114 – Birthday
9 Days have already passed since the new year started.
Is it because I’m getting older, or should I say that it feels like time is passing faster and faster?
When I was young, each day was so long that it felt warm, but now each day is so overwhelming that it feels short.
And without fail, he came again this year.
It’s my birthday.
I didn’t like birthdays that much.
Because it was the first day I met my mother who raised me, she found me, so her mother considers it a very important and precious day.
For me, it is an extremely sad day when I was abandoned as soon as I was born.
To be abandoned on a day when I should have been blessed.
At first, I greatly resented my birth mother.
No, if you’re going to put it in, I’ll put it in a functioning baby box.
I was left in the cold winter weather because they put me in a broken baby box, and I am still weak to this day.
So, I was very resentful until I graduated from elementary school.
However, it was my mother who groomed me like that.
Something may have happened, and he told me not to hate him too much.
If someone else had said that, I would have been so angry.
What my mother said was different as expected.
He is the person who raised me.
If this person is like that, then it must be like that.
After that, I gave up feeling resentful.
Even if I blame my birth mother in my heart, I will be the only one hurting.
And then, after she became independent from the orphanage and met Ara,
The day of my birthday, which I hated, turned into a day of great joy and happiness.
After Ara’s parents passed away, we became closer after comforting her on the stairs of her apartment.
We meet once in a while, have a meal, go on a date, etc.
The relationship gradually built up.
And perhaps, from then on, I began to like Ara more and more.
The reason I can’t say for sure is because I lost this memory once and then remembered it again.
I haven’t fully recovered my memories yet, but I have lived in this world from the beginning.
For some reason, memories from another world came to mind, causing confusion.
The more time you spend with Ara, the more you realize this fact and feel it with your body.
Anyway, has it been about 10 months since I met Ara, who I became so close with?
We were spending time with her on her birthday at her house in Ara, when Ara gave me a little kiss and she confessed.
“Are you really okay with someone like me?”
“It can’t be done without you.”
“I…I have nothing…I don’t know how to do anything…”
Before I could finish speaking, Ara once again covered my mouth with her lips.
She shed a few tears, telling me not to say anything.
It was from then on.
I no longer hate birthdays.
Afterwards, Ara and I continued our secret relationship.
On January 9, 2017, the year I graduated from high school…The same day I turned 19.
I received a proposal from Ara and registered my marriage the next day.
Some people may think it is too urgent.
This was clearly a strategy that Ara had made her calculations.
“People around me were afraid that Seonghwan wouldn’t let me marry you!”
Well, there was nothing major to call it an operation.
The strategy is to commit it before anyone can stop it and prevent anyone from saying anything.
It was truly a wonderful choice.
I got married and was about to graduate from high school.
After winter vacation, I went to school for about a week.
What about going to school after becoming an adult and going to school after getting married?
I felt a tremendous sense of immorality.
And I spent my time quietly waiting for the graduation ceremony.
The girls in my class were so loud that I got into a group fight.
At that time, I used too much stamina and became exhausted…
When I woke up in the nurse’s office, a different memory was planted in me.
What happened to the me in the world who had this memory?
Could it be that he died during the group fight?
Ugh… It’s a little scary to think like that.
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– Don’t come this time, just go out to eat with Ara.
“I understand.”
– Mom, you know everything, are you planning on saying this again and coming to the orphanage?
“I heard you’re not going, so…”
On the morning of her birthday, her mom called her and she answered the phone.
It was also an ‘order’ not to come like Christmas, but to spend time with Ara.
Isn’t it natural for children to take care of their parents first on birthdays?
Usually, I say thank you for giving birth, but
In my case, I say thank you for visiting.
“Phew…”
“What are you saying?”
“They say don’t come and spend it alone with your sister.”
She threw her cell phone next to her and lay down using Ara’s lap as a pillow.
Ara’s hand gently stroking my head makes me feel like I’m going to fall asleep at any moment.
“Is there anything you want to do?”
