90 – No pain, no love: 2
A sunset in the evening as the dusk slowly sets.
“Let’s go out with me, Yerin.”
A boy is making a confession at the back of the campus where the shadows dwell.
The boy closed his eyes tightly.
It was a simple but heartfelt confession.
Yerin Ryu stared at the boy without saying anything.
He moved his head slowly, as if scanning the boy’s face and body.
A boy with a familiar face was clearly reflected in Yerin Ryu’s eyes.
The boy felt Ryu Ye-rin’s gaze on her skin and slightly shrank her body.
That boy’s name is Kim Ha-seong.
He is a warm-hearted person with good sociability.
The motor nerve is pretty good, and he is very good at studying.
Thanks to that, he is quite popular among his classmates.
Kim Ha-seong quietly opened his eyes and swallowed dry saliva.
Looking nervous and uneasy, he opened his eyes slightly and spoke carefully.
The longer Liu Yerin’s silence went on, the more her nervous ripples swayed in her heart.
“… ….”
Yerin Ryu hesitated for a moment.
I swallowed her saliva with a slightly perplexed face.
Ever since that kid called me after school, I had vaguely noticed that he was trying to confess his love.
But I can’t just be happy.
He doesn’t like that boy either.
Of course, that doesn’t mean I don’t like Kim Ha-seong.
She is the person who approached Ryu Ye-rin without prejudice, who was being bullied halfway through school.
She helped Yerin Ryu many times when she was in trouble, and she expressed many favors without knowing or not knowing.
But if you ask her if she likes her as a member of the opposite s*x, Yerin Liu will slowly shake her head from side to side.
“…… Yerin.”
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Kim Ha-seong cautiously moved his lips.
Since it was his first confession in his life, he couldn’t hide his nervousness.
The boy just rolled his eyes here and there with a nervous face.
“… ….”
Yerin Ryu was embarrassed.
I know that child’s feelings are not bad.
Unlike her other children, she always maintained a benevolent attitude.
She was Ryu Ye-rin who didn’t really like others, but her cynical response towards her harmless counterpart was a bit daunting.
Did your mother say one day, ‘It’s really bad for her to be mean to a child who likes you’?
That’s why Ryu Ye-rin hesitated for a moment, then she let out a deep sigh and slowly expressed her sorry toward Kim Ha-seong.
“I’m sorry.”
Apology.
Rejected.
Kim Ha-seong’s lips trembled.
“Thank you for being courageous and confessing. But I don’t think I can go out with you.”
The appearance of a girl who is blunt and only talks briefly about the main point is vulgar.
Kim Ha-seong’s two large eyes shook.
She didn’t expect that she would be rejected so cleanly.
“Mu, of course I was a little embarrassed by my sudden confession, but I thought about it a little… ….”
“No.”
Yerin Ryu shook her head with her complex face.
The boy’s face hardened as if her death sentence had been pronounced.
“I have nothing to think about. I don’t want to torture hope for nothing, and I don’t want to end it in an ambiguous way. So, I will tell you now.”
Liu Yerin inhaled lightly and then she exhaled slowly.
“Sorry. I cannot accept your confession.”
“What is the reason?”
“Why?”
“Uh.”
Does the reason matter?
Ryu Ye-rin blinked for a moment.
I suddenly remembered what her mother had said to her.
Her mother said love is understanding, hard work, and dedication.
Understanding, hard work and dedication.
When she first heard it, she didn’t quite understand.
But as she watched her mother’s attitude towards life, she finally understood the meaning.
My mother always smiled while taking care of her Ryu Ye-rin alone.
She was able to smile because she had someone she loved, and she always devoted, understood, and worked hard for the person she loved.
Yerin Ryu always watched her mother like that.
Her ideas and thoughts naturally settled in her heart of Ryu Ye-rin.
“Okay. Because I don’t love you?”
“So…… !”
“I will ask the opposite. Why do you like me?”
Haseong Kim hesitated.
“You know what? What is the difference between “Love” And “Like”?
Ryu Ye-rin spoke her words clearly, which she concluded from her conversation with her mother.
