115. Regrets of the Hero Party (2)
115. Regrets of the Hero Party (2)
Ttogak- Ttogak-
The sound of neat shoes echoed in the hallway.
It’s late in the morning when everyone falls asleep.
This is the time when Saten, who belongs to the nocturnal nature, is most active.
Saten went down to the first floor and carefully knocked on the door.
Smart-
“Mister, are you sleeping?”
“… “
I can’t hear the answer.
Are you sleeping?
She might not have heard.
Saten knocked on the door again.
A little harder.
Thump-!
“Mister, are you sleeping?”
I wonder if giving strength worked?
A movement was heard in the room.
There was an urgent movement somewhere, and as time passed, the door was carefully opened.
“Saten… ? What’s going on at this late hour… ?”
“Sorry, it looks like you were asleep.”
“… “
“Wait, I have something to say. Can I come in?”
“… Okay.”
Lee Jun-woo headed inside, tidying up his messy hair.
Saten followed Lee Jun-woo.
It was a moment where I felt nervous for the first time in a long time.
“… Maybe I was a little rude.”
“You know it’s a nuisance. That’s good.”
“… Sorry, I’ll ask a question and get out quickly.”
“Yes.”
Wooksin-
The cold reply hurt Saten’s heart.
Her heart ached more that she was the one who had created this situation.
But now she doesn’t want to be sick anymore, she made up her mind to move.
“Uncle.”
“Sit in a chair and talk.”
“… Mister. Do you have a question.”
“Yes, try it.”
“Why don’t you scold me?”
Kwaak-
With her back to the yellow light from her lamp, Saten clenched her fists.
It took a lot of courage to say why she doesn’t scold herself from her position, with her strong self-esteem.
Lee Jun-woo looked straight at Saten.
“Saten, what does that mean?”
“It is exactly what I said. I made a mistake. If you make a mistake, it’s natural to get scolded. If you get scolded, it’s right to be punished. But why don’t you let me go through the process?”
“… “
She was a man who had done wrong, but there was nothing wrong with Saten’s words.
Is that why?
Lee Jun-woo could not easily answer Saten’s words.
“… You are right Saten. However, I still have no intention of punishing you guys.”
“So, are you going to continue treating us coldly?”
“… I didn’t mean to.”
“Then back to the old days-“
“No.”
Lee Jun-woo cut off Saten’s words.
He looked down at the floor and spoke to Satan in a low voice.
It felt like something was painful.
“Still, I guess I need some time.”
“… How long will that be?”
“I cannot give you a definitive answer.”
Kwaak-
Saten bit her own lip.
Although it was a head that was always raised high.
Today, I started to look down more and more.
“I can’t feel my emotions properly. That’s why I can’t understand you.”
“Just because you have feelings doesn’t mean you can understand everyone.”
“You will become ‘good’ at understanding. Mister, how many emotions can I feel right now?”
“There are many emotions, so I can’t count them accurately. Broadly speaking, there are two things.”
“… Okay.”
Saten nodded her understanding and got up from her chair.
“I knew everything I wanted to know. I knew you didn’t want to answer the question. So I… ”
I’ll wait as you say.
Until the emotions are sorted out.
I’ll wait.
Saying that, Saten lowered her head.
“Sorry for the late hour. I’m sorry she tried to erase her memory. I was very greedy. I will go.”
“… Okay.”
Saten didn’t solve her doubts, but she couldn’t help but she decided to go back.
All she could do now was to trust and wait for the old man.
‘Your uncle has no intention of forgiving me right now.’
I don’t like that.
Saten left her pain behind and opened the door to her room.
Before leaving her room completely, Lee Jun-woo said a word to her.
“It’s not your fault, Saten.”
“… Thank you for lying, mister.”
A soft tone.
Feeling the old man’s voice as if he had returned to the past.
Saten left for her own room.
In a room where the yellow light was turned off because time was running out.
Lee Jun-woo muttered to himself.
“If there is a fault, it must be me… “
A dark room at dawn.
Lee Jun-woo recalled what happened at the library.
***
I didn’t expect to come to the library this soon.
I had no choice but to do this.
I sat down in a chair and met Minerva’s eyes.
“Minerva.”
“… Uh.”
“Is my idea correct?”
“… That’s right.”
If you called Estiya a traitor.
I’m sure Minerva is also trying to erase her memory.
Although she was almost 100% sure.
It was even more shocking when I heard it with my own mouth.
