105 – Motivation – 1
“Too many people have already been hurt. Even if Raina and I were to save our lives by belonging to such a place, it would surely be an ending that no one would be able to laugh at.”
“Do you have any thoughts of being swayed by useless pride and emotions?”
“That is what I want to say. If you knew the future where Avatar would be defeated in the first place, you’d better just give up.”
“… Well, maybe.”
Dite scratched his head at my provocation.
“My mind has changed. I will crush your pride from the front.”
Then he got up from his seat and looked at me with a ferocious smile.
“I will definitely regret turning down this offer.”
“That won’t happen. Because Avatar will disappear completely.”
“You speak well.”
“….”
“I will pay off the debt later.”
With those words, Date turned his back and left.
I was worried that there might be some problem, but fortunately that didn’t happen.
“Haaa.”
I could barely sigh until Daite was completely out of sight.
“… I thought you were going to die.”
I thought there would be someone other than me who knew the future.
That’s also the final boss of the original.
Isn’t the difference in weight between Ike and Ike, who had a minor role, too great?
The good news is that Dite left without doing any harm as promised until the end.
“It’s a world of real trouble.”
It would be much better if everything was settled a little more comfortably.
No, Dite has already suggested a convenient method.
I just turned it down.
Maybe if it was the old me, I wouldn’t have accepted it.
But not anymore.
I made many precious connections, and I saw them hurt by the future I chose.
I can’t run away from that responsibility.
Because I promised to create a future where everyone can smile.
“I rested enough.”
Suddenly, the sky began to turn twilight.
I wonder if it would be better to tell Charlotte what happened today.
With that thought in mind, I went home quietly.
★
“That sounds interesting.”
“Your Highness?”
Rex expressed his doubts at Diet’s sudden words.
“Rex. Do you think we can destroy Astraia?”
“Of course….”
“I am not asking about your personal wishes. From an objective point of view, the question is whether Avatar can destroy Astraia.”
At Diet’s sincere question, Rex closed his eyes and pondered for a moment before opening his mouth.
“There is a possibility.”
“I guess so.”
“Isn’t His Majesty’s original plan all overturned in order to destroy Astraia? Knowing that there was a high probability of failure with the existing plan, I found a way to make it more certain.”
“Then what is the specific probability?”
Date’s words were a question to be sure.
Is what I am worrying about right now?
Because I wanted to know the answer to that.
Rex didn’t fully understand the intention.
However, he decided that telling the truth without hiding it would definitely help his lord.
“I think it might be around 2 percent.”
“Not bad odds.”
“Even though we fixed the problems of the plan that Your Highness pointed out the other day as much as possible, in the end, we still lack absolute strength.”
“But it is not impossible. That’s it.”
“Yes.”
“Yes. That is enough.”
“… Majesty. When she suddenly went out, did something happen?”
Originally, the current diet shouldn’t have been revealed as much as possible until that day came.
If a sudden problem arises that he cannot cope with, Avatar’s hopes will literally disappear.
But about two weeks ago.
The executives of Avatar disappeared for a while without telling anyone.
With a note saying that he will go out for a while because he has something to do.
Originally, they should have mobilized all their strength to find the whereabouts of Dite, but they were unable to move when they were ordered to stand by in Ethiopia.
And two days before Dyt returned to Ethiopia.
Date’s appearance after returning from a sudden journey was markedly different from the one he had been convinced that Avatar would win no matter what.
The confidence in Dite’s eyes disappeared.
But for some reason he seemed happy nonetheless.
Dite said that the unknown means defeat to the relatively poor Avatar, but he was expecting the unknown.
No one in Avatar could understand what Dite looked like.
Even so, if there’s one thing that doesn’t change, it’s that Dite is an avatar.
The road that Dite walks is the destination of Avatar.
That’s why Rex wanted to know more about Diet’s intentions.
“There was. A very funny thing happened.”
But, Dait continued with a chuckle.
“It is difficult to tell others. You wouldn’t be able to understand it just because you said it in the first place.”
“… Is that so.”
If you look at it in a way, it was a remark that could raise doubts about Diet.
But Rex.
No, even if someone else heard it, all of Avatar’s executives would never doubt Diet.
Because that is their relationship.
“Yes. So go away, Rex.”
“Okay.”
Like that, Rex immediately bowed his head at Dyt’s words, bowed, and left the room.
“At most 2 percent, la.”
The odds are ridiculous, Diet laughed.
What is Avatar?