“There is a reason for liking, but there is no reason for loving.”
Her mom said.
There is no price for loving.
He told me that not expecting anything in return is love.
“Wait. What?”
“To put it simply… ….”
Ryu Ye-rin looked at Kim Ha-seong with her red eyes.
“…… To like a person is similar to saying that you like that person’s personality, appearance, wealth, talent, etc.”
“Uh, huh?”
“Why do you like it? Yes. Because you look pretty Because you have a good personality because i have a lot of money because it’s attractive It’s cool to see you working hard.
The girl takes a slow step towards the boy.
“But can I still like it even though these reasons are gone?”
“What do you mean?”
“I like it because it is pretty? So if you’re ugly, there’s no reason to like it, right? I also confessed that I like my personality…… What? What if your personality gets worse? There is no reason to date.”
Ryu Ye-rin raised her head for a moment.
She rolled her red eyes.
Does love need such a reason?
Yerin Ryu could say she never said no.
Because my mother didn’t do that.
Because you always work hard for me.
Because he smiles nonetheless.
“But not love. Love needs no price or reason.”
As parents love their children.
“Even if you have an ugly appearance, a bad personality, no money, dirty or stupid…… I should be able to accept it regardless, wouldn’t it be love?”
Dedication and understanding. And effort.
My mother always worked hard for me.
Her mother wouldn’t have to suffer so much if she hadn’t given birth to something like me.
It’s just because I’m like me…….
“I think that liking means liking the person’s strengths, and loving means accepting and understanding the person’s weaknesses, and being able to work hard…… How about you?”
“I… ….”
“Let me ask you again.”
Yerin Ryu approached the boy a little closer.
She could see his eyes quivering anxiously right in front of him.
It has a bright red face like a ripe apple. It looks like it will explode any moment. I can feel his heart beating.
“Do you love me? Do you like it?”
“Uh, that, that… ….”
“What?”
“So… ….”
“So?”
The boy closed his eyes tightly.
“Yes, do you like what you say, do you love…” … I don’t know about that. But…… I like you lightly, it’s not like that…… !”
My breathing became more and more rapid and my breathing became rough.
However, the boy didn’t stop, swallowed her dry saliva, and carefully muttered word by word while watching the girl’s eyes.
“That, so… !”
Let’s be a little more courageous.
The boy bit her lower lip lightly, then spoke vigorously.
“Yerin, I will treat you well, so let’s date! Maybe once you meet, you’ll change your mind, right? And the possibility of liking me…….”
“You may change your mind when you meet, la…… That could be enough There is a possibility.”
Ryu Ye-rin alone shook her head.
“But you know.”
Take a break. She says.
“I don’t want to.”
“…… Ah.”
“You have a point. But I hate it. No big deal. It’s just a difference in values. I want you to respect my thoughts as much as I respect yours.”
“… ….”
When the confession of her life went back to nothing, the boy quickly fell into a depression, and the girl looked at her boy for a moment and suddenly pursed her lips.
“I’m sorry.”
“…… Yes.”
The boy made a slightly depressed face.
Yerin Ryu scratched her cheek with an apologetic expression.
She seemed to have hurt me somehow. But since she didn’t want to leave room for nothing, she slightly overreacted.
Let’s go home and reflect a little.
***
“Yerin Ryu.”
“Huh?”
“Follow me for a moment.”
School the next day.
A girl came up to Ryu Ye-rin, who was taking care of her notebooks and writing utensils to return home after her class. She was usually a girl who didn’t like Ryu Ye-rin. But she had never called her apart like this. Her girlish eyes are ugly.
Ryu Ye-rin tilted her head slightly and looked at the rogue-looking girl, Park Bo-ram, and expressed her doubts.
“Why? What is it?”
“Don’t talk nonsense, will you follow me?”
I thought I wouldn’t see anything good if I obediently followed the hostility.
But if I avoided it today, it was obvious that it would happen again tomorrow.
In the end, it was inevitable.
“Is it over soon?”
“Depending on how you do it.”
