674 – 8, Will (48)
Let’s understand the situation as objectively as possible.
It is already late at night with the moon rising in the sky. Because I overexerted myself, I vomited blood and fainted in front of my own intensive care unit in the temple. I had just woken up after an unidentifiable dream.
And next to me is a naked woman who is fast asleep.
I was hoping that the extremely natural flow of thought would lead to a certain conclusion, but I intentionally discarded that hypothesis. Otherwise, the problem would become too complicated.
Instead, my eyes desperately scan the surroundings.
What are the blood stains on the blanket? Does not exist. I didn’t feel any foreignness to my body, and the naked woman didn’t show any signs of discomfort either. Her steady breathing seemed to indicate that she was getting her first deep sleep.
Didn’t we go all the way to the end?
As I breathed a sigh of relief, a deep sense of helplessness filled my body. Although it was only a momentary delusion, the future that flashed through my mind was truly terrifying.
The worst of all is having this scene caught by a saint.
I didn’t know what kind of repercussions there might be. To avoid as much misunderstanding as possible, I tried to wake up Senior Siene.
If only a moan hadn’t escaped from her small mouth.
“Ah, uh… Please…….”
The woman’s voice, which seemed to be whining like a child, soon became moist and began to tremble. The senior’s face, half of which was covered by her bandages, looked particularly pitiful.
“Well, don’t do that…” Please don’t throw it away… Not yet, not yet useful…… !”
Dalton said she subjected Siene senior to “Mental torture.”
This self-talk may also be a trace of that. I tried to gently reach out to her to get her out of her nightmare.
“Don’t burn it…” ….”
Before I could do that, the pitiful tone stopped my touch again.
Her trembling voice was damp with fear. Hallucination as if sparks were flying from the burn wrapped in bandages.
Senior Siene’s sleeping face was pale.
“Boo, don’t burn it…” He’s my younger brother… Stop, stop… My body, my face… Ah, ah, ah.”
Suddenly, I imagined something.
It was the story of a young lady who grew up in a strict family. As is the case with high-ranking noble families, she must have gone through a growth process of survival of the fittest. In the process, her conscience and sense of ethics could be damaged.
In particular, the woman’s family was the greatest merchant on the continent. In order to run a brilliant household where everything was calculated in gold, she must have had the appropriate ability.
Of course, failure can be forgiven as long as the use value remains. However, what kind of treatment will be given to humans who have lost their usefulness after a crushing defeat?
It was a life worse than death. Even more so if I lost my twin brother, who was half of my body, and half of my body became crippled.
There was no need for me to wake up Siene.
Because the woman who had been crying for a long time soon gasped and opened her eyes.
“Ah, uh, ah…” … ! “Ugh!”
Just before she let out her scream, the woman opened her eyes and cold sweat was beading on her forehead.
When the silver pupils trembled with anxiety turned to me, I sighed and fanned my hand. The intention was to dry at least a drop of sweat.
It’s just a pity that she was so embarrassed that senior Shiene didn’t notice this favor.
Her wide-open eyes, her tightly tensed muscles, and even that small hand holding the hem of her blanket tightly.
Anyone could see that he looked wary of me. I sensed that there was another misunderstanding that needed to be resolved, and quickly began to explain with a sigh.
“Senior Siene, calm down. This is actually… ….”
“Chae, responsibility.”
A word the woman stammered out.
I wasn’t a piece of trash like Leto, but as soon as I heard those two syllables, I couldn’t help but think of the next development.
Maybe that’s the fault.
“Responsibility, responsibility… Whoop whoop!”
My hand instantly covered Senior Siene’s mouth, and my body was placed on top of her to suppress her struggles. If anyone were to look at it, it would look like a scene where a thug is trying to rape a young lady.
But I was innocent. I just didn’t want to create room for new misunderstandings.
She was a crippled woman with one arm and one leg. Even if her body had been intact, she would not have been able to withstand my strength, but now that she was here, her struggles as a woman were completely meaningless.
I whispered in the ear of a woman who couldn’t even move.
“Shh, then someone else hears it. “I’m in big trouble.”
Then the woman’s eyelashes fluttered. I don’t know if she understands what I mean, but I tried my best to persuade her.
“Senior Siene, there is something you need to know first… “Nothing happened between us.”
Senior Siene’s eyes begin to water and turn.
She looked like a woman who had been abandoned after losing her virginity. It was at this point that I realized that my meaning was being absurdly misinterpreted.
“No, nothing really happened. Think about it. Do you feel any discomfort in your lower body? Otherwise, what about our relationship? Why am I here in the first place, having passed out in front of the door? “Why are we taking our clothes off?”
The questions pouring out like rapid fire also evidenced my confusion.
