191 – [3] An ideal that leads to death
#191
Shooaaa─
Underneath the world where everything is covered in rain.
The signs on the buildings radiated neon and LED lights.
“I was working out as usual when Shannon suddenly used her tail to do her bench press… ….”
“Mr. Xian! “I decided not to say that!”
“Bench press with your tail? “No, the tail can withstand it?”
And across from them, four men and women were standing at the bus stop.
To be exact, three men and women and one woman were standing separately.
It’s as if we don’t know each other.
The sight of them standing at a distance gave us an idea of their relationship.
‘What is it?’
It was literally nothing.
I was just a passerby who happened to stand next to me, nothing more or less.
‘…… ‘What on earth are the three of you talking about together?’
At least the three men and women thought so.
Imhana is different.
‘…… And why are you staying still?’
You may ask how this is possible.
However, if you look closely at Lim Hana’s current appearance, you cannot help but say that.
Cheeks that have become thin due to weakness.
Dark circles caused by fatigue.
Pale lips, as if something is wrong with the body.
The gaze suddenly fluctuates as if delirium has arrived.
My body was even thinner than before.
Compared to before being admitted to the hospital, he was a completely different person.
‘Why on earth don’t you recognize me? ‘What is the reason?’
However, there remained a method of estimating it based on features such as dots.
However, even this was a situation where the characteristics were erased from my mind after being away for several years.
‘This doesn’t make sense. He definitely glanced at me. Why on earth…… Why… ….’
Im Hana was inwardly embarrassed by the lack of response.
But she couldn’t express it out loud, so she bit her lip gently and lowered her gaze.
Then, the splash on the floor was a puddle of water. She gently brought her hand to her own hazy reflection.
‘… ….’
With a meaningful look in her eyes, I took out my cell phone from her arms.
She then checked a photo of her face containing her own past.
‘…… Different.’
A change that I have always seen but never noticed.
It was too much of a negative change to be attributed to getting older.
That’s why Imhana had no choice but to feel dejected.
She struggled to somehow live uprightly again, but the person she was supposed to appear to be upright had changed to the point where she was unrecognizable.
‘Does it just become nothing? ….’
In the end, she just showed up.
Her own wrong choices began, and her past ended with her wrong choices, turning into karma.
Of course, to Kang Xian, she was just a painful memory.
She was not someone who was considered important enough to argue about today.
Because enough time has passed for the world to change in the first place.
Even though she didn’t expect it, she wasn’t incapable of getting revenge at least a little, so it was natural that she didn’t notice the relationship from her past.
‘Even if I hadn’t done that then…… No, she hadn’t encountered madness before…….’
It was a regret she often had.
I also felt guilty because everything went wrong.
‘If only I had done that, I wouldn’t have had to feel sorry for Sian…….’
The point when sin began.
What would have happened if she hadn’t done such a foolish thing back then?
Wouldn’t it be necessary to go through the same mental and physical hardships as we do now?
Wouldn’t he have lived without hurting Kang Xian?
Thanks to that, he was able to maintain a good relationship and lead a happy life.
Also, maybe she was playing peacefully here.
‘Maybe it was.’
The ending is unclear, but it was like that anyway.
Also, it was not a baseless delusion.
When I think of the illusions that Im Hana had had so far, it was difficult to call them delusions.
Of course, some people would say it was just a dream, but for Lim Hana, it was not.
‘Because it was a very plausible dream.’
I couldn’t tell if it was because it was just an unreachable delusion.
If there was one thing that was certain, it was that its reality was irrefutable.
It seemed like she was showing a different reality of herself, a different future of her own.
In fact, it felt like a glimpse into a normal life that was not impatient with the interference of others.
“Even in that dream, it was an academy… ….”
The timing was similar.
Although the content was very different.
There is still time left until the bus arrives.
Lim Hana gathered the fragmented and crushed memories of her dreams.
* * *
“Wow…… It’s really bad…….”
“I really hate that professor! “How on earth do they give me assignments like this?”
“This is the first time I’ve seen a professor like this since the beginning of the semester. Seriously, I don’t think I’ve ever had a professor like this.”
“That’s what the academy is like.”
A dream I don’t know when I had it.
Lim Hana walked around Charel Thea with her acquaintances.
A total of 4 people including myself.
There was Kang Xian, and the other two seemed to have been created in a dream.
One is a pretty Irish woman with a dragon’s tail and horns.
The other person is a black woman with a spear and not an unusual appearance.
Both of them were foreign friends I made at the academy.
In fact, there were no friends who were closer than these people, so we hung out with them even more.