“No… I’ve been hanging out too much these days, so I don’t want to do anything big.”
“Hmm…Then that’s a bit troublesome.”
I don’t know what’s troubling her, but Ara is scratching her head.
Since nothing in particular changed just because it was her birthday, she began to think carefully.
“Umm….”
“Just stay at home like Mom said, right?”
“Then it’s no fun.”
Ara stroked my head and began to think deeply again.
Then, as if she suddenly had a good idea, she stroked my hair with her hand.
I held her hair tightly.
“That’s right!”
“Ouch!”
“I..Sorry.”
Did I realize that he was holding my hair tightly with almost supernatural force?
He hurriedly let go of her hand, blew on her, and stroked her head.
The moment you put your hair up tightly
My vision became white….
“More than that! Seonghwan!”
“Yes, please speak.”
“Shall I go adopt a puppy?”
“Puppy….”
When the word puppy came out of Ara’s mouth, my face started to get hotter.
Recently, I’ve been constantly watching QTube videos to study about dogs.
This is because the desire was becoming increasingly strong and unbearable.
Nevertheless,
I was putting off adoption because I was worried about whether I would be able to raise him well.
“Don’t worry? The puppy that Seonghwan will raise will definitely be happy.”
“Is that so?”
“Where in this world is there a person as meticulous and kind as you?”
“Ara, you have a sister.”
“Who…Is your sister…Uh….”
Ara’s face also started to turn red, perhaps because she was suddenly pointed out.
She doesn’t know that she is a kind and honest person.
Are you sure you are a truly kind person because you don’t know?
*
“Cute…”
“The baby is only 2 months old…But the previous owner gave him up.”
The shelter worker smiled wryly and stroked the dog’s head with her fingers.
I don’t know if it’s okay to pat her head, but it’s not like she lies down and opens her belly and makes a fuss asking for it to be stroked.
“Why?”
“Ha…It’s different from what I thought…”
“Ha…”
A sigh came out automatically from the mouths of me and Ara.
When she adopts a puppy, she thinks about it dozens or thousands of times before adopting it.
Nurturing life is an act that requires a lot of responsibility.
Whether it is a puppy or a hamster.
The child who is walking around in front of me right now is
This is a baby Pomeranian who is only 2 months old.
The child I saw at the park was already a fully grown adult.
This child is still small and looks like cotton candy.
“Plus, this baby had a short muzzle, so it seemed like they paid a lot of money to adopt it.”
“And yet Payang…?”
You can simply think of a muzzle as the length of a dog’s snout.
If her muzzle is long from a young age, it will be long when she becomes an adult.
It is said that there are also people who give up their adoption there.
However, this child had a short muzzle and was adopted despite being expensive.
“I think it was the husband of the CEO of some company… We just sighed.”
The shelter worker looked at her child with wide eyes.
I immediately felt that this was an employee who truly cared for and treated dogs with respect.
That’s right, the dog around from earlier
She came over to this staff member and asked him to pat her head because she was rubbing her head.
“But this child’s nose isn’t black?”
“It’s because he’s still a baby. After about a month, his entire nose will turn black.”
“Aha…”
That’s another piece of information I didn’t know.
Let’s keep it in his head.
“Seonghwan, what should we do?”
“I want to take this child.”
“Do you want to do that?”
He felt a sense of kinship with something being abandoned.
Just like I was picked up by her mother, shouldn’t she just pick up this child and raise it well?
Raise her like a daughter, not an animal.
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When Ara finally finished filling out the adoption consent form
I went to a nearby pet store and started buying things.
Rice and water bowls are essential necessities.
I purchased things made of stainless steel.
And since 2 months had passed, I purchased special feed.
I was also warned that since it is not yet 3 months old, dry food is difficult to feed, and that it should be fed by soaking it in water.
“I have to buy cushions and pads…Brushes and nail clippers…Shampoo, toothbrush and toothpaste…And a leash…”
I don’t know.
I put everything I saw into my shopping cart.