151 – 24: I had a question
When was the first time you realized you had these feelings?
Actually, it hasn’t been that long.
Blue Dragon. A great spirit revered as the guardian deity of Baekje and the guardian deity of the sea.
Although it is a wicked plan, the consciousness of God, which should have disappeared a long time ago, coexists in this world in the body of a young spirit named Wooshin.
In fact, the beings Wooshin and Cheongryong are like Gyereuk to humans in this world.
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If it were only Wooshin, the imperfect soul called Cheongryong exists there and prevents him from receiving the faith he should receive as a divine spirit and from receiving proper blessings.
Since there are two spirits in one body, what can be done properly?
Even magically, the powers of Wooshin and Blue Dragon should not exist together.
The power of Ushin, which deals with the heat of disasters and droughts, as opposed to the Blue Dragon, which deals with rain and the sea.
It exists even though it is misaligned. They collide with each other and create contradictions, but the contradictions rather maintain their existence.
I don’t know what the unknown entity that resurrected the Blue Dragon is, but it must have amazing knowledge and abilities. And that being’s resurrecting himself was definitely not for a good purpose.
Blue Dragon knows all this, and she knew that her mere existence was harmful to the humans she loved so much, so she initially tried to die.
He tried to meet his end by sticking out his head to a boy who had a divine sword that could kill him in one fell swoop.
Because that is right. Because that’s the only way to protect people.
But Lee Jun, boy, no he said. He said that if you want to live, you can live. Although his tone was indifferent and pointed, he clearly said that if he wanted to live, he could live.
It was obvious that he was reluctant to use Wooshin and Blue Dragon, but it was a natural reaction for an exorcist. Who wouldn’t be reluctant when a god-level evil spirit approaches a human?
But Lee Jun’s eyes were clearly looking at him. And he was the first to notice the feelings that Blue Dragon was also somehow trying to hide.
I didn’t want to die. I knew I had to die, but after experiencing death once, facing death again was so scary. The death of a spirit that is not exorcised as an evil spirit is miserable.
Worshiping a god as a god is the choice of humans to kill a god, but the blue dragon, who poured love on humans, remembers the process leading up to his extinction after the country he cared for was destroyed.
How could I move my body, which had been forgotten and was falling apart over time, and begged people to remember me?
However, the people of Silla, who destroyed the country, had no reason to follow the spirits of Baekje, so they killed people just because they encountered them.
In the end, the blue dragon threw its shattered body into the sea alone and lonely. That was her first miserable end.
I don’t really want to die. I don’t like it this time. No, I was so afraid of death in the first place.
However, the blue dragon could have died for the sake of humans. Woo-shin probably doesn’t know how grateful and great salvation it was when Lee Jun recognized his true feelings that he had barely hidden in the name of a great cause.
No one will ever know how great a joy it is for Blue Dragon to have a relationship other than between a believer and a god for the first time, and to eat and be with someone.
Even though Blue Dragon’s Yeouiju was corrupted and an evil spirit wielding divine power was created, she did not blame herself and was angry at the evil spirit. How thankful was Blue Dragon for him. Neither Wooshin nor he would know.
And now. He said that they had no choice but to part ways, and even Cheongryong himself did not fully realize that when he heard what he said next, he felt a greater fear than when he first died.
So, the answer to the question of how long it has been since Blue Dragon realized the feelings he has now is this.
Right now. At this moment he said he was getting ready to leave. The dragon became aware of this dark emotion that existed in his heart.
“Right now, my heart is beating so, so painfully. Leader. Do not go. No…… I can’t do it without the captain. Why do you want to leave? I, I will help you.
I will severely punish those who interfere with the leader in any way possible. Does that mean you won’t leave? Please, please tell me.”
A black thing broke open in his chest and appeared.
Something hot, painful, sharp, and goosebump-inducing gave her an unfamiliar sensation, as if someone had opened her chest and forced it in. At this, the blue dragon trembled.
No, no. To be honest, it existed inside the blue dragon.
This was just an unnoticed black dot on the large canvas of the mind, but now it has grown in size and become this.
Lee Jun’s scent reaches his nose.
Cheongryong, held in his arms by a man who gave off a pleasant smell reminiscent of old paper, felt his mind becoming strangely distorted. So much so that even the original tone of voice has changed.
Gods can see, feel, and sense more than humans.
They say that such feelings cannot stop or persuade Lee Jun, but I want to deny it. Your brain and heart simultaneously scream that you can do anything to get him.
It seems as if a distorted and broken machine is forced to turn and sparks fly. The feeling of your mind becoming distorted and becoming something other than yourself.