“Anyway, where do you all plan to go now? “I think it would be nice to hang out at Sian’s house.”
“Huh? My house? Well, it doesn’t matter… ….”
“Well, that’s right. Sian’s house is far away…… “Don’t you think it would be better to go to □□’s house and have fun?”
Of course, it wasn’t completely hesitation.
It was a combination of one man and three women.
There was always a strange sense of distance.
The only exception was myself, who had grown up by Kang Xian’s side since childhood.
“Is □□ okay?”
“Eh…… ? Well, that…… The house is a bit dirty…….”
“Really? Then, let’s clean it up together~”
However, there were people who tried to escape the rules.
After persuading the Irish woman, □□, the black woman began to make a pouty expression.
“What, why aren’t you asking me?”
“Oh, okay, look at my mind. □□□, What do you think?”
“Me? I think that… ….”
The black woman, □□□, looked at her sky as if contemplating for a moment and then politely placed her hand on her lower abdomen.
She eventually slowly rolled her eyes and looked at her Kang Xian next to her.
“What do you think?”
“Um… ….”
She made a brief thought and judgment.
She then grabbed hold of her Kang Xian’s hand with that conclusion.
“I will follow Xian’s opinion~!”
With that, she approached Kang Xian a little closer.
Naturally, Kang Xian, who was close to Im Hana, was dragged away by □□□.
Im Hana had a subtle impression of □□□’s appearance.
It was rather unpleasant for her to feel like the rule was being blurred, to which she was the only exception.
However, it was unclear whether □□□ did that intentionally.
I was a little suspicious mentally, but there was no clear evidence yet.
What’s more, it’s been quite a while since I started behaving in a way that disrupts the rules.
It was quite possible that he was doing that without thinking about it.
‘Well, something special could happen.’
So it didn’t really matter.
Anyway, Kang Xian was always by her side.
From Im Ha-na’s perspective, Kang Xian and herself were beings who lived with the attention they gave to each other.
She would not betray or betray her own expectations.
‘I can’t imagine Jiang Xian doing something like that.’
Still, just in case, she pulled a little with her hand.
It felt like something was stopping her more than usual, but anyway, she was relieved to be far away from □□□ and turned her head.
Then, my eyes turned to an electronics store with a retro atmosphere on the corner of the street.
As expected from an electronics store, a small TV was turned on for passers-by to see, and some news was playing there.
[Not long ago, a German settlement in eastern Chareltea disappeared. Everyone, with only their homes and belongings left behind. It was revealed that this was done by Nartica. Today, Director Cheonma-ri gave an explanation in this regard.]
[Director of Cheonmari Nartica, ‘Ahh! It is true that I offered them as a sacrifice to recover from my serious injuries! But it is by no means a senseless massacre! It was the German people who were forever moved by the political correctness I preached, sacrificing themselves to prove the significance of their existence!’]
[This…… Damn…… No, the German embassy responded to the statement by saying, ‘An explanation like that of a man-eating elf who would have nothing to say even if he were torn to death.’]
“Wow…… “You do something like that and then you proudly give an explanation?”
“It seems crazy…….”
“Those are the things that ruin our image. Even if you provoke the people over there, it will only make managing the occupied territory more difficult.”
“Anyway, money is important. Civil service position. “Tsk, tsk.”
However, the content was not very pleasant.
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Because it was about a major accident that occurred as usual with large Korean companies and conglomerates.
I felt like my instinctive discomfort was only increasing.
Lim Hana looked at Cheonmaly and shook her head as if she felt pathetic.
“That guy is clearly a drug addict. Otherwise, there is no way you would act like that.”
“I know because I saw some drug addicts in my hometown. “He’s so mean.”
“Why doesn’t the government catch a b*tch like that? ….”
“Could it be that they gave me a lot of money or something?”
She swore at him, calling him a dirty servant.
Immediately he said he wondered why a b*tch like that even lives.
“Because it is a large company. “Maybe so.”
“Honestly, if you have that kind of personality, I think you can easily commit corruption.”
Wait a minute.
Wait a minute.
Something felt familiar.
Im Hana stared at □□.
* * *
‘Uh…… ?’
I slowly turned my head.
And then I looked at a woman with an unforgettable appearance.
“I hate you! Why did you say that so honestly…… !”
“No, well, it’s nothing to be ashamed of, right? “The story is that Ms. Shannon set her record.”
What on earth is that woman, Shannon?
Why is she similar to the image of ‘her friend’ she saw in her dream?
Imhana had never seen an orange-haired dragon woman in her reality.
In that case, her appearance in the dream and her appearance in reality should not have been the same.
Something, something was strange.