#3
Stella de Feltline.
I don’t know much about her.
I’m the same age as me, and the Princess of the Felt Line family of the Solar Empire, is that all there is to it?
Except for the external parts, such as her hair shining brightly like the stars in the night sky, as if pure silver was melted and woven with thread, she knew nothing about the status of her family.
It was the first time I had ever heard of the surname Feltline. It was really questionable. If it was a duke of an empire that wasn’t a country on the continent, wouldn’t it be a tycoon among tycoons? It was a very different existence from the quality of my birth.
The fall of the family and the lack of interest in other aristocratic families may also play a role, but I think the biggest factor is living in a rural area where there is little contact with the nobles as a child.
The empire located at the center of the continent is large and wide. The population alone is as numerous as the grains of sand on the sandy beach. Therefore, the number of nobles is also distributed quite a bit.
Look, I’m not the only aristocrat right now.
… collapsed though.
Anyway, inside the Frontier, the meaning of the class given from birth was fading, but it was impossible to change all the backgrounds in which a person grew up to be the same.
Stella was overflowing with aristocratic dignity in every action and gesture, and her very existence was an elegant person.
Even if she didn’t say it herself or no one asked, she instinctively sensed the blue blood flowing through Stella’s body.
At the same time, she was not jealous or envious of the ugly life of her who must have grown up in gold, but she was revealing her graceful personality so that she could only look at her with admiration and awe… … .
But if you were an aristocrat, you would have received a miscellaneous education in social arts from an early age. Why are you so shy? He seems to cover his face too much.
I was skeptical, but if I had such a personality by nature, I could understand it easily.
Above all, being a high-ranking noblewoman did not necessarily mean that she had to use standardized social skills.
He’s so shy only in the frontier, and who knows if his image will change drastically when he goes to work for the family. no one knows
comprehensively.
It was just the two of us in the same room with Stella.
As you know, in the Epic Class dormitory rules, there was a really regrettable item ‘If you ask the other party’s consent, you can enter the dormitory of the opposite s*x’. So there was absolutely no problem with the rules.
Stella agreed, and now it’s time to go. It wasn’t very difficult. It’s very easy.
It’s an easy thing to say.
Common sense, no, let’s think about it in a general sense. It had only been over a week since I entered Frontier.
In the meantime, the only contact with Stella was once or twice at a restaurant and a few times in the same lecture. We haven’t even talked to each other in a while.
To be precise, Stella would have shriveled up in front of me, but nonetheless, the only thing we knew about each other was that we had nothing to offer except names and ages.
and… It’s a bit like that, I guess.
Going into the dormitory where the opposite s*x lives at night? The water level signal inside me is sounding the alarm.
Of course, there was absolutely no arguing that it was never intended to go in with any other impure intentions, but it is questionable whether the people around us will think that way just because we are just having a purely academic exchange.
If anyone can see me stepping into Stella’s room honestly… … There were only a few students here, so it took three days for all the rumors to spread.
Maybe even faster than that.
Gabriel’s laughter at the hearing of the rumor seemed to come all the way up to here.
… So, why is it Stella’s room?
It wasn’t entirely my will.
The act of stepping into the extremely personal space of someone I’ve just met, and of a clear reason, was out of line with me.
Then whose suggestion and will was it?
Who am I or who am I? It wasn’t because someone else interrupted me and threw it away like, “Can’t we just study in the room?”
There is only one person left by the extinction method.
Of course it’s Stella.
It also informs you of the contents of the last class, and Stella, after recommending a tutoring place as her room, was shy and kept quiet for a long time, then slowly lifted her eyes and told me that.
There are things you want to say to me, and there are things you want to show me. So, he said he wanted to stop by his room for a while to study and talk with him.
I still don’t know what it is.
However, I had a strong foreboding that Stella, who had shown a strange reaction only to me since the beginning of school, would probably tell the truth about the reason for her questionable behavior only today.
Is that a good feeling or a bad feeling?
It also knows nothing.
“… … ”
together.
I didn’t even expect anything. I didn’t even think of the fluttering excitement that would bloom between me and Stella.
That’s because nothing was sorted out.
More than the lecture content I’ve already missed.
There was something much more important.
… … I shouldn’t be rushing through it like this now, so I had to approach it first and ask for a conversation.
A heterogeneous sense of disparity between my memory and my current psychology.
As I lay still in bed and look up at the ceiling, I feel a sense of emptiness as if somewhere in my heart is empty.
A sense of loss sprouted from the fact that he had heard from a member of the Diet and realized it only through the answer he got from the unanswered Mu, and lost what he had originally.
Even if he tries to treat him as kindly as he used to, for some reason he hesitates for a moment before acting.
On reflection, it was clearly not my will. Perhaps, not the present me, but the past me instinctively feels rejected. Because I was avoiding them in my memory.
I did so they cried. They made me uncomfortable, they wanted to talk openly, and they wanted to apologize to me.
