148 – [3] Madness
#148
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It was near the end of the struggle.
The sky was gloomy, and all the noises were dull.
Murim people wearing pot lids flew around, and numerous fights ensued.
And in a corner of the scene, there was a short woman.
She had a pair of swords in her hands, and they were covered in blood, as if she had cut something.
A small body around 140cm.
It was a sight that was difficult to imagine attacking something with a female body that looked as if it would fly away even if the wind blew.
No, I didn’t even want to imagine it because I thought it would be more miserable than imagining it.
If many people saw her, she would probably think that.
“Krrr…” … !”
And the fact that this is reality means that it is also accompanied by misery.
She looked around with a very perplexed expression, as if she was being chased by something.
Interestingly enough, her goblins were surrounding her.
“Hey, hey!!!”
Drools ravenously and has little reason. A cruel race.
Soon, he looked at her body and started laughing as if it was fun.
If she continued like this, the only future that would come to her would be terrible.
I could beg for her mercy and to save her life, but it wasn’t a very realistic alternative.
She was the one who took it upon herself to raid her star house in the first place.
The chances of her being shown mercy were close to zero.
That’s why it seemed inevitable and fateful.
Following Kim Yu-jae, Kim Yu-joo’s life seemed to end there.
“Ice Bolt.”
Actually, I wasn’t alone in that.
An icicle full of cloudiness rather than clarity was stuck on the goblin’s forehead.
“Cr? “aaah!”
The same thing happened to the foreheads of the other guys.
Icicles flew from somewhere and got stuck in my body one by one.
The goblins are confused by the attack of an unknown enemy.
The level of magic that seemed to show no mercy seemed to signal only surrender and death.
If you wanted to live, you had to run away.
However, if that were the case, they would not have been called monsters.
Goblins make survivalist decisions instead.
Guided by instinct, she wanted to attack Kim Yu-ju in front of her.
“Whiteout.”
Of course, it didn’t go well.
The idea of creating a companion to go to hell with was thwarted when he lost his eyesight in a flash of light.
That’s how Kim Yu-ju survived.
She was a hunter, but she survived somewhat in vain.
She should have been ashamed in some way, but Kim Yu-ju didn’t even have an inch of shame.
Her own girlfriend anyway…… This was because it was something that could be seen as a bad thing.
“Uh, uhm, mmm! “It’s definitely efficient for someone to be the bait and bring in the monsters!”
Kim Yu-ju, who had been consumed with fear just moments before, looked at the rooftop of the building next to her with those words.
There was a dark-complexioned woman who had let down her pink-dyed hair, which had returned to its natural brown color.
“…… Okay.”
It was a word spoken indifferently and helplessly.
Lim Hana lowered her hands trembling and climbed down her ladder to the ground.
Kim Yu-ju came up to her and praised her, saying that she was great this time too.
But unfortunately, she had no other thoughts.
She didn’t even try to distinguish whether she did a good job, a bad job, or whether it was right.
It felt like her will had broken through, and a part of her soul seemed broken.
If we were to consider the human brain as the soul, it was undoubtedly true.
Kim Yu-ju looked at her condition and took out a piece of candy from her pocket and handed it to her.
“That’s enough.”
She slapped her hand away.
Her candy rolled on the floor, and Kim Yu-ju picked it up again and put it in her pocket.
She could have been angry, but since it was a sight she was now used to, Kim Yu-ju ignored it.
Afterwards, the two took some items from the goblin’s corpse and cut off the ear, recovering it as a kind of hunting evidence.
Then, he quietly entered a house.
Because it was lunch time, I wanted to eat.
“Oh, I’ll prepare lunch!”
“… ….”
As Kim Yu-ju prepares, she has nothing to do.
Soon, she took her weak steps and headed towards her window.
For a moment, I stood there without thinking.
And when it rained, I slowly remembered something about her.
“What should I do now…” ….”
It was a word with many meanings.
It could be as simple as participating in a hunting competition, or as complex as it could involve life as a whole.
So, it was regret.
Complaints about the past that will break your will.
After that incident, I wanted to ignore it, but I just couldn’t.
This was because her feelings of conscience, which had settled in a corner of her heart, were increasingly weighing her down.
Also, conscience did not simply have a role to prick.
When she struggled to adapt to her reality, it was her conscience that showed her a judgment that overturned it.
Because of this, Im Hana’s head was filled with endless madness and anguish.
In just one day, my judgment was overturned countless times, and my emotions fluctuated as if they were exploding.
And what poured fuel on this place were the memories recorded arbitrarily, the deteriorating performance of the mind, and the reality that faced oneself.
Especially the last one, I was afraid of the reality of hearing nonsense.
‘What do you think was the reason you made that choice? Simply fun? Or a deviation from daily life?’
