106 – 35. What is the mirror that reflects me?
There are areas where the four seasons are distinct, and there are also areas where they are indistinct.
If there is a land where the sun does not set and the snow does not melt.
Is it an area where thick fog interlocking with the rising sun rises like water fog?
If there is a beach near the seaside full of salt in such water fog.
In the plains where it is hard to see anything like that at all, from the sunrise in the plains to areas exposed to the scorching sun and naturally sweating.
However, this was a zone where such natural phenomena occurred as if they intersected.
In the sunny space, mountains face each other, so even the wind sometimes sagged.
Even though the greenery is lush, if you turn your gaze a little, the white mountain range catches your eye.
The mountain on the other side is full of greenery, but depending on the season, it is dyed red or purple, making it quite exotic.
The forest, which seemed to be surrounded like that, was flat with no big difference in height, but if you opened your eyes a little, you could look down on the huge lake from anywhere.
Although there are few people, it is a mountain hut or a place for hunters to stay.
It’s a crypt where wild beasts are likely to stay, and there are surprisingly many caves, probably because even they can’t touch the mountain and are part of it.
Even here, there are laws and order of their own.
To those who have built society and civilization, it will still seem like a wild law.
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“Then I’m leaving.”
Gehben, the wolf-headed beastman, said as he climbed into the backpack and the donkey-drawn carriage.
As if responding to that, Ashes, a blonde-haired woman with a well-groomed appearance, formally waved her hand.
The clothes were a bit on the neat side to wear in a forest like this, but she didn’t care too much.
A one-piece dress made of tough blue fabric.
On top of that, she was dressed in a reddish-brown vest, and only her shoes were wearing boots made of iron heels.
It is a dress that shows very little flesh, but is neat and shows off the lines of the body well. In a way, it reminds me of a noblewoman who seems to have grown up with dignity, not just a beautiful maiden and woman.
In fact, her appearance went beyond cute and even looked noble.
Is it because they can enjoy the abundant water resources of lakes?
Seeing her repeating the routine of washing her face and cleaning her body every day, her appearance naturally shined.
A small wagon pulled by a donkey started slowly.
Basic supplies were essential to living in a place like this.
There’s no problem with the money I’ve earned.
“I don’t have feelings. Anyway.”
Even then, I would never have thought they would show any support or interest.
Or is it that she doesn’t care because she’s on the side of the Relief Knights?
She starts to whistle and chop the wood next to her cabin.
She has a lot of things to do besides that.
Living in a place like this means being engrossed in unintentional heavy labor, whether for a long or short period of time.
Though the lake is right in front of you, so the time to draw water is short.
“There are too many bugs.”
Even ants, some pests are very irritating.
A spider the size of a palm sticking out, or something elongated with dozens of legs, is irritating just by looking at it.
Aside from that, there’s a lot of variety.
And then you see a deer, sometimes a bear snooping around, and a pack of wolves staring at you from afar and then disappearing.
It’s a pity that there are no separate monsters, but it was quite exciting to see them properly inject tension.
If possible, it would have been nice if they showed a little more interest.
What is so scary about a pretty girl like me?
Or a surprise attack.
There are many kinds of birds.
A dove or a crow that lives in the forest.
There are all sorts of other types.
… Have you ever watched the natural scenery and environment as peacefully as now?
It is definitely different from hunting or tracking something.
As for observation at the time of the chase, there was something that I didn’t have time for.
It’s all helpful to know their ecology, though.
They live an optimized life from the time they are born.
It has wings, and as soon as it grows up a little, the practice is connected like a real battle, and it wanders around the sky after realizing the flapping of its wings.
What if I can’t fly?
To fall and die.
“Hmm?”
How much time did you spend alone as if you were immersed in meditation?
“…… You were here.”
A pale complexion and light blue hair that go well with it.
Aside from that, the unusual girl whose eyes were bleached white had a face that was unfamiliar to a woman.
Looking down at Ases, who was sitting in a rough wooden chair.
She, Mines, asked.
“Where is he?”
“Who? Where does he live?”
“… ….”
Are you kidding me?
She was a woman who was not so mad when she came to fight.
Something seems playful right now.
If you look at the impression, it looks like it has grown up properly.
Also, it seems to be overflowing with positive and energetic energy.
… She will never be a normal human.
After all, she is the one who withstood the power of the Great Demon King several times with her bare body.
It’s normal to be incapacitated in one blow.
Even though magic doesn’t seem to have any special ability.
She made it possible.
… Because the relief knights are special?
Then why was Venus, who was a member of the same relief knights, defeated so helplessly?
It is not easy to explain that he has excellent skills.
“Kariel. I’m talking about him.”
“Not here.”
“… Here?”
Minnes headed to the place he originally planned to go, albeit a little late.
To the place where you were told by Ruslan.
But he wasn’t there.
At the end of the rumors, I was able to find at least traces after finding the coachman who transported Cariel at the time.
It took about 40 days to come here.
Originally, it would have been normal to have already faced him at less than half of that time.
I didn’t expect that starting a little late would entangle things like this….
“Then where is he?”