Park Bo-ram gestured at her chin and pointed at the back door of her classroom.
A few girls from another class were standing near the back door of the classroom.
It looked like Park Bo-ram’s group. Liu Ye-rin let out a deep sigh, and suddenly she slung her bag on her back and slowly moved her steps along the swings.
Park Bo-ram’s party took Ryu Ye-rin and dragged her to the back of her shady campus.
At the back of the schoolyard, a female student from another class, who was smoking a cigarette and spitting it out, was suddenly seated.
Since she could easily guess what the situation was, her Ryu Ye-rin’s face hardened slightly.
Park Bo-ram said then.
“Yerin Ryu. Are you pretty out there these days?”
“…… What.”
“Ha. Are you asking because you don’t know? It’s ridiculous.”
It was Ryu Ye-rin who was dumbfounded.
She blinked and collected her heart.
However, the swings began to speak while frowning at Ami, as if they were burning with heat at Yerin Ryu’s reaction.
“You. He seems to be flirting around with boys these days because he has a flat face. Ha, b*tch like a slut.”
“… ….”
“Do you want to wag your tail like that and become popular? How light is your ass?”
“… ….”
“If you don’t want to look around when you say nice things, stay down. Okay Ryu Ye-rin?”
Park Bo-ram approached Ryu Ye-rin with a threatening tone and tapped her on the cheek with the back of his hand.
Ryu Ye-rin stared at her blankly for a moment, then her and then sighed.
And after pursing her lips several times, which did not come off easily, she let her rhyme float.
“…… Okay. Okay.”
“You bastard.”
When Ryu Ye-rin said that she was wrong without saying anything, the swings giggled.
One, two, three, four.
A total of four female students surround Ryu Ye-rin.
They were big compared to their grade, and they were poor classmates.
It was a scary enough situation.
“… ….”
Ryu Yerin’s eyes were cold.
She’s honestly not in a good mood. She is also not very patient. But she doesn’t want to make a big deal out of it.
She’s half bullied anyway. She has also been subjected to gossip or dishonoring a lot.
It’s the first time she’s made such an open threat, but it doesn’t matter.
Because I’m used to this kind of treatment.
Yerin Ryu repeatedly opened and closed her fists.
Her fists were shaking.
“Hey, that’s it. Get out of here.”
“Yerin Ryu. Be careful next time, okay?”
“Yaya, don’t be so scared.”
“Ha. It’s been a f*cking year. Can’t say anything.”
They are talking about what they like.
The bad girls laugh again.
He spit out and smokes.
Dark smoke rises arbitrarily.
In her gaze of Ryu Ye-rin, the swings are vivid.
Liu Yerin nodded her head once and tried to move her steps.
It was then.
“A b*tch like an idiot without a father is really…… It’s not because that b*tch’s mother can’t properly educate her at home.”
It was Park Bo-ram. Ryu Ye-rin slowly turned her stiff head and looked at her Park Bo-ram. Ryu Ye-rin and Park Bo-ram’s gaze collided. The delinquent girl laughs at such a figure.
“Ha. f*ck you b*tch What are you looking for?”
“You.”
The back of the campus is a playground for delinquents, and it is quiet and free of floating population.
A chilly wind passes through Ryu Ye-rin’s skin.
The sky is covered with clouds to hide the sunlight, so the surroundings are getting dark little by little.
Yerin Ryu repeated opening and closing her fists.
Her fists are getting stronger.
“You? Did you just say you? It’s ridiculous. Hey Yerin Ryu. Get some insight into the subject. Do you really want to go behind?”
“I can see what makes you so angry.”
Liu Yerin is just staring at her delinquent girl.
“But even so, isn’t it a bit like swearing at your parents?”
“Kick.”
Park Bo-ram ridicules.
“That sucks. And you should have been straight. Because she fawns on boys like a rag. Why. Did your mother teach you that?”
“Are you jealous?”
“What?”
“You’re doing this because you were confessed to by Ha Sung.”
Park Bo-ram’s eyes trembled.
“I honestly can’t sympathize with what you’re doing, but I can understand.”
