Incompatible Interspecies Wives chapter 136

136 – Face (3)

I lightly hugged Arwin’s head.

She was the one who didn’t push even that away.

However, my mind is not as comfortable as before.

I have always believed that all conflicts can be resolved through effort, but that belief may have been more naive than I thought.

She has been with them for several months now.

There are times when we feel that our relationship has gotten better, but whenever these moments come, doubts rise in my heart.

Can we really not get along?

Am I going to spend the rest of my life with a stranger?

As I thought before, I don’t think I’ll be satisfied with friendship anymore.

I feel frustrated when I always try to dominate others as I please.

As the vice-captain of the Red Flame Team, I had no choice but to learn that fact.

You can move forward only if you have your own freedom and acknowledge their thoughts.

But maybe that’s why we’re creaking even more.

I feel like I don’t fit in with the culture.

Both of them have told me they don’t love me.

In the meantime, problems keep popping up.

…In the back of my head, the King’s words came to mind.

It is said that polygamy is a bad habit.

I shook my head and sighed.

…Anyway, I didn’t want polygamy to be abolished.

It was my pure greed.

Really, Ner and Arwin became very precious people to me.

“…I’ll go find Ner.”

“…”

I said that to Arwin and let go of her head.

Arwin quietly nodded her head and went to sit on the bed that was prepared.

I stepped out of the temporary lodging.

Baran was standing in front.

I asked him.

“What about Ner?”

“…I ordered you not to follow me. But it seemed that he was going into the woods in the other direction. I secretly entrusted the escort to Burns.”

I nodded.

With that, he moved on.

“…The vice-captain.”

But Baran caught me with words.

Looking back, he shrugged his shoulders and said.

“…Cheer up. Women’s work is difficult. If you find traces of your former lover, it will be a big deal.”

I smiled lightly at that.

I wonder if it’s because Baran had complicated women’s problems.

Your own playfulness makes your heart lighter.

Since Baran didn’t see the situation between me and Cien, he must have heard the story through a different route.

I moved on again.

Then I thought about Ner and Arwin.

I pondered over what I said to them.

‘I… Now only you are precious.’

A word that came out of nowhere.

But it wasn’t a lie.

Rather, it makes me think about since when.

Of course, I knew from the past that I had a special feeling for them.

But even I was surprised by her heart that was deeper than I thought.

Actually, I could find a lot if I looked into the reasons.

There is a sense of security that I felt while being with them.

It is a sense of stability that cannot be obtained from friends or siblings.

There is a kind of emotion that can only be felt by a partner.

I knew this difference before.

Even in her slum life, Shien gave her a sense of security she didn’t get from her friends Max and Flint.

It is still the same now.

I must have felt a sense of stability from Ner and Arwin that I couldn’t get from Adam.

Sleeping together, holding hands, laughing together, eating together.

There is a reassurance that you can feel just by being by your side.

I didn’t know that the sense of not being alone would be so important.

As Adam said, I might have been tired of my mercenary work.

In the meantime, Ner and Arwin filled the void that no one had been able to fill.

Being with them, my anxiety has decreased a lot.

We’ve been together every day for the past few months.

It’s my own compulsion, but I’ve shared stories about my children and future from time to time.

So it seemed like I gave them a lot of heart without even knowing it.

But now it seemed like the gap between me and my wife was clearly starting to show.

Am I trying too hard to close the gap that cannot be narrowed?

“…”

I stopped thinking.

I moved to find Ner who had left.

From far away, you can see Burns, who was secretly entrusted with escorting Nere.

I just hoped that my feelings for them would work one day.

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Ner impulsively left the berg and went outside, but soon the gazes he felt swallowed up a subtle fear.

This place wasn’t Red Flame Team.

It was surrounded by people from the royal family.

The gazes of the dragon tribe, who were not familiar with her, focused on her.

Still, no one whispered about Whitetail like before.

There was definitely Berg’s protection.

Because Berg likes Ner Blackwood’s white tail, it seemed that the words not to make fun of him were imprinted in everyone’s heads.

“…”

Now, it was Ner who felt his presence wherever he went.

I gradually realize how much I have become involved with him.

It was natural.

He was his husband and she was his wife.

There has never been a closer relationship than this.

In fact, if you look at it that way, there was no reason for Ner to be as anxious as he is now.

According to her writing, the relationship between her and her berg was closer than between her saintess and berg.

But in reality, no one knew what it would be like.

I didn’t know exactly where Berg’s heart was headed.

It was Berg who pushed the saintess away, but it might have been because of the situation he was in.

Without her… Would Berg have pushed her saintess away like that?

“…”

At a family where no answer was given, Ner suffered alone again.

He was the first precious person I met.

It was her first love, and a person who drew her future.

It was difficult because he had a past he didn’t know about.

Ner couldn’t afford it.

Fearing that Berg will lose his existence, he holds on to him even more tightly and presses him.

Spray the bait of being angry and fish for his affection.

