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“In the end, you never changed, Beniyasha. You never asked for help, you never reached out to anyone. You just accepted being alone and graduated like that. You chose to look away.”
It hurts.
Misaki’s hand, her gaze, her words.
Everything about it hurts so much.
“I wanted you to look at me. But you…!”
I could hear a creaking sound, as if my heart was being torn apart.
“Is it my fault…”
But…
“Huh…?”
“Is it all my fault!? Should I not have run away!?”
I heard, shaking off Misaki’s hand.
I had my own reasons too.
Misaki was being selfish too…!
“I didn’t want to run away either! I thought about it a lot! But at that time, I was at my limit! I had no other choice!”
“What? Don’t just… don’t turn this around on me.”
“Of course I’m angry! Misaki might have had it hard, but so did I! And yet you’re saying whatever you want!”
I’m not saying I did everything I could.
That was all I could do.
“At that time, we were both at fault! That’s enough! Don’t just blame me for everything!!!”
Doing that was the right choice for me at that time.
“Please, don’t bring this up again… It’s over for me… If we go our separate ways, then that’s enough…”
I don’t want to talk about this anymore.
Because it’s over. Our relationship is over.
That’s why we don’t cross paths. No matter how far we go, we’ll never meet.
“…Even though you were my boyfriend.”
“Huh…”
“Even though you were my boyfriend, you say such things. You didn’t help me when I needed it. When I wanted you to help me…”
For Misaki, it wasn’t over yet.
“I still love you this much.”
That’s why things had turned out this way.
She still believed there was a future for us.
“…Fine, whatever. I’m tired of this. Let’s talk about this later. I’m just really tired today.”
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Misaki turned her back to me.
She walked towards her house with unsteady steps.
“But don’t forget. You don’t deserve to be happy. I won’t forgive you if you choose anyone other than me.”
“…I”
“I’m looking forward to our high school life together, Kurenai-kun.”
With those words, Mio left for good this time.
I didn’t call out to her retreating figure that had left me with such a painful parting gift.
Because I had nothing to say.
“I understand…”
I had understood that a long time ago.
This must be some kind of curse that Mio had put on me.
I had done something irreversible.
“Someone like me doesn’t deserve happiness.”
Muttering those words out of frustration, I turned and headed home.
Somehow I had managed to get through this.
Was it a sense of relief?
Fatigue suddenly washed over me.
“I’m so tired…”
I guess I’m just not very good at handling pressure.
I just want to sleep now.
I’m so exhausted.
“What an eventful first day of school…”
Can I really keep this up if it’s going to be like this from the start?
I don’t know. I’m always worrying about something.
As I slowly opened the front door, I thought I heard a faint whisper of “I’m sorry” coming from somewhere.