Love Letter From The Future chapter 101

2. The Lord is with you (22)

“just.”

It was a short answer. A simple word, no more than two syllables.

However, that alone was enough to bleach Elsie’s brain white.

Elsie’s eyes went blank at once. She opened her mouth as if she wanted to say something, but then closed it. The strings of emerging thoughts could not be knotted with language.

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Just wanted to ask

How could that be? Didn’t I almost die?

The injuries sustained that night were serious. Had the fingernails penetrating his abdomen been slightly out of position, Ian would have lost his life.

Elsie couldn’t understand. This was especially true of Ian’s attitude of dismissing that resolution and will with a short word, ‘just’.

Even if he came out a little more brazen, no one would say anything. Even so, it did not change the fact that Elsie had to bow her head several times.

Because the debt of life is so heavy. But now, Ian’s reaction was more than bland, to the point of being sullen.

So, even more so, Elsie didn’t know how to react.

Grabbing the brim of the cone hat, Elsie’s gaze fell. It looked like hesitating.

She was a girl who grew up not knowing how to express gratitude or sorry.

Grace was just a debt that had to be repaid someday anyway. If there is a mistake, I have lived my life preferring to trample on it so that the other person cannot recall it.

There were only two types of humans who approached Elsie.

Trying to use her, or hostile to her.

It was the first time in my life that I had received such a pure favor. Elsie could only stand there and hesitate.

For a while, Ian appreciated how much Elsie was doing. The way he fidgeted was pretty cute, he suddenly thought. It was pretty rude for a senior to look at and embrace.

A bitter smile formed on Ian’s lips. His mouth opened again.

“I just wanted to save it. That’s all.”

It was the same answer as the first one. The tone was very flat. So Elsie realized that it was Ian’s unaffected sincerity.

But still doubts remained. Rather, Ian’s answer was closer to putting Elsie’s thoughts into a labyrinth.

Because it was something she couldn’t understand.

Since childhood, self-preservation has always been a priority. Even the violence and brutality Elsie showed was nothing more than an extension of her desire for self-preservation.

Wasn’t she the one who valued her own comfort more than anything else?

I couldn’t understand the act of risking my life to save someone. However, since she herself was too shabby to explain this in detail, Elsie managed to formulate a single question.

“… … Could you have died?”

“Are you alive after all?”

It was a really calm voice. Elsie felt like she was crying.

I wanted to convey my true feelings, but I couldn’t figure out how. So she raised her voice. As always.

“you you… Don’t you know how dangerous it was then?! My guts were about to come out!”

“If you think about it that way, Elsie-senpai was more dangerous.”

Ian’s point was hitting the point. Elsie’s mouth fell shut for an instant.

Yes, it was. At that time, Elsie was defenseless. If he had been attacked as it was, he would have died with a high probability.

To say that he was kidnapped by the Witchbeast, the end was obvious.

It must have been used as a sacrifice or food. Elsie’s shoulders trembled slightly as she imagined herself to be cooked as a special meal for the monkey masters.

However, if she was to withdraw like this, it wasn’t Elsie with a bad temper.

It seemed that he had deviated a little from the purpose of expressing his gratitude before he knew it, but it didn’t matter. In fact, I didn’t even know that I was deliberately escaping from that mindset.

because it was unfamiliar

All emotions were unfamiliar. My breath, my heart, my head, all of that.

I didn’t know why I was so short of breath and pounding. I was too shy to make eye contact with the man.

To hide her embarrassment, Elsie raised her voice even more.

“Yeah, but you don’t have to sacrifice yourself!”

“So you don’t like it?”

It was straight up again.

Elsie hurriedly avoided Ian’s gaze. she asked herself.

I didn’t like it, there was no way.

It was the first pure favor I received in my life. She was the one nobody trusted except for her younger brother, Lupine. I thought that if anyone’s life was at stake, they would change their attitude like flipping the palm of their hand.

All the humans Elsie had ever seen were like that.

Excessive pain was enough. Then, those who pretended to be arrogant would grab onto Elsie’s ankles and beg.

Please stop, I was wrong.

Elsie was no different. The reason she despised the weak was because she reflected herself in them.

My face, crying and begging for my life, overlapped like a hallucination. If the composition of perpetrator and victim had been reversed, it would have been her who was there, but Elsie couldn’t stand it.

I hated my own weakness so much.

No one affirmed the girl. even herself.

So, Elsie had no choice but to answer briefly.

“… … no.”

it was good. Having someone protect her by sacrificing their lives felt like being affirmed just by itself.

To him, Elsie meant that she was a human being worthy of it.