‘It wasn’t your intention anyway, so why are you afraid? It just happened and you couldn’t do anything about it.’
‘Even though I liked him, I didn’t really like him, so why do I feel guilty? Are you really trying to become a law-abiding citizen now?
‘Even if you regret it, it already happened. Even if the memories are strong and vivid, it will be good for your mental health to just forget them as much as possible.’
I was so scared that at some point I began hearing auditory hallucinations and had nightmares every time I slept.
The auditory hallucinations and nightmares that were subtly positive drove people crazy.
‘It seems stupid. Do you really think that when you say that? ‘Are you so sure?’
‘You must continue to be afraid. The victim is still alive and well, so how can you roughly affirm that? ‘Do you know what will happen later?’
‘Just because you didn’t like him extremely doesn’t mean your sins are gone. So when are you going to apologize to the person you liked?’
‘To put it the other way, it’s something you’ll regret. ‘How can you just forget when you did something like that to a kid who helped you so much since you were little?’
“Huh… ….”
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And as soon as this was confirmed, the sarcasm that came out drove people even more crazy.
It just felt like I was endlessly ruminating on the sins I had committed against someone.
To the point where I wonder if this is such a big deal.
To the point where even such questions can be heard as sarcastic hallucinations.
“Should I just commit suicide…?” ….”
If anyone hears this, it is a remark that will make people angry and say that suicide is enough.
However, it was not that strange for her to think about suicide after barely escaping from her madness.
But death could never be an escape from life.
Leaving this world without anything being resolved was purely a loss for me.
I didn’t want to do that.
Also, there was still one thing that stuck.
‘Suicide is good~ I don’t have to worry about life anymore, I don’t have to be sorry, and it’s so good~’
‘But. If you commit suicide, what will that evil platinum-blond ear b*tch do to Sian?’
‘Wouldn’t they do strange things by taking them around as they please? There are already a lot of rumors that she is a bad b*tch, so wouldn’t that put Sian in the abyss?’
Many thoughts were distorted and changed, but this one thought remained firm.
She was Cheonmae, she was a woman who should not be next to Jiang Shi An.
No, it wasn’t Kang Xian’s side that was the problem, but his very existence was the problem.
If you look at her consistent memories from elementary school, she was always a villain.
– “Hey, you turquoise-eyed bastard!”
– “You f*cking bastard. Hey, follow me into the back alley after school.”
– “f*ck you! “You screwed up my account Iron 4 last time!”
– “Ha, Emchang, life is hard. “I’m just going to go to your house and hang out today.”
– “Mr. Gangsi~ Please hug me and return home~”
Although she was the one who should feel guilty towards him, she should have felt guilty at a level that was even greater than that of Cheonma-ri.
But, without knowing any of this, she is shameless, hateful, and evil.
‘Who knows? ‘Could it be a lifelong romantic relationship?’
No way.
‘Maybe you’ve already done all that work?’
That can’t be possible.
“No.”
‘Isn’t it really true? Do you really think so? Even though I knew those two were always hanging out together?
“… ….”
Maybe that’s why it’s like that.
If that were the case, her apology itself could never have been accepted because she was an evil person controlling everything behind the scenes.
Her hands were shaking.
My breathing seemed to be getting faster little by little.
‘Then, should I just wait and see?’
“Well, that’s…” ….”
‘Moreover, if you take the person you are apologizing to out of hell, wouldn’t that be a form of atonement and apology?’
It wasn’t a particularly wrong auditory hallucination.
It was true in its own way, but the problem was that Lim Hana did not have the ability to do so.
“I can’t do it…” ….”
Even just in terms of magical ability and intelligence, the aftermath of the madness attack was serious.
The reality was that I had no ability to resist, let alone win.
Moreover, how could Cheonma-ri be an ordinary human being?
As long as there is a law, he won’t do it actively, but he could inflict some harm on himself.
I asked for a way out of the auditory hallucination, but was met with silence.
In the end, everything was the false delusion and madness of the weak.
“Hana~ It’s done~”
All you can do is despair.
There was no way or courage to overcome the gloomy future.
Im Hana left with weak steps.
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“%$#$@$@!!!”
This situation is so shameful that it cannot be matched.
The Sword Expert, who was wrapped in duct tape, struggled roughly.
It moved violently, used magic power, and tried to let out something similar to a scream.
Like this, the way he showed his will to live was desperate in many ways.
I would have thought it was pitiful enough.
Of course, it was also possible to relieve the excessively oppressive appearance.
“This guy, the gurgling sound is great. When I return later, I will secretly steal it and then give it TS potion to turn it into a vertuber.”
“Crazy evil woman.”
Of course, it was useless because not everyone thought that way.