Uncle’s affection (3)
It was just a strong pull in the early stage atmosphere for good practice, but it seemed that the opponent was unintentionally overpowered.
Yoon Jin-won gave NG as soon as he started.
I forgot my lines for a moment, so I couldn’t say anything and just stuttered.
There was no time for the power of the lens to exert its power to draw into the atmosphere of Jeong Seo-hoon, and there was a cut sign.
“I’m sorry. Let’s see the script one more time.”
“I can do that when my hair is gray. If I’m too surprised, there are times when I can’t even remember my name. Read while relaxing.”
“thank you!”
Yoon Jin-won, who sat down, quickly opened the script and read it as if he was nose-piercing.
It was a script that I had already memorized and memorized again and again, and there were not too many cases where I forgot the lines.
But earlier…
‘It’s too scary.’
Even now, my heart is beating and my stomach is rumbling.
The words that he had a hard time holding back the desire to strangle him right away still lingered in his mind.
Yoon Jin-won resented his weak wall.
His timidity was not confined to the horror genre.
I was afraid of things like needles, and I was afraid of being hated by people.
That’s why there are things that I act more brightly and boldly in order not to be hated on the set.
My heart skips a beat when I accidentally overhear someone whispering something negative about me.
In severe cases, arrhythmia-like symptoms may occur.
‘When I was acting, I was fine. I know everything about acting anyway.’
I know that what Jeong Seo-hoon said earlier is acting mixed with a joke.
But the more I thought about it, the more I wondered, ‘Was it real?’ When I feel like I want to, my heart keeps pounding.
Maybe that’s why I made a mistake as soon as I entered the main scene.
“Cut.”
“Cut. again.”
“Cut. Let’s take a little break.”
“Cut. Let’s focus a little more.”
“Cut…”
As the cut sign was repeated, Yun Jin-won’s shoulders shrank. If I could, I wanted to go into a rat hole and hide.
Jeong Seo-hoon, producer, and assistant director seemed calm as if they were okay, but…
‘I’m sure you’re cursing me a lot on the inside. Ugh, what should I do?’
Yun Jin-won’s heart pounded even more as he imagined the finger pointing at himself beneath their peaceful faces.
“Nephew.”
As soon as Jeong Seo-hoon spoke, the atmosphere changed completely.
It has a thick rust that makes it hard to believe that it is the same person’s voice.
My heart beats faster than admiring how the atmosphere can change like this.
“How could you so coldly refuse this uncle’s gift?”
and those two eyes.
Yoon Jin-won felt as if he could not breathe at the eyes overflowing with hatred.
I know that this is definitely acting, but Yoon Jin-won’s weak mind, afraid of being hated, keeps screaming.
I’ve never been like this when acting with other people, so why am I only doing this with this person?
“Don’t worry. It won’t be that painful. Curse me and resent the late king who died early.”
The moment my hands gripped my neck, an unbelievable thought came to my mind.
A foolish delusion that this person would really strangle and kill himself.
How can you not think that when you see that flesh’s overflowing eyes!
‘Huh…’
The moment his fingers tightened his neck, Yun Jin-won fainted and limp.
“this. PD-nim, actor Yoon Jin-won fainted.”
“I beg your pardon?”
Surprised PD hurriedly came running, and the manager’s mother was also surprised, so she quickly took out a wet towel and put it on her forehead.
“Oh, Jinwon. What if I can’t stand it and faint again?”
“mother. Is actor Yoon the type of person who faints often?”
“The truth is… I’m the type who often gets startled and faints a lot, probably because he’s unusually timid. One time something fell on my head from a tree and I fainted because it was a cockroach.”
“Uh, I’m sorry, but that would make me faint too. I still scream and am surprised whenever I see cockroaches.”
After a while, Yun Jin-won woke up.
He felt ashamed and apologetic when he saw the people around him and didn’t know what to do.
“sorry. sorry.”
“no.”
Jang Seung-won waved his hand.