And, this is all guesswork.
The culprit who caused the original place to shift midway was the girl in front of her eyes.
Although he identified himself as Ashes, he is often called by other names.
Acerat and Draigue.
Hachete Endragon.
If you look closely, you might have to say that Ases is closer to the imperial pronunciation.
Above all, rather than being called by name, she was usually called Draigg or Endragon.
For.
Dragon.
Even though he is human, he is openly called that.
What could be the reason?
At the end of her various inquiries, I was able to hear her rumors about her in various ways.
Devil of the lake.
Because of rejecting the lake fairy’s choice, the existence of being cursed.
As a result, the unfortunate princess was banished from her home country. Princess.
I don’t know what the substance of the curse is, but I’m sure it’s not something out of the ordinary.
Being cursed in itself brings hatred, fear, anxiety and contempt.
In terms of an empire, a concept similar to a kind of excommunication.
Excommunication has the meaning of being ostracized and kicked out of a community that believes in the Church of Irenis and has formed such a bond and consensus.
A soul that cannot go to heaven even after death, and will surely fall to hell when it dies, with no salvation or salvation.
The most severe punishment of the Church of Irenis is to exclude the promise of salvation in the afterlife.
There are no exceptions to death.
However, no one knows the afterlife.
So we have no choice but to listen to what believers are talking about.
I don’t know why, but they have a basis and talk like they know the truth.
“… ….”
The reason Mines entered the courtyard of the Church of Irenis at least in Somern was because they did not hesitate to embrace them.
God loves you.
So He sent His Son to prove His love for you by forgiveness and forbearance.
… To be honest, I have no idea what that means.
He prayed himself, even formally, not for himself.
He said that prayers for others, not for oneself, are valuable.
After hearing the story from the nun who was in charge of the chapel at the time, she hoped that it would get better, albeit a little.
Since she was also dependent on his courtyard, she did so with the intention of paying her debts halfway.
“There, somewhere in a cave in the woods.”
“… Are you coming back?”
“You have to go there to see your face?”
“… ….”
More than that.
Why did he come here?
I’m not sure what he’s trying to achieve here.
… Now you can see
“Aren’t you curious about why I came here?”
“I don’t have much interest in other people to be born with.”
“… Yes?”
“There is a huge cliff that cannot be overlapped between me and others. I see.”
If you stab a sword into someone else’s body.
Most of them feel pain, intuit death, and dare to despair even in the midst of pain and hardship.
To be able to embrace all the painful things just by doing one thing. It’s too inefficient for something unnecessary, isn’t it?
On the other hand, I don’t feel that way at all.
On the contrary, even if I am sick to death.
Someone must be busy laughing and chatting while watching it.
“Why should I be sensitive to the pain of others? Do you think you have to talk about your humanity and that you are an ally of others, a non-hostile being, and an equal individual to unlock your intuition?”
“Saying that… I don’t know why.”
“I think that is the reason you came here.”
Somehow, I know you received grace from him.
“I wondered if that would be a reason to come. Or are you going to stick with him? At that time, I was so humiliated that I couldn’t sleep. Is that so?”
“That can’t be… There is none.”
“Then it’s obvious. It will return the favor.”
If you think about it rationally and objectively.
Anyway, the principle of action and the process are extremely simple.
Like resentment gives birth to an ember.
Just as hostility breeds aggression.
As friendship expands to affection, and affection expands to possessiveness and procreation.
And as for the desire to reproduce, there are those who want to maintain stability by being subjugated to the individual, or seeking another stability in the form of spreading or receiving more.
There are various ways, but the principle and purpose are there.
Even trying to collect wealth.
I also want to increase my strength.
Obsessed with power.
If you look closely, the essence is one.
“And a great person. If you cling to a good person, you will have something to suck on.”
“Are you here with those thoughts?”
“I am different.”
Ashes raised his eyebrows and said.
“If I had to put it that way, I am a tool or a warhorse.”
“Warhorse?”
“If I were told to live on my own, I would lie down in the meadow, show off my arrogance, and live according to my temper… Something like that.”
However, in order to live according to one’s temper, one needs strength.
Where is the power?
To make up for the lack of strength, mother-in-law and life skills are also essential.
There are areas that are impossible as individuals, so the ability to lead or command a large group is also essential.
Did you call this leadership?
What if I don’t want to work hard?
You can call someone else.
However, the hardships I have are the hardships of others.
But how do I make myself feel comfortable and accept the hardships of others?
“I can do anything if I am treated well.”
That’s why I was engaged in the mercenary business, albeit temporarily.
However, since the current era was far from war, the mercenary industry was in decline.
That’s why those who wear the mask of mercenaries naturally turn into looters, thieves, or robbers.
But on the other hand, that is why the need for mercenaries like themselves is on the rise again.
For that reason, he ruled out looting and led a mercenary corps, albeit a small one, by attracting those who were in their own right mind.
Now, well, it’s halfway on the brink of dissolution… Find out something
If I go back there anyway, those alive who continue to do this will try to come into their shadow on their own.
In that sense, she was a competent mercenary leader.