However, any desperate expressions and words of apology did not seem to reach me. I drew a line thoroughly, and the wall was firmly erected to prevent it from going any further.
That was it. Even though I couldn’t empathize, I was able to understand and predict the psychology of that time because it was me and no one else.
… … The taste was bitter.
I look down at my smooth hands.
Hands that are not decorated with anything.
If everything really went smoothly, I couldn’t see the silver ring that should have been on my ring finger. I didn’t even know if it really existed anywhere in the world.
finally.
… The promise with Mew was not kept.
I already had the intuition that something big had happened to me, to the point where they cried and cried and knelt down in the corner of my head.
But I don’t remember it at all.
What process did I go through to become this body, what happened between me and them, and why did I treat the women who wanted a sincere apology and an opportunity to have a conversation with them.
I can’t think of anything.
I thought it was serious.
If there are any misunderstandings, it would have been better if they could be resolved as soon as possible, and all the emotions that had been lingering since I could see your face in the future were all sorted out.
Why couldn’t he?
How much pain I had.
Even after overcoming all of the lack of talent, poor body, and environment that had been fundamentally tormenting me, I still couldn’t face them directly and just curled up and hid alone.
Suddenly, the hand I looked down at was trembling lightly.
… … actually.
I feel a little afraid.
If the moment came when this feeling of loss was to be refilled, then it was likely that I would not be able to make the same determination as I do now.
So.
So that you won’t regret it in the future.
When the opportunity came, I had to seize it.
… … if not god
You can’t create something that doesn’t exist.
However, there were times when I had to do it when I couldn’t. My daily life in middle school was filled with such moments.
desperate struggle to live. Maybe it’s worse than that, a groan.
It was just a series of worthless efforts like scraps of trash that no one noticed and had no need for, a lowly and inferior body and mind.
That was all I was with Ezio Cranil.
… There was one person who loved me like that.
There was a former lover of mine who devoted all of herself and devoted herself deeply, but in the end, cherished unrequited love, and went dry and exhausted.
She was very close now.
But it was getting farther away.
So like this.
before you go any further.
before it becomes more irreversible.
… I had to forgive them even for lying.
#4
Tit— Tit—… …
Before receiving tutoring from Stella, I went out of the dormitory to have dinner.
Early evening when dusk was walking slowly. The cool spring breeze lightly brushed my bangs.
The seniors who filled the park with vivid energy from broad daylight returned to their daily lives. As I entered the park, which was quiet enough to hear the birds chirping the loudest, the loud noises seemed to be heard as hallucinations.
But that too ended in an instant.
As I was walking in the middle of an empty park, the eyes of seniors in the distance slowly gathered around me.
Probably because the rumors spread.
When I overheard frontier students whispering on the tram, it seemed that not only me but also Elena-senpai were there.
He appeared like a hero at the scene of the incident and saved me from jumping from the top of a burning building to survive. Again, I had no memory.
There… I’m honestly skeptical about this, but there was some kind of crazy sound going around implicitly that I had a fight with Elena-senpai-senpai with a whistle, who saved me while holding a shiny, elongated object through a hole in the ground and sky.
what kind of bullshit is this
But it seems that there are a few students around who have actually seen it. Why the hell are you here?
I still didn’t believe it. Even if you don’t remember it, it’s not a little… …
Once I pick up the certain facts I know, it seems that I was right at the scene of the terrorist attack. I don’t know exactly what floor it is, but it’s true that I jumped off a high floor as if diving.
Besides, I had gone to see Professor Nadielli in District 4. According to the results announced by the headquarters, Professor Nadielli was the culprit behind all the incidents.
When I first heard it, I couldn’t believe it at all.
… … Professor Nadielli?
really?
I still remember Nadieli’s gentle smile. What’s more, that exceptionally prominent… … You don’t have to remember that, anyway.
Even in the first regular class after orientation, he showed a very kind and gentle personality, so it was hard to believe that Nadielli was the culprit, but the situation and the result pointed to only one answer.
So, given the circumstances, something must have been done to me in the name of research cooperation.
… … what do you mean
The world was so scary.
It’s not new to me anymore, but what’s even scarier than monsters is the same human being.
Anyway, it seems that rumors about me are spreading widely in the Epic class as well. So there were quite a few seniors who recognized me during the day.
Look, it’s still far away, and it’s running fast towards me, isn’t it?
… … Uh, you’re running?
“Aaah!”
Open your arms wide and jump over here. At first glance, a bright smile spread across his face. I hesitated for a moment and stepped back.
should it pop? when i thought
Whether it was an epic class, it really arrived in front of me in the blink of an eye. In other words, he failed to escape.
The end of the pink cardigan over the uniform fluttered in the wind. His long reddish-brown hair also swayed excitedly in the forward direction of the wind.
The old man who ran, panting.
“I, you know me? I spoke to you during the day!”
Helele smiled, pointing at herself with one hand on her lap.
How come you don’t even say hello?
“… Hello, Raylin-senpai.”
