28 – Not a Hero
Xenovia apologized to me until the end and left.
[‘I didn’t want to remain as a virgin’ asks a question saying that he has a question.]
“What.”
[‘I didn’t want to remain as a virgin’ asks how you’re going to forgive me.]
“Why do you have to forgive?”
Once a wicked man forever a wicked man.
It is said that the wicked are reformed, but nothing is needed other than death to rewrite the wicked with personal theory.
No matter how many times they have been in and out of prison, most criminals cannot forget the pleasure of the crime they have committed and turn their eyes to it again.
Rape, theft, murder, or any petty crime.
break the law lose trust Such pleasure is addictive like a drug to those who lead a normal life. And the most important thing is this. It is exhausting to give trust to a person who has lost trust once again.
[‘I hate NTR!!!!’ You say that once trust is broken, it is practically impossible to reattach it.]
[‘I don’t want men to sleep’ breaks out in a cold sweat.]
[‘Turn around!!!!!’ You feel an unknown chill.]
“right. But I somehow connected them and liked it now, but they broke it to the point that I couldn’t put it back together.”
I don’t want to be foolish enough to hold onto it again.
“Like I said before, I don’t intend to be a hero.”
I have no intention of becoming a hero even though I might become a warrior.
It’s been a long time since I realized that a warrior and a hero are similar yet completely different.
The warrior just needs to catch the demon king. All you have to do is ignore the difficulties around you and play the role of a machine that only catches the demon king while receiving aid from the Empire and other kingdoms.
But being a hero is completely different.
It protects others by demonstrating courage against evil people and monsters stronger than itself.
Even if one’s body, lifespan, and even soul is destroyed, the concept of altruism, sacrificing for others, is said to a person who seems to have come out as a human being.
[‘I don’t want men to sleep’ asks if it’s like you in the previous car.]
“… okay.”
I get nervous.
Yes, I became a hero in the past. He was named a hero and a warrior thanks to his pet-like nature, where he couldn’t help but help others when they seemed to be in trouble… It was quite enjoyable.
The feeling of being praised by people was not bad, but there were too many things that were not satisfied with that alone.
Even if you are respected by people, even if you leave your name in the history books, even if you capture the Demon King’s officers and the Demon King… There are things that are not fulfilled.
And that’s something I didn’t have when I became a hero. I searched until I died, but I finally found out when I reached the end.
“The end of a hero is always a tragedy.”
Like in fairy tales, there are few happy endings such as marrying a princess, eating well, and living well.
The heroes of happy endings are mostly fictional beings.
Hercules, a hero who almost ascended to the position of a god, was deceived by others’ flattering words, and his wife smeared hydra poison in her underwear, set it on fire, and fell off a cliff to her death.
In the case of Hector, the antagonist of the great hero Achilles, he met his end by Achilles, and even his body was dragged by a chariot and humiliated.
And finally, let’s talk about my life.
He was chosen as a hero and barely managed to defeat the Demon King’s officers and the Demon King, but the women he loved were taken away by the party members, and he was even killed by being pierced through the heart by the knight’s sword he loved.
If you listen to the story after that, it seems that the other party members also fell into the path of downfall… I just died without it. He died without achieving anything in return, glory, or even love as a warrior.
“This is the end of the heroes. Come on, you little gods. Do you still seek a hero from me?”
[‘Film fun’ raises his hand to you saying that it’s not necessary.]
[I’m persuaded by ‘I don’t want to sleep with a man’ saying that it’s for you to focus on love instead of being a hero.]
Yeah, I’m not going to be a hero. never.
[‘I want to sleep with all women’ quietly closes his eyes.]
*****
Xenovia’s memories came back, and there was no meeting with Xenovia again for a week.
The academy forced Zenobia to undergo treatment, and of course she had no choice but to accept the favor. As someone who holds the position of assistant professor of swordsmanship at the academy, it’s partly because it’s impossible to teach with one arm, but even the academy won’t have much money for it. Because the saintess is an academy student.
But a week later, on the same day that Xenovia’s treatment ended.
“sorry.”
“sorry.”
“… f*ck.”
I came to apologize in pairs with the saintess.
Seeing the two of them bowing their heads together made my head spin. What the hell are you really trying to do?
“done. I’ll accept your apology, so go away. please.”
“… Make me atone.”
“Oh, please… Shut up!!!”
Emotions don’t move on my own.
My head tells me to ignore them, but my body is screaming and beating them.
“… You can do whatever you want with us. Ryan, I did that to you.”
“Shut up!!”
Emotions intensified, and originally, magic power should fluctuate, but the magic power of the magic circuit filled with Scaya’s magic did not budge. Instead, a purple curse erupted from the ring, replacing magic.
[Lian, are you in pain?]
“Neros?”
Is it because the curse came out? Nero’s voice echoed in my brain.
[what’s the matter?]
“… annoying.”
[because of whom?]
“Because of those bitches.”
[Then Lian… Shall I kill you?]
“No, don’t kill me.”
Killing is not as forgiving. escaped death. Through death, he believed their betrayal was a lie and had hope while living a new life.
Such hope… I do not like to give
“Neros, now you can handle a little bit of the curse.”
[yes! I trained a lot with Lian!!]
right… If you do this, you will never come to me again.
A small form of Neros rises above me and gathers curses to create a single spell.
[Do this like this, do this like this!!]
Like the last time, Neros’ curse gradually increased its power and volume without any power control. Fortunately, however, this time, there is no physical force because it touches the mind, not the offensive curse.
It’s just an ominous curse gathering.
“… !!”
“… Yes, do as you please.”
Prine flinches and begins to tremble in fear, while Xenovia calmly prepares for her punishment.
Both of them seem to be worried about death after seeing the curse, but there is no need for that.
“trauma.”
[Recycle!!!]
The curse of Neros split into two and spread to both Prin and Xenovia in an instant, burrowing into their bodies.
“… … .?”
“… … .?”
Both of them realized that they were cursed, but I don’t know why they are safe.
The activation of this curse is much delayed. Of course. It takes a long time to read the trauma through the curse, and if the memories of those two aren’t as good as mine, they probably have at least the memories of the 3rd episode.
It will take some time to apply.
“ah… .”
By the time a minute or so had passed. Prin reacted first.
It seems that Xenovia’s time is a little later, perhaps because she lived over 60 in her first life.
“Ahh… aaa!!!!!”
[‘I hate NTR!!!!’ You can’t hide your smile while saying that the curse that causes trauma is a bad hobby.]
[‘Firemeung’s fun’ looks around carefully and smiles ‘Heheeng’ while looking at the fire.]
“no!! Do not!!!! Please!!!!!!”
“Hey, is the reaction worse than I thought?”
I knew you would have some trauma in the part where you keep trying to apologize to me, but it seems it’s worse than I thought?
Prin has a seizure, pouring out tears and snot. When I looked at Xenovia, she was firmly on her knees, apologizing to me one after another.
[Lian, that woman… Why aren’t you cursed?]
“… No, that’s it.”
It’s because I didn’t see a violent reaction like Prin, but when I checked, Xenovia’s focus had already disappeared.
If it’s Dayron’s reaction to seeing the traumatic past, it’s one of two things.
“The trauma isn’t as serious as Prin’s, or more serious than Prin’s, so I have no choice but to keep apologizing in that way.”
Well, either way, it has nothing to do with me.
“Rain, I’ll go to the student council today.”
“Yes, please do your best.”
[Rian! Please play with me today!!]
“Okay, I’ll play with you today instead of training.”
[Lian, Joaang!!]
I just spend my daily life.
Fck those bitches.