“I know it because I matched it with Jeong Seo-hoon, but when we stand in front of the camera together, the atmosphere is no joke. That I fell down, and that wasn’t an act, was it real?”
“Really?”
“You know what? In Illy Girl, while filming a scene where Yoo Jung-ah was forced to bite her mouth, she was so scared that she stopped biting Seo-hoon’s mouth. But that also came out well, so I used it as if it were directed.”
“oh! Was there a backstory like that?”
The quick-witted assistant director from the side quickly responded. It was a consideration to make sure that Yun Jin-won did not become too discouraged.
“thank you! I’ll try harder then! PD!”
“······Still, I passed out today, so I don’t think it’s good to overdo it. We still have plenty of time, so let’s call it that for today.”
***
Before parting, Jang Seung-won asked to have a meal together.
Jeong Seo-hun, who readily agreed, visited a regular shop in Sinsa-dong with Jang Seung-won.
“How are you today?”
“I am fine now.”
Jeong Seo-hoon answered calmly, and Jang Seung-won looked at him with a little pity.
“Aren’t you just pretending to be okay?”
“no.”
“Is it because I’ve only seen actors acting for over 20 years, so why do you think Seo Hoon is pretending to be okay?”
“That means my acting skills are lacking.”
Jang Seung-won, thinking what it meant, laughed as if he had been hit by a punch.
“Anyway, Mr. Jeong Seo-hoon has a way of subtly teasing people with insignificant remarks.”
While using chopsticks, Jang Seung-won continued as if nothing had happened.
“I talked to writer Kim, but he was worried. I’m thinking of revising the back story a bit.”
“It was like that for me too. I said I wish I didn’t.”
“I’m also greedy for directing, but I don’t have the heart to take care of viewer ratings even at the cost of ruining the actor’s mental health. It will be the same for you as well.”
“I don’t think you’re saying this out of concern for me.”
“hahahaha, it’s only because I’m so quick-witted that I won……. Still, I am worried about Mr. Seohun. If you say you’re okay, believe me and go. No matter what anyone says, you’re a big star, but if you worry about even the smallest things, won’t it hurt your pride?”
Jeong Seo-hun put down his chopsticks for a moment and looked straight at Jang Seung-won.
“Are you thinking of changing actors?”
“If you really need it, you should do it.”
“It’s not going to be a complete replacement, right?”
“Of course not. Didn’t he die two years after being dethroned in the play? It’s enough to say that my face changed because I grew old and struggled in those two years.”
The young king, dethroned by the military, meets his end in Yeongwol, Gangwon-do.
It meant that only the last scene could have used another actor instead of Yoon Jin-won.
“Actress Yoon Jin-won is young, but talented and hard-working. I also don’t want to replace it at the end if possible. However, if greed for acting or directing could ruin a young actor, it would be better to replace them. It’s only one scene anyway.”
“Actor Jin-Won Yoon would rather be greedy for that one scene.”
“I guess so. Because it is the scene where the young king conveys the strongest presence to the viewers. That’s what death is like.”
Didn’t order a drink.
Jang Seung-won diligently ate only rice.
“I try as far as I can, and if it doesn’t work, I have to find another actor and replace that scene. Since Seo Hoon is my partner, if you don’t like it, please tell me later. I will make my own decision.”
“All right.”
“hahahaha, if you practice hard, you’ll do well later on, I thought you’d say something like that, but Seo Hoon-ssi is also quite cold-hearted.”
“There is no law that all clothes must fit the body. It doesn’t hurt to take off clothes that absolutely don’t fit early.”
“And I’m talking about the old woman’s heart…”
Jang Seung-won, who hesitated, finally spoke.
“It’s okay to dismiss it as useless meddling.”
“Please feel free to speak.”
“I don’t know what to do next, but I would like to take on a slightly brighter character. Even if it’s not necessarily a good role, it’s a bright and upbeat one.”
