87. Jealousy
A city of blind people.
That’s how the cleric defined the back alley.
It was a very dark thought for a twelve-year-old girl to express, but she didn’t think so.
No, she didn’t think so.
To feel dark,
First of all, there has to be light.
The sunlight that the people of the empire take for granted.
Because the grace of heaven was not considerate enough to enter the back alley.
Also, there were no humans here who could shine on their own.
This is where the distinction between light and dark becomes meaningless.
I return to strictly pursuing my desires.
She lived like that too,
That belief changed completely one day.
‘Hey, this quick-witted b*tch… I finally got it.’
A view from above the wall.
I don’t know if he drank alcohol, went crazy from hunger, or there may be some other reason.
A grown adult,
A situation where the girl in front of you is about to be killed.
It was routine, but this time it was a little different.
‘……’
The red-haired girl in front of me.
The child appears to be around her age.
What can I say… It was extraordinary.
There may be a better expression, but first of all, it was clearly different from children of the same age.
Do not cry or pray.
Do not struggle and deny reality.
Just quietly, scanning the other person with your eyes.
I could feel it in those sharp eyes.
In this place where everyone lives without being able to die,
Only that child is shining softly.
Bad!
‘Oh my!’
When I came to my senses,
I had already thrown away any rocks I could get my hands on.
A cleric, perhaps for the first time in my life.
I saved someone I had no connection with without expecting any material compensation.
I was beaten mercilessly by a guy who completely blinded me, but I barely managed to run away.
I searched for that child with my limping leg.
And then, the child I finally found.
‘Ugh, huh…’
Even though I’m struggling,
He left the bread in his hand without eating it.
I was sure at that time.
A cleric, no different from other people, who lived according to the rules of his alley.
The reason why he had such arrogant thoughts that he dismissed people like him as blind.
Today, right now.
He said it was to identify the girl in front of him.
‘Scarlet Rain.’
I want to become friends with this child.
I want to survive together.
Then, maybe.
A cleric who just lived his life as it happened without any beliefs or will.
Can I become like this child?
I thought, will that day ever come?
—
The girls who became friends,
We stuck together like real sisters.
We ate together, slept together, and acted together.
Having lived like that, the Cleric can now boast that he knows Scarlett better than anyone else.
Scarlett’s greatest talent that she saw was,
It was the will to live.
It’s not a basic survival instinct, like wanting to open your eyes and wake up tomorrow morning.
She seemed to worry about ‘how to live’ at every moment.
Scarlet literally means,
There was no rest.
So, it was inevitable that that talent would blossom.
Cleric was initially slower than Scarlett,
Now it has become difficult to follow with the eyes.
Fighting skills as well,
We are so far behind that it is embarrassing to compare.
I think I vaguely felt it at that time.
Scarlett’s talent may be more than she can handle.
She was a cleric who searched for the light as if possessed, but when she encountered it, her eyes were so dazzling.
And, at that time, she didn’t know.
A person who faces a light that is too bright,
The shadow behind your back is bound to get darker.
No, actually, I might have known.
This may have been something that was ignored.
That feeling was so shabby and unclean that she couldn’t raise her head.
‘I’ve decided, Cleric.’
‘Huh? What?’
‘What I have to do.’
‘No, what else are you going to do while receiving all the work? ‘Do you have a place to spend money?’
‘No.’
She held that hand of hers, wanting to be like her,
I think it probably won’t work.
‘I’m going to change this place.’
‘……’
‘At least, so that it feels like people live there.’
Scarlett and I,
They are fundamentally different.
And, that’s true.
That feeling of maddening resentment.
‘What else can I say?’
‘Are you going to help me too?’
‘Of course.’
‘…Thank you.’
Desperately hiding it,
She was gradually festering.
Scarlett, who began to move actively, soon began to exert influence throughout her alley.
Order has emerged here.
Minimum rules have been established, and what should not be done has also been established.
There were people who did not like it,
It was just a matter of murmuring behind the scenes.
That is how overwhelming Scarlett was.
And those days of normalization.
It was also a time when clerics were most comfortable.
Clerics are ordinary people, but
She became special when I stood next to her.
To the point where she was satisfied with being able to look at the light as closely as possible, she lost her original intention.
She can never be like Scarlett.
Admittedly, she was comfortable like this.
And, such a simple continuation of happiness.
It collapsed overnight.
She left here.
‘It went well.’
It was a blatant lie.
I didn’t think so at all.
‘Scarlett, it went really well…’
‘…Cleric.’
That sorry expression was hateful.
She wished she hadn’t left if she was going to do that.
But she couldn’t stop Scarlett.
The cleric was weaker than her.
She smiled because all she could do was smile.
And then, that night, she had a dream.
She met someone there.
It was a bizarre experience.
Even though it looked like a monster, when I stood in front of it, my fear and sense of strangeness disappeared to a surprising degree.