The sensation of everything turning pitch black, like an evil spirit, creates the illusion that the Blue Dragon has become an evil spirit rather than a divine spirit.
ㅡ Ah, no. It’s just that he was originally like this.
The blue dragon bit his lip quietly. The water seemed to smell like a rotting corpse.
When you close your eyes, something in the middle of the corpses filling the water sees the blue dragon, and the blue dragon also sees something.
I know that the evil spirit that stole my Yeouiju exists in the world.
I can’t tell the location or read the thoughts, and since one side just curses arbitrarily, I would have normally ignored all of those gazes and senses.
As if it had read the blue dragon’s current state of mind, it whispered a curse filled with sweet honey. If you can never lose them, it would be better to sink in the sea together.
It is whispered that if we sink and sink alone in the pitch-black deep sea with nothing, we will not lose all the happiness we shared together.
The dragon had never heard that thing before, but the first time he heard that thing say it, it was so fascinating that it felt foolish to say no.
Like that, the soggy thought that it doesn’t matter what happens to this world just so I can sink in the sea fills my head like water being poured.
Cheongryong tried to suppress his bursting heart and head with reason, but it felt as meaningless as trying to suppress a lid that was about to explode due to the heat building up right away.
Is the evil spirit that stole Blue Dragon’s Yeouiju influencing Blue Dragon? Or was it the ignition of a seed planted by the being who resurrected the Blue Dragon?
Definitely not. Although his power was taken away due to Yeouiju, the Blue Dragon himself is not of low rank, so he cannot be swayed that much.
After the fall of Baekje, the blue dragon disappeared, but its name was engraved in history and remained as a symbol of the king.
The faith and power accumulated over a long period of time now belonged to the resurrected Blue Dragon and Wooshin, and their status was such that it was difficult for evil spirits to touch them.
The difference in status is so great that the fact that they were connected by stealing the Blue Dragon’s power and Yeouiju in the first place is unnatural and strange.
So what is changing Blue Dragon now? The answer is simple.
Time spent with Lee Jun. The feelings I shared with Lee Jun. The man named Lee Jun was changing the blue dragon into something other than a dragon.
From the first time we met, he made a face as if he didn’t care if he died at any time, and he said he was attached to him, and he was the only person who made up for him and cared for him.
It is not a relationship between believers and spirits. My first relationship. How could I give up on this? How can you throw it away?
It does not mean that love for humans has disappeared. It’s just that Lee Joon is more important than that.
Woo-shin, who is watching everything, also remains silent. It was clear that the child had the same thoughts as him.
Yes, that child loves this man just like him.
But since he doesn’t know what to do with a child who was born in this world less than a year ago, he must have left it to himself for now.
Suddenly, the blue dragon looked at Lee Jun’s face with dark, sunken eyes. His face I saw for the first time in my breathless and dizzy consciousness.
How will he react when he sees this dragon with dark emotions?
How does he react in this waterfall that even he is embarrassed and afraid of?
Even if you are scared or disgusted, it doesn’t matter. She really, really needed him, so she thought about stopping him somehow, even if Lee Jun didn’t like him.
“Is that so?”
“…… Leader?”
Lee Jun’s face showed neither confusion nor fear, but it was not an emotion that could be evaluated as negative, but an understanding and a bit of annoyance.
In addition to the scar around his mouth, the expression of annoyance is something he often wears. In fact, most of the expressions you see when you look at him, whose emotions are not easily revealed on his face, are those on his face.
If you just look at that expression, it’s not particularly strange, but objectively, it was strange for Blue Dragon to make that face in front of himself right now.
He is extremely stubborn, and once he decides to do so, he pushes for it, and Ma has declared that she will force him to be tied up here. His personality would definitely reject it. This is an absolute proposition.
But his reaction is no different from usual. He reacts as if he understands himself.
At that, the anticipation in the blue dragon’s heart slowly swelled. There is nothing better than that if he makes the same choices for you.
Cheongryong looked at Lee Jun with tear-filled eyes, and Lee Joon placed his hand on Cheongryong’s head as if responding –
I put my hand into the air and took out the sheath of the Blue Dragon Sword. Then he lightly grabbed it and struck it towards the top of the blue dragon’s head.
“Grunt!”
Cheongryong watched in a daze as the actions continued so naturally, and realized what he had done when he felt pain in his head.
Lee Jun, who saw Cheongryong suffering with tears streaming down his face, spoke mischievously.
“Okay, try your best. “It won’t be easy.”
He was neither angry nor positive, and even had a smile on his face as he told me to try it if I wanted to.
“Captain…… ?”
Blue Dragon’s eyes widened at the unexpected reaction and words.
