heart’s content.
Isabella Graham freely committed actions that any other girl would have done.
Being held in the arms of the person she likes.
“The whole world is a snow country.”
So Ed implemented the sleeping method that put Isabella to sleep.
The same way he had put her to sleep on numerous previous occasions.
He continued his narration in a soft voice.
-Saegeun···Saegeun···
Soon, Isabella fell asleep.
A mother who miscarried due to her own mistake.
Even the people she bullied.
She fell into a peaceful sleep, without even thinking about the face of her friend who had been hurt by her own actions.
It was the first deep sleep I had enjoyed in a long time.
“······.”
Ed hugged Isabella for a long time.
***
“·····Ah.”
When I opened my eyes, it was already midday.
Ed, who had hugged her, had already left this place.
Isabella stared at the spot where Ed had been staying for a while.
She dragged the blanket with traces of where he had been lying into her arms and hugged it tightly.
“·····Pathetic b*tch.”
But one moment.
The light in Isabella’s eyes began to disappear at a rapid pace.
At this moment, her sister’s life is at stake.
She was clearer than anything else about what she had to do.
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She had to gather negativity at all costs, either by hurting others or getting hurt herself.
She had to be recognized for her power of denial and become the next head of the family.
“······.”
But the moment I made that decision, the doll on the table came into view.
It was a doll that Ed fixed.
The doll’s face is bright and smiling.
Isabella tore her doll into pieces and stomped away to pick up her doll.
It was the moment when she infused her magic into the joints of her hands and used her strength to tear her doll apart.
“······.”
But at that moment, Isabella hesitated.
Yesterday’s events passed through my mind like a daydream.
However, she shook her head violently and tried to tear her doll apart again.
Now we have to go back to our normal daily life.
“······.”
But still, I couldn’t do it.
I couldn’t completely cut out this feeling.
Isn’t it the only memory and emotion that you can breathe?
-Sigh.
So Isabella put the doll back down.
Ed looked at the doll he had repaired with shaking eyes.
“·····Ha.”
And then he smiled, as if it was absurd.
She rested her forehead for a while, shaking her shoulders and letting out a low laugh.
“······.”
And that was it.
Isabella turned and walked out her door.
Now it’s time to get back to work.
It’s raining.