#22
In the meantime, many people, especially men, have been walking around and approaching Mew.
I couldn’t help paying attention to the beautiful girl who seemed to be sitting on a bench all day long, waiting for someone from broad daylight when the inside of the square was crowded with people coming to play. Mew had such a destructive charm that he could turn his back and look at him involuntarily even if he just passed by.
However, Mew was not merciful to men who approached him with impure intentions, especially if he did not give his permission.
Except for his senior and lover, Ezio Cranil, he was saying that with a cold face to all the people who had a crush on him.
“go away.”
I could have thought it was harsh.
But in reality, Mew wanted them to be extinguished before his eyes, and he only spoke his mind.
Those who heard Mew’s cold face were busy backing away, but those with a strange taste from time to time continued to try to converse with Mew with a more interesting face.
When Mew calmly and roused magical powers, all of those people fled.
It’s like pathetic men.
With a sigh, Mew hid his head in his lap again. Then he closed his eyes and cleared his mind.
It was to hide the impatience and anxiety that could not be hidden. He didn’t want to remind himself of the fear that his birthday, which was already four hours away, would end in an endless wait… …
The weather was getting colder. My stomach hurt. As he stayed in one place, his body stiffened and seemed to be in pain somewhere, and the occasional cold wind dyed the tips of Mew’s ears and knuckles reddish.
Still, Mu did not move.
not even a single step.
As Ezio had expected, Mew, who arrived 30 minutes earlier than the appointment time at 1pm, started the day with a grin.
like that… … had started
1:30 p.m.
Rather than preparing for a long time, I grinned while thinking the same thing. Since the seniors have said something, they must be preparing in various ways to protect them. This level could be viewed as aegyo.
2pm.
I was already an hour late, but it was ok. There are still 10 hours left in a day. In fact, it was the happiest day that the senior promised, because every moment with the senior on a good day like this was the beginning of the happiest day for Mew.
3:30 pm.
Mew sat down on the bench around that time. Slowly, I started to worry about my seniors. The sadness that slowly creeped in was behind the scenes. I was hungry, but it was bearable. Because I was going to have dinner with my senior today.
I was going to ask him to put food in his mouth using his birthday as an excuse. Thinking of the cute senior’s face, who would hesitate to ask for shame, already brought out laughter. survived it
5pm.
I endured it for a while, but after quite a while, it sagged somehow. no no no no At the same time, I was genuinely worried. Maybe something really happened. The senior would not have been the type of person to break his promise like this.
Yeah, obviously something must have happened. How would you know if you were trying to put together your clothes in front of the closet and then got caught on the hem of your clothes, slipped and fell, and then hit your head on the edge of a bookshelf? … Mu thought that the possibility was the greatest.
I tried to get up from my seat. Then, it was because it was a big deal if I had a conflict with a senior who arrived late. So I just stayed still.
7:00 pm.
It was cold.
8 p.m.
… … senior. when are you coming
9:30 p.m.
He sat on the bench, hugging his knees. I didn’t want to think about anything.
10 pm.
10:30 p.m.
11 p.m.
it was present
“… … ”
senior will come
will definitely come
He was not the senior to leave himself like this.
Even if he came late, there must have been a circumstance. Rather, because he thought it would be too late, Mew was worried that something serious had happened to him.
However, after two hours, that feeling was scattered like dust and disappeared.
The sky turned black, and the footsteps of people passing by the square decreased significantly. Mew, who was left crumpled on the bench in front of the fountain in the square, squatted quietly for another hour.
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t expect much. Otherwise, it would not have been possible to dress up so beautifully and come out.
I don’t have a particular fashion sense, but that’s why I got direct coordination through my roommate who was stuck in the dormitory even on weekends. Seeing the finished mu, the roommate raised his thumb without saying a word.
I also thought it was decorated very nicely. I thought that a senior who saw himself would be ashamed on the inside, even if he didn’t show his face on the outside.
He was also wearing a scarf with memories of his seniors. At first, I only held it in my hand, but as it got colder, I wrapped it around my face. That was probably about five hours later.
okay.
It was such a long time… …
Mew, empty of thought, remained silent for a while.
And it felt like 30 minutes had passed.
Bump, Bump… …
Why, well.
I knew a lot about a person, and there were things that I came to know naturally when I was with them for a long time. The sound of footsteps was one of them. It was a bit slow, but Mew could somehow recognize his identity.
So there was nothing to say.
I pretended not to know.
The sound of someone’s footsteps caught in Mu’s particularly developed sense of humor. He was walking from afar, and suddenly he started running. Even so, the beating sound was a bit irregular, and the unnatural gait seemed like something strange.