Isn’t it an aggregation of piles built over a period of nearly 1000 years?
The probability of them coming together is at most 2 percent.
It was understandable to say that the effort was futile.
But that wasn’t the reason why Diet was laughing.
“Arrogant ideals and reckless obscenity.”
Too much conflicting goals, never compatible with each other.
Nevertheless, Ike and Diet had one thing in common: they knew the future.
Using that knowledge, the two were running towards their own goals.
Dite wanted to know the answer as soon as possible as to which of the two would come true.
“If it were you, you would come to me no matter what.”
Dite was confident.
The final fight will be between you and Ike.
And that’s for sure, no matter what the outcome is, there won’t be any regrets left.
“So I will be waiting for you here, Ike.”
★
What is strength?
Is it possible to say that a person is strong simply because he is strong?
Well, if there’s one thing that’s certain.
“… sh*t.”
I am not strong.
I felt as if the twilight sky was mocking me.
I felt like laughing at you saying that was your limit.
Those who think like this must be because I am lacking.
“Father.”
My father just looked at me without answering my calls.
“Can I really win?”
“… What do you mean, Ike?”
My father frowned at him.
Okay. He always told me not to doubt myself, so it was only natural if that was the case.
But isn’t it okay to have this level of dissatisfaction?
It has already been three months since I returned to my hometown.
And that means that the time for the match that Charlotte spoke of is almost here.
Even so, I have never beaten my father even once.
Of course I knew.
The one who can become strong enough to win everything in just 3 months is not a genius like me.
However, if you repeat training every day and repeat it, you will inadvertently wish for it.
I hope I have a hidden talent.
However, the reality is surprisingly cruel.
The more I train, the more I see is not my own growth, but only my shortcomings.
“How much stronger have I become compared to three months ago?”
At the question with such meaning, the father sighed quietly.
“Ike. At lunch today, I got a call from Charlotte. He said it was time to start.”
“Is that so?”
“So tomorrow is the last Dalian.”
This is not enough.
I wanted to shout that I was still lacking.
But if Charlotte decides she needs to move, it really means she can’t put it off any longer.
“Father. Is it true that I have become stronger?”
My father’s answer to my question, drowning in anxiety, is.
“I am not the one who can give you the answer.”
In a way, it was bland to the point of resentment.
★
‘Father. Is it true that I became stronger?’
Ados was able to answer Ike’s question with confidence.
Ike, you are strong.
Of course, there were still many things I regretted.
It wasn’t enough to say that he had penetrated the wall.
Nevertheless, Addos assured me that Ike was strong.
And he believed that he would become stronger in the future.
It was for a very simple reason.
“Because I am not sure.”
It’s safe to say that Ike’s training over the past three months has been murderous.
Because he knew that even if people were pushed to the limit like this, they wouldn’t die.
Of course, for Ados, who was a knight, it was difficult to say that Ike’s training was the limit.
It is not uncommon for knights on the front line to stay up all night and starve for several days in a fight against demons.
Compared to that, Ike’s training was quite comfortable.
But.
“The situation is different.”
That was when Ados, who was a knight, saw it as an ‘absolute standard’.
It’s not for you to decide whether a knight is usually driven to the brink.
The current situation just makes it that way.
However, it was difficult for Ike to say that he was in such a situation right now.
No matter how much I prepare for the fight against Avatar, right now I’m just sparring.
Nevertheless, Ike always pushed himself to the limit, to the edge of the precipice.
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People tend to loosen up little by little the more they try.
He believes that his efforts have certain value, and the more they accumulate, the more he feels that he wants to become a little more comfortable with his own compensation psychology.
But Ike didn’t.
Even though he was clearly pushing himself to the limit, he believed that this was not enough.
That resulted in increasing my training day by day.
And that was repeated for three months.
Ike had confidence.
He was convinced that he was weak, that he was not good enough.
To put this in another way, I wasn’t convinced that I had gotten stronger even though I was training to a murderous level.
Despite Ados’ advice not to doubt himself, and his head nodded at the words, Ike’s fundamental thoughts did not change.
That’s why Addos thought Ike was strong and would get stronger.
“… That part resembles the original you.”
But now I had to teach them.
If you don’t believe in your skills when you go to the battlefield, it will lead to death.
That is. I was stronger than three months ago, but I had to come to the realization that I was still lacking.
And that wasn’t something Ados could teach you.
However.
“I can’t give you an answer, but I can give you a trigger.”
As he said that, Addos quietly placed his hand on his beloved sword.