#19
The moonlight was shining on my back.
Every time I go through the withered bushes, I still get scratches one by one.
be bitter It was hot and painful, but I didn’t care. Even the twisted joints were roughly bent. It was very painful, but it also hurt for a while and it was over.
I don’t even know how my body is moving right now. If you can walk, you walk, and if you can move, you move.
It was just that.
“haha… … ”
It was hard to breathe. It didn’t stop though.
As I carefully looked back the way I came, I traced my memory and headed somewhere.
Having saved Rubia, it was time to return to Mew. Even though it was a late night with the full moon shining brightly, I had to go back to the square.
There may or may not be a mu, but somehow. Before the hour hand of the clock that signaled today showed 12 o’clock. Before the end of Mew’s first birthday, who suits me as a lover… …
“… … Ugh.”
My heart was pounding heavily.
I stumbled momentarily.
I almost fell, but I managed to hold on with my palms on the ground. damn it The body doesn’t move properly.
Still, I couldn’t give up. Because you should never lose it.
I liked the fact that I didn’t have to create a spark that acts as a lamp since my body can’t use magic at the moment.
Using the moonlight as a milestone, I slowly made my way through the bushes, walking and walking towards the mark I had previously made with a branch.
It was really desperate.
I was desperate enough to feel that it was okay to die like this, or rather, to the point where I felt it was natural for me to die.
“… … ”
… … knew
The fact that it wasn’t me who was there, but Shriel. Until he was kidnapped by demons with bat wings, he must have been with Shuriel from the Ministry of Magic camp training and everything else.
It was Shriel who noticed Rubia’s situation sooner than I did and tried to break the barrier… … Above all, it would have been impossible to even imagine that I would have been there.
’cause I’m weak
It was because he was a human being who had neither the strength to help nor the strength to save.
… … So, that was right.
I knew… …
“… … ”
The feeling wasn’t too bad.
Actually, I don’t know.
Anyway, I saved Rubia, and that didn’t change much. Even if it was a little late, or if I hadn’t prepared myself for death, Rubia would surely have taken her life from the demons.
That was a really good thing.
But why?
On a day when you should laugh happily.
“… … haha.”
am i crying
Maybe it was because it was refreshing.
It could have been the tears of liberation for myself, congratulating me on being able to confide in everything now that I had unpacked everything because I felt a sense of open-mindedness.
In other words, it was shocking. Rather, it was cool and refreshing, and beyond a smile of joy, I was so moved that I had no other way to express my feelings beyond that, so I had no choice but to cry with a smile.
“Heh heh, heh, heh heh… … ”
So, I laughed and cried at the same time.
Each time a transparent drop of water fell over my footsteps with a staggered delay, I slowly pulled out what I had placed inside me piece by piece.
Bump, Bump… …
So I walked in the woods for a while.
When we finally reached our destination.
I open my eyes slightly wide.
“… … thank god.”
to soften the eyelids.
I breathed two sighs of relief.
still there… …
A gift for Mew.
The muffler was a bit dirty though.
The fact that it exists as it is must mean that the gift underneath it is also intact.
In that sense, it was a sigh.
And, I.
“… … Really, I’m glad.”
Rubia now,
I was able to let it go completely.
That was good.
It was reassuring.
Now, I am able to fully love Mew.
… … I wanted to believe that it was good that it happened.
“… … Wait, Mew.”
after muttering so
Bump, Bump… …
slowly.
I staggered forward and walked.
#20
I picked up the muffler with trembling hands.
Then he wrapped it around his neck.
There was no way to hide the torn and punctured clothes that were splashed with drops of blood, but I tried to cover my face as much as possible.
Maybe it was because they had been exposed in one place for a long time, so it was covered in dirt. I shed some, but I still have some left over. But there was no need to worry. What’s the big deal? Wouldn’t it be better to cough a little more?
Putting on the scarf like that, I grabbed something that might have fallen out because of the hole in my hand, and went back the way I came again with one hand in my pocket.
sting… …
It was a bright full moon night.
I’m not sure what the exact time is. It must have been morning already. it didn’t matter
The important thing was the fact that the whole sky had already turned black.
We were supposed to meet with Mu at 1:00 PM.
At least, more than 7 hours passed by far.
Considering that is the minimum.
… … By now, Mew must have already left the square.
