33 – The boy’s request is only a temptation (1)
“…”
We walked down the street holding hands.
Passing through a dark alley, where people rarely go –
I walked with my mother between houses without a single light.
I was very excited,
I was angry again –
At the same time, his eyes are somewhat sad.
…When I was quiet at home, I was happy every day.
As soon as I came out, I was feeling and receiving too many emotions at once.
The gazes of countless people were joyful, but
The stares in brothels and on the streets were never enjoyable.
It was fun to get to know a new world away from mom,
There were so many dangerous things in this world.
Including the heart of a woman.
Of course, the ‘woman’ in front of me was also included.
I wanted to see the red dragon as my mother,
Because the red dragon no longer viewed me as his son.
And,
Therefore,
I had something to give.
“Mom.”
“…There’s a name that needs to be called separately in the outside world, right?”
“Rosaria… Madam.”
My face was very red, but
My cheeks were burning, but
Still, I felt like I had to do that.
It was impossible to just receive and not have anything to give.
She wanted to give her mother just a little bit of what she wanted.
And,
” ────── ! “
At least it seemed like I had succeeded in making my mother extremely happy.
Because my mother’s scale-red face was throbbing in front of me.
“As expected, I’m not used to calling it like that.
Right, Mom?”
I was becoming bitter because I knew what I wanted.
Because there was a relationship in which I had to give up in order to give my mom what she wanted.
I just wanted to live as an ordinary mother and son,
In order to achieve what I want, ‘Mom’ gave up too much,
I was in pain because of that again.
…I wanted to make you happy even just a little bit.
To my mother who had a very gloomy day today,
I wanted to give a gift.
So before going out into the bright streets,
I dragged her mother into a deep dark alley.
“Wait, Russell?!”
I don’t know if what I’m about to do will bring comfort, but
I didn’t know if my mother’s heart could be filled, but
Still, I wanted to do that.
“Russell, I’m fine. If you’re worried about me, really.”
How many times do I see that bitter smile today?
How many more times will we have to see people smiling painfully, trying hard to suppress their feelings, rather than smiling because they are happy?
I didn’t want to do that.
I didn’t want to face it.
“Or, is it because I have something else I want to say to my mom? Huh?”
Actually, I don’t want to be called mom.
Despite what they did to me in the forest today.
My mother kept hiding her true feelings just because I refused.
To make me happy.
Because I didn’t want her to hate her mom.
Even now, I can clearly see her twitching her fingertips and wanting to close the distance between me-
Instead of taking me into his arms, he just gently stroked my cheek once.
I didn’t like the slight vibration at my fingertips at all.
So,
” ────── !”
She hugged her mother’s waist tightly with both arms.
Her head was buried in her mother’s chest.
In those soft and warm arms, it’s as if I’ve returned to my childhood…
I acted foolishly.
“Hey, Russell, wait – “
I kept rubbing my back, which was slightly damp from sweat, with my hand.
Just like her mother did, she gently placed her nose on the back of her neck.
Because she was so tall, I had to climb on her tiptoes.
“Huh?!”
When my mother approached me like this, I did not take it kindly.
But for some reason, her mother’s reaction was very… Good.
Every time I hugged him with force, I let out a shallow moan,
Because the corners of her mouth, visible above her chin, were finally raised.
Did you like this, Mom?
Because she liked it, did she want to do to me what she liked?
“…!”
In the end, it seemed like it was a success to ease her mother’s mind.
She gave strength to her hand that couldn’t even reach me, and hugged me even more –
“Huh, huh, huh-“
Unlike me, who was pretending to smell it lightly, I was breathing in with all my might.
She relaxed for a moment and left herself to her mother.
Today’s mother fully deserved it.
Mom’s efforts that people don’t recognize.
Like the man in a sad story I once read,
At the back of the play, flowers are sprinkled and lights are turned on,
Sometimes, even though I acted like I was stabbed to death, I didn’t get any applause.
The red dragon called Dracea Rosaria was not appreciated,
I couldn’t even feel the happiness in it.
I can’t even imagine how painful it would be –
“Russell, my lovely Russell…”
My mother, who had let go of the reins for a while, supported her large body with all her might so that she could continue to rub her head against the back of my neck.
Under my back, I could already feel the tail swinging violently from side to side.
***
I quietly opened the inn door and let her mother into my room.
Was the place that felt wide and big to me too narrow to accommodate two people?
Or is that tall height the problem?