“…”
“I just said it out of boredom. In fact, it’s not that good if your image is hardened only by specializing in villains, right? It’s not bad to take a break, well…”
Jang Seung-won smiled for no reason and glossed over the atmosphere like that.
***
‘It’s a role with a bright and cheerful image.’
On the way home in the van, Jeong Seo-hoon calmly thought about the words Jang Seung-won left.
He said it as if to pursue a broader image, but on the other hand, there must have been concerns that he would get injured by being overly immersed in the emotions of the cast.
Being an actor is a job that is difficult to do unless you have a strong ego.
Worrying about hurting someone’s heart can actually hurt their self-esteem.
That’s why Jang Seung-won also carefully turned around and recommended it.
‘Lee Jin-wook, Kim Chan, and Daegun are Rashid… no, they have a lot in common with the life I went through.’
Lee Jin-wook, a pleasure killer who goes alone, was similar to an ordinary soldier who only followed orders.
The leader of the action, Kim Chan, was similar to a lieutenant who led a platoon and wiped out defeated soldiers.
The great army, who pursues the throne by slaughtering and shedding blood, is very similar to the position of a brigadier general who was promoted to general at the cost of giving countless lives.
‘The camera lens that watches me has a specific intention.’
The growth and promotion of Rashid, a war hero, follows the roles he takes on one after another in reality.
Is this a mere coincidence or a highly engineered flow?
Suddenly, the last operation in Rashid’s world came to mind.
The people who had finished their last supper with little combat rations came to mind, and the hand that had pressed the blast button trembled again.
‘Even if I take on a role completely unrelated to Rashid, will the lens exert its power for me?’
This is the reason why he was not attracted to Jang Seung-won’s cautious advice.
At first, the lens showed the experience and stage experienced by the war hero, leading to immersion, and now it helps by providing the necessary scenery for a large army.
Wasn’t the reason why he started acting in the first place to see the scenery of the place he missed?
‘What I really want to do is an actor, or an actor who resembles Rashid’s life?’
On that day, Jeong Seo-hoon asked himself for quite a while, but could not get an answer.
***
Taejong’s circle shrank terribly with a viewership rating of 2%, and now it is not even mentioned in the media.
In the fair wind, the scene ran smoothly like a sail, and the atmosphere on the set was always friendly.
But after filming is over and most of the actors and staff have withdrawn, the real thing begins.
“Cut.”
“Cut.”
“Cut. Let’s rest for a while.”
Yun Jin-won rarely makes mistakes when filming. He plays the young king with a bright atmosphere smoothly.
However, practicing the act of being strangled and killed by his uncle was very difficult.
Rather than finding the acting itself difficult, I was terrified that I would make a mistake.
‘It’s been four days and I haven’t gotten any better. If there is even a little progress, how can I keep pushing.’
It’s foolish to keep holding on to things that don’t work, and it’s something even a young actor can’t do.
‘It’s good that you practiced beforehand. If I went into the filming without knowing how to do this…’
In a situation where the last-minute replacement card could not be used, the schedule would have been tight, and eventually the script would have been revised.
Just imagining it makes the pores on my scalp twitch.
“sorry······.”
Yoon Jin-won was contemplative.
At this point, you’ve probably noticed.
If nothing gets better like this, the last death scene that decorates the daemi may be replaced with another actor.
Having enough time could actually work as a downside.
“Peddy.”
“Yes, Mr. Seo Hoon. Shall we take a break?”
“It’s not like that. Why don’t you try rehearsing with a proper costume?”
“A costume?”
Because Jang Seung-won and Jung Seo-hun take time apart for acting tutoring, the two actors were wearing casual clothes now.
“Let’s try dressing properly to change our mood. I think actor Yoon Jin-won is more nervous because he repeats the same thing.”
Jang Seung-won suddenly felt a strange feeling of anticipation.
Even when rehearsing with himself, Jeong Seo-hoon properly dressed as a great army.
Although there is no basis, I imagined that it would have a strong impact like that time.
“great. You two, change your clothes and come.”