Mew heard the footsteps in her ear, but still did not raise her head.
could not hear I didn’t want to hear it.
It was really absurd though.
The face of your favorite senior… … I didn’t want to see it now.
bruise.
Finally.
When it stopped in front of me.
“… … music.”
“… … ”
when you utter that word.
Mew burst into tears for a moment.
“… … It’s very late. Sorry.”
“… … ”
It was very late.
A lot of.
… … very, very
“… … Something happened.”
it would have been
‘Cause I finally got here
Because you came to keep your promise.
… … Is it right to keep it, promise?
“… … What is the matter, huh?”
It was because he hadn’t spoken for a while.
Or was it that the feelings he was feeling right now were mixed and mixed with his voice and eventually split up?
It was a cold voice that was surprisingly cracked.
it’s the case what was it
If he had hit his head against the edge of the bookshelf as he thought he would, he should have been in the temple, not the square by now. But the senior arrived at the square without hesitation.
It’s just past 11 o’clock on the night of the full moon. His birthday was less than an hour away… It had finally arrived.
Other circumstances are difficult to recall.
what was it
How important was it, even after making such a promise that he would surely make his birthday a happy one, was it too late? …
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t hate it.
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t sad.
However, those feelings were also directed towards the senior that Mew loved so much.
So, whatever the circumstances. Mew thought that all those sad feelings would be resolved after a sincere apology from the senior and raising his head to meet the senior’s face.
The truth is, even if those old feelings seem to last a little while, there must have been something unavoidable even as a senior.
It was probably not intentionally broken to break the promise I made with myself, so it would be okay if it was something that Mew could understand even after hearing it. That was enough.
However.
In the end, Mew didn’t hear everything.
“… … Rubia——”
It was a short word.
1 year.
The period I dated with my senior has already become like that.
It must have been two years since we started dating.
for those two years.
The name of the person who was sitting alone in an area so far away that he, who wanted everything from his senior, could never touch.
… … Today is.
as of today.
I didn’t want to hear from the old man’s mouth.
The name of a person I didn’t even want to think about.
It came out as the first word of a conversation with a senior on my birthday.
At that moment.
“under.”
tuk.
Something broke in Mew’s heart.
“… … Stop it, now.”
For the first time that day, Mu dared to embrace his feelings for his senior, anger and bitterness.
In any case, I was able to understand.
But, by the way… …
this was not
it was absolutely not
why.
I have to hear that name up to here.
Today was a day just for you and me.
But why… …
Again, that person is interfering.
In the end, no matter what I did, I was in a position that I could not reach, but it was only my will to continue to connect with the senior despite all that, so I haven’t been able to express any dissatisfaction with the senior.
from the beginning.
Because I started with my own selfish heart.
After chasing after a senior who refused to approach him, he might have entered his heart to become his own substitute.
It was a relationship that started knowing all about it.
Even so… …
Mew began to vomit up the rising sorrow.
However,
The direction is a bit wrong.
“… … That’s the way the seniors look, so the unnie had no choice but to hate them.”
“… … !”
——I really thought it was crazy.
No, mu.
you shouldn’t say this
Knowing what kind of efforts the senior has put in until now. You were the one who watched it the most. You should never underestimate the efforts of your seniors. As much as you, no one else.
And the harsh words that directly touched the wounds that made the seniors work so hard… … There was nothing more to be said.
But the words that have already been spit cannot be taken back.
Emotions aren’t something you can control.
Especially, the more severe it was, the more it would grow out of control once it was vomited, and it was impossible to stop until it was completely empty when everything inside was taken out.
The young trembling in his voice gradually deepens.
I don’t want to.
It had to be like this.
To the point that he became disgusted with himself, Mew began to speak harshly, without even listening to the details of his senior, just tinged with sorrow and anger.
“Who was it that loved someone like you? Like a senior, I loved you with all my heart… … ”
“… … ”
You’re like a senior.
It was Mew who actually loved that person.
I fell in love with such a person, and I gradually fell in love with everything about that person, so to Mew, the senior was more lovely than any other man.
To a senior who loves you so much.
——“Something like a senior”.
Aside from his sorrow, he should never do that… … It was clear that it was going to hurt him for the rest of his life.
The first thing I confessed to my senior was myself.
It is true that I loved him deeply.
The senior didn’t come first.
It was an act of his own will and will that gave him enough love to make it burdensome.
It was wrapped up in selfish, selfish words, as if to use it favorably, as if to receive a proper reward for it, and spit it out without intellect.
But I couldn’t stop.
