12 – Being able to smash it to dust on a rainy day
At this moment, one of the lines from a famous movie passed through my head.
It’s a pretty famous movie, so it’s still in my head even after I was reincarnated.
And there is a scene from the movie…
‘Do you know the handle of the millstone?
The handle of the millstone is called Oi. Hey.
I put something in the millstone and tried to turn it, but the handle fell off?
This situation is absurd.
Isn’t that absurd? Because I can’t do what I have to do because of the handle that is nothing.
That’s how I feel right now. Don’t you find it absurd?’
The moment I am going through right now is explained very well by that line.
This is absurd…
That’s a lot too…
“What the hell am I supposed to apologize for?”
I was very angry earlier, but strangely, the anger disappeared.
Is it because it’s too absurd? Even the desire to be angry has disappeared. It was so embarrassing that I didn’t even get angry.
I don’t know exactly why. It just seems like the human mind is truly mysterious.
‘How is it? Did you do some reflection? Even now, get on your knees and say, ‘I was wrong. You can watch it if you say ‘Enain-nim’. Dogram.’
This is what Enain said to me.
Look at me, kneel down and make a mistake. He was asking for the word Enain-sama.
If that’s the case, E9 says that he can forgive you especially…
Recalling those words, I fell into a question.
What did I do wrong to E9? Do…
I couldn’t understand it at all. Could I really be doing something wrong?
After… Let’s calm down for now.
I sighed in my heart and calmed down.
And I briefly looked back on my history.
It started with a breakup. Also, I was in a situation where I was unilaterally broken off the marriage by Enain.
And there was no reason. I was so unilaterally broken off, and that’s how I broke up with E9in.
To be honest, I hated E9 from then on. A childhood friend, Enain, who asks for a breakup for really absurd reasons, such a childhood friend can never be good.
But, I saved a childhood friend like that. He saved a woman from being captured by orcs and about to suffer terrible things…
Of course, it was an unavoidable situation, and I had no intention of saving it, but I saved it anyway. Because I couldn’t help but save him from that situation. That was the only reason.
And I didn’t say anything bad about E9. At least it allowed her to keep her honor as a warrior.
After breaking up for the second time like that, I didn’t say much, and I’m going to work at this remote academy like this.
Honestly, if I’ve made it this far, I’ve done everything I could.
I don’t have any intention of seeing E9 again, and I just hoped that I’d be satisfied enough.
But now you’re trying to disrupt my life.
Even by borrowing the power of his own family.
“Nine. What the hell did I do wrong???”
Here… What did I do wrong?
I accepted it without saying anything even though it was unreasonable to break up the marriage, and I even saved E9. He even defended the warrior’s honor.
But this kind of treatment… I’m asking because I’m genuinely curious. Isn’t it normal that I should rather be thanked?
I was just genuinely curious.
From noble mtl dot com.
“Your biggest mistake is not knowing what you did wrong.”
I was genuinely curious, so I asked Enain, and I finally heard from Enain what I had done wrong.
Not knowing your mistakes is the biggest mistake…
I did… I was very f*cking wrong. It’s such a big mistake I think.
“So what?”
Up until just before that, when I met E9, I was thinking of giving her my ex-fiancé or something, without mercy, but I just lost interest.
Impossible… I don’t have the confidence to face such an obsolete. Everyone was just tired now.
To be honest, I didn’t want to stay here any longer. I left Enain behind and walked towards the outside of her academy.
“Dogram. Wait. Apology? Wait…!”
I heard a voice calling me from behind. Still looking for an apology.
However, I will not look back. The real thing I didn’t want to see was… I just didn’t want to be with you.
The more I dealt with, the more I suffered. This time, it should be completely ignored.
The moment I was about to leave the main gate of the academy…
“I told you to wait, right?”
A magic bullet passed my ear.
Looking back, it seems E9 was the one who fired that magic bullet.
He was glaring at me with an annoyed face.
“…”
ENine… Magic!?
I was quite shocked. Now Enain fired her magic at me.
And this has quite a special meaning.
That is the hero’s awakening…
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Dogram broke off his marriage, but Dogram saved him.
