106. Awareness
Adam died,
I also confirmed all of the nun’s plans.
Now that I have all the information I need,
Now it was time to persuade Adela.
If only she would reveal to her the whole truth of her Order, and make her understand it.
Because all that remains is to eliminate the nuns.
Like that, I left the office and returned to the main academy building.
It was obvious where Adela was.
She had arranged to meet the nun in her office,
After handing it over to me, I had only one place to rest while I waited for the day we finished our conversation.
Private room.
If it were like normal, I would have stopped by the dormitory or sparring hall, but not now.
We signed our resignation letters this morning.
After exchanging conversation with Russell, it was impossible to imagine that she would be sleeping in the dormitory or breaking dolls in the sparring room.
So I headed to the private room,
Sure enough, the light was on.
The door was opened.
Squeak-
Quiet interior,
Adella is sitting comfortably on the sofa.
In response to the sound of the door, his eyes turn in this direction, and then he quietly begins to pour a cup of tea.
“Scarlett asked me to tell you this.”
“……”
“Next time, if you leave without saying a word, I will take it as a sign that we are going to have a fight.”
Now that I think about it,
My job today was to look after my students’ assignments.
Scarlett and Paula,
It seemed like he was tired of waiting for me and Adela, who suddenly disappeared.
However, what I experienced today was too meaningful to take care of those two.
I forgot for a moment,
I decided to forget a little more.
Because that’s not important right now.
Today, all my nerves and time,
I have to devote it to the young lady in front of me.
I sat on the chair in front of the sofa,
She smiled slightly.
“I feel a little regretful.”
“What regrets do you mean?”
“If I had known that I would leave so quickly, I would have tried to become friends with Scarlett.”
With an expression like that of an old man,
Her mind is already outside of Russell.
She didn’t like it.
“Let me remember those words.”
“Yes?”
“Still, my head was pounding. It’s a relief to know that you will avoid unnecessary arguments with Scarlett from now on.”
“From now on…? Wait, what did you talk about with the nun?”
Her expression became urgent, but
I started in a calm tone.
“Adella.”
The story will be long.
“Everything that comes out of my mouth from now on will never be a joke or a deception.”
—
I explained everything very slowly and took my time.
My identity. So, starting with the identity and purpose of Ivan Kherson.
“I am a person who works under the church. I came to the Academy for that purpose. However, I have no intention of truly agreeing with the church’s will.”
After going through the true face of the denomination and its dangers,
“The true purpose of the cult is to create chaos in the world. Even if you think of it as destruction, it doesn’t make much of a difference, and all of the actions and evil deeds come down from the top, the cult leader.”
In the finale, there is even a story about the nun and the boy.
“The church doesn’t know that I’m a traitor. I hid it from them. And I heard all the plans for your treatment from the nun.”
“……”
“The person you are looking for. That boy does not exist in this world. He is already dead. The person you meet when you follow the nun is not the person in your memories.”
Tell this whole story very slowly,
I took my time and spoke calmly.
Adela did not give any answer,
She just listened in silence and repeated.
After my story was over and there was a bit of silence.
She lowered her head.
In the voice that speaks while bowed,
There were a lot of tears in my eyes.
“…Maybe not, you know.”
“Adella.”
“I know, too. You’re not the kind of person who talks without evidence. You’re an instructor, so you’ll definitely have the evidence ready to convince me.”
“Yes.”
It was a witness rather than evidence.
Scarlet. She was a living witness who opened her eyes and witnessed the ugliness of the religious order.
But, what I overlooked.
What I didn’t even dare to imagine was,
“…I don’t like it.”
The point was that she might not move rationally.
I believe because there is evidence.
If there is no basis, you do not believe,
When things are ambiguous, consider the probability.
I’ve been through the game like that,
As for the character Adela Cathy, I thought she might be most similar to me.
Because I am a merchant.
Because it’s that kind of character.
She thought that way, and approached it that way.
And, I felt it keenly.
That shouldn’t have happened.
“I don’t want to listen, I don’t want to listen. I-I…”
The truth that the boy died.
Adela could not accept that.
Her spirit began to break down.
It must be resolved.
