62 . Secrets revealed (4)
Nothing was said.
Without any conversation, the children just stared at me.
I could tell just by looking at his face. What they want
She must be curious about what conversation I had with Sharon inside.
Children are not so stupid that they don’t know that their eyes are different from usual.
No, is it because I heard a strange story?
The ground I am standing on now, the air filling my lungs through my nose and mouth, the wind that seemed to warmly caress my whole body.
Everything that was tender, like a mother’s arms, turned unfamiliar at some point.
Could it be a dream? Such a hazy feeling, a sense of alienation that would make me lose myself if I was even a little bit off guard.
Those two strange senses were dominating my whole body.
Seeing me stagger out of the mansion, Elia speaks to me with a worried expression.
“Dad, are you okay?”
He didn’t have the energy to answer Elia’s concerns.
My legs, which were on the verge of losing strength, seemed like they would fall to the ground at any moment if someone didn’t help them.
As soon as the thought crossed her mind, Stella put my arm around her shoulder to support me.
“You don’t have to overdo it.”
Although he nodded, the spark of doubt that once started to rise showed no signs of fading away easily.
In fact, even the situations that were difficult to understand until now can be understood if they are gods.
To give a simple example, I was attacked by bandits the other day.
The children, the coachman, and Rihanna simply moved on to being saved by a passing soldier, but nothing so fortunate could happen. It would be more reasonable to assume that they could escape because of their strength.
Moreover, haven’t you personally witnessed divine powers far beyond human power, such as putting Cassandra, who is called the supreme wizard, to death in one blow, and annihilating a gigantic monster with a single arrow?
Leaning on Stella, I returned to my children’s arms, then stumbled off Stella’s shoulders.
The four children looked at me with worried eyes, but now it was hard to bear those eyes.
“Wait a minute.”
Words come out of my mouth with difficulty.
The words that came out like flowing were weaker than ever.
I want to be alone.
I needed some time in a quiet place to organize my thoughts. I didn’t have the confidence to face them now with a calm face.
It wasn’t good for each other. There was never a time when I didn’t look at my children with an unaffectionate gaze. If the children now noticed the meaning of my gaze, it could have hurt their hearts.
Of course, the secrets they hid from me and the powers they possess could come dangerously close to me, but I could affirm that I would never run away. It won’t happen that I don’t reap what I sow.
I took a light deep breath, gently caressed the head of Stella, who was closest to me, and carefully opened my mouth.
“Can you leave me alone for a minute?”
When I said I wanted to be alone, the children looked shocked for a moment, but then nodded as if they understood.
“Yes, come.”
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Feeling strange once, my reason began to distort and accept words that should have sounded ordinary.
The first question I had was their attitude.
Normally, you wouldn’t let go so easily, right? Especially Elia, she wouldn’t fall from my side, didn’t she just shed a tear? But now she just lets me go without any lingering feelings or obsession?
Those eyes as if they knew everything.
It’s not that my affection for my children has cooled down, but I got goosebumps on my skin without realizing it.
Let’s get out of here for now.
I trudged and dragged my weak feet and hid myself among the thick trees.
I can’t see the destination, but my goal was one. Getting out of the children’s presence. As I veered off the road and entered the forest a little deeper, the warmth that had greeted me until earlier had disappeared, leaving only sharp hostility.
The rustling of the bushes was not the sound of wild beasts, but the sound of elves hiding.
The only thing I could clearly feel was that the elves were not happy with their gaze toward me. I don’t mean to do that, but if I do something stupid, I’m going to have an arrow pierce my body at any moment.
Well, since I picked up the gods the elves abandoned, raised them, and brought them back to their hometown, I could have felt like a disaster from their point of view.
But what if they didn’t abandon the kids in the first place? If such affectionate children had been properly raised, such a division would not have occurred.
Threatening his life to become me who saved his life.
Grinding teeth at the absurdity of this world.
I tried to ignore the eyes of the elves, leaned against a suitable tree, and sat down as if falling to the floor.
When stability comes to the body, the mind quickly becomes fatigued.
My head is dizzy, and my focus is blurred.
I knew that the truth is a harsh law, but did I covet a taboo that shouldn’t be touched?
Will human words that have violated divine authority eventually crumble into dust?
Then, someone puts a hand on my shoulder.
I trembled and raised my head cautiously.
Brown hair, green eyes. A familiar face that is very young for its age.
“Are you okay?”
“Rihanna?”
Rihanna asked me about how I was doing briefly, and she sat down next to me and immediately asked me a question.
“What the hell did you hear inside? Do you know how strange you are right now?”
I laughed because it was so Rihanna-like that I knew it was strange but didn’t give it a chance to rest. I flicked my fingers and slurred my words.
“Anything else….”
It wasn’t something that could be skipped over by saying it wasn’t a big deal. To be honest, anyone is welcome, so I wanted to share my story, share my concerns, and find an alternative together. This story was too much of a burden for me to bear alone. Someone could look at me and say that I was selfish and that I was someone who had no consideration for others, but that didn’t matter.
I finally bit her lip and looked straight into Rihanna’s face.
I could see the trust in her green eyes as she tilted her head and looked into mine.
I looked at the ground, let out a deep sigh, and asked Rihanna one last time.
“Are you really okay?”
Rihanna swallowed her dry saliva and maintained her silence for a moment, perhaps sensing an unusual energy in my gaze.
I nodded her head once in an affirmative way, and when I saw that, I finally opened my mouth to relay the conversation I had with Sharon to Rihanna.
While listening to her story, Rihanna’s expression gradually started to darken, and when she finally heard the story, she had a grim expression on her face, as if she was about to burst into tears.
However, she faced reality earlier than expected, probably because she hadn’t spent a long time with children like me.
“So? Do you want to give up Aren’t you scared? She’s the daughter you raised Then take responsibility until the end.”
I thought so even if I didn’t say it.
Certainly, after confiding in others, I felt a little more at ease, but it did not come to a fundamental solution.
I just spent my time meaninglessly with the thought of what kind of face I should face with the children.
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The story I heard from Ain was shocking.
Elves, no, you can’t even call them elves anymore. I vaguely noticed from the moment I was physically harmed that I wasn’t an ordinary person, but an ancient god?
A god so cruel that he could even be called an evil god?
Such crazy, if you go against it, you will die. It wasn’t on that level. Until now, I had been dissatisfied with the treatment of a puppy, but Ain’s story was so unrealistic that all such dissatisfaction disappeared in an instant.
Being located at a place so high that I couldn’t even dare to look up, it was a good feeling to be treated as a pet by such people. At least right now, it means I’m not going to die.
In the first place, death can be a kind of escape from reality. If you were mistakenly caught by such a crazy evil spirit, your soul could be torn to pieces, and you could wander forever between hell and the present world.
Such a form was a specification.
Rihanna’s only wish right now is for those ancient gods to quickly lose interest in her and give her freedom. That was all.
Until that moment arrived, I had to somehow keep myself in the mood, listen to everything I wanted, and preserve myself.
The time when you take a deep breath and try to maintain a normal expression again.
Someone grabbed Rihanna by the shoulder.
An ominous hunch was never wrong. The reality that Rihanna so longed to avoid took a brutal blow to her in an instant.
When she managed to turn her quivering head to her side, all she could see was red hair.