“But what if that treatment had nothing to do with wealth, power, fame, or prestige? Then who can treat me right?”
“Kariel can, is that what she wants to say?”
“In the past.”
With eyes looking somewhere far away.
Ases spoke with a sad face.
“When most deny my existence. He recognized me as much as he did.”
That you were born with such an inclination and personality.
There must be a reason for everything.
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“Was I born as a demon? Or were you born to become a demon?”
You don’t know other people’s hearts.
No, do I need to know?
Why don’t you care? Why should I understand
It’s annoying. It’s like Annoying.
But why is everyone giving such a contemptuous look at this attitude?
Why is everyone so afraid of me? Don’t you hate is it difficult?
Is that why?
There were only those two questions in her life.
Am I born as a devil?
Or was it because he didn’t fit in with the world, so he was made into a demon?
By the way.
Only that was different.
“It makes me curious when you say that.”
What if I don’t understand?
You don’t have to understand.
In fact, understanding others is a very troublesome task, right?
… The guy who understood others better than anyone else, was talking as if he were himself.
That moment.
That she does something called empathy with others.
I went there and felt it for the first time in my life.
It was a very, very charming experience.
“Besides, if there is no one who really understands and accepts me, then I told him to come to me.”
Let’s find out if there is such a person or not.
If you don’t have it, well, I’ll try to make it myself.
If this is also a fate, isn’t it a relationship?
In this wide world, isn’t there perhaps at least one genius who can do that?
“… ….”
That child, that little boy who is a few years younger than himself, confidently says that.
Isn’t it strange that you’re not interested in that?
Don’t feel the charm. It doesn’t matter.
“That….”
Mines was a little puzzled by her explanation.
Wasn’t she the one who rushed to kill him who tried to dissuade her and Leo, as if she hated her with all her heart?
But that was all out of love?
“Are you dear to him?”
“Me? Why me?”
… I guess I don’t know
But in the story just now, didn’t she confess?
In this world, no one understood me.
At least he tried. He said he understood
… Then, to me now, that’s the only one, right?
‘That….’
Love this? Is it right to express love?
That might not be the case.
However, in a way, it may mean the same thing.
It depends on how that heart blooms and what results it meets.
It may be a supreme and pure love.
If it is misaligned and twisted, it brings wrong results.
It will be another tragedy caused by twisted affection, caused by interest.
As Ases guessed, Mines was good at understanding others.
This is heaven.
It’s not like I want to.
On the contrary, I have resented this nature countless times.
Why should I understand the pain of others and have to be swept away by it myself?
“… ….”
However.
Therefore, on the other hand, there is something to be thankful for.
It’s really hard and painful.
When someone is genuinely happy, laughing and happy.
I was really happy too.
It’s only for a little while.
Because of that little warmth, I still… Because I was able to survive somehow.
But.
“I should be able to go by now.”
Athes, who got up from her chair, took the lead as if to follow her.
Mines followed her back, and she let out a small sigh.
But.
She doesn’t know.
If you do not know the joy or happiness of others.
She’s been there all along.
Because she was abandoned in her solitude, she couldn’t understand anything.
Even.
Even to herself.
When she refers to others as mirrors of herself.
After all, she may have never seen a mirror in her life that would even reflect herself.
But there.
She found a mirror to reflect herself like that?
… It’s natural to be desperate.
‘But.’
She doesn’t know.
How to love someone honestly, meekly, rightly.
How to be dear and affectionate.
She doesn’t know.
That’s why I act emotionally and impulsively.
Even the protrusion of that emotion must be different from the general one.
“… ….”
I wonder if it’s because of the past where I’ve listened to various people’s concerns, understood them, and comforted them.
Mines realized for the first time that she was an invalid who went ahead of her, that she was just a poor patient.
But Aces.
In the world she lives in, she’ll still be called a demon.
He has power, his mind is soaring, his appearance is outstanding, and he has a mindset that allows him to use what he has more coolly and mercilessly than anyone else.
That’s it.
In any sense, it would be like a disaster.
Putting a knife in someone else’s back casually.
An existence that can slash the target in front of you with a smile, or casually cut off the hand you held for a handshake.
It can be done without any personal feelings.
Only pursuing profit and rationality.
Does a meat-cutting knife need a heart?
Does a knife that stabs people need a heart?
‘Maybe.’
Maybe that was what I needed.
If that was the case, I would have truly become a cataclysm that will never happen again.
Don’t be taken advantage of, selfishly live for yourself.
While using even the power he had.
How much blood and tears must have been shed because of that.
… So that’s good.
Because I couldn’t do that.
Though I said I was in pain.
Isn’t it really absurd to pass such pain and despair on to an innocent person?
I couldn’t possibly accept that much.
“But I can’t guarantee that I will be able to have a conversation just because I’m visiting. Accept that.”
“Yes. Are you okay. It’s not urgent.”
As Ases pointed out, I may have come to repay the favor.
If you want to ask a question, it must be an excuse and an excuse.
But it doesn’t matter.
Even having such an irregular and sudden mindset.
You’ll be free.