It is said that I opened my eyes a little early, but I had also just woken up from a blackout. Of course, there were many unanswered questions. And the only key to unlocking it is the woman beneath me.
She was none other than Siene’s senior.
As if my guess was correct, as the confusion in his eyes cleared, senior Siene’s breathing calmed down. The gaze of the woman who regained her memories fragmented by nightmares was mysterious.
She looked sad and relieved.
My body decided that we could finally have a proper conversation and immediately liberated Senior Siene. The woman turned her head away from me with a more depressed look on her face.
“Now I remember.”
“What memory are you talking about?”
“What have I done?”
It seems that senior Siene was involved in this unexpected co-sleeping.
The corners of her tightly closed eyes trembled. As if he was enduring her shame and anger.
“When you fell, I came to my senses from the impact of falling to the ground. Of course he wasn’t sane. The Alpenhauser family’s ‘mental torture’ is notorious… “Do you know what I thought when I saw you lying down and coughing up blood?”
“At least it looks like I didn’t make a deal with the Dark Church in exchange for my life.”
“Hmph, I guess that would have been better…” But my brain wasn’t normal enough to come up with a new number. “I just thought about my usefulness that my uncle had told me about.”
The pouting tone was enough to make him feel uncooperative. But the target of her womanly, cold ridicule was never me.
If it were me, I wouldn’t know.
I felt like I was seeing fragments of a broken human being.
“What if I end up with you?”
“Bullsh*t.”
It was something I said without even thinking about it.
The empty smile that came to mind was representative of my feelings. It was such a ridiculous story, I had never even thought about it.
At least until today comes.
Looking back, I once received such a suggestion. It wasn’t even an old memory. Wasn’t that the suggestion I heard from Dalton just a little while ago, before I fainted?
Senior Siene responded to my empty laughter with a hollow laugh.
“That’s right, I guess so. But I’ll say it again, I wasn’t in my right mind at the time… To be honest, I thought it was a reasonable decision. “If I force myself to be with you, I will be able to preserve my value.”
“Are you so desperate that you have to do that?”
“You don’t know how I feel.”
The sound of lips being chewed was heard. Even though he wasn’t looking at me, I somehow felt like I knew Senior Siene’s face.
I guess I’m holding back my tears. There seemed to be even a faint bloody smell in that tone.
“Do you know what the Alpenhauser family is like? That place is a pawn shop made of humans. “If it is judged that it cannot pay its full price, it will be disposed of in some way.”
“What kind of punishment do you want me to face?”
“At the very least, it would be worse than becoming a recipient of your s*xual desires. “Alpenhauser always minimizes losses.”
Is that that much?
I thought so, but I could sense unwavering confidence in Senior Siene’s voice. As a woman born and raised in Alpenhauser, she probably knows better than anyone else.
The following confession proved that fact.
“Of course, I have no intention of whining now that my family’s policy is unfair. That’s how she grew up, and that’s how I eliminated her competitors.”
“Celine… ….”
Senior Siene’s mood changed completely at the topic I carefully brought up.
The lips that had been chewing on humiliation and lamentation stop along with the breath. The emotion in the eyes that turned towards me right away was, yes.
It was like a flame. A color that is extremely similar to Celine.
I continued speaking carefully so as not to be overwhelmed by the emotions.
“Celine, you ruined everything.”
“Yes, and they took everything away…” … !”
Ew, ugh.
There was no sign of self-control in the resumed grinding of teeth. All I could feel was an anxious feeling of instability and a raw desire to bite off my enemy’s neck at any moment.
“My life, my brother… And even my arms, legs, and face! “Maybe that’s why.”
Huh, the woman’s laughter didn’t have the same chill as before. However, the ferocious aggression is manifesting like heat and burning myself.
“Who would accept an ugly woman with half her face melted off? She even lost her arms and legs and the family’s trust… So, I apologize.”
All that remains after the flames pass is a pile of ashes.
The woman was also the same. Those empty words of repentance gave off an acrid smell like ash.
Senior Siene gave me an apology that was one of the few in my life.
“I’m sorry, I don’t think you would have wanted to sleep with a woman like me… I, too, am helpless…….”
Seeing Siene senior help herself like that, what should I say?
A certain desire was sprouting in my heart. Soon, my hand began to move faithfully to that desire.
With a tap, my hand grabbed the bandage that covered half of Senior Siene’s face.
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While the woman was hesitating, he forcibly removed the bandage.
“Ah, ahhh?! What are you doing now? Are you crazy?!”
Of course, Senior Siene resisted desperately. She was a woman who had never even removed the bandages covering her face.
She didn’t have a chin that could easily take off her bandages if he suddenly tried to do so.
