289. Drinking Party (2)
“Kihya! Steering! Hey, bring snacks!”
A member of the scrap metal dealer immediately brings the snacks he had prepared upon hearing Findenai’s shout.
The meat on the plate was competing with violent portions and visuals rather than fancy plating.
“I worked hard to grill only the delicious parts! This is rare, this is medium…….”
“All meat is meat.”
I grab the fork and move it across the plate, making several dots and taking a big bite.
The member’s expression becomes sour as he sees all the meat he had put so much effort into grilling all come together.
“Ma, enjoy your meal.”
He was so worried about me that he couldn’t even complain to Findeneye and just walked backwards.
Findeneye speaks in a grumpy tone while munching on meat.
“If I hadn’t done this, I would have had to listen to that guy, from how it tastes good to where the cow was raised.”
I guess it was a trick of its own.
“You know very well.”
“Well, they are like family to you idiots.”
Finden Eye is smiling and drinking beer. Then he glances at me and smiles.
“Don’t be jealous, you are family.”
“I never accepted you as family.”
“Findenai Verdi. To be honest, it doesn’t really suit me, but I’ll try to endure it.”
I don’t want to answer, so I take another sip of my drink. I’m already feeling a little tipsy, but that’s the end.
I’ve always been the type to not get drunk no matter how much I drink.
Whether it is Deius or Kim Shin-woo.
“What do you think of Goben?”
When asked as she looked up at the view of the mountains, Finden Eye answered by placing one of her legs on her thigh.
“I didn’t tell the owner, but Deia told me to do a thorough investigation on that bastard. “Even though she wasn’t nice, she lived a normal life?”
I knew that Deia would investigate. In these cases, she always tries to dig up information that her opponent doesn’t want to know.
But that wasn’t the problem in this case.
“I’m asking about your intuition.”
She was curious about the opinion of Finden Eye, who could safely be said to have a sixth sense.
She thinks for a moment and takes another sip, waiting for her answer.
“It’s just a miscellany. Being swayed this way and that way. Then, by chance, I learned about the existence of Iluania and Sebia, and perhaps I found my purpose in life?”
She glances back at me.
I remained silent and answered while looking down at the beer bottle.
“Yes, that is correct.”
“Hmm?”
“Finden Eye, change in people can come at unexpected moments.”
To go a little deeper, people often unexpectedly miss the timing of their own changes.
“Time is important. When she can accept it herself.”
“… ….”
“A famous quote I knew, a sermon I heard every weekend at a chapel, or advice from a senior at work. “Everything we consider boring can become a signpost that changes our lives if we listen to it at the right time.”
Isn’t it such a great world?
By reading books, you can indirectly experience the difficult lives of great people and savor the words they left behind.
Great people change, grow, gain insight, and realize through specific moments.
“The existence of Iluania and Seville was a good opportunity for change for Goben.”
“What, right? Because while I was just working hard, I achieved my goal of becoming a wife and daughter. “Let alone whether they are real blood relatives.”
Purpose has come to my life, which had been aimless and passionate.
Goben arrived in North Wales at a good time.
“It’s not that I’m not worried. “To be honest, I feel anxious.”
“… ….”
“But I want to believe it. “Even for the sake of Iluania and Seville.”
Please.
This summer, she hoped that her ill-timed gift from Santa Claus would reach her father and daughter.
“Well, Illuania would be good at that. “You’re a true woman, right?”
“Yes, that’s right.”
A departure from a somewhat heavy topic. When she finished her beer, she brought another beer and sat down in her seat.
“Our owner has also made some pretty dramatic changes.”
“…… “I won’t deny it.”
It was a playful tone, but the content was not. Although it was packaged in a funny way, the sincerity contained within was about to pour out from Findenai’s mouth.
“The man who only coldly comforted souls is now trying to get along with people, find emotions, and be considerate.”
Pong!
Finden Eye opens a new beer by snapping his fingers. But she doesn’t put it in her mouth.
“Are you still confused?”
Her eyes were not directed at me. It seems as if there is something in the mountain range, firmly fixed there.
“Do you really not know what the feeling of love is?”
“Finden Eye.”
“Hmm, master.”
Slowly putting down her beer, Finden Eye’s gaze finally lands on me.
The madness that had always filled her blood-red eyes had suddenly turned into sadness.
“Do you know why you’re confused?”
Finden Eye’s superhuman senses.
This time it was aimed at me.
“I unexpectedly fell in love with several women.”
“… ….”
“Because your reason cannot accept it, you deny it as love. I’m trying to thin it out. But it is not thinned out. “In the end, they all have similar feelings.”
Moment.
It felt like I had been hit hard in the chest by her.
Also, Deia came to mind.
Because he is a rational and capable child.
I felt foolish for thinking that I could control my emotions well.