Park Bo-ram did this because she had a crush on the boy she confessed to Ryu Ye-rin yesterday.
Suddenly, her pride was hurt without Park Bo-ram’s knowledge. She
She is because of the fact that she was pushed by Yerin Liu.
Of course, as for Liu Yerin, just looking at her face, she can be said to be a really beautiful beauty.
But apart from that, her personality is hard and cold.
On the subject of bullying without a single friend.
Don’t you just trust your face and say it?
Annoying.
“I can understand…… I can understand you…….”
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As her mother loves her father and she has persevered, Yerin Ryu respected her feelings of love very much.
So she decided to understand the foolishness of this immature delinquent girl.
Because it’s very sad when the person you love doesn’t look at you.
Isn’t she waiting all these years and four months without her mother finding her father?
Yerin Ryu could never deny that sad feeling.
That’s why Yerin Liu suddenly showed her understanding.
Understanding. Yes, i understand She doesn’t empathize, but reminds her of her mother, and she shows minimal understanding.
“But I have to do my best.”
What that girl was doing went way too far.
She could tolerate swearing or insulting herself without thinking, but she could not tolerate swearing at her mother.
No, I didn’t like it.
The situation is different from when the aunts talked behind their backs.
Because he swears openly in front of his face.
This was in line with the words to fight.
Ryu Ye-rin has set some rules for her life.
Something you can endure. What to put up with. And what you can’t stand.
Park Bo-ram crossed the Maginot Line drawn by Ryu Ye-rin.
That’s why I can’t stand it.
I can’t stand it.
“If you’re angry because he confessed to me, then it’s pointless. You know?”
At Ryu Ye-rin’s words, Park Bo-ram’s army shriveled up like a piece of paper.
She is annoyed by Ryu Ye-rin who talks like she knows everything.
So she shouted.
“Don’t f*ck!”
“Then what is the reason?”
“f*ck you b*tch! It’s because she clings to boys like a prostitute!”
“I never did. Even if that’s the case, it’s none of your business, right?”
“Ha, that’s going crazy.”
“It’s just a matter of venting your anger.”
“f*ck b*tch…… !”
Looks like they’ll attack at any moment. But Ryu Ye-rin was the same.
Ryu Ye-rin let out her breath to cool the hot emotions that welled up to her neck.
But she is still thumping like her heart is about to explode.
Her head bangs and her emotions grow wilder.
Anger, excitement, anger, etc.
Many emotions are intertwined.
“Cut down. I just apologize for swearing at my mother. Then I will do as you wish.”
“Ha.”
“You also have a purpose, so you created this situation and forced it on me, right? Isn’t the purpose of fighting me for nothing?”
“Ha ha ha.”
She laughs incredulously.
That smile seems to imply something ridiculous.
“f*ck. Done. You just wanted to end it by talking. I can’t. Let’s just hit it After all, kids need to be right to come to their senses.”
“So you’re not going to apologize?”
“Apologetics suck. Under! Yea yes yes Looking at your actions, I get an estimate of how Ami-nyeon lived.”
“… ….”
“Kids, hit it! f*ck you b*tch, make today a memorial day!”
“…… Under.”
Ryu Ye-rin smiled strangely with her head slightly bowed.
Then the delinquent girls inadvertently stopped in their place. It was a fishy smile, so Park Bo-ram frowned at her.
“…… Ha, heh.”
“What are you laughing at?”
Laughter, I don’t like it.
But Ryu Ye-rin didn’t care, she just let out a bizarre laugh with her head down.
It was as if she was trying to hold back a laugh, or she seemed to be trying not to hold back a laugh.
Because she was Ryu Ye-rin, who usually had an expressionless face, her smile was creepy for some reason.
“…… I mean.”
The laughter stops.
She keeps her head down and speaks quietly.
“Actually, I don’t hate fighting.”
“What are you talking about, you crazy b*tch?”
“But I’ve been patient all along.”
“What?”
The appearance of Ryu Ye-rin talking strangely with a blurry expression is unreasonable.