It wasn’t that there wasn’t a stuffy mind in the first place.

With that thought, Ner suppressed the uneasiness he felt among the royal family soldiers and moved on.

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How much time has passed.

Not long after, Ner sat quietly in the nearby forest.

I didn’t hide.

When he comes to visit, he stays in a place where he can be found quickly.

As expected, the sound of footsteps echoed.

Ner’s sensitive ears were able to infer the target just by the sound of the footsteps.

He didn’t know that maybe he could only notice that object.

Ner closed his eyes.

“…Ner.”

Berg came looking for him and called his name.

My body warmly melts.

But Ner didn’t react to that.

With my back turned coldly, I waited for him to come closer.

“…I was looking for it.”

Berg said.

He exhaled once and said.

“…What if I’m dangerously alone? I told you not to do this.”

Ner knew that he delivered these words first out of concern.

I wonder if he knew his intentions.

I was happy even though it was a word that suppressed freedom to some extent.

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“…”

Ner did not answer.

This was after a large amount of anger had already subsided.

Nevertheless, for now, it was consistent with silence.

Wait Berg’s action.

He continued walking slowly in her direction.

Ner did not show any reaction.

-Chin.

Berg approached and gently hugged Ner from behind.

As she sits behind her.

Ner sat down between Berg’s legs, her back touching Berg’s torso.

His tail was slightly pinched, but Berg didn’t seem to mind.

His scent came along as well.

The warmth also comes over.

The moment he is hugged like this, Nere’s emotions fluctuate.

Her tingling feelings make her cry.

I feel really loved.

“…”

Berg said nothing.

I just hugged her like that.

It seemed to be her own act to do to her who didn’t answer her.

Ner did not push him away.

Still stiff like a doll, just sitting like that.

I may have the strength to push forward, but I no longer have the strength to push him away.

In a space where only the two of them stay, they become attached like that.

In the first place, neither side had anything to say.

Berg did nothing wrong to apologize.

It was strange for Ner to be angry any more.

So he just sat like that.

Exchanging familiar warmth, a silent reconciliation was taking place.

It was Ner who wanted this kind of behavior from Berg in the first place.

That’s why he pushed Berg away.

-…Sweet.

Ner then grabbed Berg’s arm as he gently embraced him.

The vaguely stopped tail also wraps around Berg’s waist.

They are completely hugging each other.

Then Berg opened his mouth.

“…Ner.”

“…”

“…A thing of the past.”

Ner listened quietly to those words.

“…I may not be used to your species who only love one person, but right now is important.”

“…”

“I chose you.”

“…”

“…So…”

Berg agonized over his last words as if he hadn’t thought about the back story.

Ner, who had opened his mouth, closed his eyes and whispered.

“…Berg. Our species is over once you give your heart.”

At those words, this time Berg kept silent.

“…No matter what the opponent does, it can’t be undone. Even if the other person is verbally abusive. Even with violence. As much as it is hard to fall in the first time… On the contrary, I can’t even come out.”

Berg sighed behind him and nodded slowly.

Ner continued.

“That’s why I’m more cautious. I give you my heart.”

He had already given his heart, but he didn’t reveal it, of course.

“…How miserable it would be if I loved someone but they didn’t love me.”

“…”

“So whenever this happens to you, I hate it. It seems that the culture of the human race is not particularly compatible with ours. Like it or not, you’re my husband… I’m afraid that you’re hiding something. I feel cheated.”

Then, for a moment, Berg pondered Ner’s words.

He nodded and took in his breath.

“…”

Ner tightly wrapped his tail around him.

In fact, if he had known the culture of werewolves, he would have realized long ago that this is an act only done to the person he loves.

In a way that he didn’t notice, Ner was constantly expressing his affection.

…Maybe it was for self-satisfaction.

At the same time, Ner prepared his next words.

It says I love you with its tail, and prepares cold words with its mouth.

“If something like today happens again… I might never love you.”

The words you said the moment you got married.

I told you outright that I might never love you.

He reminded Berg of those words again.

“…Really?”

“I don’t want to live miserably, I do.”

Berg nodded.

“…I understand.”

Listening to the bittersweet voice of Berg, Ner’s heart immediately blooms.

I wanted to turn to him, wag my tail, and do some teasing.

But that was an act of revealing his whole heart.

Under these circumstances, such an action was unacceptable.

I also had a desire to protect my humble pride.

I wanted to show that I am also a strong person.

Her pride still haunts her.

“…I’m still mad.”

Berg laughed.

“I see.”

“Today I won’t let go of my anger, so I know that.”

Berg nodded at her and hugged her tighter.

Although most of them do it a lot, they said that fighting as a couple is laughing as if it was always like that.

Ner also wanted to believe that this moment was like that.

I heard that there are cases where you become closer after a fight.

I just wanted Berg to love me more in the future.

Does Berg know?

Actually, he still hasn’t told me he loves me.

I had to have that confession, but I felt like Ner would be able to confess my feelings too.