89 – No pain, no love: 1
It happened when Yerin Ryu was in elementary school.
“Mom.”
A silent night in the dim darkness.
Beyond the dim moonlight shining down through the window, Yerin Ryu opened her mouth.
Ryu Ye-rin’s mother, Ryu Seong-yeon, quietly moved her head at the sudden sound of her daughter.
“Why? Our daughter?”
“Mom…… Do you love her daddy?”
Ryu Ye-rin quietly sat on the sofa in the living room, fixed her gaze on the TV, and asked a question in a calm tone as if she had no particular interest.
Seongyeon Ryu stretched out her sluggish hand and gently stroked her daughter’s hair.
“Then, of course.”
My mother answered with a soft smile.
It was a benevolent voice that didn’t sound like a single lie.
She pursed her lips for a moment in a smile as warm as sunlight brightening a damp night.
Ryu Ye-rin selected her words in her head for a moment, then spat out a single word.
“Mom is her dad… ….”
The girl’s blood-red eyes look up at Ryu Seong-yeon.
“…… Aren’t you resentful?”
“Are you resentful?”
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Seongyeon Ryu narrowed her eyes.
“Why are you saying that all of a sudden?”
Yerin Ryu hugged her sofa cushion tightly.
The fluffy cushion was distorted beautifully.
Liu Ye-rin, who buried her face slightly, babbles cautiously.
“…… I heard what the aunts were saying the other day.”
Ugly backroom old people.
Yerin Ryu was brainwashed in her heart.
When walking around the neighborhood with her mother, the whispers of her aunts did not end. Like the beating of wings of an insect, it buzzed around my ears endlessly and lingered again and again.
Ajummies in the neighborhood looked at us and said nonsense, such as saying that we had a child without a father, that we couldn’t even see our father’s face, and that we had an accident when we were young.
In response to her insulting words and actions, Ryu Ye-rin bit her lips and stared at her with a vicious look, but her aunts snorted at her and spat out absurd words, ‘I didn’t have a father, so I couldn’t get home schooling’ in a very small voice. It was common.
“It’s all because Dad abandoned us.”
“Does Yerin hate her father?”
“You don’t even know your father’s face.”
She frowned slightly at her mother’s words.
She can’t remember her father’s face.
No, I haven’t even seen it.
She asked her mother a few times about her father, but she only refused to give a proper answer, saying with an inexplicable smile that she would find out later.
Because of that, Yerin Ryu couldn’t know her father’s face, name, or age.
“If I had a father, I wouldn’t have been treated like this.”
Ryu Ye-rin muttered in her slightly mixed voice.
Since her father is away, her mother has to work late at night in a factory.
Her mother’s face was covered with deep fatigue as she went to work early in the morning and returned home after working overtime.
Watching her mother struggling to earn her living expenses, she could tell that Yerin Ryu’s heart was being crushed.
It was a luxury to enjoy dinner in harmony like other families.
She couldn’t help but stare at the back of her mother, who worked day and night on holidays.
“Yerin.”
“… ….”
“Dad didn’t abandon us.”
Seongyeon Ryu smiled softly as she slowly stroked her daughter.
“We are only separated for a while due to unavoidable circumstances. One day I will be able to see my father again.”
I glanced up at her mother’s face, who was making a vague expression on her face as if recalling her past memories.
“My daughter. What a surprise to see her father later?”
As I raised myself alone without a father.
I didn’t like the look of her mother laughing at her father who didn’t even know her face.
Whether it’s her unavoidable circumstances or not, the father who abandoned her struggling mother is just displeased.
And she felt very resentful of herself for giving her mother a hard time.
I was also one of the causes of her mother’s hardship.
“Why did my mother give birth to me…… ?”
“Yerin?”
“You’re having a hard time because of me… ….”
“My daughter, what do you mean by that? Does her mom look tough?”
If Ryu Ye-rin hadn’t been born, would her mother have had a hard time?