“… … ”
it was ok
It won’t be too late to go back and check.
If only I could go back to the temple on that road and deliver it to Mu even tomorrow while keeping the gift… …
I shook my head.
… … That’s not allowed.
I had to tell you today.
what day is today
It’s Mu’s birthday.
Even a month before my birthday, I remember Mew, who kept telling me about his birthday like a parrot, asking me what to do.
It was Mu who was looking forward to today.
… … Everything was ruined though.
However, I wanted to tell Mew, even at the last moment.
As of today, before 12 o’clock passed, I delivered a present to Mew and wanted to share the words with him.
Seeing Mew’s amazing eyes and happy face, I also wanted to give her a happy smile. I just wanted to give you one word.
——Birthday, congratulations.
As much as that… …
I can’t give up.
“… … Ugh.”
With a hardened mind, he held tightly to the dim mind that was getting farther and farther away.
If someone sees me, they may be shocked at once that being alive is a miracle.
In fact, I didn’t know anything about what had happened. In a single blow, my whole body was completely devastated, regardless of bones and internal organs, and the devil’s finger pierced my head and pierced my brain with a direct hit.
Just thinking about that moment is a terrible sensation that can’t be tolerated and shudders. Goosebumps rise from the torn forearm.
It was a moment to announce complete death, but nevertheless, I am revived and exiting the forest road.
In other words, it was a miracle.
something that could never happen.
something that shouldn’t happen.
The miracle itself, which denies the world’s principles and order, happened to my useless body, not anyone else.
… … What the hell was that light?
At one point as I looked back at those desperate memories with a frown on my face, I suddenly lifted my head and saw the open front.
“… … ”
A dark square full of unlit buildings.
An alleyway leading to it.
We finally arrived at our destination.
#21
The atmosphere in the square was eerie.
The lamps hanging from house to house were rarely lit. Because of this, some alleys were brightly lit, and some were dark enough to not be able to see an inch ahead.
The moonlight was falling on the rest of the road, so I was able to walk while looking ahead.
There were hardly any people passing by. In other words, it meant there were one or two.
“Well, today I… … Whoops!”
“Ahhh! What, what!”
“… … ”
A young man and woman who were presumed to be lovers flirted with each other as they crossed the street, and when they suddenly ran into me, they freaked out and backed away.
I glanced down at the scarf and looked at their backs as they ran away in fear. What’s wrong with treating people as monsters and running away?
I really want to Of course, looking at the way I am now, I can’t really deny it, but… …
I don’t know if the guards are coming and arresting me. Although he had no intention of being arrested, it was clear that he had no ability to escape the siege, so the temporary prison sentence was no different.
Well, it was a silly idea.
After that, I ran into quite a few people until I headed for the fountain placed in the middle of the square, and they all saw me and either screamed at me and ran away, or asked me carefully with worried eyes.
Where are you seriously injured? If you have such a severe wound, shouldn’t you go to the temple instead of doing this here? If you don’t know the way, I’ll take you… …
There were some who asked me with a good face, but some of them seemed to have some impure intentions hidden in them.
He knew that I couldn’t move properly, so he was trying to take me somewhere to get a share.
Of course, since this place is very close to the center of the empire, it seemed that he had no intention of kidnapping me in front of others.
I walked away ignoring it.
As I walked, the pace slowed down a little.
Breathing and heartbeat continued irregularly, and at some point it began to decelerate very slowly.
Yet it didn’t stop.
did not fall
Even if Mu doesn’t exist on the road like this.
Maybe even if I went back to the dormitory resenting me.
After doing my best.
As always, I felt like I could only use the word “give up” after burning my body and mind on fire.
… … Then at some point.
“——Have you seen it before? Was he still there?”
As I walked down the street with my muffler covering my mouth, I heard the voices of people passing by.
… … him? who is that
“I saw it. Still, I couldn’t speak. I’ve seen a few other people approach me, but they all run off the road as if they’re running away. How cruel would that be?”
“I don’t know anything particularly bloody, but when I heard his face for a moment, I could only admire him. Wow… … How can a person be like that? I don’t really like guys younger than me, just come… … There was only this sound.”
“👀. Then you go and talk to me.”
“Oh, I hate it because I think I’m going to get hit. If you look at your attitude towards strangers, I don’t think your personality will be that cheap.”