Despite the fact that she is surrounded by several delinquent sons, her face shows no trace of fear or horror.
No, let alone fear, the opposite expression.
I don’t like it.
Park Bo-ram frowned at her.
“This b*tch is really going to die…… !”
The poor-looking girl strode toward Liu Ye-rin with her face crinkled like her sheet of paper, then raised her right hand.
Liu Yerin didn’t care and grabbed her girl’s wrist.
“Lee, don’t let go of this hand?!”
“…… I was patient.”
“This b*tch…… !”
“…… I didn’t want to make a fuss, so I put up with it.”
Yerin Ryu glared with her red eyes.
“…… What can you do if you attack like this?”
Yerin Ryu’s red eyes shone brightly in the sunlight.
She had sharp red eyes. The girls gulped down her dried spittle, Liu Yerin. Although she was Ryu Ye-rin, who was smaller than her peers, she felt an unknown spirit.
“You, you, you!”
“…… Noisy.”
A fight with four female students?
There is not much fear.
Because I don’t think I’ll lose.
Really.
I don’t think I’ll lose.
***
“Yerin.”
“… ….”
“Are you okay?”
“… ….”
After the incident caused by school violence was over, Ryu Ye-rin and Ryu Seong-yeon went home together.
To be honest, when the school called for the first time, her heart sank, but it was a relief that things went smoothly.
The children who called Ryuerin and tried to attack her in a group were very disgusted, but the fact that she was still a student and the parents were too lenient, so she ended up with a light disciplinary punishment.
They didn’t even call the police, and it was handled skillfully inside the school.
Of course, because Liu Yerin was not seriously injured, she was a possible treatment.
I was very fortunate. Rather, her opponent’s children were more seriously injured.
Well, it was natural if it was natural, so Seongyeon Ryu shed a sly smile.
As expected, bloodlines don’t go anywhere.
“…… Mom. Sorry.”
“What are you sorry about?”
“…… I’m sorry for bothering you.”
The road back home where the sun is setting.
Ryu Ye-rin was walking slowly and talking carefully with her head bowed.
“Yerin.”
“I’m sorry.”
“There is nothing to be sorry about.”
“Mom?”
I gently wiped the tears of Ryu Ye-rin, who was crying.
“By the way, my daughter. Do you have a character? How many people did she take down by herself?”
“No, uh, so… ….”
“As expected, she is his daughter.”
“Mom?”
Her mother seemed oddly happy with her.
“My daughter. I have good news for you.”
“What good news all of a sudden?”
Ryu Seong-yeon smiled and walked in front of her while holding Ryu Ye-rin’s hand.
“Well, isn’t it? She said, what has he been doing to keep in touch with her?”
“Daddy?”
Ryu Yerin widened her eyes.
She actually thought she was half abandoned.
But wasn’t that what she was?
“His family is planning to visit tomorrow. She says tomorrow she will be able to see him. Aren’t you excited?”
“… ….”
I was dumbfounded by Ryu Seong-yeon’s sudden words.
When it comes to meeting her father, there is only worry, let alone expectation.
That’s right, why are you meeting now?
She couldn’t figure it out.
“…… Is mom okay?”
“Huh? What?”
“He suddenly asked to meet me…… She left her mother alone all this time…… ?”
“Your mother told me before. She tells him about her circumstances.”
Ryu Seong-yeon always touched Ryu Ye-rin’s hair with the same smile.
“Isn’t my daughter not looking forward to it? She must be a first-time father?”
“… ….”
Yerin Ryu was silent for a moment.
She honestly didn’t expect it.
But it’s been a long time since I’ve seen my mother so happy.
Not wanting to spoil her mood for no reason, Yerin Ryu nodded her head with her awkward smile.
“…… Look forward to it.”
“Isn’t it?”
Seongyeon Ryu laughed.
Yerin Ryu also laughed along.
Anyway, she’s so glad she’s happy.
When mom is happy, she is satisfied with it.
So the next day.
Yerin Ryu met her father for the first time in her life.
And after that, Yerin Ryu’s life was completely twisted.