I don’t know.
But one thing is for sure, things must have been better than they are now.
She wouldn’t have looked around and whispered about her mother, and she wouldn’t have to stay up late to pay for her living.
Living expenses, food expenses, school expenses, etc.
You could save a lot of money without using it.
If it wasn’t for Yerin Ryu.
“If my mom hadn’t met her dad and she hadn’t given birth to me, she wouldn’t have suffered like this…” ….”
“Yerin-ah, Ryu Ye-rin,”
Seongyeon Ryu cut off his daughter.
What the hell did I say?
She felt sorry that she didn’t seem to pay much attention to her daughter these days.
She slowly tugged at her daughter’s soft cheeks.
As Ryu Ye-rin frowned and struggled, Ryu Seong-yeon let out a small laugh at her as if she was cute.
“Don’t do it Mom… ….”
“Why is it difficult for a mother to have such a cute daughter?”
She played around with her daughter’s soft cheeks for a while.
Ryu Ye-rin didn’t hate her mother’s behavior despite her grumbling.
Because it was a joke filled with affection and love.
“Yerin. You are an irreplaceable blessing to Mom and Dad.”
Seongyeon Ryu held her daughter’s cheek with one hand and gently stroked her lower belly with the other.
“How happy I was when you were in my stomach…… Yerin, you are the crystallization of mom and dad’s love.”
“Yes.”
“Yerin. My mom says She is not having a hard time because of Yerin, but she can gain strength thanks to Yerin.”
“Why…… ?”
She let go of Ryu Yerin’s glutinous rice cake-like cheeks.
She rubbed her daughter’s red-hot cheeks gently. As she rubbed her cheek, she stared up at Ryu Seong-yeon.
Mother smiled kindly.
“Why? Because mom loves her daughter so much.”
She looked at her cute daughter with a bright smile and affectionate eyes.
“It’s never hard for someone you love, right?”
“Why?”
“It may seem a bit difficult for my little girl, but thinking of my loving family always gives me strength, right?”
“Really…… ?”
“Sure. Yerin will know when you fall in love too. Oh. Yerin, is there anyone interested in school?”
At her mother’s question, Yerin Ryu closed her eyes for a moment.
Who is interested in school?
Well, it can’t be.
Yerin Ryu is being bullied halfway through school.
Perhaps because of her unique calm face and cold expression, among girls, evaluations such as ‘not being cheap’ or ‘uselessly pretending to be arrogant’ are dominant.
She is also quite popular with her male students because of her beautiful looks and mysterious aura, making her a target for girls.
When the male students she liked showed interest in her Ye-rin Ryu, the girls who were grinding their teeth took advantage of the fact that her Ye-rin Ryu had no father and launched an attack on her.
She became a good cause for not having a father. She had an image that it was okay to be touched. Isn’t she a kid without a father anyway? You will be half as good as an orphan.
Exposed to her children’s malevolent gazes for a long time, Yerin Ryu saw her others as potential threats.
When she showed an opening, she didn’t hesitate to run over and bite.
She’s like a hyena.
That’s why Yerin Ryu hated other people. She
She was almost disgusting.
She didn’t say anything about it, fearing that her mother would be worried, but deep inside her Liu Yerin’s heart, her aversion and hatred for her others were sprouting little by little.
By the way, is there anyone interested in her school?
Ha. She can’t be
“It doesn’t seem to be there yet?”
When her Ryu Ye-rin was silent with her hard face, Ryu Seong-yeon smiled as if she understood.
“But she is Yerin and you too will meet someone you love someday.”
Ryu Seong-yeon thinks of Ye-rin’s father in her heart, and she kindly follows her words.
“Just looking at her makes her heart race, it’s fun just to be with her, and her figure always flickers in her eyes.”
“…… Huh.”
“I want to do something for that person, and I want that person to be happy.”
“Ah.”
Liu Yerin quietly listened to her mother.