“But still, I am not interested in anything like that, and again, again, again… … Also, is that your sister? What the hell happened to that Rubia? I, I… Is that older sister more precious than me, the older sister I haven’t talked to in nearly two years? It’s not too much. This can’t be right, senpai. I, today, how much… … ”
“… … ”
suddenly.
Mu’s lips twisted.
Even more irreversible, Mew walked.
“What more should I do? How much more do I have to love my senior here so he can take good care of me? Yeah? Please stop. It’s time to stop. It wasn’t supposed to be like today. ——But why the hell?! why! why… ! Does that person come all the way here? It will make a happy day that will last a lifetime. It’s the worst, this… ! Please stop!”
did evil shouted
My heart was beating violently. His whole body was covered in scorching heat, and tears fell in the middle of his buried head.
The harsh words that come out over and over are pouring out like a bombardment towards the invisible senior.
“If he had been such a precious friend to her, then he would have accepted the confession! But it wasn’t! I wish it was so muddy that I couldn’t forget it in this shape, even now… ! It’s clear that everything is falling… … ! So now is the time to give up. It can’t be me, I just have to forget that, what is so precious? It must have been that the older sister had already forgotten her senior. Do you think it’s really good to miss you so much, to never forget you, to be alone? It’s time to stop and look at me, okay? senior… … ”
If only the seniors valued it so much.
Memories with that older sister must have been something that I would never forget. Mew knew it too.
But I got jealous. I couldn’t stand it at all. Because it was something I could never have. How deep was the relationship between Rubia and Ezio, and how often would you miss your senior?
because of such a person.
After all, that person is more important than me.
They interpret the situation as they please, and do not listen to the other person at all. He thought that he had abandoned himself by arbitrarily guessing the circumstances of his senior.
The old man seemed to be still standing there.
I thought I was lucky because I couldn’t see his face. No, I didn’t want to see it, so it was natural. Mew didn’t have the courage to look at the senior’s face and utter these words.
However, he never raised his head because he wanted to vomit out all of his anger. It was selfish.
“I’ve done this until now, but why… ! why! Why can’t I! If not for me, who do you think would have loved a man like you? A senior, a senior, is someone who really doesn’t know much about grace… ? I only looked at seniors. I had no interest in anyone else. Then the senior should look only at me. So that’s fair. No, not normally, but today. For today, the senior should have only looked at me… … !”
be grace I finally got the word out.
No one else, Mew himself took it out.
I’ve done a lot for my seniors. That’s true.
However… …
It was all what he wanted.
The words and actions that Mew said to fill in the gaps, to say that I didn’t have to think about anything when I was with him, and to pound my chest saying that my seniors would always be there for me were all words and actions that Mew himself said and did.
hoping for a reward for that.
I want to repay you. Even if I could hear a little bit of it, it was absolutely not to be mentioned as the right to be deserved like this… …
“Today is… What the hell did you do with her?”
——Stop, you have to stop.
“Did your sister even have an affair with another man? Were you dating someone without your senior? Did you even be late because of the shock when you saw it? Ha, that’s better. Then he would have been able to give up cleanly!”
If your senior has loved you so far that you won’t let go, you shouldn’t say that. The one who inflicts an indelible wound on a senior who has made the wound bigger becomes Mew, that is me.
“Then it happened. It’s all over now. You just had to come back that way and spend time with me. If it were me, I could do it all. Because if it were me, I could have done everything that unnie couldn’t do to seniors? Yeah? Stop being soggy, please… … ”
“… … ”
“I think I’m going to hate seniors like this too. I never, never wanted to hate it, but now I think it really will be.”
“… … Sorry.”
I heard the old man’s voice right in front of me. it’s cracked apart That was kind of good. When the senior said that, it became even more unbearable. I had to feel sorry. It was definitely something to be sorry about. No, I had to apologize to myself more than that.
In that way, Mu was expressing his increasingly intense emotions to the point that he could no longer control it.
A chill came out of Mu’s mouth.
“Don’t apologize.”
“… … ”
“It’s not even serious. After all, that’s why you don’t love me. Then don’t be sorry Just don’t do anything sorry… … Because of you, I have to suffer so much in the future… … ”
“… … ”
“Senior, senior is really… … ”
It’s garbage.
The moment I was about to put those words in.
Mew managed to stop and shut her mouth.
As for the words… …
It felt like I couldn’t take it out.
Even though he didn’t show it on the outside, he purged himself on the inside, and the anger and sorrow that had accumulated and accumulated like a volcano exploded, but the moment he put in direct abusive language, everything seemed to be over.
At that thought, I paused for a moment.
… … not.
It wasn’t.
Actually, it’s all over.
