189 – Isabella and Enya
Isabella’s eyes look at Ed with tearful eyes.
Ed could tell one thing by looking into those eyes.
That she had looked into her own memories.
Over the past dozens of episodes, he had seen her entire narrative in which he tried to save her, but it ended in her tragedy.
“I saw it.”
Ed said to Isabella with an expression that he understood everything.
However, Isabella, who still looked confused, spoke to Ed.
“What kind of memory is that memory? How can a memory that repeats the same pattern dozens of times…Isn’t it some kind of past life, but a memory that stays in the same time zone…?”
Isabella has watched Ed’s ‘Isabella Route’ dozens of times.
However, as she had no concept of her return, her memories were bound to be confusing.
How does Ed live with so many memories?
Ed answered.
“It’s an ability called ‘reversion.'”
“···Regression?”
“Yes. “The ability to go back to a certain point in time and start over if you die.”
“······.”
···Ability to return to a specific point in time and start again when you die.
Isabella nodded her head.
I’ve never heard of such an amazing technique, but for some reason, it seemed like Ed could do it.
That’s because he is his age and is one of the most powerful figures and central point of the empire.
Normally, such an achievement could not have been achieved at such an early age.
“···I’m sorry.”
However, Isabella told him her honest feelings.
I am sorry for the numerous narratives in which Ed tried to save himself, but ended up ending due to his own selfishness.
“I was foolish… I shouldn’t have done that.”
Why on earth did that happen?
Maybe he did it because he knew Ed would never leave him.
Even if she accepts her family’s fate and devotes herself to ‘accumulating negativity,’ Ed will not leave anyway.
He expects you to remain by his side in the end, and he knows that will happen.
Based on such selfish feelings, he gave Ed an ordeal that felt like punishment.
“Now, just for this one life…”
However, the moment Isabella saw Ed’s screams after his death, she realized desperately that she should not have done that.
He tried everything he could to save himself, but in the end, he ended up in despair due to his own selfish choices. His heart broke as he watched dozens of such heartbreaking moments.
“I will live only for you.”
So for the rest of her life, Isabella decided to forget her family duties.
Although she knows that the moment she abandons her family’s duty, Lilith, Grand Duke of Northern Destruction, will lead a large army to the south… She has already heard countless Ed’s screams. It was Isabella who made up her mind after seeing this.
“···Okay. But she doesn’t have to bear her family’s burden alone. Let’s fight together this time.”
Ed, who got the answer he wanted, answered Isabella with a smile.
Let’s fight together this time.
Anyway, since he has decided to exterminate all demons, Lilith, who is growing her power deep in the extermination of the North, will also be one of her karma.
“···Yes.”
And Isabella, who had tried to stand on her own while harboring poison all her life, willingly took the hand offered by Ed.
You may not know it from previous episodes, but Ed in this episode has more power than any other episode.
‘We’re finally back on track.’
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Ed, who had corrected Isabella’s route, which had always been off, smiled with a relieved heart.
At some point, his goal became not only to stop the devil, but also to save the people around him.
It was extremely good news that Isabella was no longer at odds with herself.
‘Now all I have to do is Enman come back.’
However, even though she and Isabella’s consciousness had returned, Enya was still wandering in the memories of others with her eyes closed.
This means that Enya is looking into the memories of both herself and Isabella.
Because Enya wants to look into her memories, but on the other hand, she also wants to know about Isabella, who has suddenly changed since she was 11 years old.
‘Should I wait until the resonance is over…’
So Ed decided to wait for a while until the ‘resonance’ that binds everyone’s memories and fosters a bond is over.
Anyway, not only Enya but most of the cadets had not regained consciousness.
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“Fool.”
Enya looked into all of Isabella’s memories and said something that suddenly occurred to her.
Indeed, Isabella was a fool who was swayed by the fate of her family without even knowing her own feelings, and made foolish choices from beginning to end.
Why did Isabella alienate everyone she loved so much?
‘Self-hatred’
That’s because even she hated herself.
She had to hurt everyone in order to fulfill her family’s long-held wish, and in the end, she accepted her ‘infidelity’ as her own fate and went down an irreversible path. Because I hated it more than anyone else.
“Now… I think I can understand you.”
However, on the other hand, she felt relieved.
That’s because he couldn’t understand Isabella, who suddenly changed.
She was better and nicer than anyone else, but I couldn’t understand why she was acting like she was someone else.
She just had no choice but to interpret and accept in her own way the saying, ‘Everyone in the Graham family becomes a psychopath when they reach a certain age.’
‘It’s called denial…. ‘That kind of crap.’
The denial that ate away at Isabella.
The feelings of disgust and hatred that had to be built up in order to save countless lives, not only in the Northern Territory but also in the Empire.
Enya thought about the moments Isabella must have endured to build up those feelings.
She deliberately said hurtful things to herself, laughed at her own hurt expression, and realized that the person she hurt the most by such actions was Isabella herself… I tried to calculate it.
It was an unbearable pain for her. If it had been her, she would have gone crazy long ago.
“Phew…Like two heads”
So Enya decided to stop and forgive Isabella.
He was once a very precious friend, but now the hatred has grown.
I decided to let go of my obsession with her in order to somehow get her back and receive her apology.
Because now I can understand Isabella.
‘···Ed.’
However, Enya thought of Ed.
It clearly has the body and face of another person, but it resembles Ed’s expression, habits, mood, and personality. In other words, ‘Ed possessed by someone else’s body’, who made love to him with his soul.
‘We were connected.’
And in that memory, Ed and himself were perfectly connected.
She was the perfect form of love he had always longed for.
‘And…’
And it was all thanks to Ed’s help that she was able to have such perfect love.
Originally, in the process of practicing ‘Baldosul’, I lost my mind and went down the wrong path, but Ed corrected me at every moment.
‘With you, it is finally complete.’
Because of Max’s disgusting obsession, or because of his own broken heart, he became a servant of the devil.
However, everything changed when Ed intervened in his fate.
With him by my side, I was able to move forward on the path of light, and I was finally able to join him at the same time as I perfected his feet.
And that change of fate was the same in this episode as well.
It was Ed who first approached him and extended his hand as he was absorbed in his own talent.
‘Thank you.’
A smile naturally appeared on his face.
Ed always approached me first and extended his hand.
We always despair for the same reasons, repeat the same mistakes, and share love in the same way…
-There seems to be a problem with the scabbard.
Ed approached me again this time.
If you have been connected to yourself by repeating the past dozens of episodes, you might be bored now.
Nevertheless, he spoke first to save himself and to share love in the same way.
Enya was happier than anyone else in the world after confirming that Ed’s feelings would not change.
She had already looked into his memories and observed how perfect a couple he and she were, but this time she wanted to make love with him again.
No, rather, because I had seen that future moment in advance, I wanted to connect with it even more.
“Huh…?”
But there was one problem.
The result of looking into his past dozens of lives through Ed’s memories.
She always had a crush on Ed first and repeatedly displayed somewhat perverted territory, such as hugging his pillow or rubbing herself against the bed.
So, I was able to witness that secret act through ‘Ed’s memories.’
‘In that case…’
It means that Ed already knows.
He did what he did secretly.
“···Ah.”
Enya screamed one empty word like that.
And at the same time, a brilliant light exploded and Ed’s memories began to disperse.
He returns to a hellish reality with dark history behind him…