84 – Episode 84 – A Choice That Can’t Be Done
All my life so far, I have thought of alcohol only as a way to liven up the atmosphere.
I didn’t enjoy the taste of alcohol very much, and I didn’t want to get too drunk and act rude.
Even if you do drink, always in moderation, and if you feel like getting drunk, refrain from drinking.
But, I didn’t know that alcohol could be so good.
Alcohol gave me an escape from reality after Yuhani discovered the account.
He allowed me to be with Yuhan even in my dreams.
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Just being able to see Yuhani, whom I will never see again, is a very happy dream, but when I drink alcohol, laughter leaks out on its own.
Please, I hope my liver doesn’t perform as well as it does today.
Anyway, now I’m sitting with Yuhan on a bench in the park near the bar.
Beyond the clothes and cardigan, I can feel the warmth on the shoulder that is in contact with Yuhani.
Is this a lucid dream? There were rumors that lucid dreaming could control the dream world, but it seems that was a lie.
Well, I didn’t even want that kind of experience in the first place.
Even so, it is not very impossible, and as soon as I thought of wanting to hold hands with Yuhani, Yuhani put his hand on me.
Rough hands for a man. But just holding it makes my heart beat.
In that state, I stared blankly at the sky and remembered what had happened earlier.
While walking down the street with Yuhan, Junhyeok Lee suddenly pops out.
Since dreams are originally a series of unexpected events, he wondered if he would pass them by, but he started to get angry with Yuhan.
Every minute and every second was a waste of time, so even if we tried to get over it, Lee Jun-hyeok, who kept interrupting us, eventually spat out remarks that were very disrespectful to Yuhan-i.
My body made a decision faster than reason and slapped Lee Jun-hyeok on the cheek.
Was it because it was a dream, or did he lose his self-control from drinking? I’m proud to say that I wasn’t such a violent person originally… … .
hmm. Or maybe it’s because it’s related to Yuhan.
I do not know. I have such a good dream, so there is no need to recall such memories more. It’s the fault of the poor man even in his dreams.
He leaned his head on Yuhani’s shoulder.
I know at least that it can seem a little strange for a woman to do this to a man.
Still, it’s a dream now. Because it is inside my inner world.
As much as today, as much as this moment.
I wanted to be honest with myself.
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If I had to make one excuse… … .
Some of them didn’t know the geography of this area at all, and some of them said that Ahri was here, so I hurriedly finished the broadcast and ran out.
I thought I had memorized the way I had come, but who could perfectly remember the places I passed by at a quick pace?
In addition, I was distracted because I met a strange guy in the middle.
Not one excuse, but anyway.
this.
I guess I’ve lost my way.
sh*t. What are you doing at this age?
My cell phone, which hadn’t even been properly charged, had run out of battery, probably because it had been turned on for a long time while looking for directions earlier, and Ari never tried to hand it over to me, perhaps because of her memory from a few days ago.
Also, I grabbed a few passers-by in the downtown area and asked them for directions, but they were all people from other areas who didn’t know the geography of this area.
I went out on the road that looked a little bigger, but I didn’t see a single taxi.
now… … After wandering around similar places for a long time, he gave up and is sitting in a nearby park, buying Ari a drink to relieve his hangover.
The bus or subway is already close to the last train. In the first place, I don’t even know the location of the stop near here.
What do we do. can’t even walk
It’s a stressful situation.
Although I remembered the location of the motel just in case… … that’s something… … Something. hmm. I thought it would look weird.
Even though they have feelings for each other, a man and a woman who are not dating yet go to a motel!
Besides, isn’t one of them drunk!
hmm.
No, no. Could this be because I hate motels too much?
After all, that place is also an accommodation. I’m just going to sleep, so there’s nothing to worry about.
Since it’s a reversed world, it wouldn’t seem strange for a man to drag a drunk woman to a motel.
Why did you only think negatively? Was the mother’s solo imagination limited to that extent?
I also had the experience of sleeping in the same bed with Ari anyway.
After thinking for a while, I came to a conclusion.
The night air is so cold that I can’t leave Ari outside all the time.
It’s a situation where the answer doesn’t seem to come out even if you keep worrying.
This.
what.
It’s an unavoidable choice.
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There are moments when you can feel that it is a reversed world.
There are too many moments to cite just one, but… … .
I think my current situation would be perfect for that example.
Eyes fly from everywhere.
The motel is located in the downtown area, so unlike the park earlier, there are many people around.
almost most people.
He is watching me as I walk with Ari on my back.
sh*t. Couldn’t this be the sadness of people of color who were confined to human zoos?
In the previous world, it must have been quite normal… … .
In fact, if you do reverse filtering, it will look strange, but looking at it this far, it feels profound.
Ari is buried with her face buried in my neck, whether or not she knows how I feel.
A strange feeling runs through my body every time Ahri breathes.
driving me crazy.