“… … uh, uh… ”
Mew calmed her heart, which had been shaking with excitement, slowly. It was such a strong feeling. After throwing up so much and shed tears, it was only then that he was able to slowly look back on the words he had said.
The tremors that had shaken Mew’s shoulders gradually subsided.
… … me now
What did you say to your senior?
I was thinking like that though.
Mew’s whole body, covered in intense emotions, showed no signs of calming down easily. His vision, blurred by tears, was still shrouded in darkness. His buried head was trembling.
long time. how long has it been
“Ha, ha… … ”
Mew, who was repeatedly exhaling and breathing in.
“… Now it’s done. Whatever the circumstances——”
Whoops.
It was only then that I heard the tears-stained face.
“… … uh.”
That moment.
———Mu’s world stopped for a moment.
“… … uh, huh?”
In the blurry vision, I saw it.
Mew’s eyes, which had no choice but to move their mouths as if they had lost the ability to speak, began to vibrate more violently than that.
“Wait, senior… … ?”
Mu loosened his stiff hands.
instinctively forward.
The cracked voice was directed at him again.
“… … Sorry.”
I don’t know whether to laugh or cry.
The face of my beloved senior… … It was bloody.
Her pale, soft skin had faded to a brittle color, and the hair that covered it was partially wet and dyed dark red.
Mu’s mind went blank.
Why why?
What the hell happened, what happened… …
There was not a single spot on the old man’s body.
The bare skin was all torn and scratched by something, and the senior was barely standing on the floor with a slightly off-balance. However, even standing still was difficult, and I was even trembling.
A few nails were torn off. Underneath it, soft skin is exposed. If a sharp wind blew, it would be very bitter.
An unbroken thread runs through the hole in the blood-stained shirt and pants. The skin inside it was full of scars. The scab had hardened thickly from what had been done.
“Ah, ah, ah… … ”
The smell was not felt well because I was burying my nose in the muffler. bloody sound. mud smell. All of that put together and shook Mew’s head.
The old man’s breathing was intermittent.
A lot of guilt about himself was oozing out of his face, which had been torn by something.
It’s a very heartbreaking sight to see from the point of view of someone who loves a senior… … Mew couldn’t stand it, and even wanted to bite his tongue.
Covering his uglyly distorted face was a muffler covered in dirt. It was clear that the old man had been wearing it since he went out today.
this, this… …
It was hard for Mew to believe the reality he was seeing now.
It was so confusing.
Suddenly, a feeling of suffocation erupted.
It wasn’t the anger I had just poured out, and it wasn’t even the regret for the senior.
I suddenly remember the figure of a senior who would have run in this state from afar, with his whole body shattered, limping his legs.
“Wait, senior… ah… ah ah ah… … ”
dripping, dripping.
The sudden burst of tears did not stop.
Mu’s mind went blank.
The sorrows of the past and what it is, his own birthday and what… … I wondered what it was all about.
As soon as he saw the senior who was dyed red all over, Mew couldn’t say anything. All he had to do was raise his trembling hands and barely move his trembling legs to stand up slowly from the bench.
“It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay… … Will? Senior, senior… ”
“… … Sorry.”
The senior repeated the same apology as if it was broken.
Blue eyes that always sparkled beautifully.
The bright colors faded.
The focus of the eyes was blurred.
But he was definitely looking at himself.
A single streak of tears soaked in blood was shed, and the same words were spoken once again.
“… Sorry. music.”
“Don’t tell me… don’t tell me senior. No, not like this. for a moment. Where, where should I go? Ahhh… … ”
His legs stiffened and he staggered momentarily because he had not moved in the seat for a long time. Mew, who had briefly touched the floor, got up quickly and took a step forward.
“Senior, what happened… What the hell is this… … ”
senior is.
He said with a lost expression.
“… … Rubia was kidnapped… ”
“… … I had no choice but to go. I’m also stuck there… ”
“… … I had to save him.”
“… … I saved you.”
“… … Sorry. I’m very late… ”
I see. It was like that.
“Ahh… … ”
Mew didn’t really listen to anything.
I thought it was just that. The important thing was the fact that you shouldn’t leave your seniors like this. Leading a body that was so wretched like this, where the hell did he come to keep his promise to himself?
Mew was in a terrible mood. It was terrible.
To a senior in this state.
He is… … what are you saying… …
I wanted to scratch my face hard with my nails. I wanted to sit down and scream. Mew was feeling such a painful feeling that his heart would stop right now, enough to want to go back to the dormitory right away and find the rope.
It’s not like this. Now is not the time to be like this.
I have to save my senior.