“…”
Pushing past me, who was in trouble because I couldn’t figure out what to do, my mom quietly sat on the bed and made her belongings disappear one by one.
Shields, armor, pockets…
As I watched them all being carefully placed somewhere in the air, I asked.
“What kind of magic is that?”
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“…Oh, ah?”
My mother, whose eyes were slightly blurred, barely managed to focus on my question,
She cleared her throat and snapped her fingers once.
“Should I say warehouse?
I leave my things in my own space.”
“Are you connected to somewhere?”
“Well, I’m not sure where that place is.
What is clear is that anything too large will not fit.
…It would have been nice if we could have put something a little bigger in it.”
My mother sighed and smiled awkwardly as she rested and quietly approached me as I sat in her chair.
My mother, who stroked me once with her hesitant hand and then hugged me tightly-
“Then do you think it’s okay if I just leave?”
I was about to leave.
On this dark night.
“Yes?”
“I’m not good at controlling my emotions, so I feel like if I keep doing this, it might get in the way.
More than anything, I think I’m putting too much burden on you.”
… As expected, those words must have pushed her mother too far.
Her lips were fluttering and her eyes were trembling and looking at me again.
“You will become a wonderful wizard,
You who dream of a much better tomorrow,
This is something that I, as a mother, should not hold back.
I think just seeing you take one step forward today is enough – “
Before I even finished speaking,
I reached out and grabbed her mom.
And then I hugged him again.
“Huh?!”
“I don’t want to. Please stay with me a little longer.”
This time, the mother stiffened her body with a strange sound.
For some reason, her hand wasn’t facing me, so I dug into it even more.
“This is strange.
I don’t think you were the type to be this foolish in the first place…?”
I saw too many sad eyes in one day.
I learned that something else can appear on a face that always smiles.
After that, I couldn’t leave her mother alone.
“And, I haven’t even kept my promise yet.”
“Something, promise – “
“You asked me to show you some cool magic.”
“I think I’ve shown enough of my cool side today…?”
On the other hand, it was fun to hug like this.
When my mother, who had been running at me so fiercely, actually tried to hug me,
Her body stiffened like this, even her words stuttered,
Because I couldn’t bear to meet her eyes.
“To be honest, today I realized how much I am lacking.
I can’t even use magic properly, I don’t know much.
I set out to help people.
I don’t know how much more difficult it would have been for her without her mom.”
Saying that, he slowly dragged his mother, who was standing in front of the door, to the back of her room.
Even though my hand can shake it off as much as I want, if I put my mind to it,
Mom followed obediently.
“So, I would like you to stay with me a little longer.”
At those words, Mom gulped and swallowed her saliva,
She gently closed her eyes and caught her breath.
“Are you doing me a favor… Of me?”
“Yes, Mom. Please.”
The breath I took in deeply turned sweet and hot, and reached my nose.
My mother’s gently opened eyes were still black, but they were clearly sparkling.
“Then do you mind if I ask you a favor?”
“What… Are you talking about?”
“I want to fall asleep next to you today.”
I was the first to hold his hand, but before I knew it, my mother was covering mine with her long hand.
“There is no need for fancy magic or effort.
Would you please allow me to sleep next to you for just one day?”
It was crashing into me with fierce eyes.
It was simple, but earnest,
My mother looked so small that it covered up her majestic daytime appearance.
My mother, who dominated and commanded her people with just a word, was asking me a favor.
Ignoring the magic that would attract the attention of everyone on the street,
It was always like that when I was young,
As I often did when I grew up,
Mom wanted to sleep together in the same bed.
“Yes, then let’s do that.”
So I nodded.
Looking at my mother’s face becoming even redder.
Is it because I was embarrassed to have made such a simple request so grandiose?
Thinking like that, I placed one more of mine on top of the hand being held.
“Then, I’ll come prepared.
Wait here. It won’t take long.
My mother slowly got up, gently removed her hand, looked at me for a moment, and then walked out the door.
I felt somewhat uneasy about the sight behind me, so I looked at the closed door for a moment –
“Mom?”
I hurriedly took out the lit candle and opened the door.
My mother was there.
In an empty hallway, a man with red hair shows his back.
“…Let’s go in.”
Saying that and showing the front,
Mom gently closed the door –
“Uh, Mom?”
Enough to surprise me,
My legs lost strength, enough to make me fall backwards on my chair.
Something was wrong.
“…How do you feel?”
That’s what my mother asked.
Wearing clothes that clearly reveal the lines of her body.