Will the day come when you truly love someone?
I can’t imagine it no matter how much I think about it.
That’s because for Ryu Ye-rin, her others are pain.
“You know, mom. I think love is understanding, commitment and hard work.”
“What do you mean?”
Yerin Ryu raised her question mark above her head.
“She has to understand, devote herself, and work hard for the person she loves, that’s what my mother thinks.”
“Understanding, commitment, effort?”
Liu Yerin quietly muttered at her mother’s words. She
She tried talking to herself, but she didn’t really get it.
Why should she understand, devote, and strive for the person she loves?
As she tilted her head, Seongyeon Ryu smiled with a benevolent expression.
“It’s just mom’s idea. Because love has many perspectives.”
“… ….”
“But she said, Yerin, you will someday meet a person who, in her mother’s opinion, would be worth devoting herself to, understanding, and working hard for.
“… ….”
Liu Yerin quietly looked at her mother.
Ryu Seong-yeon also looked down at her daughter.
“Isn’t that still a bit difficult?”
“No. I think I know roughly.”
“So what? Our daughter? Are you smart too?”
Her daughter, as if lost in thought for a moment, lowered her head and maintained her silence.
But that’s only for a moment.
Soon, Liu Yerin slowly raised her head.
The red eyes twinkled and looked at Ryu Seong-yeon.
“Then…… Mom is?”
“Huh?”
“Mom…… Do you really love me?”
“Ehh?”
Mother smiled mischievously.
“Sad. I think she always said she loved me.”
“No, that… ….”
When Ryu Seong-yeon played a prank on her by pretending to wipe her tears, her daughter shook her arms hurriedly and couldn’t hide her embarrassment.
Seeing that, Ryu Seong-yeon slightly lifted the corner of her mouth.
“Then my mom will ask the opposite question.”
“Huh?”
“What do you think, Yerin?”
Yerin Ryu blinked her eyes.
“She thinks mom will love you. Do you think no?”
Unknowingly, silence.
However, the silence did not last long.
That’s probably because the answer came out when I looked at my mother’s behavior so far.
“My mom always works hard for me. She does not shy away from hard work and perseveres…… Because she works for me, she’s dedicated, she understands…… Huh. That’s right.”
“Isn’t it?”
“…… Huh. Mom.”
My daughter responded calmly and at the same time smiled a little shyly.
“Mom always loves my daughter? Then, how about you, Yerin?”
“Uh, huh? Me?”
“Sure. Does my daughter love her mother?”
“…… Uh, um.”
Yerin Ryu rolled her eyes back and forth with an unknown sense of embarrassment at the sight of her mother asking questions mischievously with her eyes twinkling.
“What is it, my daughter? You don’t get an answer right away? Could it be that she doesn’t love her mother?”
“Oh, no…… It’s not like that…….”
“Mom is really sad. But it’s okay. Even if my daughter doesn’t love her mother, she will always love her mother.”
“No, because it’s not like that, mom… ….”
“It’s okay. You don’t have to make excuses so hard? My mom thinks her love doesn’t have to be paid. Whether our daughter loves her mother or not, she always loves us her daughter…….”
“Stop, stop, Mom! OK! I love you mom too!”
Slightly blushing and screaming, Seongyeon Ryu smiled broadly.
“Oh my daughter. Don’t you like her mother too much? To the extent that I can scream like that.”
“Mom…… ! Really stop! Are you going to get mad at me?”
“Aren’t you already mad?”
“Mom!”
Ryu Ye-rin sighed, but Ryu Seong-yeon, as always, smiled benevolently.
It was always the same family scene.
It was Ryu Ye-rin who longed for this day to last forever.
How much time has passed like that?
“I like Yerin…… !”
After school.
“Let’s go out with me, Yerin.”
Behind the campus.
At the back of the gloomy campus, a boy stood with his cheeks slightly blushing and confessed his love to Ryu Ye-rin.