“Come on, let’s go to the temple. Go to the temple… … ”
It’s late at night, so maybe they didn’t open the door, but well. Mu didn’t have to worry about that. Even if the door was closed, Mew would somehow scream and shout for the senior to be spared.
Mew tried to pick up the senior and lift him up. No, should I take it in my arms and go? How can I listen to my senior so that he doesn’t get sick? Is it okay to move around now? Thousands of thoughts came to my mind and then I fell asleep again.
——To Mew, who is in a huge shock.
Senior, Ezio.
“… … music.”
“Say, don’t tell me… !”
“… … this.”
With a face with a lot of scars drawn on it.
somehow.
While drawing a grim smile as if squeezing it out.
Jusom Jusom.
He pulled something out of the hole in his pocket.
An object held on a trembling palm.
The purple case, which must have been luxurious, was a little dirty with dirt, but after a little cleaning, it would soon return to its original color.
A small square box case.
It was wrapped in a cute ribbon.
“Okay, senpai, quickly——”
Mew didn’t wonder what that was.
just, just… … I wanted to pick up the senior and carry it.
Previously.
Shrek.
Ignoring Mew’s words, Ezio moved his trembling fingers without a word to untie the ribbon knot.
and,
… … click.
Opened its case.
“——!”
Mew put the contents into his eyes in a freeze.
“… Ahh.”
——A sharp nail was pierced into Mew’s chest.
The old man was full of wounds.
It was a full moon.
It was bloody.
Nevertheless, it has been steadfastly maintained.
He suffered such terrible pain that his whole body was crushed, but he was keeping the item in a pocket that would have fallen out if he had just left it.
Come on now.
Now that Mew couldn’t stand the words he couldn’t say to the senior he loved so much.
All that precious value has been lost… …
senior’s sincerity.
It was treasured there.
“… … happy birthday. music.”
On the cushion inside the wide open case——
Two silver rings.
It was shining beautifully in the moonlight.
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Drops of water dripped from Mu’s eyelids.
Usual… …
He was a senior who didn’t want to show that he was a lover.
Inside the academy, I just wanted to look like close seniors and juniors. It was burdensome to receive countless attentions by letting them know that they are lovers.
Even if it wasn’t just that, the senior was probably suffering from various difficulties inside.
Maybe he was shy or didn’t want anyone to know about his relationship, but he was a really shy senior.
such a senior
Ezio-senpai.
It was to buy the couple accessories directly.
“senior… … ”
That means… … It was too big for Mew.
As Mew once said.
I hope they are closely connected with each other.
As a senior who is graduating soon, even if senior and Mew are always far apart… …
The senior will always remember him.
and.
yourself… …
I totally accept it as a lover.
With such a sincere coupling.
We were going to spend the day together.
“Ahh… … ”
… … I do not know the heart of such a senior.
For some reason, he was so late, and with what kind of determination he came back to this square where he was supposed to meet with himself.
Mu doesn’t know anything.
No, I didn’t even want to know… … He has made irreversible speech mistakes to his beloved senior.
–match!
from the moment I realized that.
Mew slapped his cheek hard.
–match! match! match! match!
once.
twice.
third time.
four times.
A slap on the cheek echoed in the quiet square.
–match! match! match! match!… …
Mew slapped herself on the cheek and cried. It was close to fever. Until his pretty face was scratched, swollen and red, and the wound opened and blood spattered.
I remembered the old adage that I would never make my seniors hard or hurt. never, and forever. He added the words, and promised to stick his chest out like that.
But now it’s something.
They had to be punished for not keeping their promises.
The burning pain that I felt on my face right now was really insignificant compared to Mew’s terrifying heart.
–match!
When Mew slapped himself on the cheek once more.
“… … Don’t do that, Mew.”
“… … Whoa, whoa. Whoa… ”
“… … Now, that’s it. I… Sorry.”
Mew cried and cried again.
In the middle of a quiet square, he bent his head toward the sky and cried so sadly that he could only hear Mew’s cry.
bump…
Ezio slowly approached Mu.
Because it was right in front of me, I stumbled.
cuckoo.
He opened his arms and hugged Mew.
“… … Sorry, I did. music.”
“Uhhh… … ”
“… … Everything, it’s my fault. So… … ”
The old man gently closed his eyes.
I felt a small body full of cold wounds.
I need to pick up the senior and take him to the temple right now. I couldn’t quite stop crying. Mu could not come to his senses in the burst of intense emotions that exploded in succession.
However, so… …
A senior whose body and mind are broken.
He whispered softly in his ear.
“… … Stop it, everything.”
at the end of that one word.
Ezio quietly passed out, closing his eyes.
Damn poor guy 😞
Holy shit.