The chest, hidden by the cardigan, probably had three stars on it.
Epic Class 3rd year Raylin Iona.
I was one of the seniors who approached me during the day in the name of promoting the circle, and was the president of the fashion circle Masterpiece.
“You remember me! pleased. hee hee.”
Hearing a sigh, Raylin quickly continued.
“Where are you going now? are you going to eat? Would you like to eat with us? No, would you like to eat together with me?”
Four questions were put in one sentence.
Let’s go eat. Yes. no. Nor is it. I should have answered four times to be fair, but I dismissed it briefly.
“I am going to eat alone today. sorry.”
“Eh… … ”
Raylin let out a sigh with a shocked face.
“I eat alone… … ? Aren’t you lonely?”
“Not at all?”
On the contrary, sometimes it is more convenient.
Active people like Raylin have a kind of unique sensibility that they probably won’t understand for the rest of their lives… …
“… right? Wouldn’t two be better than one though? I was also on my way to lunch. huh? let’s eat together. Let’s talk a little bit about the group activities.”
“No, why are you here?”
Raylin snuggled up next to me.
As it was, I put my hand between my arm and the waistband and put it close together, then folded my arms.
Because the material of the cardigan is so soft, the soft feel is clearly felt.
When he tilted his head down, there was Raylin’s face in front of his nose. A scent that seemed to make you feel drowsy if you continued to smell it tickled the back of your nose.
“I am interested in you.”
“… yes?”
Ignoring my question, Leilin patted my arm with a loving gaze. Long, slender fingers, painted with light black nail polish, wrap around my arm like a snake.
“You deserve to be the vice president of our circle. These solid forearms, bamboo-like height, clothes and proportions that make the line come alive just by wearing a uniform… … Let’s usher in a new era of imperial fashion with me. Throwing away the old-fashioned, flashy outfits, we are leading the fashion of the Empire. With you, it is definitely possible!”
okay.
He was a very difficult type of person.
I had a bit of trouble removing it during the day, but here again, it was very difficult.
“Well, I’m not really interested in that… … ”
“it’s okay! Let’s think while eating rice together! You still don’t know your possibilities. I’ll tell you from one to ten slowly. I can say no at that time, so can’t you give me a little time? huh? ok?”
“no… … He seems to have a party too.”
Raylin said, ‘Would you like to eat with us?’ did you say
Unsurprisingly, as soon as Reilin found me, she broke out of the group and shouted excitedly that we should have dinner together.
Leilin, on the other hand, tilted her head.
“yes? Is something wrong? You and I can eat together.”
is that so
I thought it was something disrespectful, but it didn’t seem like there was anything wrong with this person. People who fly outside rather than inside are like this… If so, was I still lacking for a long time? …
Bright eyes look up at me. Pretty eyes dyed in a color similar to the evening glow. As the burdensome gaze directed me in a straight line, the power of Reilin, who tightly wrapped and tightened my arm, grew stronger.
sigh comes out Raylin raised her hand to loosen her arms, and I pushed her arm and gently retreated to the side.
“No, please eat with your friends today. And I’m really sorry, but I would like to refrain from doing this kind of behavior in the future… … ”
“Are you going to keep doing that?”
“… Yes?”
Kwok.
As if he would never allow his arms to come loose, he clings to me with the momentum to make his whole body tight, and speaks in a wet voice.
“If that’s the case, I’m really upset. I mean it with all my sincerity. My circle, new members come in every time, but they leave right away, so it’s a crisis of closure. Everyone’s not interested in clothes, they’re just thinking about playing… … There are only three members including me. Still, I think I’ll be really happy if you come in. You won’t even have to quit, and if you’re with you, Ezio, you’ll enjoy the taste of being active every day. You won’t have to give up on your dreams… … ”
Anxiety figures were piercing the sky.
Why on earth do the women around me cry so easily? It goes beyond simple sniffling and even weeping. It’s a bone really… …
It must have sounded that it was desperately needed to show this kind of affection, but unfortunately it wasn’t.
He said that believing in a woman’s tears in the world is like poison to know and drink. Tears are especially dangerous when things don’t work out the way you want them to.
… … It is, though. I know it well though.
I hate myself for not being able to shake it off even though I know it.
“It’s me, Raylin-senpai. that is… … ”
Of course, I was going to say no.
He said it was okay to say no after hearing it once, so I was wondering if it would be ok to give him some time later, if not today.
“Please stop, sir.”
bruise. widely.
Short footsteps rang out.
Soon after, the arm link between me and Reilin was forcibly released by the two hands that suddenly appeared.
“Uh, huh?”
We both looked forward at the same time.
The beautiful girl with long black hair, who widened the gap between us with her arms wide open, quietly opened her mouth with a soft smile.
“Isn’t my friend in trouble?”
fresh.
If you say it openly and coldly, it won’t look cheap. I’m talking with a Yuhan smile. It seemed like that kind of inner heart was heard, but… …
In my eyes, it looked more terrifying.