Soon, the ‘something’ in front of you,
She became her own person.
And said.
‘You were abandoned.’
Desperately scratching the emotions in the unconscious,
That one word.
It didn’t stop.
‘In the end, it was that child who was chosen. You were just a passing through the process. ‘How does it feel to wake up from a dream?’
‘No, I’m not that kind of person.’
‘Really?’
‘I am different from the blind people who think that way. I couldn’t be like Scarlett, but I also couldn’t become one of those people.’
Nevertheless, he is different.
It was supposed to be something special.
And, it is also something that deserves to be chosen.
People who will also receive the opportunity to unfold their lives.
Rather than the girl who is already special,
She thought she would have been herself.
Her confidence is taken away by her own intimidation.
The being in front of her seemed to know that.
‘Tell me honestly. ‘Where no one can hear, I am listening.’
My body loses strength and my vision becomes blurry.
This place was warm and loving, as if I was being held in the arms of a mother I had never seen.
‘I, I…’
Tears flowed down her face without her knowledge.
That is how she finally collapsed.
‘I wanted to be chosen. ‘I wanted to be chosen, not Scarlett.’
‘…’
‘No one is looking at me. I was just one of the blind people, and now I’m not even that.’
‘What do you think?’
‘…Hateful.’
She became honest with her emotions, She accepted her ugliness.
‘The traitors who abandoned this place and the ones who didn’t choose me. Everyone will kneel. I’ll make it so no one can ignore it.’
‘Oh my.’
The existence before our eyes.
No, he whispered.
‘You are neither useless nor ugly.’
‘……’
‘Because I chose you.’
His hands wrap around the cleric’s neck.
His throat felt like it was burning, but he couldn’t stop laughing.
Different from other idiots.
Scarlett, who fell for those idiots and abandoned herself, no longer mattered.
Because its value has been recognized.
The cleric also liked what she whispered that only she could do.
‘…Ah.’
When I opened my eyes, the Cleric.
I had become a completely different person.
But, his name is stuck in my mind.
‘Arca.’
The god worshiped by the religious order.
Only then did she find the purpose of her life.
She decided to go find the leader.
And, if one day I meet Scarlett while accomplishing that great cause.
When her former comrade abandoned her, she decided to do what she deserved.
—
So this is inevitable.
Not bad luck or destiny, but inevitable.
From the moment Scarlett set foot in her alley, one of them had to die.
I just became a cleric.
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“Big, black…”
Blood pouring from the mouth,
Mixed in the river of blood flowing on the ground.
Consciousness becomes clouded,
A horrifying chill ran over my body.
It was hazy, but
It wasn’t as warm as it was back then.
“…Cleric.”
An old friend who plunged a spear into his abdomen from behind and twisted it around.
She called out to the cleric and made eye contact with her.
She looked down at the cleric.
Sweet-
Her hand came up to her own eyelid, as if to tell her to take it easy.
The cleric slapped the hand away with all her might.
Tak-
“…Put it away.”
Pity is the most blatant ridicule that a winner gives to a loser.
However, the Cleric did not lose.
Instead, she lowered her eyes and looked at the nobleman lying over there.
The one followed by the traitor in front of him.
No, it’s not just about following it.
When she found out that the person who was so special to Scarlett was someone who had the same stigma as her.
Today’s victory or defeat will change.
I was so excited to see what kind of expression he would make.
So,
It won’t tell you the whole truth.
It would be enough to plant just one very unpleasant doubt in that mind.
“I will die after realizing the truth.”
“……”
“You… Will die in the most miserable way.”
Just like that, she closed her eyes.
She never surfaced again.
—
“Plague.”
I think this is my first time waking up cursing.
But I can’t help but swear.
This is a familiar ceiling.
Old wooden boards from an orphanage.
I got up.
Wood clack!
That alone caused my joints to go out.
The reason was so justifiable that I couldn’t blame it.
“I was crazy…”
I risked my life for the first time.
I almost fell behind in a world without saves.
The situation is different from the time of Arachne.
The fact that she fought at the risk of her own death was surprisingly creepy.
Please come to your senses.
I am not a warrior of light.
He’s a small citizen who just wants to go home.
Compare!
The moral education I gave myself.
After hitting both balls, I was able to come back to my senses.
“Discernment.”
I was able to regain my optimism.
-Jealousy (EX)
If the end is good, you should smile first.
Even if you go to Moro, you can just go to Seoul.
Because in the end, I got what I got.
Because the last film cut off ambiguously, I thought for a moment that the Cleric might still be alive.
The added ability clearly proved her death.
With this, two people were immersed.
We are one step closer to the ending.
Now all that’s left is to lead this battered body back to the academy.
And…
Squeak-
“…Ah.”
Just then the door opened and she came in.
The heroine’s eyes widened like never before, as if she couldn’t believe I had just woken up.
“Good morning.”
“…Not in the morning.”
All I had to do was solve the problem.