But if you swing your one remaining arm, there is no way you can block my power.
In the end, there was only one action that senior Siene could take. She cried and poured out words of resentment toward me.
“That, that, that, stop…” I don’t know about you, but a woman’s face is a very sensitive issue… AA AA AA! Okay, stop! I told you to stop! You trash, libertine! I was a fool to have even the slightest positive view of you…… !”
Of course, I wasn’t the one to stop just because of that.
Not long after, the bandage covering half of the woman’s face came off as if it were being torn apart. The naked eye that was eventually revealed was exactly as Shiene-senpai had said.
The dark red color of the skin was badly melted, and the eyes that were covered with bandages looked like they couldn’t function properly because the eyelids were stuck in the first place. I guess I should consider myself fortunate that my scalp didn’t get burned.
The woman’s eyes were tightly closed as her private parts were forcibly exposed. Her trembling body seemed to be afraid of how cruelly my heart would be slaughtered by the sentiment I was about to express.
It was a useless worry.
My hand gently brushed down on her woman’s burns. The dizzying sensation caused her womanly body to convulse slightly again, but I could only mutter as if possessed.
“It’s pretty.”
“…… ?”
Silver eyes blink and open again.
Senior Siene gave me a look filled with disbelief. Nevertheless, my feelings remained the same.
No matter how ugly he became, Senior Siene was still a senior. There was no way her beauty, known as Alpenhauser’s sun, would disappear so easily.
On the contrary, it may be said that there is an aspect that stimulates the desire for protection.
So, my words did not contain even a single lie.
“It’s still pretty. Even though she got burned, I guess it makes her other half look prettier…….”
“Ha, but…” You hate me…….”
“Even back then, I thought her face was smooth. “It’s still the same now.”
What about Senior Siene? She pursed her lips as if she wanted to retort.
Don’t lie and deceive me.
But the moment she met my eyes, the woman seemed to lose all her words. She just opened her mouth, then blushed and slightly turned her head.
She was a person who had worked in the commercial world her entire life. You can probably tell the difference between sincerity and pretense in a kid like me.
The advice he gave next was also the same.
“So, don’t abandon yourself anymore.”
There was no need to ask what it meant. Because I had no intention of stopping her tongue from moving as it pleased.
“Isn’t there still much to lose? If you collapse, Senior Luna’s safety cannot be guaranteed… There are still pretty faces left. What about her cunning brain?”
“You don’t know… A person who has lost everything…….”
“Have you ever seen someone who lost everything?”
I was there.
In the distant future, a man was wandering through a wilderness covered with her corpse. Even though she protected what she so desperately wanted to protect.
He looked so lonely. Because he had to sacrifice everything to protect humanity.
Is that the right ending?
I asked myself this several times. Lately, in fact, I have no longer been able to know the answer. Because the world was not so easy that I could have achieved a perfect ending just by being unreasonable.
Senior Siene immediately shut her mouth. It was as if she sensed the sincerity of my retort.
“I have seen it before. Just one person… Actually, I still don’t know him very well. However, I am saying this because I think that the person who can understand him best is probably me…….”
Please don’t do that.
I wanted to say that, but I couldn’t continue because I was blocked by the weight of questions that had been weighing me down for a while.
The man did his best. Although it was not the best, the path he took was probably the only path he found at the end of despair and pain.
But how dare I guarantee that the path is wrong?
Just me?
Despite my hesitation, Senior Siene was unable to speak for a while. Just blankly, blankly staring at me.
Immediately, he turned his head away. Her cheeks were slightly flushed.
“…… “My uncle was in touch with Patriarch Eindel.”
My thinking was reset by an unexpected confession. When I gave him a questioning look, senior Siene hesitated and added an explanation.
“This is why I was subjected to ‘mental torture.’ I tried to step on that tail… “Actually, my uncle didn’t seem to think that I had noticed that fact.”
And silence.
I forgot what I was saying for a while, and Senior Siene glanced at me as if she was anxious.
Wait a moment.
“…… “Senior Shiene.”
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I hugged Siene-senpai’s body until it was crushed. Of course, screams followed, but I had just heard a discovery so important that even this didn’t bother me.
Dalton Alpenhauser and Eindel.
Two people who seemed like they would never be connected ended up connecting. While I was having doubts, I was confused because I had no contact point.
Perhaps sharing this discovery with Leto and his staff could produce better results.
I decided so, and immediately after hugging and praising Senior Siene, I decided to go see Leto.
“I told you to stop, Ian Perkus!”
I thought to myself that Siene-senpai called me by my name properly for the first time.
The flow could no longer be stopped. Events were coming, this was the last calm.
It was just before my puberty ended.