When I realized that I, too, was just a duelist fighting my emotions with reason.
“I’ll be honest. “Choose me.”
“… ….”
“It’s not a joke. I’m serious about this. “I need my master more than he thinks.”
I could see that his eyes were trembling.
She felt disgusted with herself for making her, who was so confident at all times and at all times, so weak.
“Erica, that b*tch said something strange. Let’s find a way to make everyone happy. “f*ck, I’m f*cking sleepy.”
He jumps up and walks towards me.
Findeneye, who was suddenly standing in front of me, shouted with an infinitely distorted expression.
“How is that possible? Uh? I want to rip your head off every time you f*ck another b*tch! “f*ck, I just want to destroy everything, take your baby, and run away somewhere!”
“Finden Eye.”
“Don’t call, it’s a dog! “You made me like this!”
The cry filled with tears reaches inside me and spreads like a wave. Bitterness is on the tongue.
“Do you know what went through my mind during these months while you were gone? “Do you know how much it pained me to know that you might have been searched for?”
I had nothing to say.
In the end, I was a sinner in front of her. The worst kind of trash that wields emotions just because they don’t know emotions.
It doesn’t matter whether it was intended or not. The result came out like this.
“I’m sorry.”
When she heard my apology, Finden Eye snorted in response.
“There must be a lot of people to apologize to, right? Starting with the ghost b*tches who cling to you every day, your fiancee, your student, and even the princess! “I’m sure everyone has been waiting in the same pain as me, with their throats burning!”
hahahaha, Findenai lets out a hot breath. She wipes the tears from her red eyes with her hands, and the Finden child sighs.
“Yeah, those b*tches too…… “You probably went through the same pain as me.”
“… ….”
“That seems pitiful at first glance. “It seemed like fate would come to us someday.”
In the end, you choose someone.
A choice that was cruel to them as well as cruel to me was being presented at a tight deadline.
“I’ll tell you in advance.”
Findeneye looked down at me sitting and declared firmly.
“Choose just one. f*ck, I’ll never see you rolling around in bed with another b*tch. “You can either reject it or accept it.”
I tried to answer.
I understand.
I will definitely do that.
But the Finden child fell down on her knees in front of me and came into her arms.
“But… ….”
I can’t stand it.
Anger rose to the top of her head.
“If you say you are willing to have multiple women at the same time.”
Findeneye laughs in my arms, saying it’s ridiculous.
As she slowly looked up at me while being held in her arms, her expression showed the bitterness of her defeat.
“f*ck, prepare yourself for that night.”
“… ….”
“I will kill you with the techniques I learned from Iluania. “I heard there are some kids who use things like handcuffs and whips.”
A smile is drawn on the child’s lips as she secretly finds it. It was an unpleasant laugh.
“Finden Eye.”
“Master, do you really hate me so much that I die? “I don’t think I’ll ever see other b*tches biting and sucking with you.”
Interrupting me, she continues to vent her feelings.
“But I lost.”
“… ….”
“Ah, even if I see you messing around with another b*tch, I can’t let go of her hand.”
I guess I love you.
The last words I blurted out were hidden by the sudden wind so that no one could hear them.
Unfortunately, it reached my ears.
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“Can I ask you one favor?”
“What is it?”
The Finden Eye held in my chest whispers to me so no one can hear.
“Kiss me.”
Is it okay to do this?
In this state where I am still not sure what answer to give.
I had such concerns.
“Don’t roll your head. Just act emotionally. I heard that men act like dickheads, but what the hell is this guy… ….”
“… ….”
“Do it.”
Carefully, I pick her up by the shoulders. Let’s lower her head and kiss her briefly so that no one can see.
“It’s sweet, damn it.”
A smile like a bright flower spreads across Finden Eye’s face.
Look at that.
Funny enough.
Because I couldn’t bear it.
Page.
I touched her lips once more.
“Uh…… ?”
She tries to avoid the embarrassed gaze of the Finden child and tries to hide her shame.
“I wanted to act emotionally.”
* * *
A week has passed.
In a situation where we have already completed preparations to leave North Wales. Goben returned to North Whedon with her carriage just in time.
As I saw him driving the carriage and entering the mansion entrance, I spoke to Findenai next to me.
“I told you so. “Change comes dramatically the moment the timing coincides.”
“Huh? It did?”
Finden Eye responds angrily.
But my eyes were still focused on the coachman.
“But the important thing is.”
Yes, I didn’t mention it because it was ominous.
Actually, the most important thing is.
“The point is that we don’t know if it is always the right change.”
It was a miserable feeling.
If I believed in God, I would definitely scream out lamentation at God.
[Huh?]
[Ah… ….]
The Dark Spirit and Stella behind them also let out exclamations.
No one knows.
Because we can see it through the eyes of the three of us.
Countless dead people clinging to Goben and the carriage he was driving.