Seeing Dogram like that again, E9 couldn’t help but be deeply angry.
The reason was that he didn’t like Dogram’s attitude of ignoring him.
‘How dare you… Ignore me?’
Did you originally say that the opposite of love is indifference?
At first, Enain didn’t understand that. Why is the opposite of love not hate or hatred but indifference?
Indifference is never the opposite of love. I remember thinking that way. But not now. She is keenly aware of those words.
The opposite of love is indifference.
‘I can’t forgive…’
Actually, Enine never came here to hear good things from Dogram.
Of course, she fully expected that her own behavior would be quite unpleasant to Dogram, and that she would hear words of hatred and criticism.
And I wanted to confirm those words. To prove her own existence.
‘I am a warrior.’
Dogram, who saved himself from the orc’s lair, was thoroughly ignored by him.
The kind of eyes that almost look like bugs… I didn’t want to be ignored like that.
Because Ena In herself is a warrior, she never deserved to be treated like that.
So today, although somewhat forced, it was E9 who did a bad thing to Dogram.
But…
But even when he did this, Dogram didn’t show any reaction.
I definitely did something to be hated, but I only responded with indifference.
I was just looking at a bug that wasn’t worth dealing with.
It was the same as Dogram’s expression from the orc’s lair.
It was just seeing a worthless bug.
‘I’m not someone who can be ignored by people like you.’
It was no longer a matter of breaking up. And it wasn’t even a matter of pride. Just pissed off
I abandoned Dogram. Originally, he was in a situation where he should have clung to himself with bitter regret on the side of Dogram. However, looking at this situation now, it was the complete opposite.
On the contrary, seeing it before I knew it, I had no choice but to obsess over Dogram. He’s obsessed with the man he abandoned…
I feel so unfair, but for some reason I started to regret not letting go of Dogram.
“Duel me. Dogram.”
So, in order to get rid of that regret, E9 came up with a way.
To start over again as a hero, and to abandon oneself being swayed by Dogram.
I intend to fight Dogram. And I plan to shake off my lingering feelings for him by thoroughly trampling on him.
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I’m pretty…
No, I am quite surprised right now.
About this situation.
‘Enine is awakening…’
I’m not surprised that E9 made a sudden surprise attack on me.
Anyway, it was a magic bullet that only slightly stung even if it hit, and it didn’t matter because I knew it was just a moderately threatening shot.
Even if it was relevant, that wasn’t the point.
‘That’s amazing…’
The really important thing was that E9 was definitely using magic right now. This was a very important issue.
So why is this important? Using magic means that anyone with magical power can use it, right?
You may think so, but if it is a person with the qualifications of a hero, the story is different.
The original hero cannot use magic at all before awakening. It is said that this is related to the lineage of the warrior, but I don’t know exactly. I just know there is such a thing.
Anyway, that’s why the hero before awakening must fight only using his physical abilities.
That’s why the hero before awakening is weak, and the fact that he can’t use magic is proof that he hasn’t awakened yet.
But now E9 definitely used magic. This was clearly an awakening.
For confirmation, even if I concentrate my mind right now, I can feel mana overflowing from E9’s body, which would not have been there originally.
Now E9 means a warrior who has finished awakening.
“Duel me. Dogram. If you lose, get down on your knees and beg me for a mistake.”
That E9 has awakened…
Other people may not know the meaning of awakening, but it is a little more special to me.
To be honest, I would have wondered what would be important to me whether my ex-fiancée, the warrior, awakened or not, but this has a deeper meaning than I thought.
That’s right… It’s finally worth dealing with.
“Okay. Let’s duel.”
Originally, E9 was so insignificant that I didn’t want to deal with it. In terms of the military, E9 was almost a degraded class. He wasn’t really worth dealing with.
However, the story is different if it’s a b*tch who isn’t worth dealing with, no matter how old he is.
Still, since he is a hero, he has satisfied his own minimum conditions. This is my own standard, but it’s not important.
“Okay. Get ready to be beaten to dust today.”
So what’s the important point in that you’ve got something worth fighting for?
The point was that it could be kicked like a dog on a real dog day.