Still, I have no regrets. I chose this because Ari seemed to have difficulty walking. Because Ari is more important than that gaze.
Anyway, after so many twists and turns, we arrived at the motel.
Ari dropped her off again, thinking that carrying someone on her back even inside the building would be a nuisance to others.
There was something awkward about Ari’s reaction as he got off my back, but it probably didn’t matter too much.
Anyway, I also met a part-timer at a motel who looked at us with subtle eyes.
contrast with us. After awkwardly riding an elevator with a woman who was holding a drunk man.
We finally arrived at today’s nest.
“Arya, get some rest in bed.”
I don’t know if he’ll be able to hear me because he’s completely turned away, but he said that and put Ari on the bed in a princess hug position.
I felt something twitching, but was it very uncomfortable? Well, I’ll rest in peace now.
Looking around, a neat and cozy room comes into view.
hmm. It was a fantastic choice too.
I invested a little of my endless capital to get an expensive room, and this room seemed to be paying a high price.
The bed and wallpaper were quite luxurious.
… … Of course, the soundproofing wasn’t luxurious at all.
To live and hear a man groan like that. I thought that this world would not be a place to live.
I let out a low exclamation, and sometimes sighed at the poor soundproofing, looked around the room, and went into the shower.
Ari seems to fall asleep soon, so I should just wash up quickly and go to sleep.
tomorrow… … I need to have a serious talk with Ari.
To be honest, with Ari in that state, I’m not confident that I can do it normally with the conviction that we have feelings for each other.
Because there is an order to everything. You have to be patient.
Still, isn’t that reliable self-control?
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It probably started when Yuhani carried me.
From then on, it seems that the alcohol started to wake up in an instant.
No matter how shady I am, I do not live with a desire to be carried on by a man, and even by Yuhani.
But since it was a dream, I was just thinking about it… … .
As I passed by the downtown area and felt the gaze looking at me, my mind started to come back.
Thinking it was a dream, I buried my face in Yuhani’s nape, and the shock of realizing the reality… … . I don’t want to think about it again.
I was drunk like that, but the effect lasted so short.
Anyway, without such a shock. I continued to see Yuhan walking somewhere and began to figure out what the situation was.
Of course, before I could finish assessing the situation, we arrived at the motel in an instant, and when I entered the room and Yuhani hugged me and put me on the bed, I was already in a state where my head was about to burst.
Yuhani, who was looking around the motel as if curious, went into the shower and slowly got up from the bed.
In the shower room, you can hear Yuhan humming a song.
What’s the situation?
All memories after that incident remain intact. Obviously, Yuhan had never forgiven me, and today was the first time I met him after that incident.
In such a situation, why did Yuhan come to pick me up for a drink?
Why did you take care of me so much when I was drunk?
Why are you humming a song like you’re in a good mood over there?
The reason why Yuhanie wore her hand clasps first? What stopped Lee Jun-hyeok from touching me?
My body is trying to conclude that Yuhan has forgiven me, but my reason is blocking it.
Maybe that’s just thinking too happy.
Perhaps meeting Lee Jun-hyeok earlier wasn’t a dream either, but Yuhan-i heard that from him… … After all, it has nothing to do with me, does it?
I’m causing endless trouble, and there’s no way I can be forgiven so easily.
He sat on the bed and covered his head.
It’s just more frightening when something unknown happens.
how much time had passed
The shower door opens gently.
Yuhani walked outside wearing a bathrobe.
As soon as I see him, my heart starts beating like crazy. The lower half of the body starts to heat up. Breathing becomes rough, the body heats up.
crazy year. Why are you doing this all the way here?
I feel embarrassed, but I’m trying to calm my excitement as much as possible.
The response of the body is very honest.
In front of that man, the opposite s*x always doesn’t work properly.
“Uh… Ariya, since when have you been awake…?”
“Yu, Yuhan, that’s it…”
“Uh, um, no, well, um. Uh… Do you want to wash too…?”
“Ah. Ah, yes…”
As soon as I heard Yuhani’s suggestion, I hurriedly went into the shower.
I still don’t have the confidence to face it properly.
Besides, I’m not in a physical condition that I can face properly. Isn’t the reaction already coming from the lower part of the body?
I quickly undressed.
If you get wet, if you take a shower, your mind will be clearer.
But what I didn’t expect.
The traces of Yuhani washing her body in the shower room were filled with the scent and warmth.
Is it because of that? The flow of my thoughts, which was thinking of an apology to convey to Yuhan, naturally flowed in a different direction.
I’ve seen Yuhan come out of the shower a lot, and I’ve even seen his bare body.
Today, for some reason, the feeling was completely different from before.
A place called a motel. the color of the light. The sounds that came through the walls. A shower robe that you don’t normally see.
Yuhani’s actions, as if she had already forgiven me, as if she didn’t care about the incident at all.
It was eating away at my restraint.
today. tonight.
It seemed like it would be a very difficult time to endure.