He was a cheeky junior. Elsie thought so, but her face felt hot and she had to pull on the brim of her hat even more. Then it seemed that my flushed face would be covered.

“It’s fortunate, I didn’t hear any bruises after I saved him.”

Ian’s response was that.

No further demands were made, no accusations were made. She just turned her head with a satisfied smile at Elsie’s answer.

As silence settled in the hospital room, Elsie was overcome by a strange sensation.

The sound of my heart pounding was so loud. What should I do if Ian hears this sound, Elsie suddenly gets scared.

I couldn’t even figure out the root of that anxiety. Elsie was just, urgently picking up any words and serving them.

“… … Nana!”

At the words spoken out, the man’s golden eyes stared at the girl.

Elsie’s thought circuit was messed up. I opened my mouth, but I didn’t know what to say. Then, inadvertently, she spit out her true feelings.

A secret that was hidden and hidden, that was not revealed even to the younger brother who was dearest in the world.

“I’m not that valuable… … .”

It was a shabby voice. It was the self-confession of a cat pretending to be strong, pretending to be a beast.

Ian was silent. Afraid to read the young emotions in those eyes, Elsie lowered her gaze. A timid voice continued.

“Actually, I am very scared and weak. So, I was bullied a lot from a young age… It’s selfish, so only I know.”

Hmm, the man drooled. Elsie’s body trembled. Not knowing how he would react, the girl quickly added.

Before I knew it, every word I uttered was watery. It was a sad confession.

“Well, then don’t do that next time… I’m not a very good person… … .”

And again static.

Neither Ian nor Elsie said anything for a while. Only the girl had her shoulders trembling.

It was then that the man’s mouth opened.

“… … I knew.”

Ah, Elsie’s puzzled eyes turned to Ian again. He was smirking as if he was dumbfounded.

“Elsie-senpai was cowardly, selfish, unwilling, and even knew that she was peeing… You’re not stupid, so why don’t you know?”

“… … Oh, it’s not a mannequin?!”

Elsie cried out in tears at the absurd accusation, but Ian wasn’t particularly listening. His words continued.

“You saved it knowingly, so don’t worry about it. I made another great confession.”

At the same time, Ian scratched the back of his head as if he had suffered a loss from worry. Seeing that, Elsie was at a loss for words again.

A small voice escaped from her mouth.

“… … why?”

He could feel golden eyes staring at her. Elsie lowered her eyesight to the floor for a moment.

“I know everything, but why did you ask for it… … ? You’re such a bad girl.”

“Yeah, I’m not the type to talk well… I don’t know what to say… … .”

The worried man’s index finger scratched my cheek. He closed his eyes for a moment, as if trying to think for a second, then opened them again with a look of resignation.

He only said one word.

“It’s literally ‘just’, there’s no reason.”

Then, the man smiled bitterly. When I crossed my arms, the exposed muscles seemed toned.

Elsie was idly appreciating Ian’s figure, but soon regained her senses and averted her eyes.

I couldn’t figure out why it kept doing this. Yeah, I couldn’t figure out why.

“You can’t make decisions by weighing every single thing in your life. I just wanted to do that, so it doesn’t matter if Elsie is a bad girl or a good girl.”

“… … just?”

“Yes, just… I just wanted to save it. Isn’t that the end?”

I see Elsie muttered to herself.

It’s just like that. No reason existed. It was the same with this feeling that seeped into my heart and made my heart beat steadily.

It was still just a vague feeling. Even so, this feeling she had never seen before in her life was so heartbreaking. Because it was the only favor a girl who couldn’t trust anyone could have.

My face was hot. There was no sign of cooling his burning hair. Elsie kept avoiding Ian’s gaze with a nervous feeling.

The man had a bewildered look. Soon, a mysterious voice was thrown at Elsie.

“What’s wrong? Did you catch a cold?”

Elsie fiddled with the brim of her conical hat, contemplating what to answer.

It took countless words to define this feeling.

The beating heart sprouts like a sprout that has welcomed the spring sun.

I also stared at the man’s golden eyes in a daze like a wild beast possessed by flames. Standing in front of him, I felt as cozy as if I was covered with a cotton blanket, but as nervous as when I was walking on the parallel bars.

It was such a contradictory feeling.

But she couldn’t utter all those words, so Elsie only uttered two syllables.

“… … just.”

It was just an emotion that had not yet had a strong enough color to define its name.

Even so, Elsie had a hunch at that time.

The day may come when these emotions that have sprouted today will grow beyond your control.

Elsie finally broke down the wall in her heart that had been heavy.

towards only one person.

The man still had a bewildered expression on his face.

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If you think about it, the starting point for Elsie-senpai’s change was after that day.