I thought he would definitely deny it, but if he had to try it, would he try it? Blue Dragon lowered his voice even further, wondering if he thought his determination was just a joke.
“Captain, I…… I’m serious……. “I don’t care if everything we met and felt becomes a curse.”
Cheongryong muttered grimly while holding Lee Jun’s hand. I meant it. Blue Dragon truly did not care if this became a curse.
That is how precious the existence of Lee Joon was.
Even though it has lost its power, the blue dragon is a divine spirit. No matter how strong Lee Jun is, unless he tries to stop it by killing the blue dragon, it will be difficult to stop him.
But why is he?
“If you were going to do as you said, you wouldn’t have said anything.”
Lee Jun opened his mouth. His eyes met the blue dragon.
His pitch-black eyes, which seemed indifferent even to his own life, contained the blue dragon.
“The little boy has an odd personality. If you were going to do it, you shouldn’t have said anything. You could have done that, right? “You’re not so stupid that you can’t even think of something like that.”
Lee Jun placed his hand on the blue dragon’s head. His large, scarred hands were warm as always.
“I’m as good as dead once. I don’t intend to repeat the same thing I just said here. But I have no intention of fighting with you over that and making you blush.”
“…… It’s not like a leader. That.”
Blue Dragon muttered without realizing it. Actually, Lee Joon is not the kind of person who would say something like that.
If someone had said what Cheongryong said, he would have scoffed and ignored them, telling them not to laugh, or hit them hard and then hung them upside down on the roof of a building.
Lee Jun says Ha! He laughed.
“Yes, it’s because my personality is inherently dirty. If a guy who doesn’t know anything says something like that, I’ll make a hole in his head and hang him upside down on the roof of a building somewhere.
If you keep coming, I’ll make you an asshole or something. “You’re the one saying that right now.”
Lee Jun looked at the soot that had formed on the ceiling due to Wooshin’s power and spoke as if nothing had happened, and upon hearing those words, Cheongryong felt suffocated for a moment.
He is not anyone else, he is himself, so the fact that he says that is because he seems to be saying that he is also thinking of himself.
“I have no intention of repeating what I said. If you can, do it. “Instead of running around with you, I’m going to take you to an amusement park, watch you enter school, and feed you meat.”
“…… “I’m thinking of doing something really bad.”
“If you see a hint of that, you should immediately act as you said.”
Lee Jun gently lifted the sheath of the Blue Dragon Sword and showed it.
“I’m going to use this as a cane and beat your butt until it’s on fire. “To the point where I can’t even lie down properly.”
Strong enough to be treated as a separate Class A casting, it is the sheath of a sword made to kill a blue dragon. You use something like that like a whip?
Reflexively, the blue dragon covered his buttocks with his hands. The thing that hurt so much just from lightly hitting his head a little while ago ended up hitting his butt!
Blue Dragon felt a new fear, not the fear that came from death or loss, and even Wooshin, who had remained silent, trembled slightly as he felt himself jumping.
Looking at the blue dragon like that, Lee Jun burst out laughing, then made eye contact with the blue dragon and said,
“Try everything you can.”
Those words were not negotiations or anything else. It was a declaration that he had no intention of bending his stance.
“But I will never let anyone say that meeting you was a curse.”
And at the same time, it was a declaration that he would never abandon himself.
Anyone who looks at that face will be able to recognize it. And that was enough to wipe away the black stuff that was filling up the blue dragon’s insides.
“But you said it all with your own mouth. If you’re going to threaten, you can do better, and if you’re going to do something bad, you should keep your mouth shut, but in the end, you know what you did was wrong, right?
Damn, if my little brother were as nice as you, I wouldn’t be able to leave because I’d be so worried, but I’m also proud that there’s such a nice kid. “I don’t know how to say it.”
Looking at Lee Jun sticking his tongue out, Cheongryong realized one thing from what Lee Joon said. He said it was okay to be honest about these bubbling, wrong feelings.
If you do something wrong, you will be scolded. Never abandon yourself. Blue Dragon said, throwing himself into Lee Jun’s arms.
“…… I also don’t want the captain to disappear. So he’ll make the captain want to be here.”
It is impossible to convince him, and it will be impossible to stop him. After hearing those words, I don’t even think about forcing him into the sea.
But I have no intention of giving up. I have no intention of letting him go. I just think of other ways to keep him here.
If not only you care about him, but he also thinks about you, he will definitely be able to find a way.
After thinking that, Cheongryong closed his eyes in Lee Jun’s arms, feeling the pitch-black things in his chest dissipating like water.
“Wow, there will come a day in my life when what I learned from that sister will be useful.”
As I listened to his muttering whose meaning I could not understand.