“I only received it, and I didn’t give anything back… But he died? No, no. Maybe not…”
“Adela,”
“Even instructors are wrong sometimes, so they might still be alive…”
“Adela, calm down.”
“How can I tell you to calm down!”
Close your two small hands tightly,
In her eyes as she raised her head.
Tears were flowing down to the point where they formed a stream.
I couldn’t say anything more,
When there was silence, enough for her tears to wet the table.
“…I’m sorry.”
“……”
“I… Have to go.”
She stood up.
Adela was not in a good state of mind, but was staggering towards the door.
Tub-
I grabbed her arm.
It was something that was done under the guidance of instinct.
“……”
Holding her looking at me with her empty eyes,
Her head rolled.
But, the first thing that filled my head was.
It was not a thought, but a feeling.
It is also a very personal feeling.
It wasn’t productive at all, it was just a few words of resentment towards this situation.
It’s going to spin, really.
Adam, you bastard, are you a lifesaver?
If you brought your child to this point, you have to take responsibility until the end. At least he’s alive.
I buried that resentment inside,
Suddenly a thought occurred to me.
‘Why am I angry?’
Why am I angry?
Now that we have to work harder than ever before, why are we buried in emotions?
“…Instructor?”
I raised my head at the sound of Adela’s voice,
She realized the moment she saw her expression.
I am now,
You see Adela as a human being.
“……”
After defeating Arachne, she had a conversation with Scarlett on the rooftop of Semen Hospital.
Maybe it was from then.
For some reason, seeing what came to mind just now made me even more confident.
Every time they behaved differently from my expectations, I approached them like this.
This is not a character like this.
What variable has arisen?
But, the half year I spent here.
As much as I changed the world,
It seems like the world was enough to change me.
Probably for the first time since I came here-
“…He was that kind of person.”
From person to person,
I felt human anger.
I decided that this world was a game, but
Actually, I don’t know anything.
Because it was comfortable to think that way, whenever I had personal feelings toward the characters, I turned away and repeated the words, ‘Don’t go crazy.’
But now I had to admit it.
Even if this place is not reality,
I don’t feel that way anymore.
With that awareness, for the first time, I let out my thoughts and just said whatever I wanted.
“Fine. Do whatever you want.”
Okay, do whatever you want.
It seems like you have no intention of coming to your senses anyway.
I’m going to just let it go too.
However.
“Before that. If you prove it.”
“Proof, name…?”
“If you don’t listen to me and want to live your life on your own, then you should at least prove yourself and then walk away.”
“How can I prove it?”
“You could say it’s a graduation exam.”
I let go of my arms,
I tidied up my sleeves.
To be honest, what we do from now on may have no meaning.
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The best move in this situation is:
Just physically stun her or get rid of her after her.
Although Adela will become a villain,
Avoiding the worst.
But, I didn’t want to use her power to do anything to her.
I decided to go back a little further.
“You’re the valedictorian of first grade, Russell, and everyone knows it.”
“Well, whatever it is.”
“But there are some things that only you and I know.”
He criticized it with ridicule.
We reminded each other of facts that we had never said before.
“Behind the grades I have maintained up until now, my involvement has always been involved.”
“……”
“That’s something you’ve never proven to me.”
You are Russell’s chief,
Not so for me.
So, at least you have to prove it when you leave.
That I can do my best.
“1 Minute.”
“…Yes?”
“Within one minute, if you even brush my collar, I’ll have Russell leave on the spot.”
A test in the form of sparring.
The most peaceful way to thwart Adela’s escape while not harming the plan to destroy the nun.
If the event is going to end with a hated ending anyway,
At least I wanted to do it like this.
If you ask why,
There are two reasons.
“This time, you have to do it with your own strength.”
By making her feel her own limitations, she hoped to get rid of some of her insensitivity to safety caused by being buried in those feelings.
The second reason was an extremely personal reason.
“…I believe you will keep your promise.”
It is good to be frustrated with the reality that confronts you.
However, there is no escape.
In that sense, the person I am dealing with now is.
Intelligent and cunning, he is not the legitimate successor to Cathy Sang-san.
It was okay to just see him as a child throwing a tantrum and yelling evil at the world.
She wanted to educate that childish spirit.
Perhaps Scarlett would have said this.
“Of course.”
Let’s go out.