“okay? I thought my personality would be fine though.”
“What? why?”
“Hey, I don’t know who we are waiting for, but from the first time we saw each other until before, if we had been squatting in the same place without moving, wouldn’t it mean that we were at least sincere towards that person? If it’s a boy, you’re lucky.”
“… … That’s kinda scary. Isn’t that the level of obsession?”
“Byungsin, that’s why you’re single. I’d rather date a woman like that at least once. A single-minded person who doesn’t look at anything other than me… … Wow, isn’t that really a man’s romance?”
“is it? Hmm… … First off, I’m kind of like that. ok.”
The two men, who had been chatting for a while, disappeared toward the street in the light.
“… … ”
what did you mean
I looked back at the road they had passed.
Not far away, a white statue appeared.
It was dyed yellow in the moonlight.
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Due to the distance, the statues that looked very small were placed in the middle of the fountain that surrounded them.
If I remember, it was probably in the shape of a baby angel playing a trumpet. It was a statue that could be commonly seen anywhere.
The fountain was not spouting. Only the calm waters sleeping beneath it were flowing as usual.
There were long benches set up around the transparent waterside so that you could enjoy the elegant scenery of the square, but there were hardly any people walking late at night.
… … okay.
In other words, this time.
At least one looked.
It looks as small as a statue. It was to the extent that only Inyoung could barely be distinguished.
It was like a conversation between two men who had just passed by, crouching on a bench, burying my face between my knees.
It was reflected in my trembling eyes. I wasn’t even sure if it was right or not.
But when I came to my senses, I instinctively took a step forward.
bruise.
Before entering the barrier, I had a sudden thought. At night, the weather will get a little colder. So I thought it would be nice to come dressed warmly.
It was a really stupid idea.
Regardless of my wishes, she had no choice but to dress warmly.
Until today is all over.
You’d think you’d be with me all day.
Bump, Bump… …
As you take a few steps, Inyoung becomes a little more certain.
The invisible started to appear.
The first thing that caught my eye.
“… … ah.”
It was a muffler of a familiar color.
Bump, Bump… …
Tick, tick, tick.
walked and ran
My legs creaked as if they were broken, and indescribable pain in that area spread all over my body, but I couldn’t stop running.
It looked stupid. I had to run here since I entered the square. You didn’t have enough free time to walk around stumbling just because your body was a little sore.
But that’s it.
Even though my heart was beating so violently and the pain pierced me from every corner of my body, for some reason it didn’t hurt at all.
It was more sensitive to the vibrations of my trembling shoulders and hands than that.
As soon as I saw the familiar figure, I forgot all the pain in my body and just ran and ran on the road.
As I was running through the air, screaming that I couldn’t understand was sometimes poured out at me, but what did it mean? I didn’t care.
Of course it could have been someone else. It may not have been the lovely junior I knew.
A girl with long dark hair in a beige scarf, maybe in a situation similar to ours, just sitting in one place waiting for someone all night——
no.
it was mu
“… … ”
thump, thump.
I clenched my fists and grabbed my heart that was about to explode.
When you finally reach the fountain.
Mew was ten steps ahead of me.
This was real and not a dream.
From 1pm, the time we promised.
No, I would have been waiting for a day that would not come any earlier than that, I would have been squatting on this bench, sometimes happily imagining what I was going to do today, until 1 o’clock passed, and I would have started to question it a bit.
I must have rubbed my hands in the increasingly cold weather. The muffler would have been raised higher. He must have shrugged his chin as he watched people pass by in the square, and what kind of face did Mew have when passing by Mew with happy-looking lovers smiling?
Then 2 o’clock and 3 o’clock, 4 o’clock.
After that, as the sunset gradually sets, and the footsteps of people stop little by little. Was Mu still smiling back then?
In the end, thinking about the days when 7 o’clock, the time for dinner, didn’t come to keep his promise, long after dinner, Mew would have slowly started to bury his head between these knees… …
So keep going.
for over 10 hours.
only me… …
I would have been waiting for you in this place.
“… … ”
A beige scarf wrapped around the face.
Ultramarine jacket and plaid skirt.
It was black stockings wrapped around Mew’s smooth, long legs.
Under her feet were covered with pretty black shoes.
It looked like it was specially prepared for today.
… … bruise.