Looking like it’s going to be a long conversation, I sat across from Minerva.
“Why did you do that?”
“… What.”
“Why did you try to erase my memory using Estiya?”
Estiya was only able to wear divine power and make it stronger.
How could Estiya have tried to erase my memories?
That’s what I realized after knowing the meaning of traitor.
Minerva avoided Lee Jun-woo’s eyes and spoke timidly.
“Utilization… I just gave you a choice… I’m just pointing you in the right direction… “
“Help? Is that what you’re going to say now, Minerva?”
Flinching-
Minerva trembled at Lee Jun-woo’s words.
It was a frightened gesture.
“Why, why are you so angry… “
“I am not angry. I’m just asking. Why did you do that?”
“… While getting angry.”
“Answer.”
“Oh, okay… ! I’ll tell you… !!”
Minerva cried, closing her eyes tightly.
“Yes, you… ! It’s much better to lose your memory… !! So I tried to erase the memory! Okay… !?”
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“What? I mean that-“
“I say it because it is a word! Why! What are you complaining about! You don’t know why I made this choice, Jun-woo!”
Ssiik- Ssik-
At first, he knew he was wrong.
The more I talk, the more I feel sorry for Minerva.
She shouted, finally venting her rage.
“My, you don’t even know how many books I’ve read… If you’re going to do this, hit the apostle! Junwoo, why the hell do you live like that!”
“What are you saying right now-“
“I didn’t do everything! More left! Junwoo, be honest! What were you trying to do when your warrior party defeated the demon lord? Did you think I didn’t know?”
“What… ?”
“You were about to die. If you kill all the demon lords, you tried to end your own life. Am I wrong?”
Lee Jun-woo was silent at Minerva’s words.
‘I tried to hide it until the end, but the goddess can’t help it.’
She must have been wrong from the moment she thought she wouldn’t be caught in the first place.
It’s safe to say that Minerva’s library contains all the information except for the demon king.
When Lee Jun-woo did not speak, Minerva felt frustrated and shouted.
“Junwoo, I know you. So, I was trying to erase your memories that were bothering you.”
“Memories that haunt me… ?”
“Yes, the memory that drives you to death.”
Haunting memories.
Memories that drive death.
Minerva Do you think so too?
That fact hurt Lee Jun-woo even more.
So, he shouted in protest.
“… It is not a memory that haunts me.”
“No, that is bothering Junwoo. It’s making me have no choice but to die. I’ve read them all. I read all the books!”
Hanging himself.
Jump from a high place.
After hearing the call to defeat the Demon King.
It was written in the book that Lee Jun-woo immediately took action.
“I… You don’t know how Junwoo read the book… “
“Minerva, you don’t even know what those memories are to me.”
“I know… Even though I knew that… ? I was trying to erase your memory because I wanted to save you… !!”
Minerva screamed enough to make the library roar.
The voice was similar to her desperate cry, and also contained despair.
Minerva, who had read many books related to Lee Jun-woo, had no choice but to do so.
“Always Aina… Aina… That’s all you have in your head… !! Living in the past… !! Keep thinking about it… !! I thought it would decrease because of the warrior party… Why are you the same… !! If you are a person, you should know how to shake off… !! Why do you keep having it… !!”
“… You can’t help it. How could this have happened?”
Lee Jun-woo understood Minerva.
I knew how hard it was to read memories.
She knows that Minerva really thought of her as she was.
‘It would be nice if my emotions could move the way I wanted… ‘
However, it can’t be helped that emotions make their own choices.
Even if you don’t want to, your eyes follow you and your body moves.
The head is always occupied with its happy thoughts, and it restricts thought.
Lee Jun-woo, who felt such feelings, could never escape from the past.
“I can’t erase what I already know with my own hands. And even if it’s a memory that haunts me… I can never erase it.”
“Why the hell… !! That’s better than dying, you… ?”
“Yes.”
“Uh… ?”
“I have no choice but to do that.”
I promised.
You have to remember.
The whole story of a teacher who lived alone and was gifted with talent.
The story of a lonely wizard that only I know.
I have to remember.
“If I don’t remember Aina, who was always alone, who will?”
“… You, you are crazy Junwoo, you are crazy… My apostle, but you are crazy… I’m crazy about the memories that hurt you… “
“… “
Lee Jun-woo was silent at Minerva’s disgusted voice.
She couldn’t deny the fact that she was insane as Minerva said.