I Was Excommunicated From the Holy Knights chapter 128

128 – Their War 2

Estelle’s confession of love.

After hearing that, I made a decision after much thought.

“..sorry.”

“!…”

My words that contain the meaning of rejection.

Regarding this, Estelle’s face hardened as it was, but despite this, I had no choice but to say this at this moment.

A flimsy excuse in this situation would be poison anyway.

You may be able to take the option of buying time for Bohemia and the Heretic Alliance, but

Even if it was somehow overlooked right now, it was the truth that would come to light someday if you think about the future, and it was clear that the storm that would arise after such a problem would be more than it is now, and never less.

It was far better to give him a sense of betrayal later, even if it meant giving him immediate discomfort.

together,

Accepting Estelle’s heart as a lie for the benefit of one’s country… It could be said that it was the worst choice for a man.

Even if I did not love her, it was impossible to deceive her heart toward me with false affection.

Especially considering that it is an affection that gives off a pure yet strong feeling, as it does now.

So, my options are:

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No flimsy excuses, no false love,

It was a head-on breakthrough based on the truth.

“I am grateful to Estelle for thinking of me. But.. to me, someone I already love. In fact, there are people who can be said to have promised a future.”

“… ”

Estelle couldn’t say anything to my words.

Even at a glance, the expression contained a fairly large shock, but nevertheless, I continued with the conclusion that I had to be clear about what I was going to say here.

“Of course, Estelle is a good person, and I know very well that she is too good of a fiancé for me. But.. nevertheless, I made a promise with him. I will never forsake the woman I truly love.”

Like that, harsh if harsh.

But… that’s why I expressed my refusal in a way that I could only touch very clearly.

And seeing me like that, Estelle hung her head and didn’t say anything for a while.

I wasn’t quite sure if the emotion contained in it was sadness, or anger at him or at me for so adamantly expressing my refusal.

However, no matter which way it was, I prepared my mind while recognizing that I needed to make up my mind.

‘No matter what, it would be nice if I could finish all the arrows at the line where I was hit, but… things won’t go as well as they would like.’

It was then that I was thinking about the possibility that the other person would swear at me, punch and kick me, or even threaten or attack me politically.

“Now I think I know for sure… why did Santana-sama get engaged to me?”

Estelle spoke in a heavy voice, and then she slowly raised her head and looked straight into my face.

however..

Inside, those feelings I thought were…

There were no emotions such as sadness or anger.

Rather, the emotions she is showing are clear as if everything has become clear now.

And… it was a feeling that could be considered a bit of relief.

Looking at her attitude like this, a question that automatically blooms.

Estelle, as if trying to answer that, spoke to me with a gentle smile on her lips.

“I had some possibilities in mind. No.. If you think about it, that was the most likely reason. If marriage is the most decisive thing among the inconveniences it gives. That would be part of it.”

With those words, Estelle drank from the teacup in front of her.

Seeing her like this, I started to feel quite unexpected, but at the same time, I thought that I should be more vigilant than before.

“So… who the hell is that person? That girl who holds Santana-sama’s heart so tightly…”

“… ”

Regarding Estelle’s words, I remained silent without giving any answer.

At first glance, it could be said that she was able to take a breather through her calm response without getting angry.

However, I knew.

The scariest kind of person in the world…

It means that he is a person who reacts calmly without expressing his anger when he can get angry.

“Hmm… is it difficult for you to tell me? Then… I’ll try to guess.”

Estelle speaks in a calm voice.

Slowly turning the teaspoon in her hand, she gave a subtle, yet eerie smile to her lips.

“First of all… Nine times out of ten, the opponent is not of a high status like me. If it was a noble lady somewhere, I would have been able to get engaged to her without going through such a cumbersome process. Not being able to use it that way… There is a very high possibility that the opponent will be of such a low status that he cannot be with you, the heir of the county.”

“!… .”

Estelle enters after giving the correct answer from the start.

But even so, I had no choice but to keep my mouth shut for now as I was in no position to protest against it.

It was because he knew very well that strong denial could only be affirmed.

And then, she continued talking as she watched me remain silent.

“In addition, the other person must be someone you’ve been with since before you met me… no, even before Santana-sama returned to Bohemia, right?”

“Um… ”

Estelle’s words, as if she were moving steadily toward the correct answer with every word she said, without any distraction.

At this, I automatically began to feel the cold sweat running down my face.

Although I can’t be quick…

Because it occurred to me that maybe behind the reason she said this, there was something I didn’t want to think about too much.

“In addition.. If my confession like this is rejected with a single knife, the other person must have great beauty. In addition, it will be someone who can understand your heart better than anyone else by your side.”

“gulp..”

With those words, Estelle put down the tea spoon she was slowly turning.

Literally, as I listened to her words as if she was firing a bullet toward the radicalness of a one-shot answer, I automatically began to swallow my dry saliva.

“For a woman with a low status to like someone like Santana.. Well, I didn’t think that I was the only woman who recognized Santana’s charms.. but it’s really unfortunate.”

Estelle speaks in a cold voice.

Hearing this, I felt my barely-maintained composure waver and momentarily spoke out.

“Ah… it’s a pity… what the hell does that mean?”

“You don’t have to be so excited. It doesn’t mean much.”

With those words, Estelle took another sip of the tea slowly.

Then, she looked at me as it was and said with a cold smile.

“Simply, I was curious about what kind of person the woman who is favored by Santana is. About the woman who took your heart over me.”

“… .”

After those words, Estelle slowly rose from her seat.

Then she looked back at me one last time and said one more word.

“If there is a woman who promised love first, it would be reasonable to give that person priority. It will be my turn after that, but… well, I don’t care about that much.”

“… ”

A simple word that could be interpreted as a willingness to make concessions.

But… I could tell from the perspective of seeing the emotions on her face with my own two eyes.

I didn’t express it clearly, but.. maybe behind this, there is a possibility that something I don’t want to think about exists.

*

Estelle leaves the room after meeting Santana.

Although she was struggling to put on the mask of leisure she had lost until just now, at this moment, a feeling called jealousy was burning hotly in her heart.

‘I’m not someone else, this way… I’ve only had my heartache so far, so I’ve been quietly watching it, but I need to take care of it at least once..’

The woman who hadn’t shown it, but had been trampled on by her eyes all along.

As she recalled the face of Santana, who was very likely to be the one she truly loved, Estelle began to struggle to swallow her anger inside.

‘I will never be taken away from you… Even if it’s a contract, I’ll definitely be that man’s fiancée and his wife. You b*tch, be content with your lower seat, Polena!’