Mew can’t see my face. I also can’t see Mu’s face. So you never know what each other’s expressions are.
I don’t even know what kind of heart I should face.
You can only feel it.
It was only the feeling that each other existed in front of each other.
bruises, bruises.
With each step you take, your heart gradually collapses. Lips are dry. I didn’t know what to say first, but my hair turned white, so I couldn’t say anything first.
Should I apologize to Mu first? Or should I let you know that I’m here? If I raised my head and looked into each other’s eyes, what kind of expression would I have at that time? …
I do not know. A heartbreaking heart bursts out
It was a shame.
it was resentment
It was only an arrow of criticism directed at me.
At first, I wanted to be honest with Mu. I had a very hard time too. After suffering near death, no, the only thing that came back from death was a heart that was nothing but a wound.
What kind of determination and bitterness he cried and cried to save Rubia, and what happened after he finally rescued Rubia… … I wanted to confess everything and be forgiven.
That was not to be done.
Asking for forgiveness is now impossible.
How could I, unable to comprehend Mu’s feelings, explain my situation first and hope for understanding and forgiveness?
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Do I want to receive warm comfort from Mew as usual after ruining a day that must have been the most precious to Mew?
That was an act of no conscience, and something to be condemned as the so-called devil.
Guilt rushes in like a tide.
Because of that, I couldn’t say anything.
“… … ”
On the bench, hugging her knees, she stood silently, just two steps from Mew, who buried her head between them.
It was just the two of us at the fountain in this large square. No one else was visible.
So, it was our own time.
For this moment, there were only the two of us in this place.
vision becomes blurred
I grabbed hold of the distant mind and stood up straight.
Having barely grasped my tattered heart, I open my trembling lips, and try my best to somehow normalize the cracked and torn voice inside.
There was only one word that was polished and polished.
“… … music.”
“… … ”
I called her name softly.
Moment.
I saw Mew’s shoulders twitch.
but don’t lift your head Know. You don’t want to see my face now. Mew, who had been smiling brightly and running as if jumping into me just by looking at it, was not here now. it couldn’t be.
I closed my eyes for a moment. Because my throat was stuffy and I felt like I couldn’t even speak without knowing it.
After calming myself down, I fiddled with the little box in my pocket.
It was only now that I was able to deliver it, but it was Mew’s birthday present, which was too late.
Several times he rolled the words in his mouth. For a long time, I thought about how to start the first sentence. It would have been only three seconds since they had said that. It was a time that felt like an eternity.
In the end, he licked his lips slightly.
“… … It’s very late. Sorry.”
“… … ”
Greetings that start with an apple.
Worst.
I felt like crying unintentionally.
This next one, because it had to be worse.
“… … Something happened.”
“… … ”
Had it been a while
A time that felt like eternity.
Very slowly, the answer comes.
“… … What is the matter, huh?”
“… … ”
Mew’s voice was as split as mine.
Maybe he didn’t talk for a long time, or was he crying with his head buried so that his throat was sore? Neither could be sure.
The important thing was that the vitality that stayed in Mew’s voice all the time had withered so dark that it hurt my heart.
“Sorry.”
again apologized.
In an instant, the strength in his legs was released enough to cause him to stumble unintentionally. strong and hold up I’m out of breath, but… … I couldn’t lose my mind here. I, who had endured the crisis once, spoke again.
“… … Rubia——”
kidnapped
I was about to die.
I was trapped there, and I couldn’t get out of the barrier. With the life of the person close to him threatened, he could not even try to escape by himself.
Therefore, he desperately risked his life to rescue Rubia, and he succeeded. After everything was over, I came back to you.
Excluding my feelings right now, I was only going to explain things based on facts to Mew.
That was very wrong.
“In addition.”
Mew who stopped me is still.
He opened his mouth without looking at me.
“In addition… … Is that your sister?”
“… … ”
At that sad purple word.
I felt as if the world had stopped for a moment.
Words once spoken cannot be undone.
me too,
… … Mu too.
“under.”
It was the first time I heard Mu’s voice.
No, I’ve heard it a few times.
It was the first time it was directed at me.
I took a step back.
Little by little, Mew muttered to me in a voice like a child’s voice, which cracked openly, as if it was vomiting out a lump of emotions.
“… … Stop it, now.”
Haizz, I’m feel bad.